TUESDAY

4:42 PM

Okay. Yeah, um, it’s I’m stuck in traffic and that sucks. So I’m making a blog post. I left the house at 4:00 and I went and got tacos, it’s Taco, Tuesday Del Taco and I got 3 tacos. And it’s actually it’s kind of hard to eat tacos while you’re driving. I found that out. I don’t know. In my all the years of living,

I’ve done, I don’t think I’ve ever really eaten tacos and driven until today. And uh it’s not the easiest thing I’ve ever done but I made it. I ate all. 3 tacos.

Hahaha.

Um, I don’t know. Like I just really don’t know where to start talking about my roommates.

It’s uh, it’s sad. Like I wish I could say I had the most awesome roommates ever and I have said that actually in some earlier posts like back over the summer before the summer and stuff. But give it enough time, right? It so often reveals things

Um I just don’t really you know, it’s just they’re just my roommates. After talking to people about it, This kind of stuff is a lot more common than I realized. Yeah, I don’t know where to start.

But I did talk about, like, I guess this has been 2 months ago, when, um,

I kind of got into it with some of my roommates, about these yippy ass dogs, they were pet sitting for that and they didn’t say anything about I didn’t know anything about it and I was I was a dick but I shouldn’t have had to say anything. About those stupid dogs and they acted like the dogs were more important than I am. You know that’s what was so stupid about it and they were like such smart asses, oh my gosh and then another 1 of my roommates Uh, the furry guy who, um, He’s been having a lot of car problems lately and he was such an asshole about that, but not just in the group text but for about 3 weeks, after that, he stared at me every time I saw him like he wanted to fucking kill me over that, you know, and I didn’t know if I was going to end up having to fight him or something, like it was pretty ridiculous. And then all of a sudden he just starts being nice to me again. And uh, but he has car trouble and lo and behold

Fucking last week, I think it was last week, he asked to borrow money. Well, he asked me to give him money, like, I’ve let him borrow money before, and I just gave I ended up just, you know, giving it to him. You know what I mean? And that’s kind of a long story too, which made me realize that maybe he wasn’t that great of a person and it wasn’t that he didn’t give me money back or anything. It was just the whole context of of how that even came about. That’s another story though, right? But it’s just like gosh, dude. You know, I really like I didn’t have the money though. So, that was like, The big thing. Um, and uh, I really don’t. Want to give him anything. I don’t feel like and I could help him, I could fix his car. I don’t think it’s anything that big either from his Facebook posts. It’s like the alternator Or something, I think he had to get a new starter but I could totally help him fix his car. And uh hell, I would even if, if he had been, like a decent person to me about stuff, I don’t even know where to start. Like I just don’t feel like I owe him anything at all and I don’t actually I don’t you know that really stressed me out.

Him staring at me like that. It was weird. You know, and he creeps my kids out too. So I mean I don’t really The last time I think I saw him. It was Sunday. Yeah, I came in and he was sitting at the kitchen table moping. You know it was like okay well uh you shouldn’t have been y’all shouldn’t have smarted me up about those dogs and it’s not that big of a fucking deal but it it was you know it shouldn’t be a big deal but it was I guess that’s a good way to put that but what I’m also is the main roommate That I give money to and I just thought she was the most awesome person ever, you know, and a lot of that was I was so grateful to have a place to live after living in my fucking car for a month. That, uh, I just, I did, I totally put her up on a pedestal but I spent my entire fucking Thanksgiving break, which I mean, you know, it was only 4 days but I didn’t rest. I didn’t do anything but paint. This uh, fucking crazy ass room at her Studio. That somebody 1 of the the previous tenants did some kind of weird paint job with chalkboard paint. Uh, up around the tops of it. It was like about a third of the way down the wall, uh maybe a quarter of the way in some places and 1 of 1, it was the entire side of a wall in 1 place.

They had it like this dripping effect, like it was like dripping, you know, how, you know, when you It was like this. Yeah, drip effect, but it was like, you know, all over like the like a the paint can, you know, dripping effect like it’s all dribbling down, you know. That’s how it looked on a green. Uh

Rest of the wall, I guess back like. That’s the main color. Black dribbling down a green wall with purple. Um, trim, you know, the baseboards and the quarter rounds and stuff. Yeah, it had both. And so uh, my job was to Repaint that it to make it look beige. Uh, I guess it’s kind of a beige color. It was like, uh, origami white. It was a, it was like a off-white, but it it was bhejiye colored off white.

