WEDNESDAY MORNING

5:11 AM

Okay, all right.

Uh, I don’t know why I started this over actually, but I’ve got 1 day off like tonight off. Yeah. I was lucky enough to get that because I put it in before the shift started. And my supervisor approved. It, thank God.

Why didn’t I refill my water bottle?

I’m trying to figure out what I want to do, though. But um, it was it’s been like It’s the transition week or rotation week, or how whatever you want to call it, between shifts. Like you know last week I was on days and this week I’m on nights and everybody’s just

Frazzled as hell cuz you know everybody’s sleep schedule and uh just everything. Their whole thing is,

Flip-flopped, and it takes. Oh, every bit of a week or so, to get used to that. It’s pretty extreme too. It’s off set 12 hours here but at Honda, it was offset like

Shit I guess, 10 hours. But for some reason it didn’t seem like it was that bad like like uh, you know, there’s a big difference between getting off work.

Well, the the the shifts started earlier, yeah, there’s a huge difference. Between getting off work, you know, at

Midnight. Opposed to 4:30 a.m.

You know, going from from days it’s it was 6 to 2:30.

And nights was 4 to 12:30. Yeah. And it wasn’t that big of an offset but from 7, you know, a.m. to

3:45 p.m. and then Like, going from that to 700 p.m. to 3:45 a.m. Is a huge. Difference in like how it affects your sleep and shit. And your rest, uh, 1 of my co-workers.

Yesterday, he’s like, I’ve been up since 6:00 a.m. And man, and that’s common, you know, some people just stay up. Some people, uh, I prepare for it. Like, I slept, Like I made myself stay up all night Saturday night. And Sunday, most of the night. I think I made myself stay up till about 3:00 a.m. Uh, Sunday. And Monday

Or something. Yeah. It wasn’t hard though. I was pretty exhausted. Like I napped I got an early nap in, anyways. Uh, but everybody is just ill and I could just feel the fucking crappy vibes from everybody, especially towards the end of the shift.

And all the way out, uh, There’s this, uh, Team lead dude, and he’s in the, the Facebook work group that I’m in and he just looks at me. Like I don’t really know how to interpret how he looks at me. A lot of dudes. Not like all the time but sometimes I guess uh I get looked at by guys. They just look at me like they don’t. Like, I’m some kind of like, they don’t. I’m trying to think how to describe the look. I get from some dudes. And it might be like, Some like totally some kind of thing. I don’t want to know what it is. You know what I mean? Hahaha? But, uh, I don’t know. It’s like some people look at me like

They don’t know what to think about me and I don’t give a fuck. It’s usually people who are Borderline retarded, anyways.

Uh, and then sometimes like right now, I just don’t care. But that guy, I passed him a whole bunch, leaving the plant today and, I was, I’ll walk. Not the fastest though, by any means, not the fastest Walker, in the world. But some people, you know, walk really slow and that guy walks slow. And I was like, like, I passed by him and some skinny little dude just came shooting past me. Walking, haha not running. Uh, but what’s so funny? It’s been raining and something just possessed my hand to like, to grab the guard rail and like, like slide my hand up it. Let the water, you know, like get all over my hand. It was kind of funny. I was like, I was like whee! Yay, you know? And this little dude, comes zipping past me walking. And like, I was like, oh my God. There’s the fastest. I literally said that. Dude. That’s the fastest walking boy I’ve ever seen! And I just like, took the water. All over my hand And I flicked it on him. Haha Oh my God. And uh, I don’t know if it was him or if it was that guy, or a completely unrelated person but somebody got behind me. When I left They had 1 headlight in a truck and they rode my fucking ass with that 1 headlight with the high beam, on all the way to the fucking, like, turning off back on to Greenbrier. I was like, holy shit. You know, that’s the kind of Vibes, though, that like, That was just pervasive tonight and I was ready to get the hell out of there too, you know? But I mean, I guess I was being a jerk too but it was like, you know, Fucking people spreading their fucking crap around is what it was and I was, I guess just reacting to it.

