SUNDAY MORNING

3:33 AM
Hey. Ya.

Ya.

Ya, ya

Okay, well,

Um,

So, I’ve just been practicing my music.

Looking up, uh,

My co-workers Facebook pages. It’s kind of funny, really. It is Yeah. I don’t know. I know everybody looks at my stuff all the time.

I’ll be uh, I’ll be at work. I’ll be like walking somewhere or something and somebody will recognize me Yeah that’s crazy. It’s like oh my gosh, you look at my Facebook page. You have looked at my Facebook page.

Because there’s this Facebook group.

Uh, for my job and I did this. I think I, you know, I felt like I had fucked up.

When I was at Honda but it really wasn’t. It was just something that’s how uh,

Brittany found out who I was. Yeah, it was like cuz I posted in there. And the next like week or so her, and that Dumplin’s guy were fucking

Staring at me and he was pointing and laughing. And here where I work now.

It’s just funny because I didn’t do a lot of music and stuff.

When I worked at Honda, but I do now. Yeah, I’ve uploaded a lot of videos and I got 1 song I wanted to upload but I hate to say this, I’m kind of drunk and I’m too drunk to upload a video to make a video and upload it. But I got a really cool audio recording of it.

It’s on burrito. Yeah, I’m burrito.

But on burrito is Um, that

Fits.

Shit. I’ve got to load up my crap and go back up to my room so I can pass out.

Okay.

I guess, yeah.

I’ve got this sourdough bread.

It’s pretty good.

I thought I went to my room. I did.

I was in the garage. I got to finish the spread.

I got to finish this bread.

It’s taken too long to eat this bread.

Horrible. Terrible.

Okay, I think I think I’m done.

But yeah, I do I kind of

I got into my roommate Beer again, and I’m going to have to

Going to have to like,

Buy more. It was just Yuengling. And this, um,

Blood orange stuff that I can get anywhere. I’m going to do that. I’m going to replace them.

But I’m probably going to pass out.

It’s different though. Like when I just drink beer or whatever, I don’t want, I don’t get a terrible hangover. But if I Like the clubtail sodas or the Mike’s Hard lemonades or something like that. It gives me horrible. Horrible hangover.

Hangovers.

I think not enough hot dogs. I think I’ve eaten enough.

Hot dogs.

Oh, I am trying.

I’m drunk. I said. Like real stupid bad.

I don’t think I’m going to say anything. About like,

I’m just thinking about, you know, how I wish I had a girlfriend, but

So stupid, isn’t it? Well, I had that for 18 years and I just, I still haven’t gotten used 100% gotten used to it. It’s like dang, you know, I don’t have Somebody to just, like,

It’s there, you know. It can be Oh gosh, I’m like going to pass out. I’m going to Lay on their butt. Yeah.

Hahaha. I mean it was just it’s so crazy like I don’t have that and I haven’t found anybody, you know.

I just haven’t found that again, but I haven’t pursued it either.

That’s like the whole thing, you know, it’s just gosh love. I wish I wasn’t so messed up.

But I don’t at the same time, I think Intuitively of, like, I’ve been protecting myself from.

Other people who would just hurt me. Like I’ve mentioned in the last post that supervisor chick. Yeah. Uh like that would have been that. Just. Oh my goodness. That would have hurt me so bad. And the Twin Flame chick. You know, I talked about her way too much way more than she deserves.

And uh,

That probably would have completely destroyed me or something. Really really bad would have happened. I that’s what I feel like.

You know, if that would have been actualized because the Whole thing as it was.

Um, and the fact that she still pecks on my blog, she still stalks all my shit online. Is um, really like But she won’t ever message me. I can’t.

Message her ever again. It’s like you know what the hell is wrong with her?

I would have.

Spent eternity with her.

You know, I never ever in my life liked somebody that much Ever.

Ever in my life ever have, I liked anybody not even close to as much as I liked Brittany.

I know.

That’s so crazy. And I think about that, I’ve been thinking about that a lot the last few days. I usually like I haven’t been thinking about her that much but tonight too actually it’s like gosh, you

Crazy, you lady. We could have

Could have been the most wonderful. Magical, special, beautiful thing ever.

That bothers me, sometimes really bad.

But,

Not as much as it used to.

I used to cry so hard. I cried more about her than I cried over my ex-wife. Yep.

I did.

I’m so stupid about women.

But I only wanted to love you know, 1 forever. It’s so I’m not that complicated, dude. Yeah, it’s so fucking stupid.

But um, I don’t know. I guess I just wanted to make another blog post. The uh,

Well, I need I need to pass out and sleep. And sleep. So I can get up. I’m supposed to get the kids tomorrow, afternoon, for a lunch or dinner.

Or something. Yay. That’s it.

And, That. Is it?

Oh my goodness.

Thank you, please.