SUNDAY

10:24 AM
Well, what am I doing today? I am Working on banjo music.

Yep, that’s what I’m doing. It’s Sunday.

I’ve been going since about 6:30 this morning.

Oh, sometimes I forget like because uh I I’m busy a lot with like work and when I’m not working, or doing music or doing stuff with the kids, I’m sleeping. You know and uh, I forget I have 5 roommates. Sometimes

Oh, there’s like a conflict right now about the dishwasher. I guess it’s not that big of a deal like I don’t ever use dishes. So I don’t ever think about like loading and unloading the dishwasher because I’m never in the kitchen. And the only time I ever use anything is this pot when I make soup. And that’s like 2 or 3 times a week and I always wash it and put it back Like every time I use it and when I get it back out so it’s always like super clean, you know? I don’t know the roommate that took me back and forth to work and she’s helped me out a lot. So I can’t really like, you know, it’s just she got really abrasive about it last night and I was like, God.

Really? It’s like, you know,

I just don’t ever.

Think about dishes because I’m I don’t ever Use them. Like I don’t really use the kitchen. At all, you know, I eat my most of my food on the go or out of cans. At work, I eat most of my meals at work and a lot of times now that I’ve got a Sam’s Club membership, which I’m not going to be able to do that. I’m on night shift the next 4 weeks. But that’s what I’ve been doing is like, you know, after work. I’ll go get some pizza or something. Because it’s cheap as shit. Like I can eat a meal That is a lot of food for, you know, 250, Hell, if I want a hot dog it’s like a dollar fifty for a fucking hot. That’s a big ass, hot, dog, and a coke and you usually, you know, that’s enough.

I eat breakfast.

Well, a lot of the times but I eat that, you know, on the way to work Or Ramen or something? You know, I just I don’t ever Use the kitchen except sometimes 2 or 3 times a week and that’s just to make soup.

I don’t know who uses all the dishes. Apparently, there’s been like this thing. Somebody’s been handwashing, a bunch of dishes, real bad. And it’s not like, Me doing it though. Yeah, I have 5 roommates. So, I mean, I don’t know. The only thing is, I’m kind of a slob but I’ve been Trying to, you know, that’s confined to my room. And I’ve been a lot better about that the last couple of months.

Especially now that I have a laundry hamper and instead of just piling my dirty clothes up You know.

In somewhere in the floor, now they’re in a place. So it’s like with a lid, haha. Yeah, I mean geez I don’t know. I just feel like she didn’t have to be so.

Awful about it. Yeah. But I made up a song.

Uh, so I feel better. I’m just like I don’t know, I went over some banjo songs and Now, I’m just kind of kicking around

But I do, I miss my storage unit like this is my second home. And that’s where I’m at right now. Yeah. I wonder though. It’s like the Twin Flame chick knows where my storage unit is now and she knows what my car looks like now. And Uh, it’s just like, dang, I don’t

Out.

I said, I hope. I worry, but I mean,

I’ve been thinking about her. A lot this morning and yesterday.

And I really really wish things could have been different. I really do. I so much do.

I don’t know what else to say, you know, it’s like she’s still the biggest crush I ever had.

It’s hard to imagine, like, I don’t know. It was so intense and, uh,

Yeah, I mean shit.

But if anything fucked up ever happens to me.

And I disappear or end up dead somewhere. There’s a pretty I say a pretty good chance there is a chance. There’s a possibility that Brittany Brianna Brown from Weaver, Alabama, had something to do with it. Hahaha I’m just covering my bases. You know hell we might get married. I mean that’s, you know, I don’t know. That’s kind of the thing. It’s like,

I haven’t I mean I’m half joking but I’m not. It’s like

I guess I haven’t completely ruled out the possibility that this chick might murder me. So, you know, just yeah, just saying, just putting that out there.

Haha.

Um, Yeah. Anyways. Uh but you know, she’s still

I hope she doesn’t murder me. Yeah.

What else can I say? I don’t know. That was like, that’s just that’s what I’ve been. Thinking about today cuz I’m I’m up here, you know and I’m like well. And somebody, I mean anytime I see something weird but this is a a business that people like come and go like just anyways, yesterday afternoon. This Hispanic guy got uh, his car overheated and he pulled into the parking lot. I actually had a Some big bottles of water. I let him have to put in his car so I mean like stuff like that happens, you know, he was just Kind of, You know, passing through and his car overheated and he pulled into this parking lot. And had to wait until his car cooled off, you know and uh,

Yeah, I mean it was just stuff like that happens. This is Like it’s it’s actually kind of out in the middle of nowhere but it’s a main Highway runs through it so it’s not really out in the middle of nowhere, though. It’s Yeah, my brain haha but uh somebody left, this 1 of those big torch Uh lighter things. Yeah on. Um and it could have been somebody, you know who rented a unit here, like moving people. You know, they rent U-Hauls here so people are in and out all the time.

