5:18 AM
Well, what am I doing?
Haha, I’m driving to work. Yeah, I’m not in the parking lot yet, but I will be soon.
Got around a little earlier today.
Yeah, I’ve had more time off in the last 2 months than I’ve worked. So I mean it’s just been I just got to get back. Get used to working a regular, you know, regularly again. Haha.
I got insanely depressed yesterday afternoon. It was noticeable like to all my co-workers. They’re like gosh man. Are you okay?
It’s like, yeah.
I mean, I will be, I just
It’s hard to come back to work.
Has yesterday was hard? Yeah.
Um,
And I had a bunch of crazy dreams about the Twin Flame chick. You know, she unblocked me, we’re still connected on Facebook, so I can see when she’s online. She probably did that on purpose.
I still don’t understand why she can’t just message me or something, but I think it’s more fun for her to string me along and fuck with my head. Yeah, I mean, obviously, right? Whether she’s consciously aware of that or not,
It’s been over 2 years. Since I had a nervous breakdown and left the second car factory and um, You know, this stuff never goes away completely. It always comes back. But it’s her. She never leaves me alone for more than a few months
But it’s just like, It’s just gotten. It’s so like, It causes me a lot of distress. Yeah, like My brain, it hurts my brains.
And it’s just not something I really like I could go into detail talking about it but it like it exhausts me to do that.
In my other blog, I made a couple of posts and I didn’t even tell the whole story, in a couple of posts like detailing the early stages of it. But then I got so exhausted, talking about it. You know, that I just um
Stopped. Yeah.
Oh, on on on.
I said, I said y’all and I said, yawn yawn yawn. Thank you. Jesus.
Oh, it’s not hot. It wasn’t hot in the plant yesterday either and uh, It’s 1 of those things. It’s like, why am I this depressed?
I shouldn’t. Be this depressed. Which tells me it was coming from an external source.
Yeah.
Oh, sensitivity.
Hi. There is My boss.
Anyways, didn’t have to park quite as far down today.
Oh, Getting to work at. 5:22 instead of I think 5:38, Like I did yesterday.
I got to get all my crap in order.
Did I did I talk, did I mention that I stopped at the, uh,
RaceTrac gas station.
To, uh, and I got, they have those double shot energy drinks.
2 for 6 dollars.
I did I got them. I got 2. I remembered my crackers today also. And I have to go, I have to remember to go into the cafeteria.
And get spoons.
Want to pay for Spoons. No, I said, why why pay for Spoons when I can pull them from the dispensers?
Haha, awesome 3.
I said, haha for free,
Yeah. Gosh app.
I don’t know what else to talk about. Um, I mean, I do I guess but
I was so tired yesterday that was the thing I was so like, I got depressed. I think partially because I was tired, really, really tired. And it’s going to take me like the rest of this week. Probably, to get used to working like the the physical part of the job again.
Because I’ve had so much off time. And I tried to cancel some of it actually, but I couldn’t, it’s uh, it’s not that long of a story. We got A different supervisor, but the old 1 told me to just put in a bunch of vacation days and he’ll approve them and then I could go back and cancel the ones that, you know, because it’s, um,
It’s kind of like a competitive thing. Everybody tries to put in like you have to put in days in a in advance. Yeah. To, um, if you want to get The time off that you really want I guess, because everybody’s trying to put in PTO
All the time and you can only have like 2 people in your Zone. Out of like what 20 people or some shit for real. Yeah.
Uh 2 people off at the same time. So uh, you know, it might be 3. Yeah.
Anyways, that’s 1. 1 reason. I’ve had so much time off because I just did. But the next 4 Day weekend I have is my birthday weekend and that’s great.
Yeah I don’t know what else can I talk about? Oh yeah yeah I did I was so tired. I’ve been watching Twin Peaks the show, the original like, show from the 90s.
I haven’t seen it in forever and, uh,
Probably, since I watched the whole thing, it it’s probably been 25 years. I was dating this chick From up here. Uh, 6 years ago, it’s been a little over that now and we watched like the first season together and
Kind of made me miss her a little bit but like I don’t know.
She pops up as a friend suggestions sometimes.
And uh, not that her and I would ever like get back together or anything. Or even like I would even talk to her. But, uh,
She gave me a lot of perspective. Yeah.
Without going off on a rant about that. You know, I’m just I’m going to walk into the plant and drink. These 1 of these, um, espresso things and
Shit. I don’t know. Maybe I might even get A biscuit from the cafeteria, huh? I had a piece of pizza. But yeah, I went in there. I’m gonna have to edit this.
Um, what I’m my brain.
Yeah, that’s what I I’ve been doing the last couple of nights. I got a Paramount, Fucking subscription. And I’m on the free trial right now. I don’t have to pay for it till next week. And so I thought, hell yeah, I can watch Twin Peaks because I was trying to show it to the kids, that’s what got me interested in it again And they were just like, God, this is boring.
And you know, after they said that I imagined watching it from their perspective. It’s like, you know, I guess this is kind of boring to them.
But, uh, my mom liked that show. Yeah, I remember that’s I remember watching it when it first came on cuz my Mom liked it.
But uh,
Yeah, I got a whole pizza from Sam’s Club. Yesterday after work. And uh, I ate most of that and fuck. I watched 2 episodes and I was out. I mean, I fell asleep with it on, so, you know,
I was so exhausted but I stopped being depressed. Eventually, thank God. And uh yeah but it got pretty rough. Yesterday afternoon.
I feel pretty good this morning. Yay. Hopefully it’ll stay that way, right? Yes, please.
Thank you, please.
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