FRIDAY NIGHT

7:05 PM
Well.

Hey, I just got

Around. Hold on, brains.

I got home about an hour. Ago.

Yeah. And uh, I stopped By the Superstar market. And I got jalepeño hot dogs and I made 2 of them. I got me a.

This Fosters beer. Yeah, it’s a uh it’s been a long fucking week I thought you know 1 beer, what is this? Just like

How many fluid ounces?

What’s Australian beer but it says, it’s brewed in the USA. Everybody’s full of shit. Haha

I don’t know. It’s

It’s 25.

4 fluid ounces. Uh, 25.4.

I’ve been talking to my friend, Jessi Welles Yeah.

Uh, it’s a lady. And she is 1 of my best. Super best friends. And I was telling her about, Co-workers stuff.

Was telling her about Umbria. And Kito lost me Amigos.

Yeah, I lost my hes. Hold.

hombrito y Culito los mejores amigos Pero no puedo saber los secretos de ellos Jajaja Eso no. canción una canción Silvio Beatles no

Mi español no es tácito necesito.

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So that’s enough. Spanish. Okay. Yeah this app. You think this app fucks up? What I say in English? Okay. Yeah, look at that. Haha Look at all that. Um, but anyways, I was telling her about uh, there’s these 2 Guys. And um, They were like making fun of me and laughing 1 day. So it was like, okay, all right.

And so I just made up like this whole narrative about these 2 dudes and I sing to them in Spanish and she thought they were like, Hispanic guys. That’s like no, no. They’re just, they’re just little American dudes.

Uh they don’t I don’t think they speak any Spanish. They’ve probably like looked up what I’ve said because I say it all the time but I just sing to them. And it’s really funny. They’re my enemies. I say I call them.

mi enemigos y tengo 2 enemigos

Yeah. Anyways, it’s just stupid. And I was telling her about all that.

And it made her laugh. She needed to laugh.

This beard. Was really good. This beer was really good at first, but now that it’s

Starting, it’s like it’s not cold. I had it in the freezer. For a while. So It got super cold.

Uh,

Yeah, I’m going to have to edit this a lot. I think if I don’t pass out before I do, Now that it’s gotten warmer.

It, it’s it really tastes like. Crap.

I figured it’d help me sleep though, because I have consumed.

600 milligrams of caffeine today.

Oh my God. Lots of it, huh?

And I did, I went and worked out. Uh to the gym at the gym. I only did about 45 minutes though.

Um, and that chick was in there and

It’s just

She drives me so crazy and I’m afraid to look at her it’s like it’s 1 of those things where I should have talked to her already and now I’m just afraid if I do, she’s going to be mean to me. That’s what happened with helmet girl. And uh, you know, a ton of other chicks. I’ve worked with

You know, because I’m just this big stupid piece of meat. Yeah, that’s all I am. That’s all I am to factory worker chicks and the ones who also like the auxiliary people. I’m not going to get too deep into that though. It’s just like I don’t have feelings or anything. I’m not like a person.

I’m a dude. I guess. I don’t know.

It’s stupid.

Oh, but, you know, I haven’t, uh, I haven’t been ready to talk to anybody. I don’t know why I ever look at anybody. I can’t help it. It’s like, dang, she’s beautiful. And then it’s like, well, oops, not ready to talk to anybody and I freak out.

And, Shit, 4 and a half years. Being single.

And then I started to feel really stupid about even thinking about You know, stuff of course, I just I watched a couple of Facebook reels you know, about dating and all that crap is a huge part of most people’s lives. It really is. I think I’ve mentioned that in posts before. You know, like dating and sex. Romance, you know, all that shit, or whatever they call it, you know?

People are just That’s like, that’s the that’s what most people do. Yeah. They you know,

The sex urge is a very powerful force.

And um,

Yeah, people

Are at the mercy of it in a lot of cases. I mean, they do, they just lie and

Cheat and use each other for sex. And there’s like a whole you know, bunch of crap around it, you know, like

Dating protocols. Oh my God, I think  my ex sister in law because this all this stuff is this is like a whole another Like, I have no idea about any of this crap because I don’t care. I never have but it exists. But like you know you’re supposed to like wait 3 days after you get somebody’s phone number to call them or you seem to like you know eager or some shit that there’s a whole bunch of crap though. And uh my ex-sister-in-law was explaining this to me and my ex-wife 1 day. Because we’re just like, what

You know, but y’all it was like a whole culture around dating and stuff. Um, I’m I think it’s different, you know, it’s depending on

What country you’re in? Yeah. But like in America it’s like just so retarded. People that go out to clubs, you know, go out, clubbing.

And all this shit. I don’t know, people that hook up and You know.

That’s all they care about is getting some and I’ve never been like that. It’s just not To me all that shit’s gross. But, you know, like that’s just me.

