3:23 PM
Oh gosh, let’s try this again. I went way too far talking about bands that I was in.
Haha. Yeah. Oh, it’s Halloween, happy Halloween everybody!
Um,
Let’s see. What was I doing this time? Last year, I was working at Target Yeah, and I got off work early. Um, but it was too late. Yeah, my ex-wife didn’t think I was going to be able to do anything. So the kids had made other plans But I went trick-or-treating the last time I did with my kids was, uh, 2 years ago.
And that was a lot of fun and I hadn’t eaten anything that whole day cuz I didn’t have any money. Because my job at the time was really stupid. Actually I laid out.
Was supposed to work that night and I was like, no, I’m going to go do stuff with the kids. It was I think it was the last week I worked there. You know, I hated that. Damn job.
Hated that job so much.
I think I ended up hating that job. It was, it wasn’t the worst job I ever had, but it’s the job. I hated the most
Yeah.
I hated it so much, but, um, I got in I can’t remember what time from, uh,
Oh, this is more Britany crap though. Yeah, I got in uh, from like I don’t remember what time it was when I got back from doing stuff with the kids but Brittany had left this uh Thing on the doorstep of the apartment complex. Of the entrance. Yeah, it’s like it was like this big building that had an entrance and uh,
Anyways. Um, I didn’t figure that out till later though. I was like, oh, yeah. Well, you know, I bet that was her because she posted in this Secrets Club group. See it’s a huge long story. That’s 1 reason why I don’t start talking about it from the beginning, and it would be like,
About 2 or 3 blog posts worth of shit. And I don’t care enough. It’s just like it pops in my brain and but I don’t care enough to make like a big long post about it.
But yeah, that’s 1 of those things. And by the time I figured it out I was like oh you know what? I bet that was her. I went out there and nothing was out there, you know, it was just stupid.
But I wonder like, you know, cuz she knows where I work now. And she’s still pecks on my other blog. She’s been pecking on it, like a little bit. She did a whole bunch like, 2 weeks ago. I’m just thinking about like, just the dumb crap. I’ve had to deal with from people in the last few years.
Oh man.
If that’s the last time I did anything for Halloween, you know, last Um, last year, I think, after I got off work and realized I wasn’t going to do anything with the kids. I just I just I was living in my car. Yeah I was like well,
I think I went and got another shower at the truck stop. And uh,
Went to my storage unit hung out in my storage unit. Yeah. That was uh that’s where I stayed. I slept in the parking lot of my storage unit
Um,
Yeah, that was a crazy time.
It wasn’t that bad though. It could have been a lot worse.
A whole lot worse. But, Uh, 1 of my roommates, the main roommate. Yeah. The 1, I give money to she texted me earlier about painting a room in her office. I guess I guess it’s her office. I just Figured it might have been. Um, her my brains. Yeah. I was like her Studio. I don’t know. Has offices in it. I’m like, yeah, I don’t know 150.
Hello. I said, uh, $15 an hour, you know.
Gosh. My brains. I am so tired. I’ve been more tired this week than I’ve been ever working at a job. If I could like if I had like either PTO or um, points the points to burn, I would, I would lay out Tonight, I would I would not go to work but I have to It’s not going to be that bad. I’m going to, uh,
Just get through tonight and I’m not doing shit tomorrow. I’m going to sleep. Probably sleep until about now tomorrow. And then, I’m just going to like
Probably go back to sleep. I might make a blog post or something or I haven’t. Yeah.
But I’m about to get up and get a shower. I haven’t had a shower in a couple days. That’s how tired I’ve been.
God. So tired.
But hell, it’s my favorite time of year. It sure is. I was outside smoking earlier. And I was like
I love this time of year so much It’s cold. It’s finally gotten cold and the sun was warm and that made me happy. But the leaves are still like really green everywhere.
Like October is you know, cool, September October, November and December, and January. Those are my favorite.
Months that’s uh, how many months?
5 months. Yeah.
Haha. Um, but November is usually like, as far as weather and everything that’s that’s where everything I start getting. Uh, I really like November. I love Thanksgiving. That’s my favorite holiday. That’s an overlooked holiday.
It’s not like it used to be, you know, when I was when I had a family and You know, not just like, you know, my ex-wife and the kids, I mean, like, it was like her family stuff. We would go do and then my family stuff, we would go do. And uh, her dad always made spaghetti. And, you know, it’s like oh spaghetti. It’s like no it’s like um It’s like this, they’re Italian. So it was like this big uh, crazy family recipe. That was like, it’s the best spaghetti and meatballs. I’ve ever had in my life and I ate. I would eat so much of it like I couldn’t stop eating it until I was. I’d make myself like
I’d say sick eating it but like just more than I ever would eat anything. I would eat that. Like, her dad’s one of the best cooks. I’ve ever like, he’s He could have been a chef. Yeah, he’s an accountant. But Um gosh. And those just, you know, that was my life for fucking 18 years just you know and then all of a sudden it was like nope. I went to the Thanksgiving, my dad’s in 2018 and uh I was still with my, you know, my ex fiance and I were still together then it was a long distance but that was stupid. God. It was so stupid that I even
I can’t believe. I fucking even like took her back after she turned around and left and went back to fucking Portland. But um, Yeah, I did. That’s like I don’t regret meeting her and I don’t regret a few other things. Like I regret fucking up College though and I regret taking her back after she left. Yeah, because she was just the most
Caustic.
