MONDAY

10:04 AM
Hello. Yes, it is. Monday morning. I just woke up.

What do I want to do?

Go back to sleep because I have to go into work tonight. Haha, hahaha.

But, um, I mean, I probably will later. I need to eat something. My voice is kind of like,

Crackly, because

I screamed a lot yesterday, um, doing the concept album. It was really funny because the lyrics are so crazy. And, uh, the people across the street at the Dollar General could hear me. I tried. It started raining, And that’s when I was like I’m going to do some of these vocals and it stopped raining and I walked outside and this guy who worked there he was outside smoking and he gave me this look it’s funny how it’s like it’s across the four lanes but you can still

See people, you know, and you can hear what people are saying outside of the Dollar, General, I can’t imagine. How loud I am. I’m really, really loud. When I sing and, uh, Even more when I’m screaming and stuff.

But, uh, he gave me this look like Of disbelief. Haha Yeah, it’s like here’s this guy. He’s just doing stuff in a storage unit. It’s me, I don’t know.

What for?

The last. Year and a half, I guess something. Doing music. Yeah, I’ve been doing music in there

I’ve rented that place for over 3 years. And then uh, just 1 day, I don’t know. It just hit me. It’s like I can do music in here. It was after I had the nervous breakdown.

I took about a week off from doing anything and

What a stupid time of my life.

Yeah, it really was.

I don’t know. I was just totally like I don’t know, I don’t know why. I don’t know why I think about.

Stuff. But I was like, yeah, I was um, I spaced out for a second.

I need to get some food.

Uh,

It’s pretty early, still.

You know all in all I guess though I did have a pretty good weekend. The kids and I went and ate Mongolian food. Yeah it was a pretty good.

And uh,

And then we went to the Galleria.

That was a hoot.

Oh my god. Really? I have another Facebook account and uh, I Do actually, but I have a few but like I have a main like fake account. And I’ve talked about that before and I have an alternate account and then like my main account and I’ve got a couple other ones that I don’t ever use anymore. But those are the main ones. Anyways, on my fake account. My ex fiance just popped up as a friend suggestion.

Not that fake account with this other fake account. I let her have it 1 time in those groups, 1 of those groups. New age groups, she was going around posting a bunch of dumb crap in

It’s really weird how like everything about her pretty much was a lie.

Even now. On her Facebook. Her birthday is a lie, so she looks like an 11 life path.

Which I am like, she’s a 7. But I don’t know why she would.

Lie about Anything. She lied about everything. She was like,

Like the most insane person. She was so arrogant. Thought she just knew it all, you know.

She claimed to have an IQ of like 150. Which is, you know, which ain’t bad. But like I have no idea.

Yeah. She, she really was.

Oh gosh, she lied about so much stuff. I don’t I don’t know how

I was so messed up when I met her and it messed me up even more. I just, I don’t know why she would pop up as a friends suggestion. Yeah, that’s like, don’t don’t start talking about Going off about her. Haha. Yeah, don’t don’t do it.

But,

Yeah, I did. It took years for me to get over that.

Oh damn, I’m going to I want to start talking about all the other crap. Now I can’t. It’s like I talk about this stuff too much. Don’t, I? Don’t I talk about this shit way too much.

I think I do.

Let’s see what kind of food I want to eat somewhere this morning. I want to get out and

Try something kind of new. Oh, that’s right. Because I still have some money left over from the weekend.

Yeah, it’s pretty great.

There’s a Biscuit, Express up the road. I thought about trying that

Here’s a place called Kim’s, Diner.

There’s a place called revivalist.

Oh damn, this is in a fucking hotel.

Saw the duck fat fries. Haha

Yeah, I don’t know.

I’m not, I’m not going to spend a hundred dollars on a fucking

Deal. Well, there’s Another Broken Egg Cafe. There’s a place down here. Actually, I’ve eat out quite a few times, it’s called, um,

1892. Oh, it says temporarily closed. I wonder why.

For like 3 years in a row. We took my daughter there for her birthday. Every year like her.

I want to say Fourth. Fifth. And sixth. Birthdays.

Yep.