What a, what a word anyways, haha. So, um, So, what I do and and this is this project takes about 2 weeks, not 2 weeks straight. But like 2 weeks of me like going after work, I did that a couple nights. I went after work and sanded a bunch. I had to sand because they painted the black paint was chalkboard paint. It was thick. Yeah. And so I had to sand that down into nothing. Like to Flat had to sand it down flat because you know how I mean? It was it just sucks and I didn’t want it to show through.

It took.

A lot of effort I had to sand it. I sanded the shit out of it. Uh, I did that I think the first 2 nights. I worked on it for about 3 hours after work each night and then uh 1 Saturday. I got the kids they helped me for about 4 hours. That’s when it was ready to paint, but we put a primer on it. We had to put primer, it took 3 coats of primer to cover that up. I put a coat of primer on it and then I had to sand. I had to sand like everything all over again, put another coat of primer, sand it all over again. And another coat of primer and then I sanded it again and 2 coats of the regular paint. Okay? The baseboards okay that those took and the quarter rounds. Yeah, those took 2 coats of primer, and 2 coats of paint, Okay.

3 coats of primer. 2 coats of paint.

And then the baseboards, you know, I had to do that with a brush so that took

That was like a whole day in and of itself really more than that. Really, I ended up having 33 hours in this job. And before uh, I started my roommate and I had agreed that. I would do it for $15 an hour. Okay. Oh man. And she kept telling me to keep up with my hours and hours, actually being really generous, you know, I went up there, I would I wasn’t going to absolutely kill myself doing it, uh but I spent more hours at the actual place than I charged her for but I would work for a couple hours. Take a break, you know, work for a few hours, take a break, you know, I wasn’t going to die doing it but it had to be done ASAP. I was really tired the whole time I was doing it too. She said, Like she said, you know, It had to be done, just absolutely as fast as possible. So I was like, dang okay? Because I, I thought so much of her, I held her in such high, you know, esteem.

Or whatever. Like, You know, I was like okay you know I’m going to do it.

And uh so I get all this done, I mean I put an insane amount of work into this. Uh, anybody else? This would have been a 1200 to 1500 dollar job. Yeah, like easily. Okay, my house. Remodeling, boss would not have touched that room for less than a thousand bucks. She gets it for $250 and well, uh, you know, 33 times 15 is 495, okay? And when it came time, she kept telling me to keep up with my hours. Keep up with my hours, you know. Um, and you know, Granted like you got to take into consideration that uh I was doing this. A lot in my spare time after work. And I realized, you know, after the the 2 nights that I did it, the second night I did it after work, I was like, I’m not going to do this after work. Haha I’m going to have to do this all on a weekend. Yeah, but uh with the kids, you know, and I mean it’s not easy work either, it was a lot of work, you had to get down there on the floor and all this stuff and paint and uh painting you know, is it’s work. Yeah, it is. But like uh, You know, Wednesday night before Thanksgiving, I got my kids, I got like, got off work.

Immediately drove down there to get my kids. We, we stayed in a hotel room. I didn’t get any sleep. We stayed up all night watching stranger things. Haha I was exhausted. Okay, Thursday. You know we wake up we check out at 11:00, we always wait till the last minute to check out.

Um,

Uh yeah, we wait till the last minute to check out anyways you know but we like we did a bunch of shit. I don’t get home till about. 4:30. Uh, Thanksgiving day, okay?

I get up to my room. I spaced out. I just lay there kind of rest. Collect myself for about an hour and then I get up. And I go immediately to her studio and I work for about 6 hours.

Yeah, on the fucking paint.

You have 3 coats of primer.

You know. 2 coats of the regular paint.

Oh, and then I had to paint the door, you know, I had to paint 2 Doors, actually. Yeah.

And she didn’t even offer to pay me for that paint. For the doors. I paid for that paint out of my own pocket, I mean, it was only like 20 bucks, right? But this is all a matter of principle. And so anyways, all this stuff, I mean, I put an insane amount of work. I spend the whole rest of the weekend though, Friday, Saturday and Sunday. I don’t get any rest, I’m fucking exhausted as hell. Like I was so exhausted that Friday I just called it quits at 5:00 p.m. but I had been there since like 9:00, you know, and then Saturday I got there about 9:00 and Oh gosh, I think I left there. It was a little after 11:00 P.m. Yeah, 9:00 a.m. to 11:00 p.m. I mean you know, I would work 3 or 4 hours and take a break.

