4:52 PM
Oh my God, it’s later. Today.
I fell asleep for about an hour and woke up and was like, dang, it’s not late, it’s not as late as I thought it would be and I’m like Hungry again. What did I do today after I made that post. When did I make that post?
Oh well, at least my YouTube payment went through. It’s weird. Yeah. Like all that stuff.
Oh gosh. That was at. Like 8:00 this morning when I made that post. Okay, well that’s that’s okay.
I finally cleaned the bathroom that it took me like
30 minutes. It wasn’t that hard. I don’t know why I ever. And I think the last time. Yeah, I was like, oh, dreading doing It and then it just didn’t take no time, you know, it’s like I clean the shower. And the toilet and the Sink and the mirror.
Sweep the floor.
Mop the floor and then I’m done. And I guess like rinse out the bathtub that I never use. I’ll never use that bathtub. Um, but I went out. And I thought, you know, I have money right now. I’m going to eat at Culver’s. And I did and it was okay. Sometimes. Uh it’s not great but it’s never horrible.
It was like 1 of those times, it was okay. I think it was about
11:30, maybe noon. Or something. And then I just thought, hey,
Uh, because I was looking around on the map, I actually included that in a post.
A few days ago or something, maybe a week. I was talking about how uh, Winchester Road goes up to Elora Tennessee. And I thought I want to get some more lottery tickets. So I did I went up to uh, Allura Tennessee, Elora Tennessee. Yes, and I went to the Dollar General there. And this lady worker was just tired as she could be. She’s the 1 who checked me out and I was like, you know, I used to work at the dollar store. What an experience that was 04 months of my life and I was like,
It’s a lot harder than people think it is like I work at a car factory now and sometimes I’m I would be more tired after 5 hours at the damn Dollar Store than I am after you know, 10 hours at the car factory Which we’re going to be getting a lot of that next week. It’s going to be overtime.
And I’m excited because that means a lot more money and I hope we work a fucking Saturday too
Yep.
I haven’t ever really talked about. The 4 months I worked at the Dollar General. That was kind of weird. That was a really that was a really weird time in my life. It was uh, November of 2023 till February of 2024 and it was really weird. Surreal
I went to the Dollar General though, to get uh I got allergy medication, it helped And, And then uh, some Reese’s hearts. Valentine’s Hearts? Yeah, I did. And before I knew it, I had eaten all of them and
They were delicious, I have A problem with the Reese’s. Products, like Reese’s cups, and the seasonal, you know, the eggs, and the Samus, and the hearts The Santos and the hearts. Yeah, the sandas.
The Santa Claus.
Reesey. Santa Claus is wait. No, they’re trees. Yeah. What the fuck, girl? Oh, they have the Santa too though. Yeah. The uh that’s a different.
I mean, it’s made different. It seems like the Santas have more chocolate than peanut butter, but the trees have more peanut butter than chocolate, which I like peanut butter the most, but I like chocolate too. And I got cash for the lottery tickets and I got, I went up. So, I didn’t have to backtrack, uh, I used to have.
I think like 3 generator customers in aura.
In Elora, Tennessee. Um,
So I was not unfamiliar with the area but then I went up to Hunts land, I think that was what it’s called.
Huntland. Yeah, that’s what it is. And that’s where I got the lottery tickets.
And I forgot that um, you know, of course I got lottery tickets last night but You know, I’ve forgotten because I bought a bunch of scratch offs so I didn’t think about that. Oh yeah the Mega Millions is 5 dollars now
I hope I win hahaha haha.
And uh, finally got my heater back. I posted to the group text and uh, It was the roommate 1 of the ones that’s moving out and I knew it was him and he’s had it for like, 2 months, but he was like, oh, I just temporarily got it last week and I was like, okay, whatever it’s fine. Just thanks for
Telling me you had it and letting me get it back with no drama like thank you because
That space heater, it’s special. It helped me get through a really weird time. I kind of laugh about that actually, like The Farmhouse days. I was, uh,
I wish I could go back and relive that time but not be so screwed up. Like even as like screwed up as I am now, like would be A thousand times better than how screwed up. I was then it’s so crazy and remarkable that, uh,
Gosh, I know, but it’s like It’s like I that was like required or something for me to like,
Some kind of development. I’m trying to think like character development. Well yeah, that’s I guess, ultimately. But uh, it was really special, that’s when I did a lot of house remodeling.
I did mostly house remodeling when I lived there and It just was, it was a really special. Magical time probably the most
I mean offset though, by how
Gosh, just ah, that was the most depressed I’ve ever been.