I could just go out and get some food and come back and pass out again, I need to finish my chores. I did half my chores last night and I stayed up. I tried to stay up as late as I could. I made it till about 3:45. Watching fucking that Twin Peaks the return. I’m trying. I’m going to get through it. And it’s like about the time. I’m just like fuck this stupid shit. Something interesting will happen, but it’s like Oh God, the weird scenes. They just go on for way too long. It’s like okay, dude.

I’m just not impressed with it like the storyline. It’s weird and all but it. You know, it.

It’s not that captivating.

And the the like atmosphere. I guess it’s the collective, like Personality of the show is,

Kind of dull.

Yeah. But I don’t know. It’s cool to see like the actors and stuff, twenty 5 years later.

I guess it’s weird.

This is a weird place. Planet Earth is

You know, most people just think that’s all there is. This is all there is to anything.

It’s like gosh, have you ever just thought about? How weird? It is though and how horrible it would be if this is I know it isn’t, but it’s like shit actually. I have an appointment next Sunday to get a reading at this. Uh, This place is for the um, I used to be the theosophy Uh, building, I guess it’s the same people. They just kind of changed it to a Oh, what was it called?

I don’t remember. But, uh,

C, o l Center of

Light or something. Yeah. Anyways, the chick, I bought the car from Uh, She’s yeah, she’s gonna give me a reading. I don’t really know. What do I want to know? Haha like uh, am I going to fall in love again. 1, last time and it not be a bunch of bullshit, that would be cool. What about the Twin Flame chick? Is that ever going to like be actualized or Is she going to keep pecking on my stuff and Getting into my brains, making me. Crazy and sad.

Well, I win the lottery.

Will I? Please

I think I’d rather win the lottery. Than Even find love again.

But then it’s like well you know love sure is great too you can’t haha you can’t buy it with money.

But there’s other things to do, you know, with money.

Like uh, The buy a house.

I can get all the dumb crap that I’ve like fucked up the last 7 years.

Financial aid and stuff like my credit.

Yeah, and all the stuff all of it, fix all that.

I don’t know where to start. I mean that’s where I would start. Yeah. But then there’s just so much. This is a huge world, you know, there’s so much. I want to do talking about though that the like you know this planet Earth being Not all there is, but there is a lot of stuff here. And,

It’s really crazy. That’s what I really wanted to do. It’s like when you’re younger, you don’t really think about

I didn’t think about. Yeah, the choices I made. Um, Like Marrying my ex-wife and getting into business. With my dad like just how much I wasn’t going to be able to do anything else. So

And then I was so screwed up by the time, all that ended and I’ve just been like, what? For the last 7 years.

But you know, I feel like it’s getting better.

That’s uh that’s my point. It’s like well, I’m, you know, I say I’m getting better but I’m also I’m still fucking crazy. It sucks like crazy

In a sucky shitty way. Yeah, I’m still kind of crazy.

Damn, where do I want to eat lunch?

I bet they have, like,

The chickens and the ribs out. At Kroger.

I went to Sam’s Club yesterday after I got done with the storage unit and uh bought stuff for food for the week and the last time I got these enchiladas they were really good. This time they weren’t somehow they

Tasted like metal, like the fucking Thing that I, uh,

Made them in. It was like what the hell. They had like a metallic aftertaste. I couldn’t even I ate 1 of them out of the 3. The last time I got them you know I ate the whole damn pan but I couldn’t do that this time. It was like weird I

I don’t know. I do have hot dogs. Yeah, in the fridge.

Everybody’s got like shelves in the fridge, but I’ve got like this tiny little bottom drawer. And that’s

It you know I think that’s kind of sums everything. You know sums up kind of everything.

I just, I’m like,

That. I’m not that I really need anything else though. I don’t ever keep anything in the fridge.

Oh man.

But I do, I love night shift. The thing about nights though is I can’t get drunk after work because they don’t sell alcohol until 7 a.m.

Well, I don’t know, I don’t know what else to say. I guess I’m going to edit this by the time I edit this, I’m going to be hungry enough. To uh,

Get up and go. Find something to eat somewhere.

Then I’ll probably come back and take a nap. Oh, and finish my chores. Yeah, I need to do that. Need to go get some food. Come back and finish my chores. And, Take a nap before work, right? Yeah, that sounds like a plan. Haha.

Thank you. Please.