But it is time for me to have a day off in the middle of the week, rotation week. Yes.

Oh my gosh, but I could just feel like, oh, everybody was just ready to get this fucking night over.

But I don’t know what I want to do today. Like I’m I skipped the gym. I didn’t go to the gym. I probably should have went to the gym. The last thing I talked about

Would not have happened. If I would have went to the gym, but I’m tired and I’m kind of ill too. Yeah.

I’ve got, uh, my fingernail 1 of my fingernails broke. My right middle finger. The fingernail broke. And uh cuz I’ve grown I’ve grown them out a little bit for finger picking you know guitar cuz I’ve been practicing. I’ve been practicing that much. But that’s 1 thing. I’m going to do today, but anyways, well tonight.

But uh they grew out just a little bit. It was starting to because if they’re longer, you know, if your fingernails are long it makes it easier to finger, pick it, it just it really does but it broke while I was doing a process and it broke off up into the, you know, shit.

Um, So, it hurts but it knocks up against stuff all the time and Really Hurts and I had to cut it as best as I could, holy shit. This fucking truck passed me, spraying water everywhere. Yeah, I don’t think I’m going to drive to my storage unit though. Um, I thought about just going straight to my storage unit and getting my guitars and my recording equipment and my bass. But I’m not doing that.

I’m I’m going to go to sleep and then wake up and then go do that. Yeah. Like whenever I wake up again, First of all, because of the traffic and second of all because it is wet. It’s rainy. It’s not like Pouring down rain, it’s not raining,

It’s drizzly. Haha.

Oh man, I do have such a bullshit fucking like attitude right now. I really do. I feel like just like, oh I just absorbed all this shit on the way out. I was happy too. But, I don’t know. It makes me feel weird cuz people look at me like that. It’s like you stupid, son of a bitch. You don’t know me, you know, and they look at my social media and they make all this crap up in their heads. And I don’t understand it because I’m not. I don’t know what they think. Honestly, it’s like when I worked at Honda like all of Britany’s, fucking friends used to stare at me like that, all of them. Like, would stare at me like with this bewilderment in their eyes, like they don’t know. Like I’m like I’m some kind of like indecipherable fucking alien thing. Yeah, it’s weird and but not everybody looks at me like that. The, it’s like the people with issues. Look at me like that.

Like, most people. I get along with most people, like, seriously 85 to 95% of all people I get along with that I, you know, encounter on a daily basis I don’t get any kind of bullshit Fucking crap from. Like the Vibes Off of that roommate guy. That just moved out. Uh, the furry, dude, I got those vibes off him. I don’t know why, but he’s obviously, he has That’s a long story. Not really a long story, but he did a lot of dumb mean shit to me. Like, at me, I guess it was weird. It was like, this is some reactive fucking ego. Bullshit that was all his problems. You know, it’s like I just exist, man.

Um, here’s an example. Okay, there were these big, divider things. This is, this is what made me not like him. This is when I, I started to wonder if maybe he was an asshole. Actually, this is what. Let me see that he was an asshole. Okay. Um, I know it’s like all these words, right? Uh, there was these big like I called them dividers. I’m not really sure what they were. They were like

These stand things. I guess they kind of were like for art. I don’t even remember what the hell they were. I was drunk when I took them apart.

But, um, it’s back when I didn’t have a car. And, this was like what like April or something of last year? And uh, I was, um, I was just hanging around outside one day and he comes up to me like, hey, will you do something for me? Could you do something for me? I’m like, okay, what you know cuz I was drunk and I really wasn’t. I didn’t have any plans at the time. That was the thing. I was just kind of bumbling around on. Um,

