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Hey well.
God, my voice. Yeah. I got 1 Song tracked.
It was the, uh,
Feeling the meat.
Today song, yeah.
Haha. Um, it’s about this chick. I’ve mentioned this. Yeah, before that I worked with the the chicken plant.
And uh,
She was as tall as me. And she lived. In Pisgah, Alabama.
But she was from Nebraska.
I don’t think I’m going to get the vocals done tonight, though. I thought about like, going out to the garage later?
I mean I might do that. If I fall asleep. And wake back up because I am getting Getting pretty sleepy. I don’t know what uh, Tomorrow, I’m going to get into Tomorrow, because the people I did a bunch of stuff for last Sunday. They haven’t, I don’t know if they want me to come tomorrow or not. She just straight up called, and woke me up last. Last Sunday morning at like 7:00. She was like, hey are you coming? I’m like well, yeah, gosh, I sure did get drunk though.
I did I worked. Oh man, I was so hung over. Oh, and then I went and got the kids for a big crazy adventure, but I’m not going to get drunk tonight because I don’t. Want to.
I don’t drink regularly anymore, thank God. But I did like the summer like June.
And a big part of July, I was a drunk piece of shit. Yeah.
Now I get drunk like,
Once a month.
And I might have like, a couple of drinks, every 4 or 5 days. Yep, so that’s a huge Improvement. Not every single night, you know, Well, I’ve been going to the gym. And I’ve been, uh,
You got that, I guess. I just haven’t been wanting to drink.
Still got to quit smoking though. I don’t think my vocals are ever going to get better. If I don’t.
It’s crazy. But I also I guess from Thursday
I threw my vocals out, doing the mean old lady. From Logistics song.
And the
Feeling the meat song is,
It’s kind of hard to sing too, these songs are in standard. Yeah, so it’s like It’s I’m using a different part of my vocal cords. I don’t usually use I used to use all the time though.
I used to sing a lot of covers when I was a teenager. But uh, yeah. Like we had a band. We were the house band. Me and my friends, my friend, Justin And my friend Brandon and Justin’s little brother Ryan Uh, who’s a drummer? I don’t know. We were, like we were the cool band around back in the day and we were the house band at this Cafe that everyone hung out at everybody from Gadsden. And Attalla and Boaz, wow it actually picked those words up.
You’d even get people from like Jacksonville and Anniston and we got hooked up with some guys, they were called grey Tuesday. And uh, they were like we showed them up. Every time we played with them, it was fun. We, we were so much. We had so much crazy energy. And uh, I don’t know. We got sick of Playing covers. We kind of had a like, a A split all like, Ryan just wanted to be a regular rock band. And Justin wanted to be like, weird and crazy. And I wanted to be.
More weird and crazy than normal, but
Not as. I was kind of stuck in the middle with that but we ended up uh,
Ryan left and formed a rock band, that was actually pretty good. But I think everybody all the I’m not really sure what happened. I know that everybody on drugs. Real bad. Like, around the year 2000. My whole friend group of a dozen or so people. Yeah not just the band.
2000 That’s when I met my ex-wife. Everybody got on drugs and I got You know, a girlfriend. Haha My first real girlfriend, you know, And it lasted for 18 years
But she was and I spent Most of my time with her and I really wasn’t into drugs though. I was into like doing stuff. But I just I didn’t care about drugs and I still don’t yeah.
I really don’t. So
But after Ryan left. We like we took a long extended break, though, it was just this big stupid thing. Everybody got burned out on each other, and the band, we were called Eunich, but we reformed about 6 months later, and wrote a bunch of songs and it was really weird. I wish I had some of that stuff like the recordings that we did. I wish I still had them. You know I recorded them on an 8 track. I bought this piece of shit fostex. Uh, 8 track recorder, that had a zip Drive. For storage. And it was, it was like
You know, about a month after I bought that, it was almost a thousand dollars. They came out with, uh, 1 that had a hard drive in it and they dropped the price. Several hundred dollars. Actually, it was, it was like 8.99. Was it 7? Yeah, I think it was 799. This was the summer of 1999 When I got it. Okay. So yeah. Um, Yeah. And after I bought that, you know, plus tax, it was You know.
