9:52 AM
Oh my goodness. What am I doing now?
Well, I just published the post that I made earlier, but There’s a Food City. Right up the road from my house.
And that’s where I’m at.
In the parking lot. I bought SpaghettiOs for the week.
But, They put out. Delicious food. About 10:30. So I got here, a little early. Not really thinking about it.
Me? Oh, probably going to get some ribs. They didn’t have them yesterday out. I don’t know, it’s pretty cool. Like you go, 1 Direction. You go into Huntsville and it’s just so much crap and it’s everywhere. But if you go in the other direction,
Like towards Scottsboro. There’s just it’s like normal. It’s like Albertville. And there was a Food City in Albertville, and I ate there.
A lot at the food bar. They have a food bar here too.
And it’s 5 minutes from my house.
I don’t even have to get on the highway to get here. I just take like these little back roads and plop there, I am
What am I going to do today? I don’t know. I need to look at the bathroom. The downstairs bathroom about remodeling that
And I need to.
Not get drunk.
I have 2 drinks left.
I drank 2 this morning. When I woke up at like 5:30 I was like what the hell is wrong with me? But I did
Smoked all my cigarettes, too.
I downloaded this huge fucking uh, mod for Neverwinter Nights. It’s in Spanish. It was 20 Gigabytes. And I can’t figure out for the life of me how to get into the game. I’m in the, uh,
Like the pregame world where you got to choose all your like deities and languages and shit. And I’m not that bad at Spanish, you know, reading it. I read Spanish fairly well, I’ve forgotten a lot of words, but
Um, that was the whole point of me doing that because a whole bunch of people were playing it last night like 40 people and I was like, wow.
So if I can play, you know, never winter nights in Spanish. Yeah. Then I could, uh, Improve my Spanish.
It would be like studying Spanish. And I need to do that but I can’t figure out how to get past the first Fucking thing, and the whole All of its in Spanish, it’s really cool. Makes me happy.
I think they have some servers, they used to, they probably still do in French.
But I got really burned out on the server. That my gnome. Got locked up. In. And I just don’t really care to get back on it. It’s Yeah, it’s It was just too.
It stopped being fun for me. Yeah.
After that. I guess I feel stupid too. It’s like you know, maybe I really am that much of an asshole.
Kind of, yeah. I mean. But not really.
Yeah, it’s pretty cool. There’s a food city right here. They just have opened up like within the last few weeks I think.
But I didn’t think about that yesterday or I wouldn’t have went any further. But it’s so cool. I can like just I can go
Not having a car for 3 months, you know, it’s like
Dang.
My friend Pooja has been
Oh fucking harassing me about casting spells on people and it’s like you know I don’t really for 1 thing. I don’t really do that kind of stuff anymore. I don’t have the will and then like another thing, it’s just like, you know,
You need to be looking in the other direction. Like,
How whatever you want to make of that, like
Magic and all that stuff. Black magic Is like really bad, you you really can’t fight it with, uh,
You know, by using it.
Not really. Anyways, it’s silly. But like I’m going to direct her to my roommate and maybe she’ll get some money out of it, I don’t know. Yeah, the 1 who takes me back and forth to work.
Like I just I can’t fool with that stuff anymore.
I never really did. Actually she just I don’t know what about me. It made her think that I could you know it’s like I’ve never cast a spell actually. Not like a, like a
Not like that, not stuff like that.
I’m going to turn my car on.
Oh, air conditioner. It has 1. Yeah.
You know, for a 30 year old car like really for real.
This is a pretty good car, the interior, you know, It’s totally thirty years old.
Looking. But I think that’s what I’m going to do. I’m going to, uh, I’m going to fix this car up. I’m going to get it up to like, You know, good standards because I have to see my kids. I have missed so much fucking shit this year. Oh my God. I missed all my son’s soccer games. I missed my daughter’s Middle School graduation last week. Oh, it killed me. It fucking killed me so bad. You know.