So, you know, I was like, okay and you know what do you need me to do? And there’s these big things that are the boss. Lady roommate, was wanting us to take apart and I guess she had him to she was trying to get him to do it and he had some crap, he had to do or something he said with his work with his job. And uh, so he Asked me if I take 1 of them apart for him and they were, put together with would like deck screws with the star head bits. You know, they were and they were two different sizes though. But they were consistently, uh, different sizes. They put, you know, part of the wood together. Oh, that’s right. What it was? It was sheetrock. Yeah. With um, With like, inside of wood frame, like a divider like they were and they had wheels on them. So you could roll them around I’m not sure, you know, if they were for like sound or what the exact purpose of them were for but they were. I didn’t know it was sheetrock until I started taking them apart. I thought it was all like you know I thought it was like plywood because it was they were painted and it didn’t you know I couldn’t tell I guess. I don’t know, I maybe the lack of the wood grain or something. Haha Uh, or you know, they were I just didn’t think about them being sheetrock, until I was taking them apart. So they, he had the, they had the like small size decking screws the T20 and the
T25 for The longer ones it was like There, it was like inch.

And a half.

Crews. I’m getting way too technical with this. Uh, inch and a half screws for the

Uh,

Sheetrock stuff and oh the garage Light is on. I wonder what the hell’s going on at the house. I just got home. Oh, I got, I mean, I don’t know, dude. Honestly, somebody might have just left a light on.

Left the light on, you know,

I’m just going to sit here for a minute and finish this But um,

He was trying, he had been trying to take these apart with a big fat magnetized Phillips head. It had metal shavings all over it from him grinding it into wrong bit heads hahaha You know, they were star head bits, they were deck screws and, uh, He couldn’t, you know, he was having a hard time taking them apart obviously. Right? And he couldn’t do it. Like he didn’t understand, like bits and screw sizes, and things, you know. Doesn’t that just say a lot, though?

And so um gosh I did I had too much caffeine tonight.

So anyways, I took them apart both of them. I got a video of it(I can’t find it haha)Actually there were 2 of them and I took them both apart. And uh, I messaged him later because it was a lot of work. I mean, it took me like over an hour to take them both apart. There were so many screws and all this stuff in them and I was like, hey man, could you give me a ride to the store? And that’s It’s just 5 minutes up the road, you know. I just needed more alcohol. And so, uh, he comes and he picks me up like later on. He finally gets there gets back and he uh, I’m just drunk as shit though. Anyways, I’m happy and he um, he gets He uh he’s just starts getting all weird and pushy and asks, Hey man can I borrow $40? You know and I was like uh okay I didn’t really have a lot of extra money at the time but I did and he never paid me back. I bought him ended up buying him Taco Bell too and fucking like some Gatorade. He was just talking about, give me this. Can you get me this? You know, and all I needed was a ride to the damn store. I could have got an Uber and got off cheaper for that like from that. But that I was just, it was weird though. He was like being a shithead about it. Um, But then like the a few days after that, I was laying in my room, you know? And he never did pay me back. Like he said I’ll pay you back when I get paid, you know, and he never did it was kind of shitty. But uh, I was like, it was like 10 a.m. I think that following Monday, and I hear him coming up the steps the stairs. Because, you know, he’s a big guy. And I just hear him like groaning and breathing, the stairs creaking and I just I hear all of a sudden, I hear fuck you right through my fucking door. He says fuck you to me through my door. I guess he thought I was asleep or something? Like why, you know, what the fuck dude.

Like, you know, I took those things apart for him. I gave him $40. I bought him 15 dollars worth of Taco Bell and like 2, Gator AIDS, which I think were like 2 for 5 or 6 dollars. I don’t remember, you know, I was drunk. Um, something I would have took him to the store and back, you know, just without even a second thought if he needed a ride to the store. And uh, it was like that soured me on him. That’s what made me realize he was a little shit. And uh, Yeah. And then, you know, him staring at me like he wanted to kill me after I got, got into it with the other his friends or whatever the 2. The couple that just moved out about these yippy ass dogs, that I shouldn’t have had to say anything about. And I was, I was a dick about it. I was like, what about these fucking yippy ass dogs. You know, that keep waking me up like, this is the fourth time. They’ve woke me up in a row. Like, what, what the hell is going on with this? And I was mad because I hadn’t had any sleep.

