TUESDAY MORNING

5:32 AM
Oh, what am I doing? I am.

Waiting for my car to warm up. Yeah, it’s just 1 of those things. I didn’t think about Frost this morning, I don’t know. It’s cold.

Well, I guess I was right. Yeah my roommate’s moving out but so is the 1 that took me back and forth to work and I hate to say I’m probably going to miss her a little bit. I mean she drove me nuts. And that was a lot of stuff I could. I mean there’s a lot I could say about her and I probably will at 1 point at some day or something. But uh overall though she helped me a lot and she helped me get this car.

And uh, like I said, I think in another post that there’s a lot of stuff about her that she just can’t help. Yeah, I think she’s just, you know,

But then there’s a lot of stuff that Anyways, whatever though I’m going to miss her. Yeah, I’m going to miss her but I’m not going to miss the other 1 and that’s fine but some other person is moving in to his room and uh I hope they’re cool and whoever Moves In.

To the other roommates room.

Is cool too. If you know, yeah.

1 of my roommates was talking about raising the rent and just hiring a cleaning person. Instead of chores? And I thought, you know,

That’s fine. I meant to like reply to that though on the group chat, but I didn’t.

Because if there’s 1 thing that I just put off and slack around on Uh, more than anything else. I think is

Is my chores? Yeah.

But, uh, I’m off work the next 2 days. I’ve just got to get through today and it was really tempting. I just had a point roll off an attendance point. So it’s really tempting to call in To work, it really is. But I’ll make it. I made it yesterday. Yesterday yesterday wasn’t so bad. Everything went by super fast.

It ought to go like that today too. And then tomorrow, I get paid.

Um, I put in for a vacation day like at the last minute. And my boss approved it so I was like fuck yeah and uh yeah I’m really excited. Uh I’m just going to sleep in. And I’m broke though. That’s kind of another thing I was dreading like Uh what the hell I was going to do for food and stuff at work. I mean I still have food. I have Spaghetti Os. Yeah.

I have a bunch of ramen though and I’m going to uh probably eat that tomorrow. But I’ll probably sleep. I also have a can of llama beans.

Oh, my car is finally starting to get warm.

Yeah. Yeah yeah. Yeah.

I said, yay. And it said, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Haha, haha.

Um, Shit though.

I was thinking though tomorrow. Like, maybe I would get the kids for supper. And then get new tires, Thursday.

And stuff. I’ve got to see how much money I have though. I don’t know how much my check is going to be. I mean it’s probably going to be, you know, pretty good. And then, uh, because I worked, I did work a Saturday, like 3 hours. Yeah.

But uh I don’t know. I just I don’t I’m thinking about my roommates and spaced out for a second. What’s in the windshield? Watching the windshield. Yes. Uh,

I was just thinking about how, like I do. I hope this, uh, the new roommate. Is cool, but I think they’re friends with the 2, roommates. I don’t like and

So you know, who knows? I mean, it’s like I said, I’m not going to live here forever. I’m going to start saving up, and I’m going to try to get a camper. I mean I could try to get a camper and move to an RV park which I thought about you know, or I might try to find some like other place to live like a trailer park or something but I need to save up. I know trailer park, right? Well, guess what?

I like trailer parks.

I used to live in 1. And uh, They’re fun.

Sometimes. I don’t know. I’m just thinking there’s a lot of really cool places around here that that are for rent all the time.

Even if I have to pay like 7 or 8 hundred dollars a month, you know, it’s like It’s not going to be that bad.

But I don’t hate living here either. I just I don’t know. I don’t like having a bunch of damn roommates. I haven’t had roommates in Uh, like 20.

3 years. 22, 23 years, something like that. Hold on 2001.

Plus.

Yeah, 23 years. When I moved in here, I was just thinking, I guess it would be 2024 minus 2021 22, 2001. Oh my God, my brain hahaha hahaha. Um, but the roommates that I used to have, they were like my best friends. And uh, 1 of them. Um, me and him got into it and didn’t talk for a fucking year. But also, just

Didn’t care either. And you know, like we don’t really talk anymore. Now either, we, we were like friends. We’re like, he was like my best friend growing up. Uh, him and Eric. Yeah me and Eric got to be better friends though as we got older and uh stuff but like I don’t know. I’m talking about my friend Brandon and he’s like 1 of the most creative. Fucking talented songwriters that I know personally. Uh I don’t know what the fuck he’s doing with that shit now, but I wish he did like stuff with it.