4:55 PM
Or go get some food, but I like, I wasn’t resting a lot of times too. I had to wait for paint to dry, you know what I mean? So anyways, it came time. She’s like, you know, keep up with your hours. So I know how much to pay you.

And uh, this is an insane amount of work. Okay. And I did, I was like, well, you know, at least I’ll make my rent for the month, right? Which I thought all of this was so cheap. I was doing all this for what nobody else in their right fucking minds would do it for. All because I thought she was the best person ever. At least make my rent for the month? Hahaha Nope. Uh I was like, hey okay, I have 33 hours and that 33 times 15 is 495. And I tell her this And, uh, you know, on a over a text, and she’s just like, oh my God, you know, oh, that’s just way over my budget. You know. It’s way over budget. Like the Apparently, which I don’t know how much truth there is to this, but apparently, the lady that I was, I think it’s a lady that was uh, who’s moving into the office part? Just only gave her $200 to repaint. This fucking abortion of a goddamn paint job that I had to sand out of the fucking walls. You know what I mean? 3 coats of primer. You know how long it takes to paint a room like to paint 4 Walls? That? I mean, it’s not like a huge room but it was big enough and I couldn’t give you the dimensions off the top of my head, you know, but like how long it takes to apply a coat of paint that I had to cut in, you know, you can’t get everything with a roller, you know, you have to get like the corners with a brush you have to get, you know, down close to the The the baseboards with a brush you have to get up close to the ceiling with a brush and you get on a ladder, you know, it’s just it was a lot of work, it took me a very long time to do and it looked amazing. Nobody could have done a better job than I did with that paint. Nobody

Paid somebody. She could not have paid. Somebody $2,000 to do a better job than I did. You know what I mean? I did the best possible job for that fucking bullshit crap. I had to paint over

3 coats of primer. That’s a lot that took a long time to do plus 2 coats of the regular paint.

That took a long time.

I had to brush paint the fucking baseboards and the quarter rounds. With 2 coats of primer. And, you know, and 2 coats of fucking the regular paint.

33 hours I had in this job and anybody else. Nobody else would have touched that for less than a thousand bucks. And she ends up getting it for 250 because that was over budget for $495. $500 was just way over budget for her. Somebody who is constantly ordering stuff from Amazon, and goes on all kinds of trips out of town all the time. Who spends all kinds of money on other stuff, I have no idea but $500 was just way over budget to pay somebody who worked their fucking ass off to paint over a bunch of dumb bullshit. And make it look fucking amazing. Just for her. Okay, but that’s not what insulted me. Haha. I was like, you know, that’s fine, because I loved her so much. Yeah, I loved right. Oh my God, I got to go into this store. Oh, I got to get gas shit. Sorry.

Oh I forgot. I got to have to get gas. I’m just on a rant, I guess. I got here earlier and I thought I would too.

Okay.

Oh, so I have to go.

Okay.

My brains.

Okay. I think. Okay, I’m back.

So anyways,

Uh, she’s got this thing though, like, If you if your chores go over, This is what. This is. What insulted me though, right? Uh, You know if your chores go over like like Monday like every Monday we have a reset on weekly chores. You know and uh there’s like a chart with all the stuff on it and if the chores go over uh you know Monday is past a certain day like it’s ten dollars a day, okay.

All right. Now, a big reason I didn’t do these chores 1, it wasn’t that big of a deal. I didn’t think and 2. I was painting that fucking goddamn room so you know it’s like I didn’t really feel like I don’t know. Maybe I should have done my chores, right? But, uh, I figured she’d at least give me a pass. Right? Nope, and not only that she called me out in the house group text about it.

And she was like, yeah, you’re 8 days over, uh, that’s eighty dollars. It’s like, well, I just did 1,200 worth of work for you for $250, but I didn’t say that I was just, I didn’t even respond to it. I um,

I just gave her the 80 bucks. And,

And I’m just like, well,

And she could have messaged me like and be like, hey, you didn’t do your chores, you need to do those chores she could have messaged me like, you know, in private And been like, hey, yeah, you know, but I’ll give you a pass cuz you did all that fucking painting. You know, that you only did for, you know, a quarter of what it was worth, right? Yeah.

Oh my God.

You know, not even a quarter.

Yeah. And, uh, it just made me realize that, uh, You know. It doesn’t matter what you do for people. Sometimes some people like you can do lots of great. Awesome things. It’s just lost on them. Then there are the other things I did for her, like changing out the toilet and that sink. And fixing the sink drain that took a lot more effort than I thought it would. Hahaha for nothing.

