SUNDAY NIGHT

9:10 PM
Well, I figured I could make a another post.

Took the last 1 down.

I just sometimes go too far, hahaha hahaha. I ate a whole pack of Oreos. The family. Sized Oreos.

Pack. Yep, I did today.

I just had hot dogs.

I got this energy. Drink stuff I put in water, I’m using it. I’m going to try to get up. Try to get.

My chores done.

I get 3 paychecks next month. I know it evens out but that’s like, wow. That middle paycheck will be.

Helpful.

Because I’m used to getting paid, you know, Twice.

A month. Yep, every month. Every 2 weeks.

Next week, we get the Fourth of July and then

A whole week and then it’s the summer shutdown. Isn’t that fantastic?

I just had too much off time. I did It was great. It’s been great though. I don’t know why I’m finding something to complain about It’s so stupid. I’m happy.

Be happy.

That’s why I deleted. Or I took down my last post.

Or. Saved it to drafts.

Yeah. That’s an option that used to not be an option. I don’t know, I feel like I talk too much about like

Sometimes. I talk too much about my dad. My mom. You know, family stuff.

I talk too much about the Twin Flame chick. Way too much. Yeah.

Just like I did my ex fiance in my other blog.

It’s really crazy. How I am about this stuff.

Talk about my ex-wife, too much sometimes. I kind of have a, she’s a, she’s kind of off limits, like she’s the kid’s mom.

And she’s happy now and that makes me happy. She’s doing so great.

Oh, don’t go off on a big crazy rant. Yeah, I just mean, you know, 18 years it was a really long time. And I have the last couple of months, just been looking back through my life like, geez.

Yeah.

And the family get together, things coming up and I’m not going. And I wonder what my sister’s going to do for moms memorial service. That was supposed to have happened. I don’t understand my sister. I never have. She’s 1 of those kind of people that if you ever have to like, get a hold of her, like on the phone, you can’t ever do it.

Like, she never answers her phone and she never replies to anything, but if she needs you for something, You know, it’s like, hey,

And she’s like late for everything. My mom was like that too. Just late just doesn’t care. She will be late for whatever.

Be the last person there like I don’t know how many get together family things like Christmases and thanksgivings we’ve had to wait on her.

I was like just get there when everybody else does. It’s like you don’t have any

You know, everybody, it’s like just be on time and Jesus my mom is

My mom was the same way we had to wait on my mom a few times, uh, for holiday stuff at my ex-wife’s, family thing because we didn’t want to start without her.

Yeah.

That’s not too far, is it? That’s not too far off the deep end, talking about stuff. I don’t know. I just figure we would already have moms memorial service by now.

But I guess it’s like, you know, that’s why I don’t bother usually even messaging my sister

Or anything. I’m just like you know if something if she’s going to do it, if she’s she’ll message me. Yeah. She’s got anything to tell me.

Yep.

Still haven’t completely recovered from the episode Tuesday, that sucked?

Yeah, like I still I’m like kind of sad.

It’s been hard to get motivated to do anything today. I did more stuff yesterday.

I’ve just been.

Lazy. Just the embodiment of laziness today. It’s horrible.

It’s why I have this energy drink I saved them for work, but if I get paid a day early next week this week, yeah.

Then everything will probably be okay.

I just hope it’s you know a decent check. It’s mostly vacation time. And,

You know, I don’t

I don’t understand. It should be a pretty decent, check the right? Because I did work a Sunday. And I did uh get some a little bit of overtime maybe like 5 hours.

Yeah, I don’t know. I don’t know why. I’m not like I should just be the happiest. Dang person ever.

But I do I go too far off talking about the same old crap and I guess why I do it.

Nothing really new. Has happened to replace that stuff. It’s like, It’s okay here.

I don’t know.

The whole twin flame thing was a huge deal for me like that. Ruined my damn life. Just like my ex fiance did. It’s crazy. It’s like, wow. And I know I did, I totally went like I lost my fucking mind

It’s really stupid but at the time it was driving me so nuts. Only a woman, okay?

But like, on my, uh, Dresser I’ve got like all this stuff.

