8:20 PM
Well.
Gosh.
Just got back from the store. I went and got a cigar and gas, I needed gas, I realized all of a sudden
I’ll be glad when Thursday gets here and I can get my car fixed and
Well tomorrow, I’ll get Paid, and Figure out what the hell. I’m going to be able to do and Mostly not do. As in, um, I won’t have any extra money left over.
I could always Pawn this keyboard. That’s the only thing. I have of like real value.
Oh, but what really sucks though? Is I got that whole week off and I’m like, I’m going to get the kids. I’m going to get the kids. Yay! And my ex-wife has a trip planned to the beach. That week.
And then my daughter has band camp the week of the summer shutdown. So
Kind of makes me sad. Yeah, a little bit. Sure does.
I just finished off that barbecued meat. I got this morning.
Fixing to oh I have a plan up. Forget I have lamps.
Yeah. Well
Eat 2, more cupcakes.
Motherfucker.
I guess I am, though. I’m going to um, Go through the calendar in the morning and put in for a bunch of vacation days.
Coming up.
Maybe just like 4 or 5. Yeah, like after the shutdown.
I’m going to put in for my birthday.
I guess though. Like
Uh, week after next, when I’m off the whole damn week.
I guess I’ll work on the bathroom. That’ll be an adventure and, um,
I’ll probably have to buy a few like tools. I’ll probably have to buy a flat bar.
And whatever else. There’s some holes in the side of the cabinet I thought I’d plug them with something and sand it fill it with like yeah. Wood filler sand it and repaint it And uh,
Probably finish this album. Yeah, that I’ve been working on because really all I got to do is lay the vocal tracks down. And then I can upload the files. I do have tracked.
Uh, to YouTube and then like release other songs as I do them. Because I still have about.
3 or 4 and then that’s the whole album. Yeah, like 8 or 9 songs, I haven’t. Counted them all up yet.
And then it’s time to work on the weird shit that popped in my head. When I lived at The Farmhouse,
And the co-worker songs.
Not really sure exactly what pseudonym I’m going to use for the co-worker songs.
But that’s some of my best stuff. And uh, then there’s like my regular stuff that I perform live but I’m going to save that. I think for performing live. Yeah. But that’s what I’m probably going to work on.
Uh, on my off time, of course, I mean, you know, 6 days in a row, they’re going to zip by very fast.
That 3-day weekend, I got last week was fucking like
It’s like I went to bed Friday night and woke up. Yep. Tuesday morning. Yeah, it was over.
That sure was a delicious salad. This morning. Peas and bacon in it!!!
Oh, oh yeah.
But yeah, I’ve got all these damn, like, vacation days. I need to use them. It’s awesome to have a day off in the middle of the week. It’s like I wake up.
And then I can just kick around and nap and do whatever.
Make 3 damn blog posts in a day.
The hell, it’s already 8:30.
Yep. Eat a whole box of cupcakes. I’ve got 2 more left. I’m probably going to eat them before I fall asleep. But I drank all the milk. I have some tea.
Haha.
I think it’s funny that I’m so introverted. That I talk to myself. And make a Blog out of it.
And like, You know, I could be talking to Other people I think Arwa is in bed though. Yeah.
She lives in Korea. Anna lives in Italy and probably is too.
Rebecca, let’s see. It’s
Yeah, it’s like 3:00 a.m. where she lives in Germany.
Justin hasn’t emailed me back.
But you know that’s the fun thing about emails is. You don’t have to respond immediately.
My credit score went up that made me happy.
It’s kind of stupid to think about, but, you know, I really only got about 4 thousand dollars worth of debt.
Yeah, I probably can knock that out this year.
I think I’m just going to start saving up money. After I get my next paycheck, I’ll have
Uh, I can just start saving.
Saving money.
I’m going to do that. The car needs a paint job. That’s 1 of the first things. I’m probably going to do. Oh, that’s I’m going to do that before I buy those studio monitors.
I really really want a nylon string guitar.
Yeah, but I think I’m going to save my money. I’m going to knock out 1 of those things. I’ve got
A phone bill from like,
7 years ago.
6 years ago, maybe?
And I think I’m going to knock that out. Like Soon. And,
I really wish my life wasn’t such a mess sometimes, I really
Wonder why things have had to be so fucking crazy. Since I got divorced.
It used to be a huge source of depression. Like oh my God especially after I fucked up College. I was like what the fuck? Why am I?
Alive, you know.
I don’t get to.
Anyways. Yeah, um But I feel better about all that shit now.
It’s still.
It just makes me question like everything though. It’s like, yeah, you’d think that would have happened or this would have happened or something. Things would have worked out this way, but they didn’t.
They worked out in some other weird crazy way or they just didn’t work out and I just had to start my life all over again, you know? Oh that
Up.
Yep.
Gosh, don’t make yourself sad.
Don’t be sad.
I’ve been sad enough.
Yeah, I’m tired of being sad.
But uh, hopefully you know, I get my car back Thursday and all that Friday. I’ll drive to work. I’ll go to the gym. Hell, yeah. And then Monday I’ll do the same thing and Tuesday and so forth.
1 of my favorite things to do. Is go to the gym. It makes me feel great.
I haven’t been able to do it, you know, like I used to at the second car factory. When I worked doing house remodeling that was basically like going to the gym all day. And sometimes I really really, really miss house remodeling.
Like, That was my favorite job ever. My boss could be really scary sometimes but that’s because
Stuff mattered. Like, you know, it was something people used every day. Like if you build a deck, it has to fucking Hold up, you know, people can get hurt.