And I can get. Mad about stuff and say, you know, well,
Twin flame chick. I could blame her for a lot of shit and I can But at the same time, it’s like,
What a fucking villain. You know? Oh my God, she has inspired so much fucking crazy, music and art. And if I ever saw her,
I would cry my stupid eyeballs out like a fucking baby. I know I was thinking about that earlier. I was going through like deleting a bunch of shit off my phone. And uh,
The photos. Oh, you know, they have like face recognition, shit. It’s like this person and I forgot. I had taken a lot of screenshots, um, a couple of years back when she was popping up. And as a friend suggestion and on the people, I may know kind of like, it’s evident
Evident Sierra that’s like, hey.
Evidence.
Yeah. To like you know yeah this chick was Driving me fucking crazy. Yeah. You know, like she’s all the time right there. And anyways, uh, Yeah, that stuff like popped up. I was like, oh no. And I deleted a bunch of that stuff, but it’s kind of funny.
Without the backstory, you know, but
Talk about something coming out of the blue that I just never thought would ever happen ever.
You know.
Like, I really matter that much to her. It’s crazy.
I know she’s still stalks. My shit. But there’s not a lot I can do about it.
On this Blog. And uh, I made a lot of Oh, it’s picking everything up, stupid because I got the air conditioner on.
But yeah, I’m going to hang out here for about
Another 30 minutes or something enough time to like edit this post.
By the time I edit it and publish it and everything, it should be, they should be having the, the ribs and the chickens out And I’m going to do that. I’m going to get ribs and another hunk of bread. Well, some ribs. Yeah and a hunk of bread. And then I’m going to like, that’s what I’m going to eat on all day.
I love this car.
I don’t care that the back doors. Don’t work. They don’t open, haha. My son’s going to have to crawl in through the front. What’s up?
But yeah. Ah gosh.
And hopefully, they’ll get that. Uh, the CV thing CV. Joint fixed. Axle fixed like whatever. Uh, I’ve heard it called.
You know, different things.
He seemed really awesome too, and nice. And uh, there’s you know, a lot of stuff.
Uh, I think because it leaks oil. And then, um,
Well, the gas cap not the I guess the flapper thing. Not the cap itself. Yeah, but I need, I’ve got it in here. I’m actually holding it in my hand.
Looks like part of it broke off.
Well, maybe I can get that fixed.
And uh,
Change the oil, the shocks. Yeah, the shocks need replacing pretty pretty hard. Yeah, and I’ll probably get some new tires. You know, this summer I’m going to do all that stuff, but as long as it can get me back and forth to work and then to get the kids.
Every other weekend or something at least see them.
Shit, I have no complaints, I’ll probably get it repainted too Because the yeah, it needs to be repainted. It needs a paint job. I think I can get that for a few hundred dollars.
And then, I guess there’s stuff I can do myself. You know, I could probably fix the uh, door handles by myself.
And I can probably fix.
Fuck, I don’t know. The gas cap thing. Flapper by myself.
Yep.
I’m just, I don’t know, like, really happy.
I think also I finally reached the place where I don’t care if I have a girlfriend or not. I don’t know why. Like, I could have had 10 girlfriends by. Now I just ran from everything and now I’m just like, you know, I don’t care. I have uh,
Especially, since I’ve been recording music, a lot lately and I miss the kids, so goddamn much. It’s like, you know,
I’m not going to, I don’t have any free time and it takes a lot of free time.
I mean, it takes time. You have to spend time with the lady. Yeah, I know.
And you know, that and there are there’s a few chicks from work. There’s 1, the 1 on my line who drives me nuts, you know she does. She could be a model she is so beautiful
Gosh. And then, uh, Well, I haven’t seen the Demonita chick. Yeah. Um, I haven’t seen her All week, she might have got Her bonus and fucking cut out. You know, everybody got a bonus last week.
And uh I got a prorated. Yeah bonus. I’ll get the full thing in November though, and I’m excited about that. Because, you know what most of that is going to go to
Child support, huh? Yeah, for Christmas stuff.