Some of the funniest fucking crap I’ve ever heard in my life. Any of my friends ever made uh came out of him. It was like what the fuck? That’s so funny. Yeah, I could post the links to it, I guess. He was the singer for Analog Cracker. And uh, yeah.

Oh man, I’m starting to feel better. Yeah, I felt really really bad yesterday towards the end of the shift.

And I came home, I got home about

4:30 and I fucking passed out and I didn’t wait back up to like 10:00. Yeah, and then I went back to sleep and anyways now my windshield is defrosting enough so I can leave

Yeah. Yeah.

Thanks car.

I love my car.

I want to clean out the front seat tomorrow. I think that’s what I’m going to do. I’m going to like poke around

It depends on how I feel. Um, When I get home today, I might do my chores. I told my roommate so I was like Uh, I’ll probably do them today but I might not do them until tomorrow. I kind of don’t give a fuck. Yeah, isn’t that funny?

I don’t.

But uh, Yeah, I’ll probably do them today and then uh,

I don’t know though. It’s, it depends.

I guess I’m tired of like.

Putting myself out too, you know? Yeah, I mean like, you know, if I’m going to be uncomfortable, doing something like that. Who gives a shit? It’s a yeah, I don’t know. Maybe I’m just, I don’t think it’s that big of a deal. I’m just like You know, if I’m more tired than I am wanting to do my chores when I get home. I’m probably going to Pass out again, but then I might do my chores. So,

I probably should just do them. Yeah.

And I did, I left.

I’m leaving the house. I left the house like an hour later than I actually usually get to work about this time. This is when I got to work yesterday, actually. Yeah. It was like. 15 till 5, which is 15 to 6 now. Oh my gosh. Yeah what am I thinking? I laid in the bed. I woke up. My alarm went off. 3:30. I snoozed it. It went back off at like 4:30 I snoozed it again. And I finally got up at like 5:25.

Oh man, it’s so much different.

When you get up.

Like when you get up early as shit and leave at like 4:00 like I usually do. Um,

It’s so different that when you leave at, like, 5:45

Yeah. But I am, I’m going to miss my, the roommate. I really am. I’m going to tell her that too.

She uh, she really made a big difference. In my life, she really did.

She reminds me of,  Eric Actually a lot. So like if Eric was a an old lesbian, um, Like no shit. She reminds me so much of Eric.

You know, it’s just It’s funny. It’s like 1 time me and Eric had this big crazy conversation about how uh, you know Some people like when they remind you of somebody else, it’s them playing like a different character. Yeah. That’s what. You know. That’s like Eric playing Diana. Her name’s Diana Yeah. It’s just like yo.

Yep. Yeah, it’s funny. I don’t know what else can I say. I’m just like Oh, I need to reply to my friend Peter

He was asking me about what I thought of this life, what I thought about reality and everything.

And uh,

I don’t know if the answer is going to be as profound as he’s expecting or something, it’s like,

Actually, you know, you want to take it the totality of all existence. This little slice, you know, on planet Earth.

It was actually, you know, can be a very magical, beautiful, wonderful thing. You have to

Uh, depending on where you focus.

On it and just stay positive. I know that’s easier said than done a lot of the time. But uh,

You know, it’s I think people create a lot of their own problems in their head.

Project that onto the world around them. And it causes more problems.

I remember I used to be how I used to be before my ex-wife,

Sucked. The fucking life out of me. I don’t know, and I got into business with my dad. You know, back in the day, like, when I was in my late teens, early 20s,

I used to get up. Out of bed every morning. Like, just Yay, you know I’m alive. I’m alive. But yeah, and uh, I still do that sometimes it took a long time for me to get to where I could do that again. Um,

But I should probably do that again. I don’t know.

Well, I don’t even know I’m tired of talking.

Yeah, I’ve just been

Oh man. Yeah, I just got to get through today.

I think I need to go to the doctor actually.

Let me get some antibiotics. Yay. Thank you, please.