FRIDAY

1:19 PM
Hello.

I guess like I’m answering a phone.

Haha. My last post was kind of crazy, but

Sometimes I don’t feel like I make a lot of sense. I just, I say a lot of stuff it’s like this and duh.

And um,

Uh, what? Yeah, like all through the fucking posts.

It’s just how I talk.

So, it’s a 3-day weekend, and

They were doing what is called, a pull ahead, I guess. Is we’re coming in 2 hours early. So we get off. At 2 hours early. Yeah. At 1:45 And I’m just going to come home and go to sleep. And I’m going to get the kids.

Going to get the kids tomorrow around 11:00. For an adventure.

What are we going to do? Well.

The Power Ball is up to a billion dollars, so we’re probably going to go get lottery tickets.

And that’ll be fun.

What would I do with all that money?

I used to have all the stuff like planned out in my head and all the people I would give money to if I won the lottery. That list used to be huge.

Not anymore.

After the divorce and everything went just fucking crazy.

Um,

You know, after the initial bombardment of I mean like this was scary. How many people messaged me? Wanting to have sex. It was crazy. I was like, what? I had no idea. I mean, I bet I bet 50 people messaged me.

I was like, no, I’m not really in any kind of condition for that shit.

Um, of course, you know, 1 of them got through. That was my first girlfriend after the divorce.

It was uh, a friend’s 1 of my friends sister-in-law. Wait. Yeah, it was his sister-in-law.

And she was like, I’ve talked about her a little bit. Anyway, she was she had some disturbing like

I’m not going to talk about it. Yeah, it’s just, we weren’t as compatible. As I thought we were at first, some people are into some You know things that I just could not accommodate but guess what? I would probably give her Lottery money.

Yeah. She was a great person though. She’s who encouraged me to get into college and I totally fucked all that up.

And sometimes it still hurts because I go by there on the way to Sam’s Club.

Um, which I go there, you know, a few times a week because it’s got cheap. Ass cafeteria food. And

That’s usually.

I mean, a dollar fifty, I can get a Coke and a hot dog. And that’s breakfast enough. Usually, for night shift and I um, But I drive up by the campus and sometimes I’m just like, dang, you know, I had a class there and over there and

What the hell is wrong with me?

There was a time that if I won the lottery, I was going to half it with my dad and I don’t know if I would do that. I probably wouldn’t even.

Maybe half a dozen relatives. I would give him money too.

And uh, You know. I’d probably.

My ex-wife.

Yeah, hello.

You know, I probably have, you know, if I won a billion dollars, yeah, I would totally give my roommates money.

And I would give.

Not Eric, but his parents. I would give his parents a bunch of money.

Yeah.

Yeah. And uh,

My coworkers. Because they would be the last coworkers. Yeah, I will ever have. And um, You know, let’s see. There’s

Well, I say half a dozen, I don’t know. There’s there’s several relatives I would give money to you know my cousins. A lot of my cousins would get money.

My cousin, Kevin I would probably give him and my cousin Shawn. And Andrew, I would give them a Nathan. Yeah, the most

My cousin Ben. Matt

And, Let’s see, friends. Uh, my friend Justin

Friend Jamie. Yeah. Jamie shiver from back in the day.

Um,

I just have to sit down and think there was a lot of people I would give if I w0n a billion fucking dollars, what I would get to keep about half of that maybe Yeah, there’s a lot of people I would Um, give money to and then I would just take the kids and we would just

Travel a whole bunch and live in Crazy places and have fun. And And yeah.

That’s a lot of money.

I don’t think I could spend all of it. Well, you know what, I could actually, I could spend it. I could spend all of it every last cent of it. Haha But I probably wouldn’t. Yeah, I don’t know. I would

Probably build like some kind of facility where I could just churn out, you know, like I would have all the best studio equipment. I can totally do my cartoon then. Which I’m actually this weekend, I’m Going to go by and get me a tablet. Probably an iPad.

I was looking at the Rent A Center, which is how I got my laptop and my bunk beds and my other laptop. And I think there are like twenty dollars a week for A iPad 10.

Yeah, so that’s what I’m going to do because I have

Oh my gosh, it’s the cartoon idea. And then I have a bunch of other crap. It’s like well you need to get on that because

Like how much longer is this world going to last you know 5 years, 10 years? I don’t know. Even my daughter was saying something about it and 1 day. She was like

As long as I get to like, you know, make it to maybe 30 so I can have a kid. And, you know, let it like You know, you can be a Granddad for a few years, you know, telling me this shit and I’m like, Hey.

