SUNDAY NIGHT

9:37 PM
Gosh, what am I doing? Winding down getting ready to go to sleep cuz I got to work tomorrow.

Oh gosh, Monday and Tuesday. And Wednesday are going to be rough until I get paid.

Yeah.

I have. Lunch food.

And I have Ramen for breakfast. I don’t have any caffeine. Well, I take that back. I do have coffee but I can’t really take that with me

Can I?

No.

Only made like $30 off. The little installation job reinstallation job.

And uh,

I literally spent $45 on a

Fittings.

And a stick of PVC. I needed. Way more PVC than I thought I would of inch, and a quarter pipe

And I had to get some little adapter things and all that shit added up pretty fast.

But I was just like, I wasn’t thinking that far ahead. Saturday, I was just thinking about And it’s it’s so great when it I can do it. Like I was just, I got that pizza. And I got 4 of those clubtail sodas and I was oh my God and I was so happy but it just It goes by so fast. And then I pass out.

And then it’s like, Shit, you know. You spent all your money dumb ass, but then it’s like it was worth it, but is it going to feel like it was worth it? Like tomorrow probably won’t be that bad, but Tuesday will right cuz I won’t have any. Extra stuff.

Um, I went to, I have a Sam’s Club membership.

And I went and I bought this gigantic thing of crackers.

Uh, The nekot peanut butter. Yeah, I’m gonna have to edit that in

Sandwich cookies. Oh man, those things are so good but I’ve eaten every single 1 of them I bet I

Ate 5 packs of those today. The last

Packs, I had and I eat them like that. Yeah. I’ll eat them like that at work too and they’re all gone.

But I have 1 can of my beef stew. And I have I have enough food for supper. I have uh 3. Yeah, more cans. Well really, I only need 2, right? Yeah because Wednesday I get paid I’m really up in the air of what I want to do. Wednesday, do I want to get the kids? Or just go to the grocery store and get more delicious food.

I’m really.

Torn between calling into work Friday and then just or renewing my license online.

My driver’s license. Yeah. But I also need to get new tires. And on 1 hand, it’s like

You know, I don’t know. Yeah, I don’t think there’s any hands involved and

I just don’t know what exactly I want to do. Because I don’t really want to miss the money, but then, you know, I actually do need. I’ve had all this fucking time off, too. Isn’t that crazy? But I have to get a new tire if I don’t get a new tire Friday. I have to do it first thing Saturday morning.

I don’t know, I don’t know what all I’m going to do.

But I do a lot of driving around when I have, you know, free time and money.

I was going to go to my storage unit this afternoon but I just didn’t want to risk it. I think I have plenty of gas though. I could have but you know, It’s okay.

I have about. 10 cans of damn ravioli. Something like that. I got I got really sick of ravioli really fast. The chef boy, Rd, you know, you can only

Chef boy, Rd. Really.

Chef Boyardee. Yeah, thanks. Uh, you know, you can only dump so much hot sauce on that stuff. I don’t know my stomach rejected like almost threw up. I ate 1 earlier and like It was all I could do to choke that shit down.

I don’t know why I guess Now, I’m getting my stomach. It’s getting all like sad thinking about it. It’s like don’t do it again. Haha That’s what you’re going to have to eat for lunch Tuesday, though.

Probably Wednesday too cuz I don’t get paid till

Way after lunch. Usually, I get paid around 4:00 p.m. yeah.

But I was, I was like way overboard kind of a jerk, but it was justified Friday. I don’t want to go into it too much, but I just hope everybody leaves me. The fuck alone tomorrow. That’s all I Really Ever Wanted.

At work, like I go to work. I keep to myself. I make up songs. I’m you know I run around and Do all kind of crazy stuff, but I don’t care. I’m mostly just keeping myself entertained. That’s how I was at the second car factory 1 day. I’m thinking I’m just going to just Like talk about the whole second car factory. I went into detail with it like pretty.

Well, kind of I say like pretty well but kind of

In my other blog where I talk, I made a couple of like twin flame chick specific posts. But uh, I had, you know, I hate to say this because I did, you know God I hate to keep talking about this but there’s a reason why I keep to myself.

Yeah, people do weird crazy things to me. I’ve had I had some really Stupid. Um,

I’ve had to deal with some really stupid crap from co-workers. You know.

And uh,

Yeah I’ve been a lot of people. They like drama they’re like who’s that guy? Why does he? Keeps to himself. You know like why does he You know what what makes him and they they get they just people don’t understand it because I don’t have anything typically. In common, with most people. You know. That’s funny.

