THURSDAY MORNING

4:17 AM
Okay. Let’s try this again. Where am I Madison?

I just got a uh, I just saw a billboard for the

Space Patrol. Whatever. That’s supposed to be. I don’t know. It is 2026, right?

I got a full 8 hours of sleep. Like, I didn’t wake up or anything. I just slept from like 8:00 p.m. Till about 3:30. Yeah.

Mayo.

I said a.m. Yeah. Haha

Well, I had a big post like I already talked up and I just got mad at it and mad at myself and I didn’t really like the direction it was going.

I was, I guess I was. Churning around in my brains about. Stalkers, and my blog and stuff, and how?

Uh, I don’t know. It’s like, well, maybe I shouldn’t talk about co-worker chicks but I don’t think I’m going to have another Brittany. So like whatever.

What’s so funny, though, is some people find my social media, like, even just my Facebook page and they just like people? From work. I’m in this uh, group this Facebook group at work and people like have looked at my stuff and they stare at me all weird when they see me at work. It’s like I’m from another planet or something or some kind of like incomprehensible thing. Yeah to the to like some people And it and it makes me feel weird.

Um, I don’t know.

But that’s what happened at the Honda plant, I joined the Facebook group but it freaked me out like

And I don’t know, like the opposite of what I thought, like I was avoiding there ended up happening. You know, I ended up losing another job because of a woman, I tried to avoid that but it didn’t happen. Like, you know, people think like, oh well, you know, you have a stalker like, you know, what did you do, like, you know, like Love her and leave her or something? Uh, it’s like no, I didn’t touch her. That’s kind of the funny thing about that. I don’t know what she got all up in her head, but, uh, nobody reads my blog.

Anymore, you know, sometimes like I’ll get, you know, pecks on it from Brittany but it’s been over 3 weeks and I don’t know how much That’s that matters because she left me alone. Practically all fucking summer last year and then started pecking again around my birthday and she did that.

I think in 2024 too. And 2023.

Yeah, so I don’t know, I don’t know if like she has some kind of seasonal. You know.

Like, haha Oh gosh

You know, maybe her brain just works like that, you know,

It’s just retarded. Yeah, I don’t know. But it’s a really small world. And, uh, I have either saw her drive past somewhere I was at or literally passed her on Highway 431 at some point in between like Gadsden and Huntsville where I live.

Probably half a dozen times in the last year. And it’s like, it’s crazy and 1 time I actually turned around and followed her back into Guntersville. And it was really weird. Yeah.

But anyways, um, I was just thinking like, you know, No coworker chicks where I am now have read this crap because they do pop up on the people. I may know all the time, but none of them read my blog because you can tell when like Uh,

Somebody reads it from, you know, off of Facebook.

But I just I don’t know, I just feel like I have waned a lot in popularity the last couple years. Anyways, like I don’t get I just don’t think I’m that important anymore. I don’t know if it’s because I’ve gotten older or if this is just because I’m not As interesting as I used to be, or I don’t seem as interesting or I don’t feel like I am even though I’ve done a lot more with music and stuff. In the last year

I don’t know, I’m not really sure how to define it, but I know that this has been a really rough week. Going back to work after not working for like 2 weeks and it’s been kicking my ass. And I’m tired.

I’m really kind of tired and I don’t know what.

What to do about that because last night, I really wanted to work on music And after I got in and ate my food and all that, I was like I’ll just go back out and get my guitar but I did.

I didn’t. Yeah. I don’t know, I don’t know what to say. I don’t know what I want to say. I’m going to the gym this morning though because I left early enough. And 1 of the gym girls is going to be in there. She’s in there in the mornings now. Uh,

But I don’t think it’s a big deal. I think she kind of hates me actually but

Oh,

I don’t know, man. Like,

Last week or the week before or something. During the Holidays I was just like gosh I wish I had a girlfriend and all this shit now I just don’t care. Like I care less than I ever have. About having a girlfriend. I know it’s not that much time has passed, but it’s like

She’s just going to try and take over my life and And boss me around and Make me miserable. But that’s what my ex-wife did. Haha Yeah. And that was like,

I don’t think I’m ready for another girlfriend. Yeah, I think that’s you know, the fact. I don’t know. I don’t I just don’t think I’m ready. I don’t think I’ve really actually been ready since the divorce at any 1 Point, not in a healthy way, you know. And I never get out and I don’t meet people and I don’t talk to people, I’m a super crazy fucking introvert.

And, uh, I don’t know.

I guess I’m just blabbering, so I’ll have something to edit while I’m on the treadmill in the gym. Yep, because I do that.

Oh man, I’m gonna stop up here at the RaceTrac gas station. And get, uh, coffee.

I think.

And something to eat.

Don’t get me started on food. Cuz sometimes I really think about how weird it is. To eat food.

And to have a body and all the stuff that constitutes is like blood and hair. And

Bones.

And all the stuff in between, you know. Gristle. And

Blood veins. And you have organs, you have a stomach. That uses the stuff called acid. To digest to break down, you know, food and the chemical reaction. Gives you Fuel and you absorb parts of it through your intestines and then what gets left it comes out as Due due. As due to.

As doodoo, it comes out as doooo from your butt. And you have a butt hole. You have a mouth. Where things go in. And a butthole where things go out and it’s like the positive and negative poles

Of, you know, a battery or something like it’s

It’s the anode and the cathode. Haha.

You know.

Positive and negative.

And it’s weird too because it tastes so good. You know, the positive in the mouth is the positive. It’s so delicious as Food and then it comes out. Yuck eww Yuck. Yuck out of your butt as the negative. And that’s, uh, All life on Earth can be reduced to those 2 basic. Things.

And uh, that’s just that’s why I’m not going to get started talking about food.

Ha, ha. Ha. Ha! Ha! Ha! Ha! Ha! Ha! Ha! Ha! Ha! Ha! Ha. Ha! Ha! Ha! Ha.

Yay. Now I’m at the gas station.

4:28 AM
Thank you, please. Thank you, please.