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4:11 AM
Hello. I just woke up.

Oh my gosh, I was so tired.

Now I feel. Okay.

Thought about going and smoking a cigarette outside.

I need to get a shower.

Slept on my shoulder.

Woke up hurting.

It’s a long story. Yeah, I still haven’t got my shoulder straightened out.

But I will.

It’s Friday. 3-day weekend yeehaw.

I woke up. Just before my alarms went off.

It’s kind of funny.

I had this crazy dream that I was playing music again. With my friends, Brandon and Eric.

You know, that hasn’t happened in 15 years. But I was just thinking about it. I was like, dang.

I don’t ever talk to either 1 of them anymore, but

I don’t know how I saw on Facebook. I was poking around my friends. Eric’s apparently not married anymore. Didn’t see that coming, right? Haha I think they’ve broke up and got back together. A Half a dozen times, like, For real.

The last time they split up was in. 2020, and I moved in over there, Eric talked me into moving in. Over there. Uh, because, you know, they were done. That was it? And I waited for a couple of months to see if they would get back together because they always do. Because, Well.

Well, they have kids together that’s like 1 thing and then uh

Anyways, I was I lived over there like I finally I gave it enough time to where I felt safe that maybe they maybe they’re not going to get back together. And so I moved in about the time, I moved in and got comfortable with it. Like yeah, I live here.

Uh, They got back together. Yeah, it really sucked too. It was like, I was Like me and Eric started doing music again. And he was happy.

You know it was like I was getting my old pal back and then fucking they got back together and he was he Started getting sick again and his Attitude changed again.

I don’t know. I’m not really sure why they ever. Like, Got back together. The first time after the first time that split up, but

I don’t know. I’m not going to go off about that in my blog, but they’re 2 of my best friends, you know. I haven’t talked to them a lot in a while, but

I would have died without Eric and Rosanna after I got divorced.

Yep.

I was just thinking, I don’t know.

I mean, even though I don’t ever talk to them anymore, they both still

You know, they’ll always have a really special place. In my heart.

And then my friend Brandon, I have no idea what he’s doing.

The last couple of times I tried to talk to him, he he didn’t really respond. So I was like, you know, that’s okay.

That’s how it goes. Then I’ve got another old friend who’s actually, like still 1 of my best friends.

Uh, I need to email him back. He emailed me yesterday. He’s he emails me. We email? Yeah. Like like the 90s or something. It’s kind of funny.

But we used to do a lot of music together, too. He’s actually the best musician of all my friends.

And he still does it. Yeah, he’s still doing music. I don’t know. At least the last time uh I talked to him, he was Had a Studio set up and everything, super intelligent. Sensitive guy. Yeah. Like some of the best music I’ve ever heard came from him.

I recorded. A gosh about 7.

Songs. 6 or 7 songs. Back in like, 2009.

https://m.soundcloud.com/salmon-ted/prozaic-prozac-mendle-mews

It’s hard to believe that was

Gosh, it was so long ago.

And he came back in like 2013 for a little bit and I recorded some more stuff. I didn’t think his music, could get any better like in 2009. But in 2013, it was like, whoa, I have no idea why he isn’t famous honestly, or at least had it like some kind of Some level of success.

A lot of really talented people. Came from Sand Mountain, Yeah. Actually there’s some of my old friends. Uh,

1 of my. Like childhood friends. His little brother has a band and those guys are really good.

https://myspace.com/thedevilsgotaholdonme

But yeah, dreams I had

I had crazy dreams last night about

About doing music again, with my old friends.

Life. Sure is a crazy thing.

I think I’ve I’ve been thinking a lot about that lately, you know, I’m so detached. And I’m just like, gosh, I got hungry. Yesterday, I was working and I was like, no.

Got to get. Food. You know, like what even

It goes into my stomach.

And I have teeth. You know, it’s these things that Chomp.

So I can.

Haha swallow. Yeah, stuff. That makes my body go.

And I have to drink water, or

Yeah, or my body gets really sad. But I do bad things to it, like smoke. And drink alcohol.

Well yeah, I got that car. Uh, yesterday and I drove it. I stopped at the star Market, the Superstar Market. Yeah. And I got a meatloaf. Chunk. Haha. And uh, Some pasta that I didn’t finish and this chicken and rice. But I did, I actually it was a lot of food.

But, I have a car. I’ve got to get insurance and a tag.

I’m going to try to do all that crap, Wednesday.

Next Wednesday, I’m going to try and take a vacation day. I’m going to put in for that today.

Oh my goodness.

It’s going to be weird having a car, but great yeah, it’s Actually more weird, not having a car. Haha I’m not going to miss walking to the store.

I just spaced out thinking about. Everything feels like dang.

