5:03 AM
Oh my gosh. What a crazy night I guess.
Oh,
I said, haha. Yeah. Well, it’s probably picking up a lot of this crazy ass road noise cuz I’m like going through Um, The.
The.
Duh. Yeah. The uh
Where the airport is haha where the road is all fucked up and shitty from Construction. It’s been like this for
At least a couple of years, right?
Oh, a year and a half. It’s been like this for forever though. And um, Oh gosh, what did I do? I finally, I did. I talked to that girl, and I tried to talk to her last week. And it was weird and uh, I don’t know. And then like I think it was last Thursday night and that’s when I should have talked to her because I turned like the corner coming out of the restroom. There’s this little
I don’t know. It’s not you can’t it’s not an Alleyway but it’s the best description of it. I guess it’s like a little hall going past the um, PPE dispenser and like this other where they do stuff and, um, Like right there, she was right there and she made she made eye contact with me. She had this big smile on her face and I freaked out and ran away and it sucks and I felt horrible about it. But uh, Oh my goodness. I tried to talk to her like earlier.
Oh my God, I like I got up like I got up to her and I was like, hey how’s it going? And she just gave me this really like mean thumbs up like Oh, it was like I felt like she just wanted me to fuck the hell off really. It fucking hurt. Yeah, it was like
It was like a, you know, fucking asshole annoying asshole, thumbs up. And I was like, okay well you know, it made me feel like shit and I don’t know that I’m ever going to try and talk to her again and I get it. She probably thinks I’m a fucking jerk anyways and I don’t know what else to say.
About that, I don’t know. But Stop.
Looking. At.
Ladies.
From. Work.
Ever. Ever ever, don’t ever, ever, ever, ever don’t talk to any of them. It’s just, it’s too. I’m too weird and I don’t have anything in common with any of them typically I don’t I know I don’t have a lot of stuff in common with her. Uh, I was just she stalks my fucking shit all the time. That was 1 of the things that prompted me to like try to talk to her today. Was that she was popping up like right there on the top of the people, I may know. And that’s what Brittany used to do. And it’s like, okay and she’s always right there on my suggested Instagrams too.
And it’s like okay well you know obviously she looks at my shit all the time, all of them do I’ll look at my engagements like the stats or whatever on my Facebook and my Instagram and the bulk like 60-70% of my fucking viewers are not on my friends list. Like the like I’m just I’m in that group that work group. It’s kind of stupid, but most of the people who look at my shit. Are not people. I’m friends with
I remember I had, uh, I made a bunch of highlights last year when I worked at Target and, I got like 40 on some it was 50 other Viewers. They weren’t people on my friends list. Uh, and that’s the thing. Like, I had no idea who this chick was the 1. I tried to talk to tonight, I had no idea who she was until she started popping up on the people. I may know the same thing happened with Brittany and I was like okay well you know except with Brittany I just couldn’t You know. I was just freaked out and freaked out and I just couldn’t talk to her, you know, it sucked. But this chick, I finally worked up the nerve to say, Hey, how’s it going? And, you know, I get it. I’ve done pissed her off, she probably thinks She probably does. She probably thinks I’m a stupid jerk asshole.
I really just wanted to talk to her, you know, I finally I’m not a normal person and it sucks and I finally did. I finally was like, Hey, you know, and uh, I don’t know if that was like a thing because this other guy that Which is a really crazy story because he’s the son of this dude who used to work for my dad. And they’re friends, he’s friends with that chick. They eat lunch together all the time, and I don’t think they’re like, going out, you know what I mean? Um, but he, I got some weird Vibes off him later on. And and so, I don’t know if she what she told him or if anything or if I’m just making that up in my head.
But then it just hits me. It’s like this is also why You don’t talk to chicks from work, it’s just, you know, I’m not wired like a normal person, like drama and gossip and And like, I just don’t. Care. I don’t Blow things out of proportion unless
I mean, I don’t like if something happens to me, that’s crazy, it’s crazy. It’s not like I just I don’t know. I don’t relate. To like I don’t know. I don’t know if it was like but I try, she can’t say, I never tried to talk to her and I did I tried to talk to her last week and it got weird. It was weird. And I get it. It’s it’s it’s awkward and it’s You know, I was nervous, it makes me nervous as shit to talk to any lady. But especially a lady from work and she is, she is just super fucking cute. She’s the super cute chick from work. It’s a tag in my thing haha and she is and the first couple of months, I worked there. She stared at me all the time, but she had this dude hanging around her and I’m like, well, I’m not messing with that. And then finally, they quit hanging around together and I just, I don’t know. She’s also like half my age. So, you know,
I just I kind of feel bad about it, but I feel weird about it. But then I’m like, well, at least I tried to talk to her, but I don’t think it was like, I don’t think I’m going to try to do that again. You know. I don’t it’s just I’m not, it’s I feel too weird about it right now.
And uh,
But that’s another reason why I don’t Talk to chicks from work because I don’t know her. I don’t know how crazy she is.
I couldn’t have imagined how crazy Brittany was or is or something. I don’t know. You know like I had That was the last thing I thought would happen. And she figured out where I lived from my Instagram posts. And I just feel like making all my stuff like Taking it all like down except for some of my reels.
You know, with my my songs and stuff.
I don’t know, I don’t know what I want to do.
But I think, yeah, I might actually make my Instagram Private. Again, you know, I might not but Everybody in the world from where I work. Pops up, and I don’t know who these people are like, I don’t, I don’t, I’m like, who the hell is that? Oh, they work where I work. Okay, you know, it’s like the same thing happened at Honda.
I don’t know, and I am. I’m different. I’m weird and
I’m tired. I’m tired. Yeah, I’m really fucking tired. And,
You know.
But,
I was proud of myself for like, at least, you know, saying, hey, how’s it going?
There’s like the same Police officer, almost every morning passes me when I’m going home or
And I’m only, you know, I only go like 60 miles an hour on the interstate. I just don’t I just don’t drive fast.
I don’t.
I don’t know, like
I just
I want a girlfriend, God damn it I really do and like, she’s the first chick, I have tried to talk to since helmet girl but that got stupid too. Yeah, Uh that was gosh. What back in November or something? That was before the winter shutdown? Yeah, I forget about helmet girl cuz I don’t I never see her anymore. I clean up after like, when the shift ends,
Um, so I miss like all the other people is a big reason I do it too. It helps me kind of unwind for about 15 minutes after the shift stops. And uh, then I get, you know, I miss the crowd, the all the people going out at once. So, I don’t get, you know, I don’t have to see anybody. Either was kind of like and I get an extra like maybe 15 minutes of overtime Haha. Or 20 minutes. Sometimes it depends on how you know how much I have to sweep.
And I take my time, too.
But uh, yeah, I mean I did and she is, I don’t know exactly how old she is, but she’s in her like early mid 20s. Like, I don’t think she’s more than 25. I think she’s like 24, Maybe.
But uh,
I don’t know. I liked her too I guess. I don’t know how to say it. She just she stares at me all the time and she stalks my fucking social media, and she is, she’s really cute. And I thought well you know what the heck I want to say, you know. Hey, how’s it going? And It sucked.
It’s also hard for me to find people. I have stuff in common with
Like, It’s just yeah, that’s pretty normal though. You know like finding other people finding a lady who would actually have something in common with me?
5:17 AM
Like maybe she listens to generally the same kind of music and likes adventure and crazy stuff.
I mean, I just
Fuck. I don’t know. But oh, I’ve got Wednesday off. I put in for Wednesday.
But I really just I do. I wish I had a girlfriend, goddamn it.
Haha, I do. Yeah.
Thank you, please.
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