SATU RD D A Y

7:40 AM
I wonder what the weather is going to be like today? I bet it’s going to be hot. Let’s see.

Yep. It’s supposed to be in the 90s.

My friend, Anna. Messaged me. About my dating life. She’s like anything. Any new developments. And uh,

I’ll reply to that later.

I mean, there’s nothing it’s just like Chicks from Morocco, hide from

Chicks from work. Yeah. I mean

Maybe there are some from Morocco. Hahaha.

I ate at a Moroccan restaurant once actually, it was pretty dang good. Uh, yeah.

I had.

I can’t, I guess it was like the tailbone of animal an Ox or something. Or a cow. And the marrow in it, I ate the marrow. And it was really good.

Yeah.

Oh gosh.

11 years ago.

I had some crazy dreams. Yeah, I dreamt that uh,

That was this Lake. Um,

River. It was a river like a cruise ship like a river. Cruise ship. Yeah. That was exists. I remember seeing a advertisement. For Viking Cruises. And it was something like that and I was trying to help one of my friends get onto the ship. But it messed up and I fell in the water and was transported into this crazy room with a fireplace.

I’ve been watching a lot of. Video game, playthroughs.

Uh, video game, reels playthroughs.

My fucking brains. Yeah, I’ve been up since

6, I guess. But I took a nap when I got in yesterday. We got off early.

Shit. I think I was out by.

3. Or something. No, I was out by 4. And uh oh who messages me? My friend Arwa.

Yeah, she was she’s Egyptian but she lives in Korea.

Um, That’s what’s so crazy is like all the really cool. Uh, interesting chicks, I do know.

Live. Far, far away. Yeah. I mean like

My friend, Rebecca. She lives in Germany.

Arwa lives in Korea.

My friend Anna lives in Italy.

Natasha lives in Bali.

Um,

Miriam lives in Tunisia.

And Ener lives in.

Rotterdam. I think.

My friend Freya. Lives in Armenia.

I don’t know though. Huntsville’s a pretty big Cosmopolitan place. I’m probably well, it’s like I said, you know, if I’m going to try and talk to helmet girl next week, and if she’s just not That’s interested as she looks, you know, I don’t I feel weird even saying that, of course, she’s, you know, she seems really cool. I think that’s what freaks me out, and Uh, but like

Well, my son’s game is today and after that, after I get back from that, I’m going to work on music and stuff.

And tomorrow, I’m going to do that. I’m going to try and get my chores knocked out and clean up my room and everything.

But it’s about time for me to start getting out and Performing again. And I figured, you know,

If if uh,

Worst case scenario, you know, I’ll find somebody when I start getting out.

It sucks that the Copper Top stopped doing Open Mic nights because it’s just right up the road. It’s literally 5 minutes up the road now, and The only other place I know of off the top of my head that has regular open mics. It’s the Voodoo Lounge but I’ve got to look up other places. I think there are there’s a dog bar that has Open Mic nights. The thing is though, is I have stopped drinking.

Uh, for really good reasons. Who was I talking about that with yesterday?

Oh yeah. This chick named Faith.

She was like, what do you drink? You know, I was like, Cuz I was like, I stopped drinking. I had to, I had to stop drinking. It’s just like, oh well, what did you drink? And you got to know your limits and I was like, I don’t have limits.

No limits.

And if I drink, if I have 1 drink, I’ll have 10 drinks, you know.

I have to get like, completely wasted.

And it’s I’m just that that’s the kind of person I am when it comes to alcohol.

I used to not be like that. I don’t know it’s just best that I don’t drink at least for a while and you know, I’m like that with cigarettes too. If I buy a pack of cigarettes, I smoke the whole fucking thing in a day.

Day and a half.

And that’s bad. I just got actually came in from smoking. I was like, why the fuck do I do this to myself? But oh yeah, I got up. Um I fell asleep around. It was before, let’s see.

4. P.m.

Oh yeah, it was before. Yeah. It was like right before 4 p.m. I was actually having a really hard time keeping my eyes open while I was editing that last post.

And I woke up at 9:30. Went and got my.

