WEDNESDAY NIGHT

7:28 PM
Well, it’s Wednesday night. Yep.

What have I done all day?

I’ve done music. And my voice. Is just a process of getting it back in shape.

I tore it down last week, and this week, I’m having to rebuild it

Yep.

I’ve had a lot of coffee.

Yeah, and I got 2 sad. The other morning. I got way too sad.

And I’m having a hard time like getting myself picking myself back up. Like That happens. Sometimes I get I have to get as sad as I can possibly get. Until I reach the end of the sadness. And then I have to pull myself back to normal. Sometimes that takes a week. For real. Yep.

It takes. Some time depending on how Far, the sadness was down, down, down down to the end. That 1’s. That 1 was pretty bad. That was a pretty bad episode Tuesday. It was, it was terrible.

I don’t understand you would think that like, you know, my life ought to be. Ought to be happy. I should be happy. I have a lot of good things.

I have a car again and I have cool roommates. Who I’ll probably get on their nerves. Yeah, probably and uh I’ve got a great job that I love You know, say what you want. But I love my dang job. I love doing the same thing over and over and over for money. Yep. And the only thing is, I wished I got more over time. But I’m on vacation. I didn’t all this overtime, hit. You know, and I just

I needed the down time. Yeah, but I could have put it off till next week. For real. Yeah, cuz I’m probably missing almost a day like a full day’s worth of overtime. Like, 8 hours of overtime? Yeah.

Thinking.

Almost. Yeah, like an hour and a half overtime for 5 days is 7.5 hours. That’s a lot man.

That’s like almost working a Saturday.

But I’ve got tomorrow night and Friday night. Kind of wish I would have canceled my vacation and went in today. I almost did but then I thought, you know, I went pretty far that hit pretty far, like, Tuesday was really bad. And,

I just hope that this gets better now. Yep. Yeah God. Oh my God. Hurts. It hurts. It hurts. But next week, I’m going to get the kids and that’ll pick me up a lot. That’ll be. That’ll be great.

Oh my goodness. But yeah, I have a lot of stuff. You know, it’ll be happy about. I’m Getting to do my music.

You know.

I don’t know.

Hope everything gets.

Uh, awesome. Yeah.

Work 2 days. Yeah. Then the weekend. And then next week is 4 days and it’s payday. Next week, and

Yeah, it’s It’s all good.

I guess I’m going to work on music. Again, I’m going to do some stuff. I feel better.

I haven’t drank anything or smoked anything. Today. And that’s good.

Gosh, that hurts so bad. It’s like it’s like when I go it’s just hard because I’ve told myself so many awful things, you know. Like, and then it’s it’s like

I’ve got, I’ve got to like,

Heal from hurting myself like that emotionally. Yeah, I’ve got like,

Oh, it sucks. Oh, it does just suck so bad.

Thank you, please.