Insane chick, I had ever met in my life and when we were talking, when we first started talking, I thought I’d, you know, I thought I’d met my soulmate. And, Um, the first few days we were together when I met her. That was the happiest pretty much the happiest I’d ever been like, you know, with somebody I couldn’t believe it and of course, you know, she got into my phone and turned my alarms off. So I overslept and missed my return flight, right? I mean that’s the kind of person she is. And that I had no idea um you know, and like on the drive back cuz we had to drive back to Alabama, 2500 miles. Then I really got to see what kind of person she was and it was
Horrible. And so when she turned around and left, I was like, okay I was like bye, you know, it was nice to meet you.
And like 2 days later, she called me at uh, called me up and Crying her eyeballs out. Begging me to take her back and I did.
And that was 1 of the biggest mistakes I ever made, like not meeting her and all that, like, you know, I don’t regret meeting her. Like, I got, that was a crazy fucking experience, but what I do regret was taking her back. Yeah. Because she strung me along for 2 months and tortured the living hell out of me. And it was this time of the year, yeah, this time of the year. My Brains. Um,
But anyways, I don’t know what what even
What am I even talking about now? Um,
It’s Halloween. Yeah. And It’s Friday night and I have to work and I’m tired. And that’s pretty much. All that’s really going on. And right now, in the present, 1 of my friends told me he was like, you know, you focus too much on the past. It’s like well no not really. I don’t think any more than anybody else. Does it was like in reference to this Facebook memory. I posted about Donuts. I was like, I’ve got to eat all these Donuts like 6 Donuts before I go to bed or some shit. I don’t even remember the context.
And uh he was just like, you focus too much on the past. I’m like, Oh, my Donuts. Haha
Anyways, but, uh,
I guess when your present is like that’s all it is right now is I’m tired. I’m more tired than I’ve been ever working at a job. Right now and it’s Halloween. And I wish I was off work. But I’m not and uh, because I’d go do something with the kids. But my friend, Emily, let me borrow 20 bucks so I can get some delicious food.
I know, I like I make really good money but I had to get a part for my car. And that was, you know, that was almost 600 bucks and then I spent way too much money with the kids last weekend, which is typical. You know.
Um, so like that’s why I’m broke, but I get paid next week and then we get the bonus and then we’re working a Saturday. So I’m going to get A whole bunch of extra overtime money. That’s that’s why I work this job. Because it pays very well. This is the best paying job in the state, like for the, uh, You know, an entry-level Factory job. You’re not going to do any better than this job, but the trade-off is, it’s fucking hard. This is the hardest job I’ve ever had, but it’s not the worst job I’ve ever had and I don’t hate it. I love it. But it’s hard as fuck and I’m really I’ll be really glad when I can get into the maintenance program next year.
And that’s what’s going on in my present right now. Yeah, I’m really excited to get tonight over with so I can do nothing this weekend.
I’ve got, I’ll be able to get some more money Sunday from my, uh, chime account. My, the, my pay, it lets me get like money early. From my paycheck. And that’s going to help a lot. Um, but until then, I’ve got twenty dollars. I think. Maybe twenty 5 dollars because I had A little bit. Already on.
Oh, that’s right. Uh, yeah, I do
Yeah, like twenty 5 dollars.
I have some really awesome friends.
I think, 1 time I was just I post I made a post
3:37 PM
Um, and I don’t do this, like, I’ve done this, like, twice in my whole life, like, made a post where it’s like, hey, can somebody let me borrow twenty dollars? And uh, fucking like a whole bunch of my friends jumped in and I ended up with around $200, I was like, holy shit y’all. Yeah, I couldn’t believe it. I went and fucking took the kids out to like Uh we went to Rome, Georgia. That’s what I did. I was like and it was for Father’s Day and I was just wanted gas money so I could go down there and hug them, you know? And I ended up being able to to take the kids out to like Um,
Somewhere really cool and and have a lot of fun.
Because of my awesome friends, you know? It’s great.
That’s 1 thing. But like, you know, I’m talking about, like, roommate drama and stuff. It’s like, you know, that dude doesn’t know me at all. And it makes me feel like shit though, when somebody hates my guts. Especially when it’s over something stupid. But it’s like, um, so So what it’s like I have a shit tons of really awesome friends.
And it’s because I care about people and I’ve done, you know, I’ve done a lot of stuff to help others and People who really know me like they, they know. Not just like, you know, how great I can be of a friend, what a great friend. I am. But, um, like what I’ve been through, The last, you know, 7 or 8 years it’s just
You know.
I feel like I’m I’ve gotten a lot better, but I’m still like a shell of a damn person compared to what I was 10 years ago.
But I am getting better.
Finally, I think
I’m not having to deal with a schizophrenic mom.
Or um, my ex-wife is actually treating me like a person. I don’t have an active. Well yeah, I mean Brittany’s still stalking me. I say like active stalker but like it’s not like it was 2 years ago when she was driving me fucking completely insane.
Um, Yeah, it’s like
It’s not, it’s not so bad but I do Wonder because she does like
She pecks on my other blog, she’s been pecking on it. And it’s Halloween and I don’t know.
Yeah.
But that’s what’s going on y’all, that’s what’s in my brains right now.
I guess I need to get up and get a shower. It’s still kind of early. I have plenty of time. Let’s see, what can I get for $20?
I think I’m going to get.
Something from the cafeteria, you know.
I could just make soup. I have actually have a lot of food.
I have, um,
I have soups and crackers. I think I counted like 6 things of crackers. I might have more that was I didn’t count. Yeah, I just looked and it looked like about 6. H.
Hoto ha ha ha ha ha.
Yeah. Um,
Happy Halloween, yay.
Thank you, please.
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