Uh, but like I wasn’t going to take it or anything. And so uh it was on like the it’s not like a window sill but it’s like this thing.

Uh,

Kind of next to the door. On top of some bricks Where my storage unit is the entrance to the inside. Oh, this is a pretty nice storage unit. It’s climate controlled. So it’s it’s not like freezing cold in here or anything but it’s comfortable.

And uh, anyways, um I just remember all the weird shit she left around the apartment, complex. Some stuff I know that she left some stuff I could just speculate, you know? It was. So she drove me so crazy. Like, I just Oh my God, it was so mean but um I don’t know if she left that it wasn’t there. When I got here this morning, I left Uh yesterday afternoon about 7. Yeah cuz I got I was so tired. The kids and I had went to Birmingham and did a bunch of stuff and it’s Hot. As as hell. Yeah. And so um,

You know, I was tired. I wanted to stay here and like, practice a bunch of my stuff, but Uh, I ended up going home.

And watching Twin Peaks the return which has been really hard for me to get into it. The pace is so

Slow, and it’s like they’re substituting lack of a genuine story line or like creativity, just for weirdness. Some of the stuff is just weird for its own sake. Like I don’t it’s been really hard for me to follow it and get and stay interested in it. I’m just watching it because You know, Twin Peaks but then even like the original show the last Probably.

7, or 8 episodes was cheesy as fuck. Um, I mean it’s a silly show anyways, but it was really creative and well written like especially the first season.

And I am a huge, David Lynch fan and I never watched the uh, Twin Peaks the return. So I don’t know.

Passed out last night. Yeah, that’s what I did. I tried to watch that last night, I think I watched like 3 episodes and I was out by 11. Something. And then I woke up at 6:30 this morning, I think. And got around got a shower, cleaned up the kitchen a little. Where my roommate’s sister’s dog? She came down for my roommate’s birthday. Her dog got in there and tore a bunch of garbage up. And I took the garbage out and just thought about how Ugly. My roommate was about the dishwasher last night when I got home after I was exhausted and the last thing I needed was to get my brains chewed out, you know, over something that really wasn’t a big deal. She could have been nice about it because I just don’t think about the dishwasher. Because I never use dishes.

Like seriously, I use uh, paper, you know, bowls disposable bowls. And that pot is it, and some spoons and I always wash everything right after I use it. I mean, it’s not well, sometimes I’ll like pile up. 2 or 3 spoons, you know, in my room and then wash them all at once like oh my gosh, you know, like it’s a horrible thing or something?

And like, I’m not going to get started about like some of the stuff I had to endure. While she took me back and forth to work, it was She’s like, a She’s a character I guess. Yeah. That’s but a lot of it is uh she reminds me a lot of Eric. Yeah.

I don’t know why she’s so mean about things. She can be really cool though. But she can also be. Super abrasive and I’m not like that.

So when people act like that towards me, it’s it bothers me a lot.

Because I’m sensitive but then I you know I’ve made up a song about it and talking about it in this blog helps. Yeah but I mean you know she’s a good person. She’s just I guess what? Rough around the edges. Yeah.

I like to think maybe the Twin Flame chick is kind of like that too, you know? She just this shit got the best of her like I try to see the good, you know, which is actually 1 reason why I cried so much about her but

I would rather not get murdered by her. I would rather it go the other way, you know, like,

I feel like I’m I’m doing a little better but you know, it wouldn’t hurt. For me to find? Yeah, a decent therapist like a therapist. Yeah, just to go to therapy. You know, once.

A fucking like, twice a month. Yeah, or something. I was gonna say once every couple of weeks. But uh, you know, I like to A lot of times though my dumb bulshit I’ll turn out music and art with so I don’t know.

It’s not that bad. But I’m going to try probably won’t be able to do it until the weekend of my birthday. I have some time off, but I’m going to try to get the air conditioner fixed in my car. Um yeah, but that’s like it, you know?

My son said, I could hold off on buying him a drone until closer to his birthday. But I spent lots and lots of money yesterday. And then what made me feel bad though is that I just I wanted to spend more my daughter wanted some shirts And like some buttons and stuff and I’m going to try to look into that because the shops didn’t have some stuff that she wanted. I’m going to probably go online and order her some things.

And surprise her. Yes. Oh, I just love my kids.

And I still have plenty of money left over to get me through until I get paid again. It’s just

Build-A-Bear is not cheap. Haha But it’s really cool. It’s like, you know, it is What else can I say? I’m just like Yeah, taking a break between, uh, Practicing.

I don’t know. I don’t know if I’m going to work on the concept album today or not. It’s, uh,

I just about have to get drunk to do those vocals. I’ve done some of them, um, Back when I had all that free time, but like, like when all the off time, you know, when I took all those vacation days But,

Oh, hello. Yeah, I said some of that stuff is so out there. I don’t want anybody to like pull up or something and hear me, you know, singing this crazy shit. Hahaha

Thank you, please.