SATURDAY NIGHT

8:23 PM

Oh gosh. Okay, it’s Saturday night.

I think I fell asleep right after I made that last post. It was uh, 617 when I made that post I just looked On my other. Phone

In the editor h.

Hello. I said, haha.

I went to Culver’s earlier and I got, a fish sandwich which was just what I always get

That’s what I always get.

And, Shit. Um, I am so tired. I am like, Oh my God. I slept though until about 2. And uh, I think I fell back asleep around.

I don’t know, I didn’t stay up for long. Yeah. And then I fell back asleep and woke up a little after 5:00.

Holy shit. Oh, I’m so tired. I was like I got to make a blog post. Oh my God.

But yeah, I woke up the first time and checked my other blog because Brittany has been pecking on it and There’s like 15 hits on it and I’m like, okay, but uh I guess Because I made that post, I was like,

I’m still yours if you want me, okay?

Yeah, that’s what I said, exactly. And

Haha. Oh my God. Yeah, I’m also talking really stupid.

That’s cuz I’m tired.

But this caffeine is starting to kick in a little bit.

It’s a good source of protein. That’s what it says on the can.

But, Shit. All right, so much food. I got, I ate so much food. I got the um, fish sandwich which is yeah, what I always get and I got the chili cheese fries because I was really hungry. And I went to sleep again without eating anything. And this chick worker she was like, hey I made an extra caramel something or other Sundae looking thing on accident, if you want it. And I said, hell yeah. So, I ate all the stuff. And then I went to Walmart, I had to refill my phone minutes. So I did that and got some ibuprofen.

And came home and got a shower and I’ve just been laying here, like flipping through Facebook. Ace Frehley died. I guess was it yesterday or something? And there’s just been a bunch of posts about him and I was never a kiss fan. Okay. But uh,

He was a little different than the rest like than you know, Gene Simmons and Paul Stanley. Yeah, I was watching an interview and he was just a hoot you know, and uh they were all mad.

Yeah, I don’t know, he just seemed like a really cool guy.

And then I saw where, uh, you know, and this is another band. Yeah. I saw where, um, another band I never really got I never could ever get into like anytime 1 of their songs came on the radio. I usually Changed the station was Limp Biscuit. Their uh, bass player. Apparently got eaten by a bear. Yeah, gosh, I got to look that up. Um

Somebody made a post about that and this, like I wonder what happened, you know, is what they asked and this guy was like he got eaten by a bear. And some dude like replied to that it’s like you’re a real piece of shit. I guess he thought he was, you know, joking or something, but he wasn’t. It was like hey no no he really did.

Well, okay. That was Just uh,

I don’t know. Now now. Nobody’s like confirming anything? Yeah, I don’t know.

Gosh, the caffeine starting to kick in now. I feel like a fucking person.

I don’t know, I guess. So, 1 reason though why? Like uh,

I was just watching like a bunch of like Ace Frehley videos and stuff. I like the 700s. Yeah, the 70s.

I think so. I don’t know why it would. I don’t know why I even am. Anything remarkable weird that this app picks up. You know why, I’m just surprised anymore that it picks anything up, like when it picks up something retarded. Anyways, um,

I don’t know. And that and I always wanted to be a rock star, and I could have been if I hadn’t married my ex-wife. Haha

Like I could have done anything else with my life, you know, but I married her. It’s really funny. Honestly.

But I wouldn’t take anything for my kids. I miss the shit out of my kids. Right now. It sucks. My daughter’s got a band competition. Right now, and my son. He’s probably playing video games or something.

You know.

But uh of course I mean I don’t know. I don’t get out and play, you know, in performance stuff, I need to practice, that’s 1 reason why I’m like, hey, Uh, it’s time for coffee.

Because that’s what I’m going to do here, uh soon. But yeah, like I don’t know. Brittany pecked on my other blog but she she still has me blocked. On fucking Facebook and Instagram, which to me is just It’s like, okay. You know, she’s still

I just don’t think I want to fuck with that, you know, unless she just messages me directly or Something. I don’t understand how she got it in her head. Like, I don’t know what she made up in her head about me honestly.