Especially after my ex fiance dumped me. I was just like
Why do I exist? You know, it was so stupid because, uh, I also did a lot of fun crazy stuff with the kids, then We painted the walls. And painted a bunch of stuff on the walls. It was so fun.
And uh,
But all that stuff, all my stuff, most of it’s in the storage unit now and the house, the people reclaimed it
When I first moved in there, I had talked with my friend Eric’s cousin that’s who owned the house. Owns the house I guess and the land and everything and She was really awesome and, uh,
I was supposed to fix it up and just give her, like $200 a month to live there, which is pretty. That was a pretty great deal. Uh but gosh, the house was in really uh, I guess disrepair. I was going to say really bad shape but Parts of it were and parts of it weren’t. Um, but I had it really cleaned up and like It was. Pretty good. I had fixed it up and cleaned a lot of crap up.
Then a lot of stuff. Uh, because it was a squatter house where people were shooting drugs up in it and I did, I found syringes like all over the fucking place and I cleaned all this shit up. Shampooed the carpets. I mean like like 3 rounds of shampoo and the carpets
Over the course of like a week. And
Because, you know, my ex fiance the plan was for her to come back. And just live there. Yeah, and
But anyways, after that ended, it was that was the most. That was probably the most idiotic thing I ever did was getting mixed up with her but, uh, geez. You know, I didn’t know what the hell I was doing.
Oh, But I just sank like fucking a rock into the abyss like say like the deep end like like a rock that sank all the way to the bottom of like the You know what, the Mariana Trench or something? It was So bad.
And it took,
Took a lot for me to come back up from that. Uh, but then I don’t know. I’m just thinking, though, like, I, I guess I would rather talk about the good parts of it because Uh eventually though like that lady, just left me alone, it got so bad that the lady left me alone, but then I was like, I was able to just kind of exists there and I didn’t have to worry about a whole lot. I didn’t have electricity for a year and that was interesting.
Um, I took a lot of cold showers. And,
I charged my phone in my car. I know and it it took
Uh, because it was like the poorest and dirtiest, like I’ve ever been too. It was weird. But then, uh, because I still did too like got my kids and
I spent any kind of extra money I had with the kids, but um, it got so bad that house got so bad. Because outside of that, I would get, I would just, I was just like this.
I was so weird, like, just I don’t, it’s hard to explain like, disconnected from The universe. But then, I guess not like disconnected from like the human world though for real. And I only came back into it.
Uh, on the weekends I got the kids but it got the house got so bad that my ex wife stopped letting them stay there. So we had to go to my mom’s
Things started getting weird with the house. About the time, I got the job at the first car factory, which is where I work now. Uh,
Like the ceiling. Just totally caved in in the bedroom and I couldn’t live there. I was like, well and then I moved in with my mom and lived there for 3 years and that was
Not something that I thought would last for 3 years but it did. You know, it was just
Really crazy. But the heater came from that time and it has a lot of Special Value to me and I’m just glad I got it back.
Because it did it. It was the 1 I kept, I had 2 of them that were just alike and It got really, really, really cold.
I guess times I say days or nights or whatever but uh,
I had them in my bedroom with the dogs and it sucked to watch my dogs die 1 by 1, you know? That was really horrible but they were all getting old. I think Dave, he made it to 13.
Gneegnerz made it to 12
And then boat lived to be 15.
He lasted the longest, me and him lived a whole year together in that house
And uh, Then I think he lived another.
4 months at my mom’s apartment, that was. But and I moved in with Eric for about 3 months, that’s a long story. Gosh, that is just a long stupid story and the dogs hated that they hated living with him. They kept trying to go back to the house. It’s like, no, this is where we live. It’s like yeah. Well, we ended up back there. Uh, anyways, but Gneegnerz died. Uh, while we were living at Eric’s, I don’t know. It fucking was so awful
That’s a long story. Yeah, I’m not going to talk about that.
Sometimes it’s just I don’t know, it’s really weird. I’m like But I’m like I was just kind of left to my own devices. Uh, I didn’t mow the yard or anything everything grew up really tall, it was like the house was like halfway up the house was like it’s was like a field. It’s it stopped being a yard and uh
5:08 PM
I didn’t have a vehicle for the better part of 2021 too. That was um that was interesting. And so I walked to the store and uh gosh just everything was just so crazy. I didn’t see the kids for like 4 months and then my mom actually when that’s back, when everybody got the stimulus money, my mom, rented, a car.
