8:39 PM
Well, I just got back from The Dollar General? Yep. And I got hot dogs. I got more hot dogs because they’re easy.
And I’m hungry. And
I don’t have a lot of money left.
But I have
A lot of this coffee.
Well, maybe a quarter of the bottle left if that I don’t. Yeah about. Yeah, about a quarter. And uh, hell yeah.
Jalepeno hot dogs.
Yep.
Uploading crap with my through my Google Drive.
Let’s see.
Damn.
So I did 2 things, I guess 1 wasn’t that complicated. It’s this uh Really pretty guitar.
Uh, playing with some bass, I put Bass to it. It’s like
Gosh, I think I made that up.
Yeah, at the first apartment, I lived in, with my ex-wife in Jacksonville in 2000 and 3. Yeah, I’ll post it.
2003. Oh my God. Yeah, that was 22 years ago.
That was a crazy year.
- Almost a 2023. You have 2003.
Um, was pretty crazy.
It might have been 2004. Yeah, In 2003 I was playing bass with this band called The skankabillys.
And actually, that’s the band that played uh, a couple of shows with That Tiffany chick. Um, I talked about in a blog post yesterday, I guess.
Her band she played bass. In this band called the mini skirt jerks, you know, they were like local, you know Huntsville area. Fairly well known. I think the main chick who sang, her or something, whatever she did. Uh, in that group plays bass, for this local like cult following band called cancer slug. Yeah, and I never could.
I never could get into them. I tried, you know, because a lot of my friends were
But um,
Yeah, gosh. Uh, we played this show. It was an well, it was like the final round of an open mic night competition, I didn’t realize it was a competition.
And we got in a big fight with a bunch of Frat Boys Well, I didn’t. Um but the singer of the skankabillys, like got into it with this dude and beat the shit out of him. And his girlfriend jumped on top of him to save him and he kicked the shit out of her too. Haha But It was everybody was just standing around watching it like wow. Um, it was over a bunch of dumb crap. Everybody was drunk.
And uh, Yeah.
It was just all this was like flooded back, what happened was uh you know, the band The Cramps which is another band I never could get into that all my friends loved. I tried, you know, I did, they had like a couple of, you know, a few good songs that were cool but
Some of their stuff just made me cringe. But uh, I think Lux interior was the guy’s name. And he would put a microphone in his mouth and like make all crazy noises and run around and that’s what, Our singer was doing and this guy it must have done something to him, but this 1 guy, he was like y’all need to get your ass in church. And then it just it just escalated from there. Yeah, it was so stupid though. I wish I would have just left. I started to leave because I had class the next day.
And I wished I would have because really looking back it was fucking
Embarrassing to me, I don’t know. It really was And we played, I don’t know, probably half a dozen more shows after that and, Everybody. But me and the drummer I guess was just the singer and the guitar player. They got on drugs really bad and moved to Memphis. I think they were actually already on drugs pretty bad, they got on drugs worse. Yeah. And uh,
Well the guitar player is, my friend Justin? Yeah, he still lives in Memphis. I mean he’s moved around a bunch but he moved. Back to Memphis, which is a pretty cool City.
He’s always done like really cool stuff. He lived in Mobile and then he went to Korea with his wife and taught English for A few years, I think something. And they had a kid over there. They had their baby. And came back to the States. I think. And then moved to Memphis. I had his uh, I hosted his bachelor party. Yeah. He’s 1 of my very best friends. But not like Eric or Brandon, he like, You know, me and him like we don’t really
Get into it about anything because he’s actually, you know, he’s a Really good person.
Probably my all-around best friend from When I was, uh, younger and still to this day, honestly like him and my friend Alessio And then all my crazy cousins that you know, I just I don’t know. And I’m sure there’s a few more. I’m just my brains but uh,
I’m trying to wind down from all the fucking caffeine. I had, I think I was reading
Uh, the bottle.
Of coffee that I got has. I stopped around 3 p.m.
About 800 million of caffeine in it. Million grams milligrams. Yeah, of caffeine.
That’d be a lot of caffeine. Ain’t 100 million grams.
- It’s, I don’t know it just it’s been picking things up. Really stupid.
I think it’s me. I think it’s the way I’m talking because I am
I’m I’m pretty whacked out. Yeah.
But hey, it’s Friday tomorrow and I get through tomorrow and that’s it, the weekend. I don’t have to work this weekend either and that’s the thing I worked last weekend so that it’ll probably even out Yeah, I worked 4 hours. So like the day and a half Its time and a half for half a day.