My poor ex-wife, and I never thought I would ever say that. But like,
Oh, so much. Oh my God back. Child support. Yeah, like she, she’s got a, she needs that, you know, the kids aren’t The kids are kids are fucking expensive. And, She has been so. So very, very nice to me, like Like insanely. Insanely nice to me. The last.
Couple of years. But especially since my mom died. Yeah, and she doesn’t really stalk my shit anymore. She doesn’t really read my blog posts. Every single post I make, like she used to, I don’t I don’t really know why. She ever did. But
Um, Sometimes though, I really
That’s the thing about like Facebook memories. And then, you know, Google photos has memories and some memories are pretty fucking painful. I mean, I loved my ex-wife more than anything like anything. I never cared about anybody else? I didn’t ever want to be with anybody else.
You know, I loved only her. I could have had anybody but she was my pumpkin. She was the most special. Beautiful thing in the goddamn Universe to me. Yeah, she was. I never cheated on her.
10:11 AM
Yeah, I mean God. I was so good to her. I wasn’t perfect but damn it
But we had gotten together when we were teenagers and I think it just She just wanted something different. She wanted to have kids with me. And then, you know, like she wanted something different
Did I make a post about that? Or did I make it then take that down? Where like she
Was not happy. Yeah, living uh, out in the country. Surrounded by my family and without, you know, the High speed internet access, all the conveniences and shit that she enjoyed as a city girl.
And I think by the time you know we sold that house and moved so much bitterness and resentment had built up. You know that it was just too late.
I don’t know.
It, it was My point to that I guess is, uh, yeah, I was looking through. You know, by the same thing, I’ll talk about the Twin Flame chick, though. Like, there was a bunch of like Pictures. From, you know, 2016 2017. With my ex-wife and it’s like, you know,
When everything was falling apart. Like it was, I guess there was a, a big part of me that that was like, um,
Just figured we would get past it and then, you know, at some point like Now, cuz we would have been together for 25 years. We’d like look back and laugh about it. Like, you remember those times we just Almost divorced, you know, but That isn’t how it went down. We We went. Seriously went We got divorced. Yeah, it happened.
My wedding band said, love forever. In the, it was inscribed, you know, on the inside of it. And I believed it.
It’s just crazy. Yeah, I just, I thought I’d always be married.
The kids and the dogs, you know?
I don’t guess that’s something I’ll ever 100% get over. You know how can how could I like
I guess I was thinking about that a lot last night. Yeah. Or yesterday before I passed out. Just like, dang. You know.
I just really miss my kids.
Like so much so much.
Well, here’s this little apparatus that’s plugged into the cigarette lighter. Or whatever you want to call it. This thing has an ashtray. Oh my God. Yeah and um, But I don’t know, I don’t know if it plays music. Let’s see if I can connect to it.
Well, I’ll fuck with that later. Yeah.
I’ve got. 15 minutes.
Yeah, before the, uh,
Stuff. Opens up.
Or they put out the meat, uh, At least that’s what she said, but it would probably be a little slow today. So
I don’t know.
I wish my kids were with me, I can’t I went in here in the Food City and There’s a Starbucks. My daughter loves Starbucks.
Like so much and they gave out free samples. I got some free samples and I was thinking, man. I wish the kids were with me so bad. I sure do.
God, if I get ribs and bread, I’m going to want to get something else to drink and I guess that’s okay.
But I did. I tracked a song Yesterday? I’m just blabbering because I’m waiting. Um, and it was pretty funny. I couldn’t stop laughing the whole time. I was recording it.
This is 1 of those deals because it’s hot. Like I’m going to go back into the fucking thing and my back’s going to be all
Yucky.
You know.
But yeah, I have I’ve been thinking a lot lately. It’s like about, you know
Like finding somebody like another person falling in love again and all that stuff. It’s like
You know, I didn’t care about any of that shit. Until I met my ex-wife.
And she did though, I guess that’s 1 of the big things that she Taught me how to love, you know, not like So much directly like, you know, I mean, I just grew like my heart, you know, my capacity to love and my uh,
Character and everything. Just she shaped so much. Like made me a fucking decent person. Is what she did. Yeah, she had a very civilizing effect on me.