And she had some kind of deal worked out at the this dealership where they let her rent a car for like It was almost like like a car payment, it was a little bit more than a like a what a regular car payment would be a month. So like she would rent a car. And uh I’d help her pay for it. So we had a car and then she, you know, she would get sick of working and stuff and or something would happen. And then we’d lose it
We would not rent it and then um, I think something happened. Oh yeah, she had gotten another job in October 2021 and started renting
Gosh. This is just, I’m just going off all over the place. Just I’m just thinking though how like I’m trailing off into other things, but
I’m trying to think.
But uh when I lived there at that house, uh, after I got the electricity turned back on like the whole year of 2019, I didn’t have electricity until like February of 2020. And, uh, so I could have had all my equipment, like, my music equipment and my, uh, amps and old a whole bunch of stuff everything that I didn’t lose in Pawn or sell off. Uh, to eat the, you know, over the Last year or so like what what am I even talking about, right? But like I could just be as loud as I wanted. Nobody, you know, bothered me and everybody left me alone. I don’t know it was It was pretty great. I was just really crazy and messed up. Like I wish I could go back and relive those 3 years, like and be more normal.
But that’s life, I guess. But I have a lot of nostalgia for that house. It’s
It was really, really special. And the heater was a part of that. Yeah. Hahaha
Um, what else? Jesus, I’m gonna have to edit the crap out of all that.
I feel better, I’m feeling a lot better. I’m thinking about going back out and getting food again, but then I have this Ramen. I never did. Oh, the foe? Yeah I never did eat the faux soup, the Pho
Oh it did. No it didn’t. I’m just going to have to type it in, okay? Uh,
I didn’t eat it.
But yeah, no Farmhouse. It was just like I was in this, my own little, like microcosm it was
Really remarkable.
I slept in a cot. Oh, for a long time and then I got bunk beds.
Uh, I got them for the kids but then like it ended up, you know, that’s when I lived at Eric, that’s a long story. It’s such a long Stupid story though. I’m not going to tell it. I’m going to think I’m going to talk about something else. What do I want to eat for supper?
Well, I ate Culver’s already. I don’t know why I like that place so much it is though. It’s It’s my favorite fast food place because it takes a little longer, but everything’s better than, like, you know,
Burger King or fucking Wendy’s or something, right? And it’s the same price, it’s like, for a combo, the fish sandwich combo. I got, it was like $13.
Fast food. So stupid. Now it’s like the most I guess you’re really just paying for the convenience and the like almost instantaneous. Like here you go here’s a meal, you know like Taco Bell’s gotten so expensive and uh like literally you can go to a Mexican restaurant for lunch and order off the lunch menu and it’s a lot of times it’s cheaper than anything you’ll get from fucking Burger King or Wendy’s
I think you can still get Like a combo or something for a less than ten dollars or a round ten dollars. I think the last time I got a, uh,
Fuck the chicken sandwich, you know, that’s
I think the last time I got a Big Mac combo meal it was like it was like a round almost ten dollars with a large Coke. I don’t It’s like 9 something. Yeah. But the last time I got a combo from Taco Bell, it was 13 or 14 dollars. The same thing for Wendy’s and Burger King.
Uh the last time I ate it a Mexican restaurant for lunch just by myself, you know? It was fucking like, $11 plus the tip.
Or including the tip or something.
Oh my friend. Rebecca is messaging me again, I will talk to Rebecca for like Like we’ll message back and forth like all day for like a week or 2 and then I won’t hear from her for like a week or 2 and then we’ll message.
She is messaging the shit out of me.
And that’s uh, anyways.
I made up a song about her. I need to play it for. Her
It’s uh it’s really silly but it’s how much I love her because she’s my favorite friend. She’s so awesome.
If we lived like in the same town and hung out all the time, I would try to kiss her Haha. Yeah, for real
What’s so funny in that? Maybe it’s because I don’t get out or anything. I really don’t but like I wish I knew chicks. Who were as cool as the ones. I am friends with online. Like my friend, Anna. Who is a twin flame Chaser? Oh, that’s a long story. But she gave me a lot of perspective on Brittany and, uh,
Both my Rebecca friends I have 2 Rebecca’s one is from uh Germany the 1 that I’m talking to right now. And then one from Colorado
And then,
Uh, I have a Serbian friend, she’s really cool and I have
A friend from Kuwait who’s really awesome.
Hell, even my friend Jane but she lives in Gulf Shores, she lives like 6 hours away.
