SUNDAY

7:44 AM
Oh,

Goodness. Yeah. I’m just

Just in my room. It’s

Dark. Because It’s raining outside and Thunder. And lightning and it woke me up.

I don’t have to get up until 10:00.

Or so. I have to be at work at noon.

Well, you know, actually before noon I have to clock in haha.

And then I get to work for about 4 hours, they’re testing some equipment or something. And that’s going to be okay, because I’m getting paid for 8.

I woke up feeling kind of sad, but

It went away. I made my other blog private and it’s going to stay that way for a while. I don’t know, I have a complicated relationship with social media.

Yeah.

I’m not as popular as I used to be and sometimes it bugs me.

I’m an Enneagram type 4.

Yeah, it’s like

I’m basically retarded haha. Haha. Yeah, it’s like if I don’t feel important, I feel worthless. It’s 1 or the other. And I used to not be like that, I used to not give A lizards dick about fucking any of that shit. And really I guess I don’t it’s just you get used to it and then it feels like there’s something wrong with you. When it’s not like it used to be. Why don’t people care about my stuff anymore? What did I do? Well, that’s

Not really my fault, because

Like Facebook is fucking stupid.

It used to be a lot better and

In different ways, you know, now it’s like reels And um, a lot of that stuff is so dumb. And this stuff people post I get a lot of uh crap from like sponsored links and just shit. I don’t have any idea what it is but it pops up in my news feed. And of course you know, it’s like it’s so stupid, I click on it because it’s like what is this bullshit? And then people comment.

The most.

Oh, it just hurts my brains how Ignorant people are and it’s like if it’s so,

It’s everywhere. It’s crazy. And it kind of makes me sad. It’s like, wow.

I’ll give you an example though that this was pre like, you know, all that dumb shit. I mean, not too much. Facebook was still happening.

But people have always been like that. And um, an example of this is

Back when the tornadoes in 2011, I was out in the middle of this stuff because I was a generator technician, and my biggest

Customer base was uh, chicken Farmers poultry Farms, you know, and uh, Power was out everywhere. So I had to travel a lot. And people would be like lined up for hours and hours, waiting on gas at the gas stations, you could literally Drive 30 minutes.

In another town and not wait. Okay. I think it was When was It was 2012 yeah, when the first time the Mega Millions, got up to a half a billion dollars. And uh, Off the interstate, the fucking gas stations were just slammed. I mean, it was ridiculous. People were standing in line for hours hours, and hours lined up around the fucking store or outside of the store. And I mean, you couldn’t Park, you know, people were parking in other parking, lots to go into gas stations to stand in line and wait for lottery tickets. 10 minutes up the road. Nothing, you could just drive. 10 minutes up the fucking road, and it wasn’t Right off the interstate.

Haha, you know, and just go in like normal and get a lottery ticket like nothing was going on

And that.

Is scary.

To me in a lot of ways because people are just ridiculous.

I spaced out thinking about all this. So, I don’t really, you know, it’s like, It’s not my fault. Yeah, I shouldn’t feel bad that, you know. A lot of it, I think the algorithms and stuff on Facebook isn’t

You know.

Well, for example. I posted a video. The first video I posted in a long time on my Main Facebook account. Uh, it got over a thousand views in a couple of days. And then the last few Things I posted. You know, I think 1 of them just has gotten over 300 views and it took about a week. Yeah, or something. It’s taken. You know, at least 4 or 5 days. I don’t remember when I posted them and like my Tik Tok. I don’t ever use Tik Tok anymore. For this reason too because The first like 3 videos I posted got about a thousand and then the last couple of things I’ve posted, I don’t even think have gotten a 100 yet. It’s stupid.

And I don’t really care to figure any of that out.

You know, I just don’t

Hopefully, I can get a car soon and I can get back on my music and like getting out and Performing and stuff. Again, I was starting to really pick up with that. Something always happens and sidetracks. You know, my fucking shit. Last year. It was all the stuff I was having to deal with. From my mom. And uh, that was hard

You know.

And then I just got sucked into working that warehouse job, until they cut our hours. And then I got, you know, my car repossessed

But I did, I worked on music a little bit yesterday, I think. I talked about that. And yeah, I did, you know, I’m just, I’m really out of practice again.

You know it doesn’t take me long to get back in shape a couple of weeks of regular practice. I’m fine and then you know I’m okay until I don’t practice for a month or 2 and then it’s like oh yeah back out of shape again and That’s been the, you know, kind of a

The thing for the last, Couple of years.

Sure is raining.

I hope today goes pretty well.

I mean, it should, it should be pretty easy. That’s the thing. It’s just

Showing up really.

God, I’m hungry.

I’ve got some jumbo liya. It’s this Jumbo.

Jambalaya.

Yeah, thanks. Um,

In a can. And I think I actually have another can Downstairs.

That’s 2. And then I have another Can of the, Spicy pork stew. I did not eat that last night. I ate a sandwich.

I have enough bread for about 3 sandwiches.

I have 4. Things of those like the little cup of ramen. Oh, but this, the spicy hot beef. Yeah.

My favorite. Stuff is spicy. That’s 1 thing. I don’t ever really have a lot of problems. Um, a lot of people eat spicy foods. It gives them problems. I, I don’t. That doesn’t happen to me. I’ve never had heartburn unless I’ve drank like way too much fucking liquor or something.

I love the rain.

I love crazy weather.

And I love Sundays. Yeah.

Probably my all-around favorite day of the week is Sunday. It’s just

It’s different.

Well, you know what? I’m going to try and go back to sleep. I’m going to edit this and then try to go back to sleep for an Hour or something, I don’t know. Yeehaw.

Thank you.

Please.