WEDNESDAY NIGHT

6:42 PM

Okay, let’s try this again. Haha

So, I was supposed to do karaoke today and I was excited about that. But they canceled production and ran us through lunch and then let us go. Like right after

So, I didn’t get to sing karaoke but I got the whole rest of the day off. And then I just got a message from the work app that we’re off tomorrow, too. Duo to a supply chain issue, which is, you know,

Um, it’s funny though like

Uh, I’m in a group.

A Facebook group for work and everybody is just blowing this thing up like celebrating not having to come in to work tomorrow and uh, they were celebrating getting off work early today.

And then this 1 guy’s like I guess it’s a guy, 1 person is uh, It’s like, yep. We’re going to get A lot of overtime now because of this and I am like I can’t wait. Yeah, because I do love overtime so much.

Because it’s more money. Yeah, I mean, I guess it’s more money in the long run. Even though I’m going to miss a day and a half of uh pay that’s fine. I need the time off.

I need the down time, like tomorrow is I’m going to sleep in.

Yeah, I’m probably going to stay up.

I don’t know what I’m going to do. I thought about going to the gym like here in maybe in a couple of hours.

Oh,

I said, but I don’t know, I’ve only got like fifty dollars.

Which, uh, at 1 time I would say that was like, plenty of money, but it’s not, it’s

I’ve got to get all the for my car. I’ve got to get oil. Yeah. Um I got to do that.

I woke up almost 2 hours ago. I took a nap when I got home at like, fuck 1 or something. And slept till about 5 and 5, maybe 5:30. Yeah. So I guess I’ve been Up for a little over an hour. But it’s flown the Hell by. Yeah.

One of my roommates I guess was boiling eggs and

I don’t. Know the circumstances. But apparently, she like, just left it boiling and boiled all the water out. I think that’s what happened. Um, and

It burned the eggs. Like I’ve never known anybody who’s done that before.

And the whole house smells like burnt eggs and it kind of sucks. And she I guess she could have totally burned the house down too, I don’t know. But the whole house smells horrible.

It’s awful. I don’t know.

I don’t know if she did it on purpose or what it said. Yeah. Oh man. Anyways, uh

I mean that kind of stuff happens.

Yeah, that’s what It was. Um, this is like my third blog post attempt. I went off way too far because somebody had posted a thing About chicks from work. Uh, or people from work like being married? And like somebody they know is married, but they see them in the parking lot with a co-worker like, you know, making out or something. I can’t remember what they called it, but it was like, that’s what they meant. I think. And, uh,

I was like, yeah, that’s why I don’t talk to chicks from work.

And this guy was like, I guess I’m just weak. I don’t know. I was like no no no you’re not. Some of the most beautiful women in the whole entire universe work where I work now, they do. There’s like, Oh my goodness. Um but I’m not going to go off too far about that. I talk about them all the time though. And Yeah, like you can go back and read where I’ve talked all about, you know, helmet girl. And The chick from the gym and the lady from, uh, Who drove me nuts for like the first 3 months I worked there. And then this other chick who, um, Usually, she comes in on Saturdays, when we come in on Saturdays and

Oh my gosh like don’t get me started right? But uh I just kind of told about why I don’t talk to chicks from work though. I elaborated. Yeah, it’s like this happened to me and I just talked about Tiffany

Having a boy from engineering, tell me about how I cried over. Haha A boyfriend. Yeah, she didn’t tell me about and I cried over her for 2 months straight, you know, and she’s in that group. And it’s like, and I have her blocked. I don’t know what else to say. I was really, really nice to her about all that. I just blocked her. Yeah, I unblocked her but then when I saw, she was in that group, I blocked her again.

And her husband and her bestie. Yeah, haha. Gosh, that was though that was almost 3 years ago. I can’t believe it. But what happened with her? That’s what set the stage for what happened with the Twin Flame chick. And uh,

Really, you know, when I think about it it’s like you know yeah Brittany really is that fucking awful. Like awful.

