FRIDAY

5:44 AM
Well. What am I doing? Haha, I know I start a lot of posts with that.

I just got home. I’m out in the car. And I’m hungry. And I worked out for maybe,

45 minutes or so.

Last time, I’m going to be able to go to the gym for

Over a week. Yeah. So I figured I didn’t have it in me though. I did a lot more last night or yesterday morning, I guess.

When did I push it really hard? I think it was Wednesday morning. Yeah, I went Like I went all out Wednesday morning.

And then I’m back on days after the shutdown. Yeah. That’ll be a hoot. Everybody will be mad. And Ill. There’s this 1, dude, It just got he was so awful like the last transition week. Back to days that I just stopped even talking to him or even like interacting with him. He was, oh my gosh, he was terrible. I was just like, who is Who is this guy? You know, like he wasn’t like that when I first hired on Now, I can’t stand him because of how he acted, and he’s all like, what did I do? I’m like, I don’t even have to acknowledge that honestly. Yeah, he was that bad.

I guess he’s probably the equivalent. Oh, I haven’t talked about that in this blog. It’s all over the other one though. There’s always uh wherever I work. There’s always like 1 dude, I just can’t stand or get along with or something. And he’s that guy. Yeah and there’s always 1 chick who drives me crazy.

Usually, like not always. Sometimes there’s 2 or 3 chicks, who drive me crazy.  Haha Yeah, that’s how it was at the car seat Factory there were? Uh, Yeah.

But none of them, you know, topped.

Probably. I hope nobody ever. I hope I never have another like, what happened at the second car factory. Yeah, I hope that never happens again. Oh my God. That was, uh, yeah. That was

Yeah. Anyways.

I feel like I almost went like too far talking about that actually.

I made an error. Yeah, in calculating, you know what? I don’t even want to talk about it. I’m not going to talk about the Twin Flame thing. Yep. I am not going to talk about that.

I think I’ve talked about that enough. I feel really, really, really dumb about it. Like,

That’s par for the course though, I mean I felt.

More stupid than I ever felt in my life. After I met my ex fiance after that fell apart. And I was like, left with the, you know, the debris or whatever. The

Surveying the fucking wreckage. It’s like, What the fucking hell?

Is wrong with me? Well, I tell you.

That’s a big reason why I’ve also been single for 4, 4 and a half years now almost. Yeah, 4 and a half years.

I guess in September, it will be

But I do, I’ve I’ve been working out. I feel a lot better than I felt 2 weeks ago. I stopped drinking. I haven’t been smoking regularly. I smoked a cigar.

Hot dog. I think it was yesterday. Yeah. Yeah, it was yesterday. And that was the first 1 I had in a week.

And uh, you know, a cigar every now and again is okay and

Staying away from alcohol for a while. Is going to be okay, too. But I don’t really have any desire to drink or anything. Usually that’s how it goes if I stop drinking, if I can get past the first week or 2, I don’t want to. I don’t care about drinking any more.

But if I’m drinking regularly, like I want to drink regularly, you know what I mean?

You know, it’s all pretty stupid. But I feel, I feel great. I feel I don’t feel crazy. You know, I just feel

Tired. I’ve got a can of soup. It was some crazy flavor that looked new. I think it might have been new it had Um,

Some kind of Cajun. Something with Andy sausage.

And dewy sausage.

I guess so, and Doo whey sausage.

I don’t know how. Haha

Well, with all the crazy stuff, I don’t want to talk about. It doesn’t matter if I don’t talk about it really like, I mean, you know what I mean? Like,

I don’t care.

I got to get through 1 More Night.

Oh my goodness. I can’t wait and uh, I probably ain’t going to do Jack shit tomorrow. When I get off work, I’m going to get home. And sleep and keep sleeping. That’s what I’m going to do.

And I’ll have twenty dollars available to me on my chime like uh,

My pay, which allows me to get some of my next paycheck. Early, not a lot because I don’t get a lot of money on my chime account.

Every 2 weeks. Uh but it’s enough. It’s going to get me through like until I get paid again because I have food twenty dollars. I can buy some more like Soup and crackers, which is, um, You know, the all-around most flavorful.

Delicious things you can get for not a lot of money and then, you know, if I want hot dogs,

I’ve got a bunch of coffee left, you know, I’m just going to work on my music and stuff I’m going to rest up Saturday and do my chores.

Knock that out, Sunday at some point and then Monday and Tuesday and Wednesday work on music. Probably work on music. Saturday night or Sunday or something, I don’t know. I’m just Kicking around in my brains. What? You know, the possibility Universe of things I could do. The whole universe haha. Haha. Oh,

Thank you. Please.