And, uh, you know, they got all smart about it and he was like, you know, he did too. And I had to back away from that or I was going to probably end up getting either kicked out or put in jail. Yeah. Because what kind of assholes am I living with? Oh but like the couple that ruined me. Yeah. On the couple and him like for once. And for all, you know, but not so much that as in for about 3 weeks, after that happened, every time I saw him, he would just stare at me or just like, you know, I would get these. This just bullshit fucking like Vibes off him. Like he wanted to kill me. And there were a few times I almost just told him to fucking eat shit about it, but I didn’t want to A. Do anything that would get me kicked out. Or B. Accidentally fucking kill him. Hahaha Ha, right?

He did that shit until his car started messing up. I guess towards the end of November. And then he started being nice to me again, and then he asked me for money again. Haha Yeah, that but he got my heater out of the garage without asking anybody anything and kept it for 2 months but told me that he fucking, uh, Had just when I finally asked about it and I knew if I didn’t ask him before he moved out, I’d never see it again. Uh, then he told me, you know, he got it like a week earlier like temporarily. I posted a screenshot of it in another post. I was bitching about it, but that’s, that’s just the kind of person he is, you know, that he’s like that. Like what the fuck even is that shit, you know? Um, but that’s the kind of like Vibes I got off him is the kind of Vibes I get off some people. Like the team lead guy at work And it’s like, what is it about? I mean, but is that normal though? For like everybody to get, you know, not everybody gets along, you know, like some people just don’t like you. There are some people that I don’t like But I’m not an asshole, though. Until I have to be. I don’t understand it. And I don’t really care.

Because like what I’m that’s just what I’m saying. Like, the people I get those vibes from what I just said about the roommate, dude, who moved out like, uh, That’s the kind of stuff that happens, you know? It’s like they just don’t something about me. They hate. I had a supervisor or my uh, Team lead guy or whatever at Honda was like that too.

And uh, it’s just I don’t know, I don’t know what it is. And my dad’s like that. Yeah, I like I get those same Vibes off my dad my whole life. Yep.

I don’t know what it is. It’s stupid though and I have to deal with it from probably about 10% of all the fucking people. I interact with

Yeah.

15%, maybe on, you know, a bad day.

But uh, yeah, I don’t know, I don’t know what. I’m just going to play today by ear. I just got home. I’m going to space out for a little bit. If I fall asleep, that’s fine.

I’m going to edit this post though. And I thought, you know, I could go to my storage unit and get my stuff you know later on maybe.

Who knows? Uh, later on in the morning or early afternoon,

And then I thought, you know what later on like tonight, I could go to the gym and work out really hard and then come back home and go to sleep and be happy.

I’m just going to play it all

Play it All by ear, I don’t care. Yeah. But uh gosh.

But that that’s the kind of bullshit I deal with, like, When somebody looks at me like that, I know that there’s probably something wrong with them.

It doesn’t matter like I can be as awesome.

As. Uh, you know ever to them and it doesn’t matter, they get, it’s like uh some kind of like

I don’t know what it is. Honestly, it’s stupid. It’s like it, but it’s just those kind of people. And it’s always people who have some kind of fucking issue, you know, they have issues.

Oh whatever. Yeah, that’s so stupid. It’s just

This. Just like stuff like that though is also why I keep to myself. You know, I keep to myself.

A lot because of that.

I don’t I don’t know what it is. It’s just The most retarded shit ever because I just exist. And I’m generally really awesome to almost everybody.

And the people, I’m not awesome to is because they’ve done something. Yeah, they’ve done something for me to not be awesome to them. And, uh, sometimes, you know, I’m forced to take the higher road, but that’s hard also because sometimes I want to just

Fuck up some stupid bullshit, you know?

Anyways, uh, I guess that’s all I really care to talk about right now. Like about it. It’s just Dumb as fuck.

Thank you, please.