TUESDAY AFTERNOONE

4:52 PM

I don’t know, I just realized I was going too far off talking about bullshit. Yeah, I’m not going to

Not going to do that. What was uh what am I like? What

Hahaha

Yeah, I’m just driving to work. I don’t know what I want to do. I don’t know if I want to stop at a gas station.

And get like a coffee. Usually though, coffee uh, starts my day off, right? Yeah, it does.

Oh, I need to text My ex wife. I’m not going to have enough gas to get. Most of the way down there. Before I get paid tomorrow, I got to pick my daughter up tomorrow at 5:00 from band practice. Yeah. Like high school marching band practice

I’m really excited about getting tomorrow night off. That was the first thing that popped in my head when I got to work yesterday. Like just see if you can get tomorrow off but I can’t though, I cannot Take any more PTO for a long time. I’ve only got 64 hours left. And that might sound like a lot, but that’s only 8 days and I’ve got the whole rest of the year. Yeah, I’ve got to like, I think, you know, you start off with

I started off with what 120 hours. What is that? That’s, uh,

But some of it, I have like, You know, already put in, I’ve got Friday off too. Thank God. But, um, I know it’s only a 3-day work week for me.

And I’ve still got this fucking This crud. Yeah, God.

I don’t know it equates to about,

3 weeks of vacation. Yeah, it does. And I’ve got,

Have I really taken that much though? You know, I have

Yeah. Oh, this has been rough. You know, I I got I can’t burn through any more of it. I was like this is the last This is the last 1. Yeah. For like Maybe until March. I guess that’s just next month, but

I was going to take the kids down to uh we’re going to go back down to Atlanta. And, Um,

Go to that coffee shop where we saw June Henry, and I was going to play an open mic night. And perform! Let the kids laugh at me. Yeah,

Uh, but anyways. That was the first thing that popped in my head though yesterday, it was like you can do that and then you can get the kids.

You can get the kids for supper and it’ll be a good time. Maybe we can even go get

Lottery tickets.

Probably end up getting Mexican food. I don’t know.

But uh, I don’t even know what I want to talk about. I started going off about like girlfriends and stuff. And the 1 time I dated this chick who we didn’t really have a lot in common and she was the first lady after the divorce but I went way too far off talking about like other stuff and I just started like naming them all off. But uh, I’ve only dated 6 women been with the 6 women like

You know. I have a ex-wife an ex fiance and 4x girlfriends and that’s it. And I’ve been single for, you know, almost 5 years, and my ex-wife and I were together for 18. And the rest of them, you know, only lasted a couple of months or so

Oh gosh. Yeah, part of me wants to just go in here and get

Coffee.

Yeah, I think I’m just going to go in here and get coffee. I don’t know.

Oh,

Asshole.

Yeah, just somebody going through the parking lot. Real, slow and stupid. Because people do that stuff.

I’ll be right back.

OKAY COFFEE

Well, it is it’s like overcast.

Kind of,

But hopefully, you know, I get through tonight, it ought to be okay.

I got coffee.

I think I have enough money left.

For a

Coke. Yeah. And maybe a pack of crackers or something.

I don’t know. It’s so funny. When I first started working up here, I was all excited about the cafeteria because this is a really good cafeteria like it was for a workplace especially

And uh,

I never eat in the cafeteria anymore. Yeah, it’s my social anxiety. Just gets the best of me. But uh I don’t know like after yesterday and all that crap with that trying to talk to that chick. It’s just like dude, what is wrong with me? I mean, first of all, like

That that I ever freaked out. It’s so stupid. But it’s like I did. And, and it just, I guess it’s just a process of me doing dumb shit or something to get, you know, like for me to get my brain straightened back out. Yeah, when it comes to ladies cuz they do. Oh gosh like nothing, Else can fuck me up like a woman? Can I mean it’s it’s ridiculous. It really is like, you know, I’m just I’m retarded. And that’s what I kind of went off a little too far about. On my last post attempt. But, um, I don’t know. It’s just like, I feel like it. It helped me. I guess that’s my point. It helped me a little bit. It’s like, you know, it’s fine and and I know I have Gosh. There’s no telling how many ladies up there. I’ve pissed off. Just by like, you know, Freaking out and running away and I can’t help it. I couldn’t help it, you know.

