FRIDAY MORNING

5:22 AM
Oh my gosh, it’s Friday. I’m going to work.

Its supposed to get really cold, um, Sunday. And everybody’s talking about Monday. You know, the weather keeping us from coming to work, but I don’t think that’s going to happen.

Yeah, I don’t think. I think we’re going to come to work. It might be late. I don’t know though. Didn’t that happen before? The first time I worked here?

That was actually scary, because I came to work on time. I didn’t get the memo. And it was ice and snow everywhere. All over the place.

Who knows? I would rather come to work than have to deal with crazy ass weather, but it happened Yeah, it happens.

What am I going to do this weekend? Uh, well my son has a game tomorrow but it might get cancelled. I don’t know cuz it’s supposed to rain.

A whole bunch and it’s going to be really cold. And if it gets canceled, I’ll probably go to my storage unit. But my storage unit, they have not had The heat on it’s a climate controlled storage unit. Yeah, they haven’t been doing that and it’s annoying so I’ll probably bring 1 of my heaters.

But if his game is not canceled because it’s indoors, it’s a basketball game. Um, You know that’s what I’m going to do and then probably get the kids for lunch.

You know what’s scary though? Is I still have money. Yeah.

Uh, oh, somebody just messaged me.

Oh, it’s my friend Carrie.

She’s been asking me for money. Hahaha Oh gosh

And I’ve been giving it to her, I have

And I feel bad not giving her money because I was just talking about how I still had money, right? Haha.

But uh,

I’m afraid. She’s going to start asking me money now forever. But I also know that I have asked people for money and they have given it to me and I have to give her money. Like I have to give her money. I can’t. You know, not give her any money because I have.

It. So, uh,

Shit man. Yeah, I’m just going to do that as soon as I get it to where I stopped.

Where I? Yeah, where I can stop.

Well, I’ve known her for about 30 years, she went to Asbury. Oh, she’s older than me and her sister. It was this big thing too. Her sister died when she was like 16 of Leukemia and we released a bunch of balloons 1 year for her. It was uh, it was really, really sad. And,

She’s a really sweet lady, but she must have fallen on. I know she got really sick.

Last year, I think she’s falling on some hard times, but Yeah, I don’t know.

I’m just, uh, I guess I’m going to give her 20 bucks, I don’t know.

Bless her heart. She’s a good person. That’s my point. Yeah, there’s no telling, I hope it’s not like drug related or something.

Because I’m only I’m apprehensive like once or twice, you know, it’s like that’s no problem cuz I let her borrow money on Christmas. Or I gave her money on Christmas and I gave her a 20 bucks. Fuck. Like Monday or something? Yeah, or Tuesday.

And it’s Friday. She’s asking for it again, so I don’t know. It’s like I have money left.

Well, I’m into my overdraft. I’ve got about a hundred dollars on my overdraft but I have $60 on my afterpay, I can get back, I know this is how I really don’t have the money, right? But I do and then I’ve got a Sunday, I can get $120. Uh out of my Advanced pay on time. That’s how I have money left. Yeah, usually I’m still like usually I’ve already used up all that especially on you know, after the a weekend I’ve had my kids and I’ve asked my ex-wife to borrow $40 but I always pay her back and I always pay back everybody. I’ve borrowed money from

Well, I still, I think I still owe my cousin like eighty dollars, but I probably, you know I don’t think he really doesn’t need it and he didn’t bug me enough to pay him back. So and I tried to pay back another 1 of my friends, but I’ve had people give me lots of money to help me out when I really needed it. So, yeah. Um, I mean, that’s just how it goes man. That’s what friends are for and that’s what life’s about is helping each other. So, I’m going to do that but I don’t know. I hope she doesn’t ask me to for money again.

Uh,

Anytime soon but I hope she’s okay. Yeah, speaking of all that though it is time for me to go into this race track gas station and get some fucking food. Uh, Jesus help. And I’m You know, I got around. I’m later I’m about 30 minutes later than yesterday. Oh yeah. I was like I didn’t leave the house till 5:30 yesterday.

Uh, but I’ve been working out after work so it’s not a big deal.

Oh, crap and butts I guess that’s Well, I’ll just come right back, I’ll be talking.

Holy shit.

This is the second time I have gone to the racetrack and they didn’t have any kind of fucking food out. So I bought this other thing that I usually get, like the pretzel bun fucking sandwich.

Pretty good.

Shut my stomach up.

God. I ate a whole bunch of food last night though, I went to little Rosies Cantina and got fajitas for like my third time in a week.