It’s funny.

But maybe it’s, you know, I don’t know, I thought the world was going to end in the year 2000 but I was a teenager. I was like, that’s it. You know that’s the limit.

I don’t know. I felt like that. Quite a few times over the years, you know. And then everybody thought 2012 was going to be

What a bunch of crap? I mean, who the fuck knows? Now that I just think about it. It’s like yeah, the world. Will never end.

It never ends.

Itself, perpetuating creating and It’s uh, what’s oh, the word actualizing? Yeah. It didn’t have a beginning. People search for the beginning in Vain. Hahaha

So, it doesn’t have an end. But people like I guess you have a beginning when you’re born. If that’s just like,

Um,

For novelty sake, I guess. See how you know if you want to look at the big picture. But it would be really funny. I don’t know, like my head would explode. If I won that much money.

I’ve got a lot of friends that I would, you know, Totally, give money to

I was just thinking of anybody who’s ever given me anything. Like the last. 7, or 8 years. Well, 7 or 8 like 6 or 7? Yeah. It’s been a real struggle, sometimes.

The house, The Farmhouse, the people who owns, who owned the farmhouse, Yeah, they uh they would get a bunch of money. That’s Eric’s cousin.

There’s a lot of people who I wouldn’t give money to, who would think that, you know, I would give them money, but I wouldn’t.

And those people would be so jealous.

Hahaha.

But I don’t know, I would probably like, find, you know, like artistic stuff like I don’t know, there’s a lot of stuff to do when you have that much fucking money. That is just so much money though. Like like, you know, 5 or 6 10, you know, 20 million dollars, that’s like gosh, you know?

Enough more than enough, but like,

A billion.

Oh my God. That’s so much money.

But that’s what I’m going to do Saturday with the kids. We’re going to go get lottery tickets.

And probably eat some where. Cool. I added a hop this morning. I ate at IHOP. Yeah. And uh, I haven’t had a ahop. IHOP.

In a long time.

Months, gosh, last year, I think was the last time

And uh, it was so good.

And then I came home and passed out.

I think it was about 7:00. I was out by 7:30 and woke up about 11:30. So, I got about around 4 hours of sleep.

I’ve been smoking a lot. But I finished that pack.

After work this morning before, I went to the gym. And my voice is all like gravity and stupid.

But I don’t have any desire to buy another pack. I was so stressed out. Last week, and Some of this week, A lot of it was just the transition.

It’s really funny. How fucking up your sleep schedule can affect your, uh, anxiety levels. And Just, Your perception of reality itself.

So it’s not something that’s, not something I ever got, used to the swing shifts, like with the second car factory and it was every 2 weeks. That was just something you just like Mind Over Matter type thing you just like well you’re never going to get used to it. You might as well get used to the fact that you’re never going to get used to it. Yeah, and uh it’s it’s every 4 weeks here. Uh you just you can’t let yourself get used to it because you do like after the second week you start to get used to it and then it’s like, Time to rotate again.

I prefer night shift. But, Day shift you can you have like normal stuff? Like it’s a normal.

Uh, like I can go get the kids for, you know, supper After work I can do stuff after work. You know, a lot, On nights when you get off, everybody’s going to work. When you’re going home on night shift,

And my God, my voice, I smoked a whole pack of cigarettes and like I bought that Wednesday.

Yeah. I mean, I know some people smoke 2 or 3 packs a day, but When you don’t smoke regularly smoking a pack in like a day and a half is uh it’s a lot.

I have a whole case of SpaghettiOs, I haven’t even opened yet.

I was looking at myself in the mirror this morning after the gym and it’s like, you know, I really need to lose about 30 pounds. I just got this gut, I

I was doing great. When I was working like, in 2023 before, I had the nervous breakdown, I had slimmed down to about 210 pounds, which is lean For me, I’m about 250 right now.

And I looked great aside from, you know, being driven absolutely insane. You know, uh, Like physically, I was pretty healthy and probably the best shape. I had been in since I was like,

25. Yeah, I know, shit? So

But um, I don’t know. I just figured I’d make a post I guess I’m fixing to get ready. I’m going to get a shower and go to work. You know, even though it’s I’ve got to get there earlier

I like getting to work super early. And so I have to get there even earlier today. I usually get there around 5. But since I have to clock in at 5, I’m probably going to get there around 3. Give or take.

Ha.

Thank you, please.