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Well. I guess it’s been. A been a pretty good 3 days off. I can’t believe it’s already over.
I was looking through, um,
Old VSTs. Yeah, like Gosh. I used to have fucking probably a
I don’t know 50 or 60 of them.
I guess that’s another reason I wanted to get my external hard drive.
I had a bunch. I had some really cool ones, too. I had uh, The Commodore 64 fucking, um,
I guess synthesizer, you know, people made 1
That uh, emulated the
The sounds, I guess, and I did a bunch of cool stuff with that. There was another 1, uh, that was like, basic. It was called basic. And it was basically haha, uh, what you would get out of like just You know.
Like an 8088 fucking, uh, you know, some like a Tandy 10000 or something. Speaker, you know.
And uh,
Gosh. All that was so long ago, that’s my point.
Yeah, I was just thinking Like,
My first, uh, 1 of my friends recorded.
An old band I had and I still can’t believe this was 20 years ago. Uh, but it was this band I was in called lot lizard. And it was really, it was fun, you know, but
It just didn’t really have the stuff to To have like to hit any kind of success people, you know, around we played quite a few shows actually and people liked it.
But it wasn’t really anything, you know, that would have gotten popular.
We had some great songs, but it it wasn’t 1 of my favorite music projects. But a lot of people did like it. Uh, we played some shows with guys from Cullman and
Uh, my friend, Brandon was the singer bass player. It was like, kind of like a
More straightforward.
Uh, rock version of analog cracker. Yeah, even though it it was really heavy it just didn’t
I don’t know. We only did it for about a year.
And by the time I got like,
A studio thing. Put together. What’s so funny is. None of us really wanted to fuck with it. I guess it was kind of like,
It was me and Brandon and Eric. Yeah. Like we were just I think we were done with it. We never really talked much about it after that. And then we had a reunion show in 2013. I was just thinking that, that’s what the guy who recorded the band Jesus um his name was Matt, Matt Moon. Yep, and I haven’t talked to him in forever but I’m friends with his wife on Facebook and that’s kind of how I keep up with him. But he, Gave me a copy of sonar 4 Producer Edition. Uh, I think it was released in 2004 and that’s what I use to record with. I mean, it works. Yeah. And it runs very well like super great, especially on newer computers.
And uh, that’s yeah.
But I had a whole bunch of vsts and I was trying to find them and redownload them and Uh, I ran across the video 1 of the um, drum
Vsts. I used was uh, called drumatic 3. Yeah. And uh,
A lot of project Odin songs used that I used that with a lot of project Odin and a lot of my electronic music too. I had some really cool Stuff. I bought a midi controller actually. And, uh, it came with a CD full of vsts. And uh, they were they had like a Moog clone. It was kind of funny. I can’t remember.
What it was called exactly. But oh yeah, I looked that up. I looked up dramatic 3. And, uh, this YouTube video popped up it said ancient, um, drum, you know, software and I just laughed.
Yeah but then it hit me. It’s like whoa. Yeah.
Shit. It’s been a long time.
I’ve actually been. Dealing with that a lot lately. Like I’ll be 45 this year.
It’s not like a midlife crisis or anything, it’s like,
Where the hell is the fucking time going? Yeah, it’s like shit.
I think because I’ve achieved this like, sort of stability right now that I haven’t had since uh,
I got divorced, really. Yeah, because it wasn’t I didn’t feel stable living with my mom, either.
Especially last year. I guess the most stable I ever felt was 2022. Yeah, that was You know.
I just couldn’t leave my mom by herself, I just couldn’t do it.
And I still feel really horrible.
About my mom.
I wish she was still around, you know, I could tell her about
Stuff.
I just don’t understand. There’s a lot of stuff, I don’t understand.
But, I know that I miss my kids.
I feel probably worse than anything about that.
I should have done much orders. Yeah, I should have done my chores, Jesus Christ, it won’t ever pick that up. Correctly. The first time I said,
I say it. I don’t know, it’s easier for me to, to like, Say the correct thing than it is for me to go back while I’m editing it.
Editing. Yeah. And uh,
Delete it and then type it back in.
I know. A lot of times, I’ll just leave it like that. And so of Instead of, um,
Gosh, I’m getting sleepy. Now, It was kind of what the whole point. That was the purpose of this post was to make me sleepy. Haha
God, I have to get up early.
I left a lot of stuff in the car like food.
When I have to get it out in the morning. Yeah, I’m going to have to But hopefully I can talk with my boss and be like, yeah, I need to take Wednesday off if you don’t mind improving my PTO.
Approving. Yeah. My you know day there so I can
Get my tag. Hopefully that’ll that’ll all happen. I’ve
I’ve got enough money for like, 1 of those CVX holes, but not both.
CV. Axles. Yeah, but not both next week. I should have enough money for both.
It is nice to have a car though and be able to drive somewhere and get like groceries and shit. Not have to Feel like a
Burden. Yeah, on my roommates who have been pretty nice about taking me places. Well, most of the time I’ll just walk though because I like to walk but
You know.
It’s nice to be able to drive, to a grocery store and get like, A bunch of crap and instead of just a little bit of stuff because I can’t carry everything. Haha, yeah, I don’t know. But I am. I’m getting sleepy. Yay! I took some ibuprofen because my shoulder is bothering me. I could totally just do like stuff and fix it. I don’t know what the hell’s wrong with me. I’m just laying here, like an asshole.
I’ve been.
I guess resting for the most part, because
My job is really hard physically.
It’s a pretty demanding job. And I’m just like, shit.