I guess that was, that was my point and me having to realize that the insane amount of effort and work that I did for her for basically peanuts. You know? Was lost on her. And that’s why. I’m not going to help my other roommate fix his car because it would be totally lost on him. It would be a waste of my efforts and I have shit tons of other things to do. And it really did, like, I’m still really disappointed because I’ve held her in such high esteem. I did, like,

I thought she was just like the best person I had met in fucking the last 10 years I was like she’s so awesome. This chick is so fucking cool but she’s really not, you know.

And me having to face the reality of that caused a lot of uh it’s been, it’s caused me some distress the last week. Yeah, it has Made me really sad. It’s like dang. And there’s another example of somebody who wasn’t as awesome as I thought they would be. Or, you know, who ended up not being as awesome as I thought they were, you know? And uh,

Gosh.

Because she did, she totally like took advantage of me and kind of screwed me over. And it’s like, well, all right. And I’m not going to say that I’ll never do anything like that for her ever again but the next time something like that comes up. I’m going to do it very differently and I still I don’t you know it, has the person even moved in yet that’s been um

You know, it’s been over a week since I got all that finished. You know, like I just I don’t know.

Was it worth it? For me. No, not at all. Except maybe to realize that uh, You know.

I probably shouldn’t have held her in such high regard. Yeah. Isn’t. That sad though that just makes me so sad. It does.

It’s like well, there’s 1 more person, who isn’t as awesome as I thought they were, you know?

Wow, wow. Where does it end?

It’s like, uh, I mean, it’s not as bad as like, um, you know, on the scale of like Realizing my ex-wife wasn’t going to be like she wasn’t really my best friend and we weren’t going to be forever and realizing that my uh ex fiance wasn’t my soulmate. Like I thought and uh, you know, don’t get me started. Even on the roommate who took me back and forth to work, oh my God, like I paid her so well for that and I was so awesome to her. I’m not going to get off on a rant about that. I’ve actually made a few posts about her but I made them. I took them down. Yeah. I don’t know, I’m just thinking it’s like I’m really impressionable and idealistic and I see the best in people. And sometimes I don’t know why. I expect people to uh

Be as sometimes I guess. I just yeah, it’s generous. And uh, considerate as I am and accommodating and that is not something that’s as common with human beings. As it should be. Painful fucking lesson, you know?

That’s like my dad. I guess my dad was another 1. You know, he was my greatest hero. Growing up, you know, my Dad hates my fucking guts now, he was the best man at my wedding. Right? I just, I don’t know what the hell is wrong with my dad.

Oh, there’s some kind of ambulance or something here. In the parking lot of work. I don’t know. I almost wish I’d have got something to smoke, but I didn’t because I have to stop.

Is that right in front of the main entrance?

Oh, that’s like a street sweeper. Okay.

Well, this parking lot needs it, hahaha But yeah, I’m always like just for some reason, I think people

Are a lot better than they actually are. And it’s not You know, not all people but some people I really just think I’ll just become you know just retarded about it. I think they’re just the best people’s ever and they end up. I put them on a pedestal I guess. Yeah. Too high, too much. And my roommate. Is was 1 of those people and it doesn’t happen very often. I could probably name a dozen people who uh, I’ve thought of like that. And then to be like, you know, and then there’s people who I thought were fucking crap, who ended up being really awesome.

That that list is a lot smaller. Maybe like 3. Yeah I’m just thinking like gosh though but like what a thing to be, right? A human.

There’s so much variance and I’ve met so many people from all walks of life.

It’s just, uh, I don’t know. It still makes me really sad when somebody turns out to be

Not at all as awesome as I thought they were. You know, like she doesn’t care.

My roommate. You know? She just does not give a shit. She didn’t give a shit that I fucking. Wore myself out to the point of like I mean I was so exhausted by the time I got done with that job that uh

It hurt, you know, and, uh, I just did it for 250 dollars, 33 hours. Yeah, I guess I did it for like 7 dollars an hour or something, right? If that

I just, I don’t know, hahah I’m kind of laughing to myself. Oh, yeah. And then Brittany yeah, that’s another person that I thought was just

The most beautiful lady who ever existed and then it’s like well she’s really

Yeah, I don’t know. I don’t know. I don’t, I’m just, I don’t know where to stop talking about this. Like, where is this good stopping point. I guess this is it, right? Yeah. Haha

Thank you. Please.