And shipping and everything. I guess it was probably closer to $900, but they dropped it down to 499 and included a goddamn hard drive and like a month after I bought it. I was so angry. But it worked, it sounded, you know? Didn’t sound as good as the stuff I make. Now, of course, I’m still using 20 21 year old recording software. Yeah, it’s crazy. 2004 was that long ago.
But we, uh, we we started writing our own stuff, we played like a couple of covers and we went and played a show with the same guys Grey Tuesday like, hey, we got our band back together. Can we play a show with y’all? And they’re like, yeah, and everybody was expecting us to play like, you know, all the covers like the late 90s rock. This was 1999. Yeah. Not like, Like, uh, what was popular back then? We played a lot of Rage Against the Machine and live. We did a couple of those songs. I hated that fucking band, though. And uh,
Radio head and we played Marilyn Manson haha we did some cool 9 Inch Nails and Beatles covers and we covered a couple of tools songs, you know, just all the basic shit. But we didn’t do like anything too like the new metal stuff was starting to come out and Like uh, the drummer his friends. We got a new Drummer yeah. Which who he got on heroin a couple of years later but uh,
Gosh, drugs. Fuck drugs. Yeah. He was like the best drummer I ever played with. It was really sad. But anyways, uh
We played these crazy ass weird songs. I bought a 7 string guitar which you know, that? That was a thing back then. But we didn’t play like, Korn stuff you know, I used it for the low end. And we just made some of the heaviest.
Weirdest songs ever. I so much wish that I had the recordings
Uh, We because I think we recorded about 4 of them. And we had this 1 song called stab the Yuppy that had a real, uh, cool.
Like the verse part was Jazzy. Yeah, I used some crazy Jazz chords and Justin played his keyboard over it. Like it was kind of just sounded so trippy and cool and then it turned into this heavy crazy fucking riff. That was in. Uh, yeah. B standard. That was most of the ones though were in a Dropped a, you know, on a 7 string.
I thought when I actually played in b,
It was so heavy you know our bass player Brandon was the bass player. He had a 5 string bass and we had uh like that was when we had started to get new gear and we all had like big amps and shit. And so it just sounded so good and our drummer was way better than Justin’s little brother was, you know, he was just a regular Rock drummer. This guy was like a
Like a technically like, I mean this guy was like fucking
Phenomenal. I don’t know. I was trying to think of somebody to compare him to his style was kind of like the guy, the drummer of the deftones mixed with like The guy from helmet.
Uh, And acid bath. Yeah, like all that shit. He did the double bass all crazy, too. And Ryan could never do that stuff. He didn’t care, he just wanted to play like I think I think some of the songs, he liked, he liked uh what’s that band Fuel? You know and just You like just the most normal? Most popular fucking, you know, rock music of of that time period. And uh, he was so normal to compared to like the the rest of us. But uh,
Yeah, he wasn’t like bad or anything. He, he played the drums really, really hard. And he could get a lot of like the sound Dynamics. He got, we sounded good. We sounded really great. Yeah, like he didn’t suck by any means, but he didn’t have a lot of technical skill. He couldn’t play like offbeat things. And he would get mad if we tried to like, get him to play anything too. Complicated because he couldn’t do it, you know. But everything he played sounded good. And uh, that was
I don’t know what he’s. He has some kind of like job. He has a college degree for now. I don’t know exactly what it is but
Um,
I’m just thinking, yeah, the only 2 people who really do music anymore is me and Justin. Like from, you know, Uh, Eric does stuff like He doesn’t really do anything serious anymore which he hasn’t in 15 years. But uh,
Yeah, since Odin
But um, shit.