Oh, so she’s practically an online friend. I have a friend from Greece. Who’s really awesome and, you know, my friend Pooja. Oh, I have a Armenian friend, who’s really great.
My friend Natalie not the 1 that I went roller skating with this uh,
This chick, she lives in Georgia, I think she said she was moving back to Anniston though. But, uh, Like gosh, I never got to hang out with her like we were just online friends until after the divorce. And now it’s like Well, you know, I can’t. Really hang out with her, my friend, uh, Jesse Welles who lives in Panama. I never got to hang out with her when she lived in Alabama because I was married. And uh, I just, I have a lot of really awesome lady friends, who are like, But they just live all over the world. Oh and there’s uh my friend Arwa, who’s Egyptian?
Yeah, and she lives in Korea. It’s like, you know, I wish I knew some chicks, like all the ones I just mentioned, who lived in Huntsville? Like I don’t I can’t imagine though but they’re all polyglots. Most of them come from the polyglot community.
And I have a Polish friend. And I have like just I have tons of them, you know?
I’m scrolling back through my message or to try to remember like all the ones. And then here’s like the last time my Ex-girlfriend messaged me, which was back in August. It looks like she’s deactivated her shit posting account also.
Out of all like my girlfriends that I’ve had, which has been, you know, 4. Um and plus my ex-wife, you know I have an ex-wife an ex fiance and 4 ex-girlfriends. Stephanie though, she was, uh, she was the most fun to interact with. She really was.
She infiltrated the polyglot community and
Got a bunch of guys to send her money to the point where she like upped her standard of living, it was remarkable. Yeah, Stephanie was something else or is I don’t know.
I don’t know.
Oh, she might be.
Oh, dang. I can’t find her or that guy she was supposedly engaged to on Facebook.
I hope, I don’t know, like
Maybe they’re still together. They were supposed to get married. I don’t know. She is uh
I think she likes to flirt with the idea of like a husband, or a serious relationship, but no. Because she likes to be crazy. She likes the thrill of being a complete, like, insane person and you, you know, you can’t do that and have a stable relationship with anybody. That’s my, that’s like, that’s my last girlfriend. She’s a big reason I’ve been single for 5 years, but I don’t know. I was just like, That’s yeah. Gosh, that’s so stupid. That just popped up but she was she was She was super like entertaining, her numerology chart was like, is I guess, yeah.
Still Remains the most impressive 1 I’ve ever seen, like, holy fucking shit. She’s a 33 life path.
Um, with an 11 Soul number and an 11 personality and a 22 expression.
And she has no karmic debt.
And um,
Her first and second, Pinnacles are 11s and her third Pinnacle is 22. It’s like, wow, you know, she she’s like a power build or something and and but it’s like if she had the right kind of like
I guess if she had her mind Right. Haha I don’t know if she had like put I don’t I mean, because a lot of it is she’s a product of her environment I guess is uh, That’s a nice way to put it. But um, if she had had like better and I did, I did my best. Um, but with some like positive, I don’t know.
I mean maybe 1 day she’ll you know, be like hey you know like
I guess so if she had the, uh,
Why is this so hard for me to think of the words?
She had.
The awareness, I guess to, uh, Somehow improve her perspective to where she would, uh, instead of like causing drama and being crazy and a bunch of bullshit. Uh, she used her abilities to like help and uplift and She would really make a huge positive difference in the world. Like she was just, she was just a remarkable amazing lady but
You know, she has had, I don’t know. Because I haven’t really talked to her that much, well since August, but like, The last time I guess in 2024, when I was talking to her again and hanging out, I hung out with her a few times. Oh, she was a mess like worse than I’ve ever seen her, and then, which was funny because she told me, she’s like, I’m a lot better now. And I was like, no, you’re actually, you weren’t. You’re not.
But gosh, I loved her so much. I loved her almost as much as I loved my ex-wife. That’s how special, you know, she was a really special lady. She’s got a whole album’s worth of songs about her, but Yeah. Why did I have to go scrolling through my fucking messenger? Right? Um, gosh. A lot of blabberty ass bullshit, I guess I’m I’m feeling better and I’m kind of rested because I’ve had 2 days off.
5:26 PM
So yesterday was really hard.
And today started off really hard. Uh, yeah, that’s the uh, third time stamp so. It’s probably going to take me about an hour to edit this. And then I’m going to go get some food and then I’m going to fucking, I don’t know. Go to sleep or something again, yay. Thank you, please.
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