I don’t know, but it is. Yeah, it is pretty fucking gross.

Which is another reason I don’t really talk to people, you know, at work everybody at a workplace. A lot of times all that’s all they do is pass each other around and You know, this, these co-workers are fucking and they’re fucking that person. And the supervisors fucking 2 or 3 other. You know, people and That was what freaked me out really bad at uh, The second car factory and at my last, uh, that the chicken plant job I had It was like, Wow because you could tell who was doing what you know and it was like

No. No thanks. Yeah, like that’s why I keep to myself.

But yeah, people do they love having sex with each other, you know.

I mean, I guess that’s actually kind of normal. But it’s not normal for me.

Um,

Yeah, that’s actually a huge reason why I don’t ever Talk to anybody.

But I make up songs about it and I make up songs about them. And You know, I put all my energies into like, the creative function

Even though, you know like the whole purpose of sex is to create. So like other people will make more people

But I know a lot of people who they just, you know, who yuck at the thought of having kids, but, you know,

They are all about the sex. And they define themselves fundamentally by what they have sex with.

I am so tired. I don’t know if I don’t know if I’m going to make it, I think I got to go. I got to get up early and do inventory in the morning. I mean, it’s just regular time. But it’s only going to be like half a day.

Oh yeah, my point I guess to all that crap up there it’s like You know, I’ll be all like, wow, a beautiful lady and then all that shit will hit me. It’s like, man.

This is so stupid.

It was like, my last girlfriend, uh,

Um, I looked the last few times I’ve, uh,

Kept up with her, I guess it’s been. Last year or the year before or some, at some point when her I weren’t together. But I was like, looking through her crap and the stuff she posts. She liked how she like dates. She called them mid people. I mean they like how people see each other, they just reduce Other people to like, quantified by their physical attractiveness. Not their character

It’s just, they’re just all, you know.

So gross to me, but she’s like, she goes for like, I guess mid-level Attractive people so she won’t get cheated on and she ends up getting cheated on. And I’m like, do you not realize how fucked up it is that you see people that way? You know, but that’s like a that’s like a there’s like a whole culture centered around this shit. It’s like wow. And no wonder everything’s so fucked up.

How people objectify. Each other.

And reduce like,

All that just to a Pleasure Principle, it’s like, you know,

There’s no meaning or Like anything deep or like, Magical about it. It’s like

Bullshit and people Revel in it all day and night and love it.

Totally horrible. Yeah.

God enough about that shit though, but that’s like, that’s I don’t know. I was just thinking about,

I told my friend Jessi Welles like some stories about co-workers and shit and she’s like oh I want to hear more stories later because I told her how tired I am. But uh

Gosh. Yeah. Just thinking about the whole world.

I’m so far removed from all that.

I would rather make up songs and do art stuff and

Spend time with my kids. So I’m going to do Sunday.

I’m supposed to help 1 of my roommates friends fix their fence, but I don’t, I don’t know. Uh, when exactly I’m going to do that. I don’t know if they’ll have all the stuff to do it this weekend or if it even matters,

I mean, I told them, I’d do it for practically nothing, you know. I’m not really I’d Almost Do It For Fun. I think that’s what I said. Yeah, it’s like just get the material.

It was, it was not going to take me that much to do it.

Half a day’s work at the most. But I have to let the posts, uh, oh yeah. I’ve gotta, like, put posts in the ground and Fix the fence. Fasten it to the posts.

Yeah, I like making things and doing things and like

I don’t know. But,

It would be cool to have a girlfriend but like just like 1 more you know, and then maybe that will evolve into like

My next wife and I don’t have to worry about it ever again.

Ideally, right, I mean I guess that was that was also like the whole thing with the post divorce.

Girlfriends. I had, uh,

4 of them and a fiance in a year and a half. Was it? Wait wait. Uh 3. Yeah. In a in a fiance in a year and a half.

And then I was single for a year and a half, and then I met Stephanie. And, you know that now I’ve been single for 4 and a half years. So,

Shit though. But yeah.

All this crap’s going through my brains but really, I’m just, I’m tired. And I drank that crappy beer. I wish I wouldn’t have gotten.

Sorry I’m staring at it. Like it’s, you know, it’s it’s just Kind of sad looking. It’s like I guess I am an awful old beer. Haha

7:23 PM
Piece of shit.

Oh gosh, a new time stamp. I guess it’s time to wrap this up and Edit the crap out of it.

And pass out. Because I have to wake up.

I probably don’t have to wake up, super early.

Usually, you know, I get up at like, 3 3:30 or something.

Uh, get a shower. Go to work. I usually get there by like 15 until 5. Or something. So I get a great parking spot but it’s Saturday. So

I might not get there till 6:30. Yeah I don’t I don’t really know. It depends on how I feel.

And it’s like half a day.

Yeehaw.

Thank you, please.