And I’m trying to not let it get to me but it does. Yeah. Cuz I do I feel really like alienated sometimes. Sometimes it gets lonely but then it’s like, you know, shut up Like I have so much more other crap. I can do than lay around feeling

Uh, feeling alone. Yeah, I mean gosh.

I haven’t done any music, when’s the last time I played music and sang? I guess it was last weekend.

After I dropped the kids off,

Wasn’t it? Yeah, yeah. After I looked at the sink and everything. I think I went over my set for a little bit.

I had this cold. I had a really bad cold for about a month that’s like allergies and Stuff, I don’t know.

Oh man, I was going to go off. I’m getting sleepy now I was going to go off talking about how You know, binge watching like Uh, Twin Peaks like last Sunday. And, And this weekend. And uh, I’ve watched, I watched all the whole, you know, original thing and It’s just funny to me. But it’s also kind of crazy, just all the actors and stuff in that show are

They’re all really old now and the technology like I was thinking about that, they were like all this stuff it was before cell phones were ubiquitous and you know, everybody has cameras and GPS and all that stuff. It’s like

I wonder how all that would have went down in you know today’s world what 35 years later?

And then it hits me. It’s like, damn, I was 10 years old when that show came out, but I’ll be 45 next month.

A month from tomorrow. And, It’s like dang, where does the time go?

It goes fast.

But hopefully uh this week I’m, you know, going to get back into the gym, get my routine going. I can really do that next week on night shift this, when I

Get to, uh, Night shift. Yeah, that’s when I get to have the most fun.

Day shift is like so normal. Because everybody, you know, the whole world, it’s a first shift world. It’s a day shift, you know, World. Night shift, puts you in a totally different mode.

Which I enjoy.

But I have like, I’ve been hiding from this chick who works in the gym. That’s 1 reason I talked all about that. I made 1 of the posts Friday. Um I took it down.

Uh, but it’s like, I don’t care anymore about that stuff. Anymore

I just don’t care. I don’t know, I feel like pressure if I look at a chick, she always looked, you know, 9 times out of 10. They look back and I never expect them to it’s like I can’t talk to anybody from work. What the fuck? You know, why do you even

What is wrong with me here?

And I thought I’d made my mind up at the warehouse job about that. It’s like stop looking at Ladies from work, you’re never going to talk to them. You’re not in a good place for that.

Oh my God.

And I guess I made that post Friday, but, you know, I’m not, I’m not going to talk to anybody, you know, I guess I do wish I had a girlfriend but You know, that’s just me thinking, you know, Like, Realistically, I don’t I just can’t imagine how

Uh, I could fit that into anything right now.

And it’s also I was just don’t want to risk getting hurt again, you know? Just

Anytime soon.

It’s nice to just be by myself.

Like this weekend, you know, I didn’t really have a lot of money or have the kids, but I had fun.

And you know, the weekends or whatever. When I have money, I get the kids when I don’t have money. It’s it’s fun too because then I can be by myself.

And work on music or art or make blog posts or binge watch a TV show. And I started watching, uh, the new 1. But I’m, I’m all. I think I’m all like Twin Peaks(ed) out right now. Yeah. Hahaha

Like,

God, it was just Boring to me. I watched about half the first episode and I thought really

This doesn’t seem that exciting right now. Uh, I don’t know. But

It’s just crazy. I was, uh, looking at the Wikipedia page and all the actors and actresses and stuff and

I can’t believe Heather ground. Heather Graham. Yeah, she’s 55 now.

It’s scary. I think PJ Harvey’s like 57.

Or something. That’s hurts my brain and, you know, Most people die in their damn 70s. That’s,

I’ve got 30 more years, probably, Maybe 40.

I laugh and say, yeah, if I’m lucky right? But shit.

I don’t know, I guess it’s just me because I’ve had so much stuff blow up in my face over and over and I’ve been forced to start all over from nothing over and over and over. And

I don’t know. Failure gives you a perspective. After a point? However, it it manifests like it’s like, it’s my fault, but it really wasn’t. It’s like an exchange. It’s just whoops, you’d think I would know better, but I don’t.

I had a really isolated sheltered, childhood. It’s kind of funny. Yeah, that’s 1 reason why, you know, I just I’ve always just kept to myself but For me personally. It’s sometimes I’m just like what the hell even is this and what am I doing here?

