9:58 AM
Dude, my skin.
No, I didn’t say that. But, you know, maybe I thought it
I got eaten up with mosquitoes like just now, so I came out to my car and then I was like, well, Because I’m smoking. The back the fucking patio is just mosquitoes everywhere. Oh, it’s It’s like The Farmhouse Revisited hahaha. Oh my God. I couldn’t go outside for fucking 5 minutes without getting just 20 mosquito Bites at a time. And I lived there.
I mean, like,
Sometimes I really miss living there.
It’s crazy. Like physically, you know, or whatever. Your life can be really great. But if you’re not there psychologically, it doesn’t matter.
And to be honest, I feel like I’m just now starting to get my brains back like, you know, myself back. From whatever the fuck.
It’s just all the crazy shit.
But I have, I’ve been thinking a lot about the Twin Flame chick today. It just
I don’t know, I try not to think about her actually because I mean.
It hurts. I don’t know if I’ll ever like anybody as much as I liked her.
Or whatever, you know, all that shit. Like I just
What the hell other phone?
Account.
I made a fake account. Oh gosh, 3 or 4 years ago?
To, uh, troll the mbti groups actually. I made 2 fake accounts. It’s a long story, but, I mean, it was just funny.
Uh,
And then I realized my ex fiance, I saw a bunch of her posts. And she’s not is she even on Facebook? Let me see if she is, she isn’t on an account that I know about anymore.
Anyways, who cares? Um,
Yeah, I read some really crazy shit she had posted that, she, you know, she was talking about her twin flame.
But then she posted a bunch of stuff about how she was abducted by aliens. And uh some really like disturbing posts about super soldiers and Uh, she was like she had to babysit an alien, baby. And all this stuff and I’m like, well.
But she was also a compulsive liar. Oh my goodness. Yeah, she had like every thing in the world wrong with her. I remember
Um, she had a go fund me and it was linked to her original Facebook account, which isn’t active anymore. I think she just straight up deleted it actually because I can go back and check my messages and stuff. And like I can see our conversations but the, you know, it’s like user like Facebook User. It’s not her name anymore because she deleted her account. I guess because all my shit,
Saved our conversations. It’s actually kind of funny too, I think it was a couple of years ago. Yeah, that I was looking through all that stuff.
Oh my God. And I, I was able to power up like my S6 And my Galaxy S6 that I bought in 2017. And go through and like look at all my screenshots and shit. Holy fucking God.
Because I screenshotted everything she sent me.
Because it was so fucking crazy. And uh,
I don’t know.
What was my point to any of that?
I don’t know. I think because the fake account, you know, it’s a chick and um, it’s not like I’ve got 1 picture up. And I added a bunch of, like, people from, Asia. Yeah, like southeast Asia and like uh in India. Yeah. And um,
I don’t log into that account very much because when I do and it shows I’m online, I get bombarded with crazy ass messages and 1 Guy video called me jacking off. Yeah, it was insane, and I’m just like, you know, I answered it with my normal like face and I was like, what and he looked at me like he wanted to murder me. For real Haha he probably would have. And it’s like, dude. I’ve got 1 picture up of a chick. It’s just, it’s not even, you know and
It’s scary as hell. And I was telling my roommate who takes me back and forth to work about that she’s like, oh yeah. That’s like, that’s what women have to put up with.
All the time. And it, It really made me sad.
Really sad.
And just, you know, the amount of dick pictures. I’ve gotten just from 1 fucking photo. I have up, it’s my profile picture. It’s the profile picture and I don’t even remember who I stole it from. You know, and it’s like, holy shit.
What is wrong with people?
People are.
What the fuck?
Is that a passport?
Oh no I just mean like the Honda yeah the passport you don’t see a lot of those out. You see a lot of Pilots. But not a lot of passports. Um, that’s what they built at the second car, factory. On the other line, Yeah, it’s kind of crazy. I used to go over there. Sometimes when, uh, We’d have a part shortage or something, and we’d get like Done early. And if you didn’t want to go home, they would send you over there to help. And I actually really enjoyed it because It was a totally different world over there.
Sometimes I really, really, really miss the second car factory.
Yeah, I do.
But,
Whatever.
I might take a nap.
I don’t know. I ate 4 ham only croissants. From Burger King earlier. I had a whole entire pizza last night. Yeah, I ate that whole thing like just in 1 sitting. I was like nom, nom, nom nom nom nom nom nom nom nom, nom, nom Chomp, Chomp. And then I passed out probably about 11.
Shit. I don’t know. I don’t know what else to say.
Earlier, I was working on after I made that blog post Um,
I went inside and
Got my banjo and took it out to the garage and was practicing the song I made up. About the Twin Flame chick. And, uh,
It’s probably the best song I ever made up about a lady. And um, it is. Yeah, totally is and
It’s still like, I still choke up playing it. It’s
I did I recorded a version of it with guitar and everything.
God, this is such a this is so hard to talk about. I can’t talk about all of it. It it’s so hard to talk about all of it. But, It’s a it’s a banjo song though. It doesn’t it doesn’t have the same character on guitar. It just sounds stupid but on Banjo it sounds fucking great. It’s 1 of my best songs.
And the end is always the hardest for me to play.
Because I sing about how she’s the most beautiful lady in the whole entire universe forever and ever.
And it’s hard to even say that.
Sucks.
Yeah, it does.
I don’t know why any of that happened? It just Tortured the fucking shit out of me and
Drove me so fucking crazy. Yeah.
But I do, I hope she’s doing great.
You know, I don’t wish any kind of anything awful on her at all. It’s about Kind of like my ex-wife, you know, it’s like just fucking be happy, living, be happy dang it, you know.
I don’t really care that much about my ex fiance anymore.
But,
You know, my ex-wife, she’s the mother of my kids.
She’s a really special person, too. You know, I just want her to be happy and live forever and I want the same thing for the Twin Flame chick. You know, I want her to have the the most awesome life ever
Even if I’m not in it.
But she’s not in mine either. So I mean, except for blog posts and songs.
That seems like that’s really all I ever end up with, in the end when it comes to women entanglements. Yeah. Songs and blog posts.
But there is, there’s a whole lot more I can say about.
About it. I just it’s hard. It’s hard to Oh no, I said.
It’s getting hot in my car, and
I think I’m going to.
Going to go back. Yeah, upstairs.
Go back into the house. Yeah. And lay down or maybe mess with a song. I Don’t Know. I need to get a shower.
Thank you. Please.
MY BLOG NUMBER SEVEN 