Yeah, I don’t know. It’s like It’s like, I just You know everything’s just was so normal. It seems so normal like having a body and you know a brain that controls it or whatever and then whoever I am or whatever it is. Inside of it. That, you know, my soul or whatever. I was just like that.

Like the human. You know the interface I guess. Yeah.

I’m using the language that I learned, you know.

From being in it.

That’s what I’ve been thinking about a lot lately.

I have 2 arms.

The hands I’m holding. I’m holding the phone with 1 hand and I’m moving. My other hand like I’m talking with my hands. You know how people talk with their hands? That’s what I’m doing.

In the Darkness.

Haha.

I think I’m going to go smoke a cigarette.

I’m going to turn the light on.

Yeah.

Only have 3 cigarettes left.

Baby kitty.

Yeah, I’m out the side.

Yeah, however you want to pick that up. Okay, here you go. Oh my God.

Yeah, I actually got a decent, night sleep. I think I fell asleep around. 8. Yeah, and woke up.

At like, 340 or something.

But yeah, I have a car. And as soon as I get the CV joint,

Fixed.

Axle CV. Axle, what do they actually call that?

4:28 AM
Okay, yeah, both things I see. Anyways, I get that fixed. And then I can drive it to work, you know, I’m not going to drive it to work.

Uh, like it is right now, but I can drive it to the store.

It’s great.

I get that fixed and get a tag and everything and I can probably go see my kids. I’m going to I’m going to risk that, uh, if I get it fixed next week,

Hello. It has half a tank of gas. Ha. And I think the oil uh, the oil pan needs a new gasket.

But,

Yeah, it is. I know. I said, yeah.

Yay. Thanks. I don’t know why it picks things up. I said, yay. And it said, yeah, it is, I don’t know. I don’t know why. This is even remarkable to me. Still, I’ve been using the speech to text app for 5 years. 6 years. Yeah, 6 years now.

It first came out in 2019.

I think I did. I mention that in a post? I got the idea for making speech to text blog posts. Uh, from my ex fiance. Because she didn’t like to type. She just didn’t like typing and uh, you know, she blamed it on all kind of crazy stuff, but That’s really what it amounted to but she used speech to text. And uh she used yeah how it picks everything up. All stupid, some of the time. A lot of the times. Yeah. Um She would we would fight about the dumbest crap she would pick Fights with me she’s like oh we’re going to fight you know I mean she enjoyed it I think actually and she would send me these like this blog post this level like thousand couple of thousand word fucking things. Uh, just speech to text her. Just giving me shit.

And I’m just like, you know, it would pick everything up wrong and I would have to kind of decipher it, you know? And I’m like, what the fuck you crazy girl.

But I got the idea from her. Hahaha Yeah. After I finally stopped crying over her. 5 months, straight of just

Bullshit is what that was and that was after the relationship ended. I know she was so, Caustic. That’s a nice way to put it.

A nice way to put it. I don’t feel like yelling.

And One of my roommates, has his window open.

Uh, there’s no telling what they think.

Anyways, um,

I guess I’m just blabbering. I don’t know. That’s just kind of how I feel right now.

So, Memorial Day weekend.

Yeah, coming up.

I think I’m going to sleep.

Mostly tomorrow. I don’t know how, like, How much I’m going to be able to stay up after work today, but I’m going to work on a lot of music this weekend, at least, that’s my goal.

And then the bathroom I got. To change out the toilet. And the, um,

Sink. Yeah, got to change all the stuff out. I’m going to try to do that. Also.

Maybe everything will go Fairly. Well, today at work and uh,

Yep.

Probably not anytime in the next like month or 2. But at some point I want to get a nylon string guitar. I’ve never owned 1, but I love the way they play, you know.

Something I can keep in standard tuning. I’ve been recording all the stuff that I’ve been recording lately. It has been in standard tuning. And I usually don’t. I haven’t used standard tuning, and

For anything in about 7 years. I jammed with these guys, uh, Right after the divorce, I started like this band, it didn’t last very long and I was like, I want to start a band and it was like all new people And uh, of course, you know, the typical things that happen with that shit, you know, nobody ever wanted to

Consistently, you know, show up for stuff but uh, all that shit was in standard tuning and it sounded really great. I converted some of my songs. You know, and actually wrote some new ones. But,

Most of my stuff is in C standard because my voice,

Uh, I don’t know, just matches everything, and I really like the low end but uh, it’s like

Well, standard tuning and stuff. Sounds really cool. Uh, if you’ve got a bass with it, Yeah, I don’t know. I was just like thinking Because the guitar parts are fairly simple, but I go a little nuts with the bass. Which is 1 of my favorite instruments to play.

I don’t know. I don’t really, I don’t really know what else to say.

Yee-haw, thank you.

Please.