Minutes refilled on my phone. Bought some meat sticks.

You know. And uh, from Walmart. And got a Red Bull because I’m like, I want to go to the fucking gym and guess what I did

Yeah, I went to the gym. And I worked out for about an hour and a half. And uh,

I slipped and fell on some water in the Restroom and I was like shit. And uh, and I was like, you know, It’s probably time for me to go back home and I went to the cafeteria. I know it’s funny. It’s weird being up there when I’m not working at work like Just to go up there. For the gym, which I did this all the time at, uh, Honda too

I would go in to, um,

To the plant sometimes because they closed off the little break area.

Honda had free drinks like coffee and water and sodas, and tea.

And I would go in there and get me a bunch of coffee and water and then I would go to the gym and they closed it. So I would just start going into the plant and doing it and then go into the gym. The plant and the gym, were in 2, different locations. What I really liked about Honda though was uh, the town. It was in. It was like a really small town but had 2 Interstate exits. And it had, uh, it was all like, you know,

Lots of forests and I really liked that. I really liked the drive down there, too.

But everything’s in 1 place here and but anyways, I went to the cafeteria and they had this curry chicken curry. And I was like,

Shit, this is heavy. It was and, uh, I checked it on the, uh,

Price of it. Yeah, on the checkout thing, it didn’t have the price on the Tubs. They were in it was like 5 dollars. So I got 1 of those and it was a lot of food.

And then I came home. And,

Fell asleep around 1:00 or something. I don’t. Really remember. But yeah, I’ve been watching a lot of, uh, Like, Nintendo games and Atari game, uh playthroughs. It’s like, wow. Yeah, I remember those games. I can’t bring myself to play them anymore, though. I feel like I’m wasting my life. If I play video games, But I’ll watch, you know, a a 2 or 3 minute playthrough of it.

Somebody else playing it. Haha

I used to play a lot of video games, I beat.

Hundreds of Nintendo games.

But I have nothing on my cousin Shawn. I used to go like uh, in the Summers and stuff. My mom would stay at my grandma’s. I think to get away from my dad’s family. Mostly

And which Is, you know that’s another crazy story.

I grew up in a really toxic household. It was stupid. But um,

Yeah, I would go like, hang out with my cousin, Shawn, just to watch him play video games. He was 4 years older than me, which is a huge difference when you were a kid. You know, I was 8 and he was 12, you know, and 10 and 14 and so forth.

You know. That’s a huge difference, shit. He’ll be 50 in January. I can’t.

Believe that.

Oh, it’s so crazy. How much time has passed? And it doesn’t feel like it like at all. And I still look, I look the same that I, as I did 10 years ago, except my hair is different.

And I looked the same 10 years ago, pretty much as I did 10 years before that. I don’t know, it’s just crazy. But um,

Gosh. Yeah. I was like watching a playthrough of metal gear and I remember watching my cousin play that game and beat the shit out of it actually him and another cousin of mine named cliff and Cliff is 6 years older than me which is like an even Huge more, huge difference. Yeah.

When you’re a kid.

I was 1 of the younger cousins.

On my mom’s side of the family and my dad’s side of the family.

Yeah, I have a lot of older cousins.

Let’s see.

My sister and my 2 little cousins. I grew up with Are the only ones I’m older than on my dad’s side. And then I think,

Uh,

On my mom’s side. You know, it’s my sister and I had 3, little cousins that I was older than and that was it out of like, you know, 40 cousins

All the rest of them were older than me.

Yeah. It’s just like dang because metal gear I think it was released in like 19.

87 or 888.

And that was, uh,

37. Years ago.

It’s just crazy. It is it’s like, wow. Uh like the 2 like the 2000, the 2010 decade just doesn’t feel like it even happened. I don’t know what the fuck like 2010. And up, you know, till 2019. That was just so crazy.

I don’t know. Like Time just got like compressed there and then it’s like blam. Here I am. It’s 2025 I don’t know. I want to say though that, that’s kind of normal. Yeah. After you hit your 30s. And 40s and I’m halfway into my 40s. Now it’s like time just Is different, your perception of time because you’ve already lived all these years when you’re in your 20s. It’s like

Or at least for me it felt like I had like everything was just

It didn’t go so fast. Yeah, everything just seemed so expansive and and and

Not so temporary, you know. And uh,

What am I trying to say?

