8:42 PM
Oh,
Well, I got done with my adventure. It’s It’s time to go to sleep.
Almost, I guess, haha.
You know, like for real, I do I get really like I get strung out working and stuff and I miss my kids.
I miss my kids more than anything. It hurts.
So much.
Other than that though,
I’m fine.
I like being a weird crazy asshole.
In a lot of ways because nobody understands it. And when people really get to know me, they realize that hey, I’m okay.
But I am. Really different.
And I do. Wish I had a girlfriend, but
Jesus help. That’s,
I mean, it’ll happen eventually it’s kind of funny though like
There was this chick, I used to, uh, she was my neighbor when I lived in the apartment complex, with Mom. She lived in the floor, Under me and she was a lot younger than me too.
And uh, I don’t know. She was a Christian and all that stuff. I saw a lot of things with her not Working out whatsoever.
But she really liked me. Yeah, I would sit up on the balcony and play banjo. And all the cars would honk and people would wave. And
I’m really not that worthless or stupid not when it comes to Art and music and stuff, I’m
Still a complete anomaly, but
I’m really good at what I do when I’m feeling good. I just when I get depressed and I get sad and stuff, I can’t do much of anything. I can only create and perform when I’m Happy. Yeah, or like something on the upswing, you know, not
Sad and down in the fucking dirt.
Seriously though.
Well tomorrow I get to help my roommate clean up the garage. Probably I get to clean up the garage with her. Bossing me around. And that’s fine.
I’m going to get I’ll probably walk to the store or something Sunday and get some extra food. Probably get my roommate to take me by Walmart because I like beef sticks. They only have at Walmart.
Lots of stuff, right? Yeah. It’s going to be okay.
I’ll probably not drink the rest of the weekend. It’s just
I had a really long week.
I really, really like my job. I almost would say I love it.
And not everybody feels that way. Like the people, there’s like we have team leads and group leads and stuff, and they’re all pretty much. We’re all in the same boat there. But there’s a Little, quite a few people who are who are just like this is the worst.
Fucking Job I ever had. And, um, Honestly though, you have to be a special kind of crazy to work.
In like Manufacturing. Repetitive over and over and over shit. I mean you just it chicken plants.
Car factories. Car part factories.
All that stuff. It’s like you have to be
A little nuts to work in a factory and to thrive in that environment. But it’s really not that bad. It’s actually In my case, you know, I space out I get to where I can do the work. Uh, in my sleep. Basically, you know on autopilots, I don’t have to think about it, I get to where I can do it like that and then I just Detach completely and that’s where I make. Up my best songs, I come up with my best stuff, music ideas, art ideas, all that shit. Everything
When I work at a factory or a processing, any kind of repetitive, you know, work facility.
It’s magical for me and I love that. And I have
I do my very best to have an upbeat positive attitude and it’s gotten better. I tried so hard like to get to into this place that I’m at now. And this dude was telling me today is like, man, I wish everybody had your fucking attitude. It’s like yeah. When I worked at the warehouse, that’s like 90% of why they hired me, was my upbeat positive attitude. It’s like you’ve got the best attitude of anyone we’ve ever seen. And I do, and it’s fun. Yeah, it really is.
It it’s funny though like I was talking to this guy, he’s a team lead and he’s like probably all around the best 1 and I was like yeah you know I get to space out and make up songs run around like a crazy person. I get exercise and there’s a whole bunch of pretty girls that I can you know look at any that you know, you can look at up here.
But I’ll never talk to them and he laughed and he was like, yeah, that’s right. It’s like, yo. Yep, I will never talk to any chicks.
Anywhere in a workplace. It’s like for real. No way. And there are, there are quite a few who are just absolutely the just the cutest little ladies ever, but no, Nope. Nope. Because the drama that goes with the shit and, you know, it’s I have a horrible track record. Anyways,
I mean 1 except 1 in all the factory jobs I’ve ever worked at. And that’s the Twin Flame chick. And that’s it, like the rest of them, it’s like, you know, you’re beautiful but You don’t understand and it’s not worth. I cannot. Absolutely will not get mixed up in. Another 2-month bullshit relationship.
It’s going to take a very, very, very special. Kind beautiful.
Sweet lady to make me not single again. I know it’s like I can’t I’m not. There’s just a lot of shit. I’m not going to put up with, I’m not going to put up with some lady fucking with my head. Or being mean to me in any capacity. Because they’ll never do any better than me as far as Love Goes.
I will make them things make up songs about everything for them, like all that shit, but I have not
I just don’t think I’ve met number 7 yet. If she, I mean she exists somewhere. But if I’ve met her yet, I don’t know it. And I can’t imagine who it would be, if I have.
But it’s a
Big World out there I said yeah like who knows? You know, I might be single for another year or 2 at least, who cares?
I just, uh,
I don’t know, like I’ll be all down in this shit. Like I was in the last big post I made but then it’s like, man, you know, the upswing of that.
It’s uh,
Get a grip motherfucker, you know, I don’t like to stop being a whiny piece of shit.
Yeah, I can suck.
Life can just fucking suck ass. You can be really sad but then you know that doesn’t last forever and then you get to be happy again.
At least content. Or comfortable with what you have.
And when that happens, it’s great.
I have a lot to be thankful for, I’m not homeless, I have money. I don’t have a car but that won’t last forever. I just miss my kids.
I’ll say that forever until I get to see them on a regular basis. I mean, they’re the best people ever made.
It just kills me not to see them, at least every like at least once a week, you know, it’s horrible.
And I don’t care about anything else for real.
What else can I say? I had. A lot of fun playing Neverwinter.
Nights. And I got my fucking gnome. Up to level 12. And I’ve been just slaughtering fucking ogres like Pigs.
Or something easy. I don’t know. They’re not they don’t put up much of a fight anymore.
I’ve got to get on the forums and stuff and it’s a really cool. Uh, server that I’ve became a part of
I’m really happy about that.
Yep.
Um, but I think I’m just going to pass the hell out. I’m going to finish. I’ve got
Yep. A little bit of this. I bought 3. Long Island iced teas and I wish I had 1 more, but I’m kind of glad I don’t. I’m going to finish this. It’s not much left of the third 1 and then I am going to pass out and probably not wake back up. Until later
I don’t know, but I have to get Busy on cleaning the garage out around 9 or 10 in the morning.
Oh, who are you on? Y’all and I said y’all and
Yawn yawn, yawn yawn, yawn yawn, that’s what I said, yeah, thank you, please.
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