That either was stuff. I was going to give to her or stuff that she left. On around my apartment complex, or on my car. Yeah. So I’m just like, you know, It’s kind of funny, but

It’s really not.

It sucks.

And there’s I don’t know, there was a lot of parallels between that as in like I never liked anybody that much before, you know and so

I haven’t.

Met anybody who’s been that interesting to me, you know, like I didn’t think I’d ever find somebody. Well, I mean I did but I just hadn’t found anybody. That interesting you know, as interesting as my ex fiance was, and she was very interesting.

Very interesting.

Person. Yeah, I don’t know. Haha.

And so I was uh, so is the Twin Flame chick and it’s like dang.

Energetically, interesting. Yeah, I guess.

But actually had a lot of stuff in common with my ex fiance. I don’t. I don’t know.

It’s just

I’m talking about it. I’m going off. Talking about it again, though. I was just like thinking.

I could always look at her Facebook page and see what she’s doing, but I won’t. So I just can’t Yeah.

I guess because I haven’t found anybody as interesting. Yet since her like, I haven’t met a chick. As interesting as the Twin Flame chick. Was to me like yet again. So, You know, and and the Twin Flame chick was

More interesting to me than my ex fiance. Like, she surpassed all that and, uh, oh, it was just so crazy. It was I don’t know what any of. It means really like. What it all.

Amounts to I guess. And that bugs me a little bit, but at the same time, it’s just like whatever.

Because I chalk a lot of that up to my own stupidity. I’m really bad stupid when it comes to women.

Really really, really bad. Just I’m like the most stupid person.

But I’ve made up a lot of songs about it. And a lot of Art.

I need to at least sweep the living room and the kitchen. And the dining room I should at least do those 3 things. And maybe do the hallway tomorrow. When it’s not so late. Because it’s loud. And I sweep the steps the stairs. It’s really loud.

I should have done that 6 hours ago, I don’t know.

But I was really full of Oreos. And I have this milk. That’s gone. I drank the whole half gallon of milk. I ate this whole box. This whole I ate the whole pack of Oreos.

But yeah, the songs I’ve come up with I guess I got my favorite 1. Out of the out of the Twin Flame chick, you know, when we were frogs it was a really good 1.

And Honda plant Blues is pretty good. That’s 1 lot better. As long as even though I get sick to death of playing it,

It’s uh, it’s actually a pretty great song. I’ve been told this by lots and lots of people. Yeah, haha not just being nice either. They were like, wow, dude. And that’s what like, helped me. That’s what helped me last year. Going out to the open. Mic nights because everybody liked my stuff.

I just became really like I don’t know I started being antisocial, I would like show up and then I was just sitting in a booth by myself. Like,

I just I don’t know. I’m that’s just how I am. I’m a I’m so introverted, you know, that I talk to myself and make a Blog about it.

That’s all this is.

But uh,

Oh and then there’s the song about her that’s just about her and it sounds best on Banjo it sounds okay. In like standard tuned guitar But uh, best on Banjo, I haven’t practiced it in a while though.

Oh, I just realized. I left my electric guitar out in the garage.

Roommates.

I got some pretty cool roommates.

Actually, I think everybody who Lives this house right now are Pretty cool. Yeah, the the chick who

Have I Told have I talked about that the chick who had this room before I did? Oh man.

She just disappeared and left all her stuff and it was really like It really creeped me out, it still does, and I think about it. And that I’m in the room you know we did like a cleansing thing though and got Oh my goodness. But yeah. Like I couldn’t touch any of her stuff or anything. I was like I can’t so it’s just it was so weird to me.

Oh gosh, I’m getting. I’m starting to feel weird talking about it. Yeah, talk about something else. Oh my God. What was I saying about songs? Oh yeah. And uh, 2 of my other best songs though. Came from my ex fiance, um,

Crazy woman, which is 1 of my favorite songs to play.

And,

Universe girl.

Which I recorded back in 2021 and had that I’ve had 2 nervous breakdowns in my life. Okay, I had a nervous breakdown.