It’s really good stuff. Haha

Yeah, I guess I’m just getting to work. A little later than uh, I usually do.

What was I saying?

Yeah. I mean I hope she’s okay but

I hope she’s not uh on drugs or something. You know, she’s like you never know. Yeah.

Fuck you asshole.

God.

This fucking idiot in a giant cement truck. Yeah, this fucking idiot in a giant cement truck. God, oh my God. He just pulled out and gets over in the fucking right in front of me. It’s a 4 Lane. You know, he’s just a shitty Asshole,

Anyways, it’s not that big of a deal. I’m alive.

But yeah, I went to the gym yesterday for about an hour.

I don’t know why this is picking things up really weird?

Uh, it is.

And I did some heavy weights. And every time I do heavy weights, if I don’t work myself up to it, I always get like, it hurts the next day, you know, I have a lot of miles. On my Body. It’s really stupid. Like and it’s all because I got into business with my dad. Like that shit. Fucked me up so much.

Uh, you know, I don’t know, like character development, I guess. I have no idea but like I don’t even talk to my dad anymore. I know I’ve mentioned that. Uh, in a lot of different posts. But it’s just sometimes, I think, you know, why in the hell did I do something for somebody? Like my dad like anything. Like I, I completely altered the course of my life from What I wanted to do to help my dad. It’s absolutely not what I wanted to do with my life, which is a it caused a like it was it would have been okay, if he hadn’t been such an asshole,

You know, and it it sucks. It really does and to look back on it. Now, you know, sometimes I feel kind of bad for my dad because he’s my dad but then I remember like all the reasons why You know, like anyways, nobody else could work for my dad except me And my step cousin, uh, You know, in his case Nobody else could put up with him either. I think both, you know, him and my dad both are Marines. But it was a lot more than that because I know other Marines who are fucking really nice people. And uh,

You know I trained him. My step cousin. Yeah. And it that was 1 of the hardest things. Like that was so hard to have to work around him. Like I did every day, it was just

Oh my God. For what? Like About 8 years. Yeah.

He was a really good engine guy and uh, you know, I mean he just He struggled with understanding the electrical things but his attitude and he would have these like brain malfunction episodes and and just like it was really sad. Though because he had a horrible childhood but he ended up shooting himself.

And I don’t really know all the circumstances like as far as like why he did it. I mean. I don’t know. I’m not going to go into that. It was really sad. It really messed with me because he, and I, he was kind of like my little brother or something, for a long time, even though I hadn’t really talked to him,

Uh,

In about 5 years.

The last couple of days I’ve been parking like on the other side of the parking lot.

I don’t have this stuff just fell out of my sandwich.

Yeah, I’ve been parking down here and going in this way to hide from people.

Because of the other day. Yeah. I just It doesn’t hurt. It really does. It hurts me really bad? Because I love I love all these ladies. From work so much.

And it’s always like that everywhere. I go. I just love them. I love them so much.

But I am terrified of them at the same time, all right.

It’s horrible.

And even though nowadays, you know,

She hasn’t pecked on my blog in a while that I can tell.

I have been getting some off hits but I think that’s been something else. I don’t know. But um,

Sometimes I really do. Wish things could have been different with Brittany.

I really should just tell that whole story. For real.

Oh gosh, let me give this chick money.

5:45 AM
Okay, I did that.

I don’t know what else to say. There’s this fucking Caption closed caption bubble.

At the top of the screen on this phone and I really need to just get a new phone. Like this phone is.

I’ve had it for almost a year 1 of my friends from Target gave it to me because she’s awesome.

And that’s what I mean, like,

If somebody asks me for money, And I got it, I have to give it to them.

Because people have, given me stuff so much and helped me out so much.

Shit.

Another retard in the parking lot with the fucking headlights on.

But I have SpaghettiOs.

And,

Oh they turned them off? Thank God.

Anyways, I guess it’s about time for me to Walk into the plant. Yeah.

I have to put lotion on my face.

Okay. Anyway, haha she said she can send it right back but I don’t I don’t know.

Gosh. She said she would pay me back like the other day, too, but she apparently gets paid today and I don’t know. Maybe she just started a new job or something.

But uh,

Yep.

I feel like I have so much else. I want to talk about, you know, I still miss my mom sometimes and I like teared up yesterday. Uh, thinking about that while I was working. But shit, I don’t know what else to say. Gosh, this has actually turned into kind of a long post, right?

I didn’t make 1 yesterday. I was, uh, too tired, hahaha. Haha, thank you, please. Please.