That’s when I stopped playing covers. Yeah, that was my point. That whole big long story was that was yeah, we just started. I started writing my own stuff. And that lasted about 3 months and uh Justin got bored with it. And quit. Got on drugs worse, he’s not anymore. Like yeah he’s he doesn’t, you know, he grew up, everybody grew up. Or they died. Usually, that’s a lot of got a lot of dead friends but um,
Brandon and Mikey and I formed this other band called analog cracker and I’ve talked about that. Yeah, I think I actually have made, I guess probably, 2 months ago, I made that this big crazy post about all that but um,
I really came in to like, songwriting with that band because
It had no limits and anything we thought up it. Uh, it sounded it fit, you know, it really did. And then uh, Mikey left. He got into it with For some reason we thought it was a good idea to bring 1 of our friends, who could barely play bass, we figured he could learn. You know it wasn’t that hard because the singer Brandon was the singer of analog cracker. He wanted to uh
Jump around and run around the stage. We played several shows, we were starting to play shows and do all kind of shit. And, uh, so we brought this guy in and he was our friend though. So, you know, we all loved him at first and, uh, he just couldn’t do it. He couldn’t even tune his bass, it was so crazy and he would get mad, he would be like, real, like, Reactionary to everything. We did just to be a dick like cuz he was into punk rock and
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Uh, I just tried to keep things, you know, running. But uh, you know, he would get real. Rebellious about everything and it’s like well, dude, you know, it’s weird. I’m kicking him out and it was this big thing because it, he acted, like it was this huge betrayal that. We kicked him out and it’s like, dude, you don’t even want to be here. You know, like tune your bass, you know, we’ve been, I think we, we played together for about 7 or 8 months with him. It was so crazy and uh bless his heart though he’s dead now. Yeah. But it was so like,
That could if that hadn’t happened, but Mikey got mad because he like moved in over at this house. Everybody was living at and started.
I think it had a lot to do with this chick too. Yeah, it’s uh, gosh, all this stuff was so long ago. But um, Mikey had enough. He’s like, I’m not staying there anymore and we could have figured something out. But he went back to, uh, Hueytown. Uh, with his mom and got on heroin and that was it like he came back a few times, we tried to like get him, you know, to it, just he wouldn’t, we couldn’t get anything out of him anymore. After that, that’s all he wanted to do. And it was really sad. Yeah. But uh we started this other band and I got to be the singer of it, but it had a lot of like Stupid crap. Undermining it. Oh, just the dumbest shit. It was just so much. Stupid, fucking drama. This 1 guy named Chris, he played guitar and Brandon played bass, and that’s when I met Eric. Yeah, but this Chris guy he was all like, He was just a piece of shit. He really was he he would talk shit about like me to Brandon and talk about shit about Brandon to me and, you know, he and I had like a
Not really sure.
That was always a lot of tension with me and Brandon though, because he was jealous of like He had came from being the singer. He liked to be in the front person but he didn’t have a lot of charisma. And I did, I do and it’s like, and I’m, I was a way better front, man and that pissed him off. It was already a lot of like tension there, even in school. You know, he was always like trying to compete with me about crap like with, you know, he never could, it was weird, it’s like
You know. Don’t get me started on that. Yeah, like
Yeah, we hardly ever talk anymore? We talk like we reconnected a few years ago but it’s I don’t know, I don’t know what the hell he’s got going on now, he probably thinks I’m a stupid asshole. I noticed he had uh, added that Tiffany chick 1 day and I was like, really and I had told him all about all that. I thought about adding his ex wife. Haha after I saw that. So there’s no telling, you know, he probably
There’s no fucking telling.
But oh, Cuz I don’t, last time I tried to talk to him, he he got all weird. Yeah, it was weird. So Gosh, I haven’t talked to him in almost a year.
But anyways.
That’s when I stopped really caring about playing other people’s music. Yeah, that was my point. I just I got into making my own songs or making up songs with a band and
But like cover bands and stuff they uh, There’s still a huge market for live music people playing covers they you know and they pay money. Like I know a guy I’m friends with and he just takes his acoustic guitar around and he gets you know a couple hundred bucks a gig and he’ll fucking play every every night somewhere you know. And that’s how he makes his living.