I guess that’ll make up.
For like what 6 hours, so it won’t be so bad what 6 hours out of 12 hours. So it’ll just be like I missed 6 hours of work instead of 12 hours of work, right? Yeah.
Oh my goodness. I could have came in today, but sometimes you just need a break. Yeah, I love my job, though. I really do And I love the place, I work and everything. I just you know, Hell, I’m there. More than I am anywhere else. I get to work 2 hours early and sometimes I’ll stay an hour. You know, after or so, at the gym, And then I come home and
Uh, but I had a really productive day today. I was very, I’m very proud of myself. I feel so accomplished right now.
My voice is fucked up, though. But I think that’s from Doing mean old lady from Logistics that was uh, that’s a hard. Song to sing. Yeah, but I really do have to stop smoking. I totally bought a cigar though because my nerves are all retarded. From the caffeine, I’ve had.
I ought to just start buying these because they cost as much as a damn, uh,
They cost as much. Uh less actually than um energy drinks or those Starbucks coffee drinks. I think they’re 2 for 6 dollars at the RaceTrac gas station, you know?
And I think this is what I bought was about 5 dollars.
It was and those hot dogs. Sure were good. Yeah, they were
But I guess this weekend, I’ll work on more music. I’m going to try to go to my son’s soccer game. I need to but, you know, if I don’t have the money to I don’t, I’m probably not going to have the money to take them for dinner or nothing. I get paid next week. So next week I can. Yeah, next week. Next weekend. Thanks.
But I need to do some maintenance to my car. I need to get the new tires. I need 3 new tires. 2 on the driver’s side and the spare. And then, um,
Need to get the oil changed and check all the fluids and stuff and
Uh,
Not next week, but the next when I’m on nights I’m going to take it in and see why, you know, get him to fix, where it’s leaking oil. It’s probably a gasket around the oil pan if I was to guess.
And just have him go through it. Or what I’d like to do is uh, have him change the belt, it’s just 1. So I’m putting team belt. Serpentine. Yeah, belt and, uh, just like the 2006 Corolla I have And uh, had yeah.
I wrecked it.
Oh, it was like that was 1 of my favorite cars ever, too. It was my ex-wife’s. Until she got the van.
That was a cool van too. Yeah.
She wrecked it. She hit a dog, a big dog on the interstate. Yeah.
I don’t know how long ago that was had to been like, 2018, or 19? Yeah.
I think it was like 2019 or, you know, it might have even been 2020. I don’t remember. Um, it was after the divorce. I was looking through my Facebook memories earlier and she was all on Facebook, I guess she reactivated her account but I was I was like, huh? So, I clicked on her profile and It showed all the things that I had posted on her wall like throughout the years and stuff. And it was like, dang, you know?
I’m just glad she stopped reading my blog. Yeah, that was starting to like, I mean, it was it was weird. It, it was starting to get a little weird. She started like policing it and Uh, Yeah, I guess that was that time. Well, I guess It was before the Christmas holidays of 2023, I think.
It was either it was either before or right after I think it was before And uh I had stopped in to see the kids and I didn’t think I’d be in there you know I ended up staying for like 45 minutes or something. I just figured I was going to go in there and hug the crap out of them and leave. So I left my car running and she gets into my car and goes through my stuff. And I knew she did because I could smell her that was when she that was before she quit smoking and I smelled her black leather jacket and cigarettes. In my car and I was like, what the fuck. Somebody’s been in my car, she’s been in my car, of course, she’s been in my car, you know? And I called her out on it a couple days later. And, of course, you know, I’m crazy and She denied. Yeah, doing it. She was like, no, I was eating tacos or some bullshit. And it’s like, you know,
Why can’t you just admit that you did? You were just, you know, snooping around because you fucking you still think like Oh my gosh, I don’t know. But we got in a big fight about that kind of. And I was like, you know, you don’t care about me, you just want to judge me.
That was really bad. That was, you know, 2023 was a really messed up year And she did not help. Yeah. She’s finally like, gotten to be super fucking nice to me now. But Oh my God.
It’s like I had it’s like
It was weird because it’s like, I have to fit her like, idea of who she thinks I’m supposed to be. Which was the whole 18 years we were together, you know? And uh she’s sort of like it’s weird. She like boxes people in and in her head and if they deviate from that, you know, like
It’s it becomes an issue. It’s really crazy. But she was still acting like that towards me a lot more than I realized.
