3:41 PM
Well. It’s Monday.
I got off. Work 2 hours early. Holy shit, right? And then I got home and because some crazy stuff happened, it’s been a crazy couple of weeks at work for real.
It’s sucks though. But it’s at the same time, it’s like, whatever I came home and did my chores. I have new chores. I think I mentioned that in the last post and I was like, well I’m going to get these out of the way so I can be lazy. And that’s where I’m at right now. I’ll probably tune my guitar up and practice it. After a while but I also need to get some kind of food. I was thinking sushi.
Sushi, from where? Don’t know yet. I don’t know if I want to drive all the way back up to Sam’s Club and get sushi. But then it’s the same distance if I go to Publix.
Pretty much. Yeah, just different directions. And I couldn’t bring myself to stop on the way home. I was like, no, no, no, no. I’m going to get home and do my chores. Finish my chores. So I can be a lazy ass.
Oh gosh, guess what happened? It was the craziest thing and I’m still like, I don’t know what to. I’m still processing it. Okay. Now, I’ve talked about helmet, girl, right? I haven’t talked about helmet girl in a long time. I pretty much gave up on her and I guess I still kind of have but um this morning I was hanging out. Not thinking about anything in the world, she usually doesn’t come into the plant about until about 6:20, 6:25 give or take. I know I um 615 usually at the earliest. Yeah I like I I I have been hiding from her. I hide from everybody, you know, I’m crazy. And uh, So, it was like, Shit, it was just a little bit after 6 and I was like, you know what, I’m going to refill my water bottle, and I’m going to go to the, uh,
PPE. You know, the personal protection equipment, the gloves and the safety glasses and all that shit. Uh, the vending machine for that. I’m going to go there and get my gloves and my safety glasses for the week and then get my water bottle refilled.
And I was like, not even thinking didn’t even detect anything and I was, uh, I got my glasses and I was like, yeah, and I got my gloves and I was like, yeah, hell yeah, and I turned around and Blam! There’s helmet, girl. And I was like, oh shit, what do I do? What do I do? And like, in like a second? I was like, well, hey there, you know, I said, Hey to her and I talked to her. Yeah, she apparently has been working there about a year. And she likes it okay, and she works in this weird offline process, which I knew, but uh, she told me like about, you know, what stuff and then. I was like, well, okay, bye. I forgot to ask her name. As a matter of fact, because I was Thinking like, wow, my face didn’t explode. And then I went to the, uh,
Water fountain, where I refill, my water bottle. And I was doing that and she came up behind me again. And I was like, well, hey And I talked to her for a little bit and she dropped her gloves and didn’t even realize it and I picked the gloves up for her because You know, she’s kind of
She’s kind of dorky like.
She’s 1 of the cutest ladies I’ve ever seen, okay? But like I don’t know. And, uh, so I was like, well bye, you know, and I don’t know if she Was expecting me to keep talking to her or what you know I just I didn’t know what else to say and I was like starting to get really nervous and so um
I walk off and then I was like, you know, I forgot to ask her name even though I saw it on her name tag, just as a formality, I was going to ask her name and I forgot to do that. And uh, anyway, so at lunch Um, I went, she always goes to the other the big cafeteria and so I go out there. I was going to ask her. I was like, yo, I forgot to ask your name and all this stuff and uh, So I, I So she’s walking out of the cafeteria and I’m walking, you know, there’s this big Courtyard. I see her for a while, you know, I’m looking at her and she’s looking at me and then she stops looking at me, right? As I pass her and I like wave and she just ignores me and I’m like, well, That’s like, She did that on my birthday. That was the last time I tried to talk to her. Yeah, she just, she’ll ignore me. It’s weird. And she’ll stare at me, like if I see her from a distance and then if I get up to her, she ignores me. It’s It’s unless except for this morning. Yeah. And I just thought, It hurt though. It did it hurt. And I’m like, what the fuck? So I don’t know, I don’t know how to feel about helmet, girl, but I at least talked to her or yeah. Like I don’t know if that’s something that would ever go anywhere or not. But at least I can say, hey, I’ve talked to helmet girl, and I talked to the other this other chick I like last week. I held the gate open for her and she said, thank you. And I said, you’re welcome. And that was like a huge breakthrough for me. Right? Yeah, isn’t that funny? That’s how socially retarded I fucking am.
That’s why it was such a huge deal. What happened? Like at the Honda plant with Brittany. Yeah. That was like she had like there’s no way that she had any idea just I don’t know, it was just so crazy but it’s like
Sorry, you know, I really am. I’m that Like socially messed up. I used to not be like this but Um, Yeah, now I am but I’m better, you know, but it’s still, it was like I don’t understand. I don’t understand what helmet girl wanted me to do and and I I I was kind of like trying not to do too much, you know like talk to her. Too much too fast. I was trying to like I was trying not to overload, not just her but like myself. You know, over what’s the word overstimulate? Yeah. Like I was I was starting to feel Like that. Yeah, overstimulated. It was starting to make me really nervous. So I was like, I got to go, you know?