And then there’s some bands that make a gimmick, you know, make a lot of like make it fun to do cover songs. Like the velcro is The Velcro Pygmies? Yeah, my ex-wife was a huge fan like she loved them.
So was her and her sister and they were they were funny like I went and saw them 1 time with them and I was like, wow they are, they’re a lot of fun, especially if you’re drunk.
But I just can’t I can’t get into covers and like I’ll do a cover song. If I can make my version of it like uh I do with King of the Road or abolene. You know.
But it’s so much more fun to make up my own songs.
Yeah, it is and I always get inspiration. My most fun inspiration. Usually comes from co-workers. Yeah. That’s where like, uh, The mean old lady from Logistics song, like that’s why I’m doing this coworker album, there’s so many. I counted up 30 songs. The other night I had, uh, And I think there, I know there’s some more, I haven’t thought of
That stuff is so much fun. That’s why I like working at these crazy factory jobs.
Because, I mean it they pay generally like more than you know, other entry-level types of work but
Uh,
I lost my train of thought. Yeah, but I get a lot of uh I guess that was my train of thought. Haha I get a lot of cool. Like song ideas and art ideas just from the Dynamics, like the social dynamics of factories, especially huge Like places like car factories and stuff.
Oh man, I came up with so many songs at Honda and where I’m at now. Yeah. Like I’ve I’ve There’s 7 months. So uh It’s just been.
Yeah, there’s all the demonita songs, there’s like Well, you know, 3 or 4, I can’t remember off the top of my head and then there’s like, 3 on Hombrito songs.
And then I kind of laugh to myself because, uh, I mean,
I don’t know how these people really see me. It’s so funny like
I’m like this, like
Well, this 1 Guy, uh gosh yesterday I told me I was the Nazis guy he ever met. And uh, yeah. I know it. Did it picked that up. Picked it up that way. I was the nicest guy. Yeah. Like the Nicest person he’s ever met.
Haha.
Um,
But so many people tell me that but I’m like, you know, I’m probably not, I probably don’t seem that nice to those guys off. Like from the other line, you know, the Hombrito and his
Uh,
Mejor, amigo. Yeah. Jajaja
I don’t know.
Those guys, I think those guys hate my guts but they were making fun of me. Like that’s where all that came from. I heard him making fun of me. I was like, I’ll show you guys making fun of I’ll make fun of y’all. You know, it’s like yeah. Yeah, me! And that’s uh that’s what’s so funny is that that stuff just is never unprovoked. There was a lady. Uh I worked with at the chicken plant last year and her name was April. And she was so mean to me and she would yell at me and cuss at me and think that was so funny and because uh, I’m real like jumpy. Especially when when I’m around loud, like
Mean loud, women because of my Ex-wife and she was she was so mean and loud and she would just come up behind me and start yelling shit. And try to scare me and stuff and I just had all of that I could take you know because she thought it was funny that I reacted the way I did like because I am really easy to scare. Cuz I’mv partly not here, you know I’m always off somewhere else so it’s like you know boo. But I also am still Traumatized by all the crap my ex wife did. And I just, I have a visible reaction to that.
And it’s just,
Retarded but uh I started messing with her and this 1 Guy like he didn’t know, he wasn’t there when it all started. So he didn’t know what the hell was going on. I would hold my hands up over my face. You know yuck yuck no It’s April and I would sing I started making up songs and stuff just I wanted to Give her a taste of her own. Damn medicine is what I did and it worked. She stopped messing with me. It was it was great. But this guy was like, did she do anything to you? I’m like of course she fucking did, dude! Why don’t you ask her? Ask her what she did and he you know he just he didn’t say anything else to me after that.
But it was. Yeah, I got a few songs out of that too. She’s somebody’s Mama. Hahahaha
I don’t know.
