7:36 AM
Oh my goodness.
I do. Yeah, I do start a lot of posts.
Like that. Don’t I?
Well, I don’t know because that’s how I feel. I I I’ll plop down. And in my bed, like I am right now, after work, I’ll get home. I’ll just be like, oh, Oh gosh. Oh my goodness. Oh boy.
This is what a load off, right? Haha
So, um,
Yeah, today it was just a typical
A Monday, I guess it’s Tuesday now but it was Monday when I started work, I overslept I didn’t get a shower or anything. I was just like oh my God, it’s almost 5:00.
So I rolled out of bed and threw my crap on and left.
My roommate was like, are you up? I was but not for long. And then I got a cheeseburger from the cafeteria.
They were pretty good. Yeah, they are pretty good. I got pizza for lunch and french fries, pretty good?
Yeah.
I bought.
I was so hungry after the gym but I only ate 2. Sausage egg and cheese biscuits. Those are so good. It was Pancake Day. Also, but
I didn’t feel like eating pancakes. I felt like Getting alcohol, hahaha. After.
Yeah, not much.
1 of my favorite things to do, though. Is uh, like Saturday, get off work. And if it’s day shift, it’s Friday night, you know. Um, but after work the last day before the weekend, I like to get alcohol. And just get trashed. It helps deal with the stress of the week and then pass out and wake up.
And I feel the last few weekends, I’ve done that. I wake up. Feeling awesome.
That’s right.
The only thing about night shift is, I don’t get a lot of good sleep. I get the best sleep on day shift. Because that’s the normal, you know, world. It’s a first shift world. That’s what a guy named Ray. Told me once at a chicken plant, he was, uh,
Quality assurance. This was at Tyson. The Nice chicken plant. You know, actually. I worked there in 2000 then 2002 and 2003
I got hired on in 2019, that was like,
I had a nervous breakdown.
I’ve only had a, what 3 of those in my whole life. Yeah. Oh the second 1. Was there at Tyson.
Yeah, I just walked out, I don’t know. The the third 1 was the second car factory on my mom’s birthday.
Yeah.
I really need to go to a dentist. I have a tooth that’s been
Oh, it needs fixed. Yeah. Or pulled or something.
My teeth are in pretty good shape though. Yeah.
A lot of stuff about me, is I forget that, you know, it’s like,
Whatever age I’m supposed to be. It really depends on my moods. If I’m happy. Under normal conditions. I’ve got it all the energy in the world, I feel eternal Yeah, if I’m sad or something,
Is going wrong. I’m
A thousand years old. Haha
I don’t know what else to say, like,
My life is.
Thankfully pretty boring. Yeah.
My roommate’s cat went missing, but it came back.
But it came back hurt and I don’t know what happened.
She got hurt a few weeks ago, I think or no.
I don’t know. But
I can’t imagine ever having pets again. Like oh my gosh. Everything I went through with my puppies. You know, with the boat.
Special him. Yeah, especially him and uh I don’t know, like I just I don’t have the emotional. Fortitude anymore. To handle like a pet, like, taking care of it and mashing it with all the love in the universe, and it being my baby. And then all, you know, it lives for
10 years.
And then, I’m just
I can’t handle that again.
Dave lived to be 13 and Gneegnerz, lived to be
12.
Boat lived.
To be 15.
I can’t believe he’s been gone for 3 whole years, but he has This, the end of an era. Yeah, when he died. And it’s like I just can’t, I can’t handle having another pet.
Not anytime soon.
Because I treat. My pets like people. Yeah.
I’m not, I’m not like, you know, Aww little dog little kitty or whatever. I’m like, hey
Dude, you know, at my pets they’re my
My peoples. Yeah.
That’s how I treat animals. I love them.
But seriously like after those 3 after boat, And Dave. And Gneegnerz. Like, I can’t imagine any dog or anything any kind of
Life form. Yeah. Like Ever.
Like that they were as good as it gets you know it’s like they’ll never be I’ll never
That was it for pets. Yeah, for me. Long story short, I don’t know.
I wonder how much longer I have left on this Earth? I was thinking about that tonight. I was like, how?
Much longer. Am I going to be here?
You know, I got the kids, maybe everything will work out. I can get a car this month and get back to seeing them regularly and all that. But then it’s like, you know, how much
Time. Like,
5 relief. I said, I really Just can’t see myself. Living past 50.
Of course, I couldn’t see myself living past 40 and here I am, but it’s like
I don’t know.
I don’t, yeah, don’t get me started on this
World.
Oh,
I say, like,
Sometimes I’ve just had enough. Yeah, it’s like wow. How many?
Because I’ve been here for a really long time.
Yeah.
I don’t know. I was just thinking
Yeah. But in this 1 particular, you know, life. It’s like,
Are things going to get better and stay better. Are they going to get better? Just enough to make me think they’re going to Stay better and then some crazy bullshit is going to happen? Because that’s what.
Ever since the divorce. I mean, that was like it, you know, itself and then it was like,
It’s just been 1 thing after another. So I’m hoping Maybe.
Everything’s going to be okay. And I would though,
I would like yeah, to fall in love 1 last time and it not be a bunch of bullshit.
Like, that’s Just 1 more time. Yeah.
Last time I was in love was
- Yeah. I was.
So, a long time and I’m a
Yeah, a romanticist stop fucking
I’m An idiot. But still, you know, 1 more time just 1
1 more time, please. Thank you.
Please.
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