MONDAY NIGHT

8:51 PM

I’ve been so lazy in the last.

3 days.

It is Monday, right?

Yeah.

I get to be lazy tomorrow, too. And then Wednesday, I get paid.

I’m looking forward to that.

8:53 PM
Uh, roommate group text.

Everybody. Except me is afraid of wasps.

I’m not really afraid of anything like that. Like bugs or Critters or anything. I’m afraid of like my ex-wife.

Haha.

Not as much as I used to be, though.

After all these years

But yeah, I’m just

Sleeping away.

Really. Nope, that’s not what I said. It picked everything up that I said and then changed it to sleeping away, but I guess that’s the main idea. That’s what I’ve done the last 3 days.

And I had corresponding crazy dreams. Today, especially

I had 2 dreams about the Twin Flame chick. Yeah.

I dreamt to yeah that she started uh working where I work and I was like oh my God and it was scary.

Imagine.

Oh, like

I wonder what would happen if I ever saw her again.

Would I Cry?

Or run away.

Or both. Or nothing. Just cry and fall down. Haha. I don’t know but this app is picking up everything stupid.

I haven’t really felt like doing video games.

I need to eat. What have I eaten today? I ate that soup.

Uh, really early, I think this morning.

And it wasn’t. Good.

I have. 2 things of ramen. I have a thing of chicken and corn chowder and clam chowder with Old Bay Seasoning. I have

2 packs of crackers.

You know, for soup and then I have some Crackers, snack crackers. Yeah. I might eat some of those. That’s what I’ve eaten mostly today.

But yeah, I guess I’m just going to keep going to sleep. Going back to sleep.

Until Wednesday afternoon.

Afternoon. Yeah, I did the rest of my chores. I’m going to do them again. Like In a few days.

I want to get the kids Wednesday for something. Like some kind of delicious meal.

1 of my friends. She’s actually 1 of my cousin’s friends. She’s in Berlin. Right now. Oh, and she posted a story about it and I was like, wow.

Sometimes though, I do I wonder like how much longer I’m going to be single, but then it’s like, I’ve met all these chicks. I’ve ran from, or just not pursued who I’ve worked with the last couple of years.

I haven’t really been ready. And then there’s like, how in the heck am I going to fit? Anybody into the dynamic, I have with the kids.

They don’t want me to have a girlfriend.

They don’t want a stepmom and they don’t want step brothers or sisters. And I respect that.

You know, and I still like, really, I don’t understand completely why the whole twin flame thing happened too, the way it did. You would think we would have ended up together. Like why did I get so freaked out?

Why was she so mean and crazy?

I have no idea.

But,

I still think about her and I dream about her. I had 2 dreams about her.

Yeah like 1 dream that she came back. That she came to like she started working where I work. And then another dream that we lived in this like,

Weird compound and she showed up and started living there.

Like I had like it was like a commune like um musicians commune and she just showed up 1 day. And they gave her like a room and I was like, uh, oh, and I was scared. But I kept doing music with some of my friends. It was a crazy dream. That’s the 1. I just woke up from

I guess about an hour ago.

I just spaced out thinking about all that.

Yeah.

Crap. I’m getting hungry. Let’s eat another pack of crackers.

Oh no. I only have 3 pack of 3 packs of crackers. Love

Well, those were good.

Snack crackers.

Oh gosh, I’m not looking forward to being on day shift, again.

You know, it’s kind of funny. I think I might have actually caught up on my rest.

Yeah, I think I might have

Maybe I’ll go walking tomorrow.

Yeah, I’ve got

Like 3 dollars.

And by that, I mean I can walk to a store and buy something and walk back with It like old times.

I don’t know what. To say the Twin Flame chick. It’s all in my brains right now. Yeah.

Goes away and comes back.

All the time.

Aha.

Haha. Yay. Thank you, please.