This has turned into a long post.
Oh, it’s Saturday night. Yeah.
It’s hard but I’ve done a lot of stuff today. Yeah.
I have.
My ex-wife, let me borrow 20 bucks and that was great. And I got I mentioned that in my last post and and then um, My friend, 1 of my friends, who usually lets me borrow 20 bucks,
Uh, she got with me later on and gave me that. And I was like, Yay, so I have like $30 now.
Left.
And,
I just ate Ramen, so I’m not hungry. And I’m winding down, I think I’m just going to go to sleep. And if I wake up, you know, at some weird, hour I’ll probably take my stuff out there.
Well, I think I don’t know, but I need to record the vocals to that song.
Oh, I have so many. Yeah.
It takes a lot of energy sometimes to record the shit because it’s like I’ll have to It’s just all up in The Ether, swimming around all
Uh,
Chaotic. I don’t know. I was going to use the word discordant, but that’s not, that’s not exactly. It’s
That sounded stupid. Um, But I have to, like, bring it, I have to grab it, you know. And it’s hard too sometimes it’s hard to but it takes so much. Sometimes it takes a lot of energy to To make it finite, you know, it’s a uh, in some into some tangible medium.
Right? Yeah, I mean a sound is tangible because it touches your ear drums.
The word tangible comes from the word Tangere which is Latin. Yeah, for to touch and those uh, Don’t tread on me, you know, the flags those people have that says noly
Uh, Noli me Tangere
Means. Don’t touch me. And I remember when I, I saw that and I told My ex wife. That’s what it meant in Latin. And she was she laughed for like 10 minutes straight. I had never seen her laugh that hard at anything in my life. I was like, no. That’s literally what it says. It says, don’t touch me. You know, people take a lot of liberties with Latin translations. They sure do. Oh my goodness.
But it does. It takes a lot of energy sometimes. And I’ll do a take. The Energy has to be right too. I can’t a lot of times I can’t like record it and then go back to a part and do it over. I have to do the whole thing. I have to play the whole thing perfectly at least once. Yeah, and that’s how I track a song. And once I get that down, then I can do the rest of it. However, usually You know.
With a bass, I’ll do like punch ins You know, sometimes because I’ll totally fuck up a Bass part because I can’t always remember. The first or, you know, the 10 first 10 times I’ll try to record it like the exact structure of the song. You know, it’s funny but because when I’m doing it with a guitar, I can sing it and play it while I’m doing it on guitar, but I can’t really do that on bass.
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Bass has more like I can play Rhythm, right? Like, like a rhythm guitar and sing, but I can’t play lead guitar and sing and I can’t play bass and sing because I play counter Melody. A lot of times with Bass. Yeah, I can’t really sing because my focus is on how and what is all bass. I couldn’t ever be like the bass player vocalist. I could never do that.
But, you know, singing is probably my all-around favorite thing to do. I don’t It’s just, I’m so loud. I’m so loud. When I recorded those vocals Thursday, when all the roommates, I had a window right there. When all my roommates were gone. I was like, oh my God, I have to do these vocals. And uh, I did, you know, but I’m so glad I got to record them. I did 4 layers and I was so loud when I did it. This song Feeling the meat isn’t as like, I don’t I’m not going to have to be that loud with this song, but I still, I’m still very loud when I sing
My vocal chords too, oh my God. Yeah, I have to, I have to stop smoking for at least a few weeks. Like for real, and I had I was doing so good. I stopped smoking for a month and a half And then this last round of night shift. I was just I didn’t handle it very well, and I’m fixing to go back on nights, you know? Next week is the last week of days. Um, night shift is always interesting but that’s also when I’m the most creative.
Yeah.
Blah, blah blah I guess or yeah this is uh this is my Saturday, this hs been my Saturday. This is my Saturday night. It’s pretty nice. Actually, the only thing is I wish I had my kids. I wish I had about $300 and my kids. Yep, that’s the only thing. Hopefully next weekend though. I will. Yeah. Gosh. And I can’t wait. Absolutely cannot wait. To take them to the open house. Where I work. Uh that’s the 25th that’s going to be so much fun.