But it’s like, hey, it’s okay. Like she is, she’s like the cutest lady, but You know, if if she hates my guts now, I get it, it’s fine.

And the next lady who looks at me, like that, who stares at me all the damn time and shit. I’m just going to be like, hey, I’m not going to freak out and run away from her.

But it’s just it’s just been a process, you know.

I guess between that yesterday and or last night or whatever and, you know, I’m still kind of Thinking about Brittany unblocking me like all that stuff. It was like and that’s you would think like why that has to be such a significant thing.

You know, like, That it was but Brittany ruined my life.

Actively like she went out of she like Made a project out of it or something. It was fucked up. And, you know, that was kind of the thing too about her. Once I started like, talking I came around and started talking to her too. I finally did. I finally like shoved it down and shoved it down and was like, okay. I’m going to start talking to her because she would like, I would be walking somewhere and she would pop out from around a corner and just start walking next to me. And I would start shaking and getting all fucking like, oh my God, it’s so nervous. But finally, I started saying hey, you know, and 1 day. Hey, I was like uh, do you believe in dinosaurs?

And I’ll never forget this conversation. It was the dumbest shit in the world. This chick and this was after she had already put a nail in my tire. Like and left like a calling card or something on the doorstep of the apartment building. It was, it was weird but um it was Mother’s Day. Yeah of 2023. And anyways, I was like uh well when that happened. Yeah. When I think it was like the next week or so I was just walking to lunch, it was lunch. Yeah. And uh, she just popped out from around the corner and started walking next to me. And I was thinking, what is, what can I say? What can I say? What can I say? And I was like, uh, do you believe in dinosaurs? And she got this look on her face, like, like she didn’t, you know, she was like, what like this? Puzzled look what a you know she didn’t know how to process that question.

Like, I don’t know what she thought, what? And that was so funny to me because it, it, it’s not that complicated. It’s funny. It’s just my dry humor. You know. Like, do you believe in dinosaurs? I made up a song about it and, um, Because some people don’t ya, I worked with this Holiness. Guy who did not believe in dinosaurs and, um,

So I was just, I was just kind of like Joking making an inside joke to myself on that. Anyways, uh, these pieces of shit. These fucking people coming out of the parking lot, I get it. They’re ready to go home though. Um anyways

There are some of the fucking craziest people I’ve ever met. There’s some of the coolest people, and some of the most beautiful ladies I’ve ever worked around work up here. But there’s also, some of the most Idiotic fucking shit brain motherfuckers I’ve ever met up here, too. What was I saying though? Yeah, I was just like, do you believe in dinosaurs?

And uh I mean she just like she didn’t she had to process that like what what did she think? I was going to ask her, you know, or something or say like, you know, this is how like different.

This is how much of a different wavelength. We were on, we are on, you know, and she just stopped and she just got this look on her face. Like, you know, I had just asked her Like what the fucking, you know, the square root of 782, like, what’s that off the top of your head, you know? And she was like, oh yeah.

Uh, you know, like yeah. Yeah, I guess I do and I was like oh, what’s your favorite dinosaur? Same reaction. She just she had to like it just Stumped her, you know like she was having to solve like some crazy algebra problem you know some fucking like, Algebra 2 problem. Hahaha I don’t know.

Off the top of her head. And  it took like a solid minute of her like, like just kind of looking absolutely perplexed you know, and so we walked into the lunchroom together and she goes like, Off to get, I think she brought her lunch that day or something. And looks back up at me like, she had to kneel down to get like, her lunch stuff and looks back up at me. I’m looking at her and this is, I mean, this is like a solid minute after I asked her what her favorite dinosaur was. And she goes like she looked up at me and she’s like, I don’t know, I don’t really have 1. She just really didn’t know what to say, and it was so awkward.

And, um, I was like, okay, all right, Miss Nails in my fucking tires. Hahaha Oh my God

You know.

So I’ll worry about that kind of shit. That was 1 of the reasons why I talked to that girl. Yesterday, because it’s like now she can’t say, I never tried to talk to her. Because she does she stares at me all the time and she stalks my fucking social media, and I don’t want another Brittany, you know, to happen.

So yeah.

Well, it is 12 after 5 and I am going into the plant to the gym and yay. Thank you, please.