And I’m a better way, better so much fucking better of a person, because of her. And that’s You know, that’s
A lot actually. Yeah, she
You know, I guess now that the dust settled, you know, from all the fucking, the divorce aftermath like she hijacked my fucking Amazon account because I met this chick and she just did it to be mean. I met my ex fiance, you know, and she’s like well since you’re going to marry that stupid bitch I’m taking your Amazon account and you can have it back when you get caught up on child support.
Haha. And it was mean as shit. But she got remarried and rubbed that dude in my face. Oh my God, but now it’s like, you know, What it’s been 7 years since the divorce? I know. So now it’s just like, um,
Okay. I think she’ll be, uh, married for 6 years this November. Yeah, so I mean like, you know, all that’s over all the crazy like Fallout, you know?
Um, you can step back and actually see each other as people again. You know. My ex-wife is a pretty badass fucking chick. But I never thought she wasn’t, you know, that’s 1 of the reasons. It messed me up so bad.
But the fact that she actually like, sees me as a person now, You know, and treats me accordingly is Wonderful. And I’m just blabbering about this crap. I don’t know. Still waiting.
Oh God. That’s why I’m jacked up on caffeine. I got a fucking Big coffee like thing at the
Oh my God. The Circle K. Yeah. And this is where I always went like when I would go to the store, I would always come up here to the Circle K.
But,
Now, there’s a Food City.
And so, like, Yeah, yay.
I don’t know, I don’t know what else to say. I’m just talking out of my fucking ass but that’s why. Yeah, that’s why I’m so like
Talk talk, talk, talk, talk. Is because I have had coffee. And I’m going to edit this and publish it. And then go inside. And see if they put the meat out.
What else can I say?
Oh, that’s just some goofy kid. Like somebody was like staring at me with your normal hats. Okay.
I didn’t say that.
But it picked it up that way.
Hahaha. Probably watching me talking to my phone being retarded.
Yeah. Now I’ve really got the air conditioner going.
What in the hell?
Tunji’s creation.
I’m just looking at some of the stuff that was left in this car.
Haha. Here’s uh,
Something made in France.
Relieves abdominal cramps. Improved by bending over.
Pollos synthes.
Polo. Sent this? Yeah. However, you want to Pick that up.
I wonder.
And then there’s the cigarette lighter and a couple of bowls.
Bowls.
Bulbs.
Yeah.
I bought this car from a socket.
A psychic. Yeah, I did.
She’s really cool too. She’s like friends with all my roommates.
What a big van?
I just saw a big van pull up.
JW Steakhouse catering for 1 to 10,000.
10,000 people is a lot. To cater to.
I used to work in the banquet department at the Guntersville State Park Lodge. You know, I probably need to just wrap this up because
Because, um,
That’s a big crazy story, but I used to do, uh, catering type stuff there.
For like sometimes upwards of 500 people and that was a lot of shit to stay on top of. I would sometimes have to work a function like that by myself. Imagine the insanity but everybody loved me and I always got huge Fucking tips.
And a bartender. And I bartended. Yes. And worked security. They let me do everything there.
But, uh, then they laid, they laid me off because they have a thing In Alabama, I don’t know. Um, When you get 2500 hours. They lay you off, so they don’t have to give you insurance. This was Circa, you know, 2001 and 2002 they laid me off in January of 2002.
I would work. 16 hour shifts
I would practically live at that place. I only worked there 8 months, so 2500 hours in 8 months, you do the math, right? Haha Yeah, I would make You know. At the time, you know, for 2001 $400 a week, sometimes it was pretty good money. Yeah, and that’s how much I would make sometimes. I would fucking uh, stay up there. Hey girl.
Chicks. Looking at me anyway. Uh, yeah.
I like her shirt.
It’s just Aqua color.
Aww she just got in a car and left. Haha
Like, I don’t know, I’m so stupid.
Thank you. Please.
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