I don’t understand what she thought. I don’t know what was going through her head, you know?

Why she couldn’t, because she read a lot of my blog posts, where I talked about. I talked all about that about Tiffany and about how like, And instead of her being like, hey, maybe this guy’s, you know, really

Sensitive and been hurt really bad, he needs like, you know, maybe he doesn’t need a bunch of crazy shit.

Maybe there’s a really good reason and you know,

She decided she would be a piece of shit about it and, you know, I’m not I don’t want to talk about it. I’m just thinking it’s like cuz there’s a part of me that that it’s like yeah I really would like to meet somebody again but then it’s like, gosh.

I really don’t care. Like I used to and I mean, I’ll be like, oh yeah, I’d be great, you know, but

What I think about what all that Intel’s. Entails. Yeah. It’s like

It sure was a lot of trouble and effort and then, you know, it might not last a month or, you know, or we might be together for 2 years and then break up. And I don’t want to deal with that either.

I guess I’ve just been hurt too much and it’s not, it’s never been worth it except my ex-wife and that’s only because of the kids, And the dogs. I don’t have the dogs anymore, you know, but

That was the best part. Of my life like the kids and the dogs. That’s the happiest I’ve ever been. It’s when I was with the kids and the dogs, I still have the kids, you know but like

That’s the only thing that made my ex-wife worth it. It’s yeah. Otherwise, I would have I would like find some way to go back in time and never have met her. Yeah. But I mean that’s that’s how life goes, though, right? I mean, holy shit.

So, I really need to get out and go to like, well, they sell oil at the Dollar General. Yeah. I don’t know I got to put some oil in my car. I’ve got. Yeah I just picked up extra words or something. I’m going to check this group again. Everybody was going nuts about

Being off work tomorrow. And but only there’s only like, it’s only like 1 half of the plant, like the rest of the people have to come in and they’re all like, you know, why can’t the Lord do this for us?

And that’s what’s so funny, is a lot of the people bring like, you know, they’re like,

You know, praising the Lord and stuff. It’s funny. It’s like, yeah.

Oh, I’m laughing so hard, but it’s But really, I mean, it’s rough, dude. Car factory life is rough. It is so it’s like, you know, you finally get like a break like this. It’s, it’s nice. Especially when it’s unexpected.

People are talking about, uh, Like, You know, well, it just means we might have to work a Saturday and it’s like, I want to, I want to work a Saturday. I want overtime, I’ve gotten a lot of angry reacts to some of those comments before. Haha It’s really funny. Yeah, it’s it’s rough.

Sometimes.

Well, what else can I say? I don’t know. Um, I thought about going to the gym that I mentioned that already in this 1 this round or was that like the 1? I deleted. I don’t know.

I thought about going to the gym.

Here like in a few hours or something? And then working out a whole bunch. And then going home.

I’ve gotten like, I don’t know. Like my shoulders and chest and stuff has gotten. Um,

More defined, I guess I’m not going to say like bigger but like you know a lot of it looks better, I’m stronger. I’ve been working out, you know, regularly for the last 2 months. But not as hard as like I did when I worked at the second car factory.

A lot of people from work pop up on the people, I may know.

Yeah, on Facebook. And I think this 1 chick might be helmet girl.

She looks like her. I don’t know. I still haven’t gotten close enough to her to see her name.

Like I mean when I do I’m always looking at her face but I haven’t seen helmet girl in

Gosh weeks. Yeah. Like I think I saw her last week, but that was the first time I had seen her in a long time.

I just, I don’t know. I like, I guess it’s not that I’m I’m not ready or anything. It’s just when it comes down to it.

Maybe I really don’t want a girlfriend like I thought, you know, I just get lonely, but then it’s, I mean, all the crap that goes with it. I just mentioned that, right? Yeah, I was like God. That’s why I didn’t date in high school.

