SUNDAY #2334 EVENING

6:37 PM
Yeah, this is like Sunday number, 2334.

This is the 2334th.

Sunday that I have lived with this incarnation. For real, yeah. I don’t know, I’ve just been thinking a lot about my life, the last few weeks.

I went way too far off again. Talking about my dad and family crap, but

Long story, short, my mom’s birthday is tomorrow and my sister gosh, this was back in February. When I talked to her right after mom died. About, you know, the memorial service. And she’s like, well, I think we’ll just have 1 around mom’s birthday, but she hasn’t said anything to me about it and I’m afraid to ask also kind of And then, uh, Shit about a month. From now.

We’re supposed to have, well, I say we write

Write write. Yeah. Um, right?

Anyways. Haha

My dad’s side of the family are having a get together.

I think it’s a Sunday. I want to say it’s the 14th.

Calendar.

I mean, it’s the 13th. Maybe I said it’s the 13th.

I’m not looking at the text anyways. Uh,

Absolutely. Totally, I am not going. And yeah, my sister messaged me back. I don’t know a couple days ago and was like, hey, did you see the group texts that, you know, 1 of our aunts sent? And I was like, yeah. That’s all I said, I didn’t tell her that I’m not coming. I just don’t want to be around my dad. It’s at my dad’s house. Yeah. And I just don’t want to Talk to my dad or be around my dad or anything.

I don’t care anymore.

All my dad’s ever done is treat me like shit. And act like I’m this gigantic fuck up idiot and you know,

I saved this business. I saved his stupid business and I trained my step cousin. And even talked my dad out of firing him like at least a dozen times. I mean it got so retarded.

The most miserable I’ve ever been working. Has been working for my dad. Like, I don’t understand it but like, I couldn’t have lived with myself. If I hadn’t.

Helped him with his goddamn business, you know, and even though I loved the work and I loved my customers.

That was only a part of it. Yeah.

And uh,

My dad’s actually just kind of a crazy assshole, he’s crazy as fucking hell. Like I think I’m crazy? You know, he’s crazy in like a, like a normal. Uh,

Like a, um,

Well like his military career, you know, he he Advanced, he

Fucking in like a normal practical way. He’s crazy. Yeah. He had a pretty, you know, extensive like, Awesome career. I mean my dad. Is a badass, dude, he’s crazy in that fucking way though. Like in a

In like a political, uh,

Material success. You know, conventional way? Yeah. He’s not crazy in like a sensitive tortured artist way like me.

Shit I don’t even know where the hell I’m at half the time, but that’s just who I am and like, I don’t know. He’s never understood anything and it’s a lot easier for me to accept and understand him than it has ever been for him to accept and understand me. And You know. I just don’t want to deal with it.

He calls my daughter, Mary. That’s not her name. That’s like her first name, but nobody calls her that. And, uh, it’s just, I mean, that’s 1 example. He’s the only person who calls her that and I don’t know why. And he’s got this big stupid ego, and it’s like,

I just don’t want to deal with it. He’s full of crap. He lies his ass off about shit and it’s like not a, it’s just it’s stupid and I don’t want to

Talk anymore about that. I guess. See how I went way too far? Yeah, yeah, on the last. Yeah, I did way too far. So anyways, um,

Shit. It’s like Almost 7 p.m. I haven’t done anything today, but eat cupcakes Now app.

Nap. Yeah. Drink milk. A lot of milk. I drank all of it. And um, Eat a bunch of fucking.

Delicious food from the Food Bar. But that’s it. Like I can’t spend any more money. It’s just the what I have left is got to be for gas. I have food.

I have a lot of ramen and I have enough SpaghettiOs for lunch for the For this week and the 1 day, I work next week and it’s just going to make me Even more happy when I get paid. Next Wednesday.

Probably the first thing I’m going to do. Is get a tag. Well, I’m going to go out and get probably get an oil change. Actually, I’m going to call them again. I think I mentioned that the mechanic guy. Yeah. Uh in another post. I mentioned. I’m just going to get him to go through it and check it out.

I really need to get a shower.

Let me make sure my alarms are set.

Oh yeah, they are.

All right.

1 alarm. I need to set the others.

Okay, that’s good.

355, might as well. Do this 1 for 3:51? Yeah, I like to get up super early and I like to leave super early. And get to work. You know.

Super. Early.

Hahaha.

Yep.

Shit. What else can I say? I’m just

Probably should do much worse, right?

I should probably do much of words, right?

Do my chores. Thanks, right? Haha.

Oh gosh.

Thank you, please.