That’s what I was saying like in my last post. It was like You know, it’s almost like she would rather just read my blog and make up shit in her head, than actually talk to me. And I get that I can be I’m actually really. Uh,

My cousin told me. Um, I’m actually like really intimidating when it comes to that kind of shit. It’s like, I’m scary, you know, I am and uh,

I don’t know. I mean, I think that’s part of it, too. I think she’s afraid. Because especially after all that shit she did and my daughter she knows my daughter’s the GateKeeper. And my daughter blocked her on Tik Tok, but you know, she didn’t try to communicate anything. She just followed her. You know, she didn’t say, hey, Can I talk to you? You know, I’m sorry. I did all this mean. Crazy shit to your dad. You know, my daughter was like hey there’s that fucking, you know?

Psycho girl, who drove my dad, so crazy. He had a nervous breakdown like My kids had to deal with me dealing with that, and that’s actually kind of 1 of the things. I’m a little apprehensive about Is if I did, you know,

It’s just why did she do that? What the hell got into her, you know?

It’s just so crazy and I was just really screwed up. I mean, she read all these posts where I talk about that stuff. And uh, Like she was expecting. I don’t know what she was expecting, like, I guess a conventional like, you know, how I was supposed to talk to her, you know, or ask her out or something. Like I don’t,

I actually detail the reasons why I didn’t do that in 2 posts from my in my other blog where it’s like twin flame stuff, part 1 and 2. And she hasn’t read those. She’ll scroll back you know 2 or 3 years and read some other crap but not read you know the 2 specific posts I made about it and it’s because of like Just the whole. Atmosphere at the Honda plant and the way that some of those fucking people, her friends, her guy friends especially. I did not like the way they looked at me and fucking

It was like, you know fuck y’all. 1 of her friends bowed up to me in the cafeteria 1 day. And it’s like, I’m not talking to these people, you know? And I did, I really liked her. I thought she was like insanely beautiful but I had no intentions of like interacting with anybody because I can’t handle drama. And that’s kind of the thing that really bugs me like earlier in the week with my roommates about those dogs and I still like I shouldn’t have had to say anything about that. But I’m just like, you know what the heck I’m trying to, it’s just whatever. I’m not going to talk about that but I don’t like drama and I don’t especially at a workplace and I was, you know, I was there. I was

I was going to get into the maintenance.

Field. You know, I had to be there a year before I could apply. Same thing where I’m at now. You know, I just that’s you know, going to keep my eye on the ball. And I know how a lot of co-workers, a lot of people at factories, you know, how they do and I saw her She was with a different person. Like every few weeks, I’d see her walking around with somebody else, you know, it’s like,

You know, I’m not a part of that was also was like you know I’m not going to be just another person she got involved with from work you know like I’ve seen a lot of crazy shit go down at factories and chicken plants and stuff, you know, and people they just they do they fuck each other and they pass each other around and it’s like, I’m not part of that. That’s, you know, that’s

That’s just not, that does not appeal to me whatsoever.

And I don’t care and I keep to myself and I don’t give a fuck. I barely have anything in common with anybody out of, you know, entry-level Factory job anyways.

I’ll stand around and listen to people talk and the stuff they talk about is just it’s not anything. I’m interested in And there’s nothing wrong with that. It’s just, I’m Different apparently. And you know, I have real eclectic, tastes and interests and everything.

I hold myself to exceptionally high standards

And, you know, that applies to everything, you know, I’m a slob and that’s like, that’s like the only thing, you know, I have a really thin Tether to the physical plane Because I’m off in the world you know, the realm of ideas and dreams and bullshit like that, you know, I’m an artist.

And I have tons of friends all over the world who validate the fact that there’s nothing wrong with anything about me as far as that shit. Not really? Not when it comes down to it.

And so it’s okay. That I am the way I am. But, you know, I also, I guess conversely, you could say, I don’t relate to people on the average and that’s fine. I make up songs about them.