You know, and

It’s like,

I could just see it all. Not

You know, nobody took anything seriously either or and, uh, Of course, my ex-wife was the first Lady. I met who I could actually have a conversation with and

Having stuff in common and shit. Oh, common interests and all that to me is so important. Having the same like values and Um, Political, uh,

Stuff, right? And I have of, like,

Uh,

What’s the word? Why can’t I find the word in my brains? I have, uh,

Oh my gosh. Oh, I’m so dumb.

That’s like a whole post divorce, girlfriend phase, you know. It was like I’m not too good for anybody. That was kind of my thing and and so anybody I kind of had a connection with of any sort. I was just like, okay, and, uh, You can’t compromise anything like that if you really want. And, you know, if you want like a real relationship stuff like that, like Matters.

The only person I would have ever made an exception for that was would’ve been Brittany. Yeah. I mean she’s like because the stuff she liked Was just totally not. Like her taste in music and stuff was not even. There wasn’t a single thing that she posted that I listened to like ever. I remember her posting her Spotify playlist Um 90% of what was on there. I’d never heard of my daughter. Had to explain a lot of that to me. And I was like, really, wow.

7:02 PM
Yeah.

But um, here’s another update. Oh my gosh.

From work. Yeah, let’s check it out.

I wonder what’s actually going on. I guess I’ll get the The details later.

I have 3 Rockstar Energy drinks. Yeah. I had 4, but It’s crazy when stuff like that happens like they’re just like hey whoops we’re out of parts.

You know, but I was I was really excited about karaoke. I had like 4 different songs picked out. I was going to do if they, you know, depending on what was available.

And uh, I just, I had it all in my head, you know? Because a lot of people go in that cafeteria. And I was going to like make eye contact with everybody.

And uh, embarrass my regular co-workers. Haha I was, oh my gosh.

Because I am a performer and a lot of people who like, who know me until they see me like like on stage or something, they have no idea. They’re just like, Yeah, I mean I am really awkward and introverted but all the all that comes out when I’m on stage, When I was doing Open Mic nights last year. Um, I was so much. I’m so big and loud and crazy.

It’s so funny.

I have so much fun. Doing that kind of shit. And even at work though, like I run around like a crazy person and not every single day, but a lot of times I get I just start singing and yelling and Uh, the guy, the 2 Guys Hombrito and Culito they, um,

I haven’t been singing to them this week and uh, Hombrito finally started coming back into the bathrooms. Like uh, It’s like he was hiding from me or something, I don’t know. And uh, another 1 of my co-workers, who Is one of my pals, cuz he was staring at at him. Hombrito haha

He was like, why is this motherfucker staring at me? So he threw this rubber part thing at him and hit him in the back. And like I don’t know what.

You know, I don’t know. It’s just co-workers it can be funny, but It’s like, I, I don’t know. Um, Like the guy from Target, who I yucked, I just got tired of it. That’s kind of the thing. I just got tired of like I got all the songs. I wasn’t singing anything new to them anymore. It was like well, the, you know, Lost my hardest Amigos. And uh, Yeah. Los Mejores Amigos

Uh, but I just got tired of it and it’s like, It’s like it gives them some kind of weird validation. It’s like why is it even you know, why isn’t he yelling crazy shit in Spanish at me this week? You know. Haha

But I mean I’m just fucking around anyways, it’s just like yeah.

But it gets sometimes, you know, it runs its course, it’s like, yeah, you were special for a couple of months but now, you know, it’s over.

Ha, ha, ha ha ha. I guess I could though I worked out the Hombrito song on guitar. Um, last weekend, I worked that out. So,

I might actually try to do that.

I don’t know if I’m going to I really feel like I need to go to the gym, you know, even though.

Um, I’m hungry. Yeah.

I’ll go to the gym later. I mean, like, if I fall asleep and wake up at like, 2 or 3, I’ll go to the gym.

And I can come back home. And sleep.

This is turned into a pretty long post. I mean I had a post about this long already and I realized I went too far

Yep.

Thank you, please.