So yeah, I thought I’d have more energy today than I did, but I didn’t. You know, it was Saturday. I had probably
More fun than I should have, as in, like, I drank too much, but I didn’t have a hangover or anything and I slept pretty well. And then Sunday,
I don’t even remember what I did yesterday. What did I do yesterday? Go to Kroger and eat ribs. Yeah. Hell, I made Blog posts about it. And I worked out I tracked. Another song I didn’t feel I haven’t felt like doing music at all today.
I piddled with it a little bit and I was like, no.
I need to pick up the clothes out of the floor. Next to the bed. I’ve been walking all over them and they’re You know, clean supposed to be
Oh, but I washed.
I washed my work uniforms and stuff.
That’s kind of a funny thing at the second car factory. They washed your uniforms for you but they lost mine once. And so I never trusted them again. And I washed them myself. I would take like this big pile Of uniforms to a laundromat.
I really miss laundry. Mats. Sometimes I miss, uh,
The fresh smells.
Haha. And uh, just I love laundromats. I don’t know when I lived in, Georgia.
My dad was stationed in Fort Gordon Georgia uh for a long time and 1 summer, we just packed up and lived in a trailer park for like the whole summer.
And I made some new friends and everything. I have no idea what they’re doing now, I’ve looked them up on Facebook and everything and I can’t find any of them.
Uh, but
That’s where we would go to wash clothes with laundry mats and they had fucking the Centipede arcade game. And I want to say they had something else, but that was the main 1. We would go to Augusta. Yeah. Georgia which is just right up from We lived in this little Community called Harlem, It was the birthplace of Oliver Hardy
Where we lived was
It was Pine.
Piney Grove mobile homes or some shit. We lived in trailer number 19.
Yep. It’s funny. I remember all the
Yeah, it was uh, that was a crazy time and I was like
Like all the kids in the trailer park. I was their leader. It was funny. Yeah, it wasn’t like that back home. You know, I went back, I wanted to go to school there with my friends, I’d made because they weren’t assholes like the friends. I had at Asbury.
Gosh. What a what a long story that could be but no. Anyways, um, I just that’s why I like Laundry mats. Yeah. That’s kind of burned. You know into my brains it’s like laundromats are fun.
I don’t know and uh, the kids and I have had a lot of fun going to laundromats.
I just hope everything gets. I mean, I guess everything is kind of looking up now but
I’ll be glad where I when I get to where um, I can start seeing my kids regularly again.
And that’s really it. That’s really my only complaint, shit.
Yeah.
I mean, I need to like, Do my chores and I need to, um, I guess that’s going to happen this weekend. Like with the bathroom. I really need to fuck with that but I just didn’t. Didn’t feel like doing it this weekend, and I don’t know. I hope my roommate understands. I’m sure she does. She’s pretty cool.
But, What else?
I have I made 8 posts this weekend. I counted them and this would be, this would be number 9.
But yeah, uh it’s just been hitting me. Like I’ve been going back and listening to like all the old stuff that I’ve recorded with my friends and then all the stuff Justin sent me. Yeah. And some of that stuff I recorded, I recorded a lot of his stuff, but he recorded a lot of it on his own too.
But it just made me feel all like. You know, like God where has time
Holy shit, you know, and it’s just crazy that like You know, all that stuff like
Gosh. Yeah.
It’s just all like hitting my brain, you know.
Like 2008 was 17 years ago. That’s when I, I mean,
Gosh. I think I bought that controller in 2007. Yeah, MIDI controller.
In 2007. And, uh,
I downloaded the cool stuff, like pterosaur.
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And um,
RPS, which is a like a drum module. Like a drum machine type thing. Yeah, it’s uh it’s really cool. It’s my favorite 1. Overall.
And minimal. Yeah. Those are like the main things I used.
I still can’t remember the name of that, uh, Moog clone. Yeah, the Moog Clone, I don’t know.
I guess that’s kind of the reason, like, last year, most of last year, I was just ready to
Ready to just drown myself in the ocean. Because I was like I’ve done all this crazy shit, you know, I’ve lived a pretty cool life actually.
I guess, you know.
Shit.
It’s still hard to. To care about myself, like a normal person.
But I think everything hopefully is getting better. I mean, it seems that way.
You know.
I guess I really need to, um,
Get my electronic music, what I have and put that up on my YouTube page.
Yeah.
A lot of the other stuff I’ve done.
Then there’s the SoundCloud accounts that have a lot of my stuff on it that I lost the passwords to
And I lost the email addresses. I forgot what email address is. I registered them with, that’s how long ago it’s been. Yeah, that’s what kind of hits me, you know, and I forgot
I mean, obviously, I forgot the passwords to the email addresses. I forgot about
I think I used my Yahoo account. And I can’t remember. I can’t remember what my password is to that.
I don’t have any of the same phone numbers either that I have with that, all that stuff. So, I tried to like,
This phone that I’m using to talk on, has an audio like a Like a jack. Yeah. Um, And I thought I could just plug a, you know, 1/8 inch
Stereo, you know, cable. From that into the microphone port on my laptop, but guess what? It didn’t work. So, um, Yeah, I don’t know. I don’t know what to do but I got to get that stuff off because I have to remaster it and I have to add
Vocals to it. That’s what I didn’t do to those songs. There’s 1 about Gneegnerz And there’s 1 about Boat.
And it’s my favorite 1 about boat. He got a bunch of songs
Oh, he did.
Well, this is going to take me a long time to edit and I’ll probably Halfway fall asleep while I’m doing that. So, As much as I want to keep talking because it makes me feel better.
I probably need to stop and go to sleep. And get. You know, 5 or 6 hours of sleep.
Maybe try to.
Sweep. Then mop the Living room and the kitchen and dining room in the morning.
Yeah. Oh yeah. My roommate’s made food or something 1 of my rommates cooked but I just
I don’t know.
I ate so much stuff, I’m not really hungry.
Thank you, please.
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