F RI DAY

6:18 PM
Okay. Well.

I’ve had a long day.

And,

I get to sleep in tomorrow. Of eating. Of eating. No.

I have eaten a lot of food. I’m so full now.

I’m I had a post. Yeah, like all.

Talked up. Ready to go. But I decided I would make a new 1.

Don’t feel like editing it.

I have some really great friends. I have the best friends I have.

Most special.

Wonderful friends.

I have the best.

Wonderful friends. And I forget that I have friends sometimes until I need help, and then it’s like, Oh yeah, I have lots of friends. I feel so alone sometimes. And I feel so worthless and stupid, I was You know, I was really going to drown myself in the ocean last year. I had it all worked out, I was going to drive to Frenchville.

Uh, Maine. And get shit face drunk. Speak a bunch of French piss everybody off and go stow away on a boat.

Roll off into the waves.

And drown. Yeah, that’s what I was going to do last year then, Mom went all crazy and got us kicked out of the apartment.

And I had to deal with that. Because I care about my mom. I really cared. About my mom a lot.

A whole lot.

I really care about the people, I love and I forget sometimes the impact I’ve made. All on other people’s lives.

But uh, I’m really tired. I’ve eaten nothing but ramen noodles. And fucking SpaghettiOs all week long and I’ve lost I bet I’ve lost 10 pounds. My energy level reflects that too. Oh, I have a head. I’ve had a headache for 3 days. Yeah, it’s really stupid. But I finally ate. A lot of delicious food.

And,

Haha, I don’t know this chick. I was messaging with.

Uh, I’m gonna have to tell her about word effects. On Facebook Messenger, bless her heart. She’s just throwing out all these words.

And expecting results and you have to, like, I’m gonna have to tell her how to do it. Yeah. Anyways, thank you, please!