I miss my kids so much all the time.
There’s a picture. I put this picture of me and my mom up on the uh, I guess this is a dresser. And it makes me so sad.
Yeah, I miss my mom, too.
I just
I know I did all I could, you know, and I can’t blame my sister either because she tried too
You know, I can’t hate on my sister, you know, not about that. It was just, I just felt like my mom deserved better. Yeah, she did.
My mom deserved better than that.
I just thought maybe she could uh get into her own place by herself and she’d be happy.
But then, you know, it also kind of made me realize. I actually did a lot.
A lot more than I thought I did. You know, with my mom, like probably kept her grounded a little bit.
I definitely made sure she ate, you know, that was like when we were staying in that Motel,
I like, I would bring her Mexican food. I would bring her pizzas and, you know, Domino’s has a, uh, Like a pasta menu. I would bring her that stuff and she was like she ate it. You know, like she ate and she stopped eating, at my sister’s my sister was never there, you know. She like, just she would leave her food and leave stuff but she never would like You know, stay with her or do anything.
But, you know, I don’t know. It just Makes me sad because my mom deserved better. I thought she did. You know.
She helped me a lot. Like she did a lot of, you know, Weird crazy stuff. But
Yeah, my mom did a lot more good than she did bad.
Yeah, she did.
And sometimes I really, really miss her.
You know, I wish I could tell her about the job I have and sing her. Some of these crazy co-worker songs, you know? Because I would sat on the balcony and play banjo and sing the crazy songs. I had already made up like about the Honda plant. About Brittany. And she, you know, she thought those were funny.
Yeah, don’t go off about it. Haha. Yeah, I was like oh my goodness yeah I spaced out for about a minute thinking about Brittany. Yeah anyway like this is going to be a lot to edit and
I almost want to eat another can of soup.
What a Saturday night?
Haha, I said why not? But yeah that’s it is yeah what a Hey, I know the thing. I do that, I enjoy. I like watching. Um,
Facebook reels Videos, yeah, people playing video games like Nintendo like the NES and Kiko vision and in television,
Oh yeah, intelevision. And Kiko.
Colecovision. Yeah, it’s I’ll have to edit that in, I guess. Um,
I want to get some emulators. Yeah, I used to be huge into emulations. Emulation. You know, back in the 90s late 90s, mid to late 90s, I had all the uh,
I had the best, which I think I f c, f c, n e s or something. I don’t I don’t remember because I haven’t played anything with an emulator in over a decade. And uh all that stuff’s on my external hard drive though.
I had a pretty good, Super Nintendo emulator too called Zs NES.
And uh, Shit, I don’t even know. There was a Genesis emulator. Yeah, that I used. For Golden Axe 3, that was like 1 of the best games ever made.
Oh, it sure was
But it wasn’t like released in the United States. Yeah. The best 1 too, of the whole series like by far the best 1
And it wasn’t even released in the United States. You have to, uh, the emulator I had, you had to set it to like the European thing. Uh, To get it to run.
Golden Axe 3. Yeah.
Kind of makes me want to find whatever emulators are Going on now and play them. Because, I haven’t kept up with like anything like that in so long.
It took me forever to find some of the old vsts. I used to use
Yeah, because I had them all downloaded. They’re all over like my other computers. I guess I need to get around and fix. The computer my recording computer for when I lived in The Farmhouse, And get my external hard drive. Like I got to find an AC adapter for that. I need to get that and get a lot of stuff off of that.
Because I have, um,
Hundreds of hours of recorded music on that thing.
Yep.
Holy shit. Stuff that I need to go through. And mess with.
Well I guess so I guess that’s you know what else do I have to say? You know, I’m tired. That’s great. Maybe I can fall asleep and get a good night’s sleep. Or something. Right?
Thank you. Please.
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