I’ve got these.

Arms, I’m laying in a bed.

9:53 PM
I’m making sounds, you know, come out of my

Face through a hole called a mouth.

You know.

Using a language known as English that I’m That I learned from all the people, I grew up around, it’s like my parents.

And it’s been really weird ever since my mom died, too. That’s just been really weird.

Sometimes I want to just like, Text her or something, and be like, Mom. But I can’t. You know.

She did so much to help me especially the first 3 years after the divorce,

It’s crazy. The mom that I had and the mom, my sister had, you know, I mean, we have the same biological mom, but she was a different mom, to, to Each of us completely different. My dad’s the same way. Yeah, it’s like, I don’t

I don’t understand it and I don’t try to anymore but I wish my mom was still alive. I wish things could have been a lot better for my mom.

There’s a lot of stuff. You know, that I wish I could do differently.

But I mean, I don’t know.

But yeah, I guess I’m going to get back into the gym on a regular basis starting this week. And then I’m just going to hopefully I’ll be able to keep it up.

A lot of what I just, I took too much time off. I enjoyed every bit of it though. But

It would. It would be nice to like, I don’t know. Still have about

3 or 4 days, I could take like I would totally take 1 Friday. I don’t know if I’m going to call in or not. Gosh, because that’s like 200 bucks.

I guess this has turned into kind of a long-winded post. This was like one of my winding down to go to sleep posts.

Next weekend’s. The long weekend though, I guess. I mean I got I’ve got to look at

I could get a new tire Monday morning or something. Well, I can do it Saturday. I can get my license renewed Monday morning. Yeah.

That’s what I was thinking. I don’t have to take a day off at all.

But my roommates having a her birthday party. Friday night and let me look at that 1. Does that start and is that something I could take my kids to or at least just make an appearance and be like hey and give her birthday cards.

Oh,

One of my roommates is playing a video game?

And sometimes she sounds really mad.

Let’s see the events. Birthday Party

She’s really, really awesome. She’s the best person I’ve met in the last 10 years. So I got to make her a really cool card.

Oh, where’s my events? My brains are not firing off.

Events.

Thought I saw it. There it is. Okay. Yeah, it’s Friday.

At 5:30.

Her birthday is.

The 14th. Okay, but the party is Friday, which is

Um,

The 15th, I don’t have my brain. I’m just thinking, I’m trying to figure out what I’m going to do this weekend because I got to get the kids.

I missed my kids. I got to get my son a drone. And I’m thinking we’ll probably stay in a hotel room Friday night somewhere. It has waffles for breakfast.

Oh gosh. The other roommate. I thought, you know, I have 5. Um, yes, she is just saying the F word.

Must be pretty, pretty bad. What’s this? Miss Druid 2026. I got an invite for that.

It’s in Birmingham at Al’s. I thought Al’s closed down.

Yeah, I don’t know.

Gosh, the crazy stories about that place. I used to live like a block away from there. Probably 1 of my favorite places I ever lived.

Mystic, Krewe of The Druids.

And the yeah, it’s spelled just like that.

Oh, okay.

What’s a okay? It’s a fundraiser. Well, that is cool.

It’s in September.

I’m friends with so many people. Facebook friends with so many people. I have no idea who the hell they are.

I talked about that actually in a, uh,

Wait, that’s this Thursday, is the open Mic night. Uh yeah, I added a bunch of people. I went on an adding spree. About 7 years ago.

And inadvertently added about 400. Esperanto. Yeah speakers. Oh my God.

Okay. Well, this is the only 3 events I have coming up.

What?

I want a pet. Wait, do. I do, I Do question mark?

Thank you.

No, not really. It would be cool though to have like a little animal.

This local comedian dude is having a hard time with a roommate. He’s now calling the squatter.

I tried to listen to his comedy.

I mean, he’s not awful or anything.

But uh,

He’s really dramatic, I don’t know what else to say.

Oh crap. I don’t know what else? Yeah, I don’t. Uh,

I just said that but in a different context, Haha, I spaced out for like 5 minutes. Looking.

Pictures of food.

Oh, this chick was posting some kind of diet thing. Like she’s been making her meals and um

Yeah, I need to just work on my music and stuff and uh,

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Mean that most people died around the age of 35.

Oh gosh, I just

Spaced out. What was I even saying? Yeah, watching stupid ass Facebook reels

Yeah. Anyways uh I’m going to edit this and post it and then go to sleep. Yay.

Thank you, please.