8:59 PM
Like, you know, finally she stopped
I don’t think she’s even, she’s I think she might have poked around on this blog when I first published it. But She hasn’t she doesn’t read it regularly. Like I don’t even know if she’s read anything in the last few months.
I know, Brittany has and like, that was a big thing her and I got into it about me, and my ex-wife was that, she told me, I was making all that stuff up in my head and I’m like, you fucking have no idea. You’ve never met this chick. You’ve never seen her in person. You have no idea unless you’re in on it and she was like, what do you mean in on it? You know, how delusional and crazy that sounds and it’s like, no, it doesn’t actually cuz uh, You would probably do that to be funny. I remember like she used to do all kind of fucked up. Shit to my friends like my friend Eric. And my friend, another 1 of my friends like she would just get in the middle of all their crap and start a bunch of shit. And then laugh about it, you know? Yeah, of course you. I mean, you know, she did have a really bad drinking problem.
That I didn’t realize was that bad until It was way too late. Yeah, really. Until after we had kids, I realized. Wow, you know. She really does have a huge problem, but she’s been sober now for years. You know, that’s a big reason why I don’t talk about her that much.
And I really hate to go off about her now but it’s just. Yeah, I was just thinking it’s like man, I’m glad she doesn’t read. I don’t know. Maybe she realized that.
Something I don’t know what she realized or why she stopped exactly but I’m glad she did. You know, I care about her a whole bunch.
But I, I totally wouldn’t put it past her to like, You know, somehow just just to fuck with me just to drive me even crazier because she could, you know, I think that’s
Where do I even start? I know. This is another reason. I don’t talk about her because I’ll go off on these crazy rants about it.
Oh, that woman put me through so much, hell, like that’s not even words aren’t even like I can’t even I’m going to have to stop talking about it. Yeah, it’s like God, 18 years.
Anyways um holy shit. Yeah, I’m just going to leave all that. It’s like yeah I still sometimes
I really need to not.
Talk about this crap anymore, you know, it’s I guess it is still relevant as in like, I’m just glad she doesn’t
Read my blog anymore on a regular basis. Because it was weird because we aren’t married anymore. I guess that’s why it was, you know, it was an issue up until uh,
Fairly recently and oh gosh, don’t even get me started on how she treated me when Covid happened. Yeah. Like, oh my God.
My friend, Eric. Um he you know, they were all like super, you know, vaccinated and uh, like they had all the they they followed the same crazy, protocols that my ex-wife did and I went over there to their house 1 day. I was thinking it was 1 day, I wasn’t working because we didn’t get like, they, uh, We rotated. I was working at the chicken plant as a QA then and they would rotate everybody would get 1 day off a week and that went on for a couple of months. And it was my day off of the week, and I went over and hung out with Eric and we were drinking Coronas, and we were like, haha, you know. Posting stuff on Facebook. And I don’t know. Like 1 of her, it was probably her Mom. I was still friends with her sister and her mom on Facebook and 1 of them tipped her off. Not even it was even that big of a deal but I was, you know, hanging out and doing, you know, just hanging out with my friend Eric and uh, she messaged me a bunch of really mean crazy stuff and was like, you’ll never see the kids again and all this shit.
Oh God. It’s like, you know,
I’m, I don’t know. I don’t know who. She was my ex-wife, you know, for I mean, I just I don’t know where she thought and I tried to explain to her. I’m like they’re all vaccinated and all that crap. They do all the stuff too. They never leave their house. You know, like I only go to work and back. I’m actually more of a risk to them than they are to me. And uh, it was so stupid. It was the most stupid shit.
Not as stupid though, as uh, Her telling me back in 2019 that I should give up my parental rights to the kids, so her husband could adopt them. Yeah. I’m like what do I say to that? You know.
Just gosh and I’ve got all this stuff screenshotted like, on my other phone on 1 of my other phones like all this crazy stuff, where she threatened to take the dogs to the pound, if I didn’t get them by a certain date and all this dumb shit. It’s like, you know,
Anyways, God why am I even talking about this, haha? How?
Oh shit. Okay um but I am I’ve had a really productive but the caffeine I think. Yeah, it’s the caffeine.
That’s all the coffee I had talking.
Um,
Hope I can wind down soon and fall asleep because, you know, tomorrow is work.
Yay. Alright.
Yay. Okay. Haha. Thank you. Please.
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