And left the second car factory, which I probably said a thousand times, you know, here. Uh, but I had 1, when I was recording that song at the end of the song,

I don’t know, I guess because I have like the biggest stupidest heart, you know. I do.

And I never can understand like,

It’s so stupid. It’s like It’s like it never works out, you know?

I mean, I think it’s who I get attached to, but it’s I think I oh my gosh. You know, my other blog is just all this stuff’s all over my other blog.

Uh, but yeah, my heart’s really stupid. It just It’s like, goes where the love, you know. Needs to go. And that’s always been the case.

Yeah.

But I’m so messed up from all that. It’s just

Anyways, and then I got Devil Woman.

Out of my ex-wife and lady on the sofa with the dogs.

I got actually a whole bunch. Yeah, from her, but I’m not playing. Those are the only 2 I’m playing. Yeah, and then uh well there’s I think the only 1 I’m really going to keep from the Stephanie album is the uh this 1 that’s kind of. It sounds really weird. It’s two chords.

9:30 PM
Yeah.

Man, is this the third time stamp or the second?

I don’t know.

Oh my brain.

I think I really did though. I pushed my voice way too hard the other day.

Think I need to just give it a break. I don’t know, I might go out there later and mess with the stuff.

But,

I wonder if anybody’s using the washing machine. I really need to wash clothes.

Oh yeah, there’s the song I made up about my supervisor who stalked the crap out of me.

Yeah, sometimes I wonder if she still does. Like because not all the off hits. That I get come from, you know,

Cuz she sure did. Yeah. It was It was really stupid and then she tried to flip the tables on me. I think. I talked about that though a lot in my other blog. Dang it, y’all.

My roommates. Group text. Um, anyways.

Uh,

Yeah. That’s like a whole another blog post. Maybe you know I’ll talk about that 1 day like the whole thing cuz that was really stupid. And it’s because she was whacked out of her gourd on dope. Yeah, like I mean it was a chicken plant. Yeah.

Gosh.

I just spaced out thinking about that.

I don’t know, maybe I’m going too far off. Talking about crap. What’s some other of the songs? I got though. Oh and the Demonita chick. Haha Those are the main ones that I’ve written about ladies.

But, you know, a lady has to be like really special. To.

To churn out like any kind of music or art to get any of that out of me. Because not every lady, you know, that I’ve gotten mixed up with has gotten music Out of it out of me, you know, or like even somebody I would like

You know, they wouldn’t Those are the only women I’ve made up songs about. Yeah, that’s my point.

Oh this energy. Drink stuff’s kicking in. Yeah, got him crazy. God, I’m crazy. Oh my God. Oh my God. Oh my God.

I wonder how loud I am outside of this room.

My voice feels like fucked up. I’m talking all like retarded.

But I did, I pushed it, but I was like, I was singing like Dax, Riggs covers when the hell night was that was like 2 days ago. Tuesday night, I said,

Yeah.

Tuesday no, it was like Wednesday night. Yeah.

Stuff. I hadn’t been able to sing in like, Fucking 7 or 8 years? Yeah.

I used to have a 4 octave vocal range. I don’t I probably got a 2. And a half.

I might might be able know, I don’t have a 3 octave range. Do I, I’ve got

2 and a half, maybe. Yeah.

4 octaves is a lot. And then, you know, some people have like 7 octave ranges, like Mariah Carey. That’s uh, that’s

Almost the whole piano.

But 1, 1 way, I got My voice up was singing shit that’s out of my normal range like Duran Duran.

Yeah. And, uh, that guy has a naturally like his, his vocals was like. His normal singing voice is like an octave above mine.

But there’s some stuff that my voice sounds really good singing like that, abbeline song.

And King of the Road, those are good covers. I need to come up with some more covers.

Oh yeah, speaking of that, I think House of the Rising Sun was another 1. I converted it to see standard

C standard. Yeah.

Yeah, I just needed to try to figure out some more covers to get my voice in shape because like, All my songs.

The only 1 that’s really out of my normal range. Is the end of universe, girl.

Yep.

Oh gosh, I’ve talked a lot.

Thank you, please.