You know, and about everything but uh,

The fact that she’s still, it’s been. Well, I saw her, you know, driving through Guntersville And that’s been that was in July. That was tomorrow, would be, uh, it was July the 19th, you know? That’s the 19th of every month is special. And tomorrow is October the 19th it’s the 7-year anniversary of meeting my ex fiance And,

But like the fact that she wouldn’t even look at me, you know, that made me. Angry

8:42 PM
But then it’s like, you know, fuck her. And she can peck on my blog and hit my blog, all kind of crazy ways. And Just like, I mean, for what though? You know.

It’s just, it’s gotten so old to me. And, you know, I tried to message her, I tried to, you know, interact with her in person and she would just be mean. She made me nervous as fuck And I didn’t trust it. It’s like you know it. She’s just going to be even worse to me. If we get together, you know, she’s just going to fucking it’s there’s no telling. What kind of crazy shit she’s going to pull out? And I can’t. Handle that stuff. Like, I just, and I don’t. I shouldn’t have to.

What was my point to all that? It’s like it’s Saturday night. Yeah. And uh, I figured you know, if she really wanted anything. You know, if She wanted anything real with me? We would already be together. Like I don’t know what the hell and it’s stupid and you know Stephanie did this shit. She reminded me a lot of Stephanie and the way she Acted rubbing people in my face to make me jealous and just being, you know, a turd And uh, like stringing me along. And I mean I guess that’s as much as she can string me along, just pecking on my blog. It’s like, yeah, well, I mean, what does that even mean anymore? And like, with Stephanie, I eventually just got sick of her. Yanking me around and, you know, I don’t even care anymore. And it’s kind of it’s getting that way with Brittany too, which is great but it’s like it’s sad. It’s really sad. At the same time because I never liked anybody that much. But that doesn’t mean that I can’t find somebody new and like them even more than ever, you know? It’s a huge world and I haven’t even gotten out and started Performing again, you know?

Um but I think that’s what I’m going to do. I’m just going to work on my music and stuff and uh

I have a friend suggestion.

Yeah, I’m not going to worry about that. Oh, gosh, my sister messaged me. Uh, Happy Birthday a month and a week late. Yeah. I was like, okay.

I’m going to post a screenshot of that. Yeah, my sister’s crazy. I love her though, but uh,

I don’t know. I’m glad I guess better late than never. Yeah. I don’t know what else to say about that. Thanks thanks Holly. Um,

But yeah, I’m just going to, you know, work on my music and all that crap. Uh, I posted a video last Was it Sunday or something of me? Oh, tracking a song and fucking up on it and I guess it probably, you know, maybe I looked cute in it or something. Yeah.

That’s what that’s when she started pecking on my other blog again. Uh, it’s just like, okay. And I, you know,

Oh, where do I start? Like, where do I start talking about? All the All of this. Yeah. It’s just, it’s ridiculous.

Because she did so much. It was just so ignorant to me and fucking ridiculous. You know.

All because I ran away because I’ve been fucking hurt too much and it was stupid. And I mean, like, stupid of her not to be like, hey, You know, maybe I shouldn’t be a piece of shit to this guy. It’s just, it just belies, like this insane level of immaturity that I can’t wrap my brain around because she’s, like, 30 something, you know, she’s like 30. What 30? 33.

Yeah. And you know, I mean she was like 31 when all that was happening. So it’s like grow the fuck up. You crazy fucking girl? You know.

Shit.

Oh yeah, that’s been bugging me. All evening. Ever since I woke up and saw all those pecks

On my other blog. Yeah. I mean this chick ruined, my life.

Um, yeah. On the other hand, though, like

Whatever. Yeah, whatever.

I deserve better. And that’s you know that’s how what else can I say about that? But I, I do have some really cool songs about it and I’ll probably

Mess with them here after a while. Yeah, I’m still like

I haven’t drank all this. I haven’t finished it. This espresso but like, um,

I am fuckin tired. Yeah, my body is just like what the fuck have you done to me? The last 6 months?

Thank you, please.