If you build things wrong or something and you got to know what you’re doing.
Last year was like the, what?
The 5 month stint that I did uh, with house Remodeling that was probably All around the best.
The best times I had doing it. Yeah, I don’t know. 2021 was pretty cool. I did a lot of really cool shit, a lot of fun. Big crazy things, then, too. We built this hunting cabin. Uh,
Well, it was actually like a living quarters inside of a shop at a hunting cabin. In Midway, Alabama. Which was this really tiny place in the middle of Nowhere. Literally. Haha
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Midway%2C_Alabama?wprov=sfla1
And then we completely remodeled this house from like, I think it was from the early 1900s, um, in Lafayette, Alabama. And that was like, we went there a couple of times, and that was really awesome.
Being down in Midway, Alabama. That’s where I came up with the song concrete block house. Because um, I’ll have to post a video of that. Yeah. Because um,
There were a lot of concrete block houses, down there and my boss and Kevin my coworker. Fucking Kevin’s crazy ass.
Kevin was probably 1 of the craziest people I ever worked with.
Jesus Christ.
I’m just getting a bunch of notifications, but uh, they were just like, yeah, look at all these concrete block houses. Well, that’s a cool concrete, block house, and then they talked about how, you know, run all your wires and conduit
You know, it’s just like, yeah, that’s what I want. I want to live in a concrete block house.
Somewhere down in South, Alabama.
But those were Those were the best work Adventures.
Sometimes I really miss my old. You know, my boss and his wife. It’s Eric’s parents. It’s my friend. Eric’s parents. Yeah. Like the day, the old days there, I guess, I don’t know.
And Uh after I met my ex fiance like
I just went straight to doing that. I did house remodeling on and off for
6 years.
Do like a 4 or 5 month stretch, you know, here and there in between crappy factory jobs.
I thought I was done with it forever, though, when I got that job at the first car factory, And then, you know, everything happened
At the second car factory, I just gosh, you know, but then I went back to doing it.
And after the car seat Factory.
Did that till it slowed down and got the job at the chicken plant.
Dislocated my shoulder and went back to doing it until I got that job at the uh, Warehouse and I still did it part-time. Like, I would work. I worked 7 days a week for a while.
With the last thing I did, uh,
House remodeling was back in November. I painted some cabinets.
Some other crap. And that was it.
I haven’t.
I haven’t talked to my house remodeling, boss. Since probably January when he called me uh, because my mom had called him.
Telling him a bunch of really disturbing crazy stuff that I, I had no idea, you know, I’m like, I don’t even want to talk about that. It makes me sad.
Sometimes I really, really miss my mom.
I just don’t understand.
I don’t understand why the last few years of her, you know, she probably had another 10 years of stuff. Or more she was in pretty good health physically.
I just don’t understand why, you know, it couldn’t have been great for her once she couldn’t have had why she couldn’t have had like a great life the last, you know,
However, long.
You know, she could have lived. It just makes me really sad, I was thinking a lot about that this weekend.
And my sister messaged me and she never has messaged me back. I was like, congratulations on getting married.
You know, I don’t understand.
I was like, how are you doing? She’s like, oh, I’m okay, it’s like, you’re okay. You just got married. You’d be like, I’m doing great. I just got married. I don’t know, I don’t know. I think it goes back to like, what I said in a post last week. I don’t really feel like I know my sister anymore.
I was actually going through Tik Tok earlier and like because my niece, Uh popped up. I was like, who the hell is that? It’s like, oh my God, that’s my niece. And then um, my youngest adopted sister.
Popped up too and I was like, gosh, you know, I don’t know these people.
8:42 PM
Yeah, like my dad and everything is so different. Like, I don’t know these people anymore, they don’t know me. It’s like It’s like I said, I guess in. Another post
After the divorce it was like I was torn out of 1 world like and just thrown into another just completely different world.
And that I mean it’s weird. Like I have no Like connection to them like they just don’t they just, they’re just like people that I, you know, I know who they are but I don’t.
Does that make sense? Yeah. You know, after doing my whole life being around these people all the time.
That’s kind of crazy.
And my sister was born when I was 3. And I remember going with my dad, and I’d saved my pennies up. I was going to buy her something and I bought her this little banana squeaky toy. I think it was a dollar from, uh, Shit. Some like it was like Revco or or some kind of like Maybe it was a bargain town. There was some little, it was some place in Albertville. That went out of business and, um, You know, I was so excited to have a little sister. And when she came, you know I was like oh my gosh a little sister and you know we got like we were
Mean to each other. Sometimes, I mean we were siblings, but when we got older, we were like best friends like when we were teenagers. And we went, you know, she went to college and You know, I moved down there too because my ex-wife was going to the same college and like we were just really close we would hang out all the time and do stuff together. And then she, uh,
Met this dude and got pregnant and that was it.
Now she’s, you know, she just divorced him I think last year And he was, he was really awful and they have 4 Daughters.
My oldest niece. I remember, you know, I don’t I was there at the hospital when she was born. But like everything just got, we just drifted apart.
Feels like it’s just.
And like my dad.
Yeah, I don’t know how I’m going to react to seeing my dad again, you know?
I’m not going to get started on that either. I’m just blabbering.
I’m just glad I feel better. I took another sinus pill. I’m going to take 1 in the morning. I just hope I have enough money to cover everything. Tomorrow, it’s just it’s stressing me out a little bit.
Thank you, please.
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