It seemed like you had forever and I guess you still do. I don’t know, it’s just crazy. I do I feel more of a sense of like You know I like talking about wasting my time playing video games like that never was an issue in my 20s. Like I had all the time in the world I guess I still do but it’s like oh. I just I feel like I’d rather do real things. Now even though watching a video game playthrough is almost

Is waste of a time, you know?

I don’t know. It’s just stupid.

I think I’m just looking at it wrong.

I probably sound like an idiot. Haha

I got these honey buns and uh, they’re huge. I got them for lunch and I just, I ate in the cafeteria, I had money. I had extra money this week this past week so I ate in the cafeteria instead of my SpaghettiOs. Because I get sick of eating the same thing every single day.

But yeah, I think uh, oh yeah. Yeah. Crap. My the Honey Buns. They’re huge. And I ate 2 of them. I got in from the gym. I was still hungry. So I was like, I’m going to eat 2 of these damn things and I did.

7:59 AM
I woke up with a belly ache. I did, yeah.

I had to. I had to drink a bunch of water.

It was just I guess all the bread and sugar, you know cuz they’re glazed, they’re delicious. They are.

But uh, yeah, I think I am going to Try to talk to helmet, girl. Next week, and she’s either going to be like hey or she’s going to ignore me again. I don’t know and like I’m not going to try that hard. You know, if she ignores me again. I just thought. Well, you know, don’t say, I never tried to talk to you.

I wonder what kind of music she listens to.

I wonder what her interests are. I wonder if she likes languages?

I wonder if she plays an instrument.

I wonder if she has a Tik Tok.

Haha. Haha. Haha. I don’t know who I am.

I didn’t say that. I said, I don’t know.

Well.

What else can I talk about? I was thinking about how um, earlier when I was smoking. I was laughing cuz I’ve been making up a lot of Stupid songs in Spanish. And I make up a lot of crap in my head, especially like, when it comes to co-workers most of it is to entertain myself. But like, If you know anybody is a jerk to me or you know, because people are Like and I am annoying as shit. But I’m not like, I just There’s these 2 Guys. I think I mentioned Hombrito before. Yeah. And there’s this other guy I call Culito And they are the Los Mejores Amigos. Those are the best friends. Yeah. And uh, I make up songs about them. And they’re my enemies. And it’s all in Spanish.

And there’s a couple of like you know Spanish speakers on my line and there’s no telling what the what they think about the shit that comes out of me while I’m working.

With, there’s like a whole like like a

Like, I’ve created this whole like, you know, Oh, the word was right there in my brain.

Uh, it’s like some crazy story. Yeah. Like, uh,

God. What was that word? I was right there and then I lost it.

That used to never happen. Before I got on medication, I never had problems thinking of words

I guess a narrative. I don’t know. And uh, it’s just it’s I don’t know. It’s like they’re my enemies but they’re just these 2 guys, you know, just 2 like pretty regular looking dudes. You know, the Hombrito guy, he’s really short and the other guy is too and they’re like they always laugh and talk and hang out and I’m like the best friends, you know? And But they’re like evil

I have to get away from them, and if they ever get too close to me, I’ll start going like, oh no.

And I have to I have to get away. It’s funny. And there’s no telling, you know, it’s just like these guys probably think there’s no telling what they think, because nobody ever talks to me or tells me anything. Haha

I’ll laugh a lot though. Yeah. Laughing a lot as I’m saying this. But that’s that’s what working in a car factory is like if if I’m around anyways. 1 of the team lead guys. Pissed me off a couple of months ago and I I’m over it now but I made up a couple songs about him.

And they were in English.

But,

Uh I don’t know. I think 1 of my favorite probably Spanish is my all-around favorite language to make up songs and because everything pretty much rhymes You know, it’s easier it seems like to rhyme. I mean, it is. Yeah, to rhyme things in Spanish than it is in English just right off the top of your head.