And uh,
I have no idea, you know, I can tell, she’s really socially awkward too so it’s just
It’s stupid. But, um, after yeah, after she ignored me like it hurt. And I went in the cafeteria and I got my food and I ate it and I was just, I kept thinking about it and I was like that hurts so bad. And so, I went back out after I ate, uh, to the Smoking Section, I bummed a cigarette from this guy and I sat there smoking it and just thinking damn that hurt like that, that hurts so bad. It was worse than how much it hurt on my birthday. When I walked past her and waved and said, I like your helmet and she just had this, like, you know, she was trying her best to ignore me. And that’s what she did. Uh, yeah today. And that’s
That was my day. That was like the focal point of my whole day talking to her this morning and then hurting and worrying me at lunch.
Yeah.
Jesus.
I said ignoring me at lunch but it put hurting and worrying. Haha Yeah, I guess it did that too. I don’t know. But then it’s like, man.
Who gives a shit. You know, you don’t ever have anything in common with anybody from Work ever. So, like At least you talked to her. And I’ll never, like, I’m not going to be like mean, or like anything, weird or nothing. If I see her again like that. Like, I did this morning, I’m going to say, hey, You know I guess if she ignores me that’s on her but I’m not going to be rude. I guess that’s yeah. Um or what? I’m trying to say but I don’t know. It just totally fucked my brains all up like all day long and then uh, after
Lunch, I guess I’m trying to think after second break, but second break is When I went home, I was uh yeah. They they had some kind of weird thing happen and I was like well, okay. And so they were like you can stay or you can go and I chose to go. I was going to get the kids but my daughter has a therapist appointment until 6:00 p.m. and that’s just too late.
It’s too late on a work night. Yeah. But uh, I think I’m going to get the kids this weekend. I’m going to actually, after I get off work Friday. I’m going to go get them and we’re going to get into something fun all weekend because I miss them. I miss my kids and then next week,
Is Thanksgiving. Oh my goodness. Yep.
Haha.
So anyways, I don’t know. That was uh that was my day. It was pretty crazy. It was like the biggest. Like, just I don’t know if you’ve I don’t shit? I don’t know how many months ago. I think the last time I talked about Helmet girl was on my birthday. Yeah, around my birthday or something, because I like, I talked about her all summer, like she was the chick I liked from work. For a long time. And then I just kept freaking out and running away from her and hiding and It’s like now she hates my fucking stupid guts. You know, that’s how it seems. That’s, you know, it’s like, she’ll talk to me. It’s like, she wanted to talk to me or wanted me to talk to her or something. This morning. And then it’s like, I don’t know, I don’t really know exactly why she ignored me at lunch but it was, uh,
Whatever, you know. It’s yeah. I don’t I don’t know I guess. I don’t know what else to say about it. It was just really remarkable. But I’ve been watching a lot of like classical and flamenco guitar videos and there’s some stuff that looks pretty easy. I’m going to start trying to learn like some of the easy stuff. And work my way up.
I’m actually like a really good guitar player, but the um, well I’m out of practice for 1 thing. But the other thing is, uh, classical music is played completely different than like, you know, I’m a rock. You know folk, uh,
Some, you know, Jazz like blues guitar player. You know, like like classical music, the way it’s played is Totally different, like the, um, form. And the way your brain has to process like your hand movements is completely different than what I’m used to. And so it’s, uh, You know, something that’s easy is shit. Looking, you know, on the tablature. Just totally fucks up my brain. Yeah.
When it comes to classical music, you know, I can play like guitar solos and all kind of like Just, Rock and blues and folk and jazz looking shit. But Classical music’s a totally different animal.
It’s fun though and it sounds really awesome. It’s the coolest sounding music. There is you know it’s just also the most complicated and
3:54 PM
Difficult. Yeah, to pull off. I don’t know. I’m just blabbering because I’ve had a lot of caffeine
I, I drank a lot. Of caffeine. So I could do my chores with the least amount of agony. Yeah. Hahaha
Um, what else can I say though, huh?
Um, if I see helmet girl, tomorrow, I’m going to say, hey to her, I don’t know, she can’t be mean to me forever.
She actually seems like a really. Sweet lady but Um, I do have like I think I have pissed her off. Probably more than I. I mean, I didn’t mean to, you know, I’m not stupid on purpose. It just freaked Me out for a long time and it’s like, now I’m just, it’s A lot of it is I’m used to the place now. I’ve been there so long, it’s just like, well, hey there’s helmet girl, you know, it’s It’s uh that’s kind of what happened at the Honda plan. It was starting to get it that way until Brittany started. I don’t know what possessed her to put nails in my tires and stalk, me and take my mail and Fucking all the crazy shit that she did. That made me think she was like trying to lure me off somewhere and murder me, you know,
Like for real like God, what the fuck? So I mean, if you know, if it hadn’t been for all that stuff, I probably would still be at Honda. Yeah, she’s not there anymore, though. But I don’t want to talk about her like ever again. Or think about her ever again ever. Yeah. And that’s about all.
Um,
Crap. I’ve had a lot of caffeine anyways, right?
Thank you, please.
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