I still like I’m not, I’ve forgotten so many words.

I was conversational in Spanish, you know, ten years ago.

I don’t think I’ve talked about in this blog where I hosted Spanish events for Duolingo. I did that for about a year with this chick named Joyce. And she was so mean to me. Like the only person at the time who was meaner to me than her was my ex-wife. Who has deactivated or deleted her Facebook account for some dang reason. I figure. It’s probably over politics. I think What last week that guy got shot and that’s been a big polarizing issue.

And it’s always polarization for its own sake. Nobody ever has any critical thinking skills about anything. It’s like, you either? Think of it this way or that way or you’re a piece of crap, you know, 1 side or the other. It’s like

I don’t talk about politics anymore. With people.

On the internet.

Like it’s just it’s too polarized too it’s ridiculous. It’s so like so much like that that it’s like,

It just perpetuates drama and division, you know?

Everybody just wants to tell each other how stupid they are, and nobody wants to understand anything and come together as like, you know, A unified, uh,

There’s the word again. What’s the word?

I don’t know, maybe I’m trying to sound too smart

I don’t know.

Yeah, it was like

Gosh, there’s just so many billions of people. Of course, it’s just me right now in this room.

But yeah, my ex-wife was always really like just super political. Her whole family is like that. And uh,

She? She used to get into it. A lot with people especially in this argument group. I just figured, that’s why I’m going to ask her about it today. At the soccer game, I noticed your Facebook account isn’t there, and I only noticed it when I was looking at my Facebook memories, after I got done at the gym because I left the gym about 12:30.

But yeah, I’m pretty sure that’s what it was about.

Also think that people’s, uh,

Thoughts. Well, you know, thoughts, create your reality? I mean, I’ve done this too. You know, I fucked my life up thinking crazy stupid bullshit also.

Looks like it doesn’t have to be that awful.

But it takes, you know, it takes everybody’s participation in that. To make the world a better place, you know. Like you have to

We have to work from the inside out.

Yeah. People are worried too much about what other people are doing.

Instead of what they’re doing. You know, themselves.

I’ve noticed, uh, just a huge lack of personal accountability, you know. That’s a huge like

Thing people just don’t think about what have I done? That’s fucked up and stupid. You know, instead of focusing on the fucked up stupid shit, other people are doing you know,

I guess that was my point to all that. Yeah. Well this has turned into a big fucking post Jesus Christ. I’m getting sleepy again. I don’t I really can’t go back to sleep because I have to leave.

In about, An hour I guess by the time I get a shower and all that stuff, it’s going to be time to go. And which way do I want to go though? Like I could go up through 431.

That’s the easiest way, kind of To get to Gadsden where my son’s soccer game is. Or I could go up through Scottsboro, which isn’t that much further? But guess what?

Scottsboro and Gurley have the best Hardies Scottsboro actually has surpassed the hardies. Uh, In Girly as the best 1. Yeah. And it’s spelled the city or the town. It’s a little town. It’s spelled it right up there. The first time I said it, but not the second.

Holy shit, I need some coffee or something. Yeah. Like I got a nap and then I went to the gym and then I went back to sleep and went back up, but now I’m tired again. But I have lots of stuff to do and then I have to take my son for lunch somewhere and get my daughter some sushi.

So, she’ll be happy.

And reply. Yeah, to all these messages, these chicks that I’m friends with all over the world. Send me that I Like,

I wish I knew more chicks like that in person, like, in like local, yeah, you know.

But I guess that’s what I was saying earlier. Like I don’t ever get out so you’re not going to find those kind of ladies in factories.

Most chicks like that. They go to college. Actually. All every 1 of those. That I just mentioned earlier, they’re all either in College or college graduates 1 of them actually. Owns like a school. Like a language School. In Armenia. Yeah.

So,

Yeah, I do. I know some really interesting just cool people but

That’s also another reason I’ve been single for 4 and a half years. It’s like I just

You know.

I don’t get out, I don’t get out and meet people.

Well, I’m just going in circles now. All right, at this point, I need to get a shower.

And get on the road. And get breakfast because I’m really hungry now.

Thank you, please.