Blah Saturday

12:27 PM
Okay, let’s try this again. What am I doing? Hanging out in the garage. Yeah, doing music and stuff.

I went out earlier I was going to get breakfast. I woke up about 8:30. And uh, finally got up.

And got around about 9:30.

I typed in breakfast to the uh search bar on Google Maps and this thing popped up that said, Canadian bacon, like baking yeah.

And uh, it looked fun. So I went there and it was this big long line when I got there. I thought, man, this place must be really good. And so I got, um,

I got up to the, uh, the order taker lady and I was like, hey, I’ve never been here before. It’s just like, well, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. She tells me that This sandwich was the voted the number 1. Best sandwich in the state by something or other And I was like, really okay?

Um well I would like a latte. And that sandwich and she’s like, on what? You know, I was like, I don’t know. What do you think? And I got this Bagel that had stuff all over it. You know, I said, latte, I did. I said, I would like a latte and that sandwich, and she’s like, okay, and apparently she didn’t ring The Latte up.

Oh, I wasn’t thinking about it because I was still, you know, half asleep and I was really hungry. And so uh I was like, you know, here’s like she said it was something I can’t remember. It was like 11 dollars and something almost 12 dollars. And so I like gave her 20 and I wasn’t thinking about anything you know that she didn’t ring The Latte up but she didn’t. And uh but I said latte like twice

And anyways, uh, it took a while and it took about 10 minutes to get my food and they call, uh, what I thought was my name, my name is clay. Yeah. And uh I heard somebody say clay I thought and I got up there and I and she looked at like it wasn’t the lady who took my order, it was a different lady. And she looked really mean and she looked at me mean and she was like, what do you want? And I was like, I thought I thought I heard you call my name and she was like I said slave and I was like slave really? You know, I don’t know what. Okay, and uh, so I’ll go sit back down and about 5 minutes later, they called my name. And I got it. It was like, hey yeah, okay. And she looked at me, I like I took it and I just looked at her and she looked at me and I was like, well, I had a latte too. And she was like, No, you didn’t. And I was like, uh well I said latte and so she goes and she gets a receipt out of the thing and it’s like no it’s not on the receipt, it’s like, well I said latte, I guess she just didn’t ring it up and the lady looked at me and she was like, well, you’re going to have to go to the end of the line if you want a latte. And I looked back and it was a big long, even longer line than was there when I got there and I just thought, and she was being mean, and it was stupid And I looked at her and I looked at the door and I just like I just walked out and I said, bitch I did. I don’t know. I was like oh my God fucking that’s what she was. She was being like she could have been like well she must not have heard you and then sorry you know she just didn’t hear you you know or something but they she wasn’t she was a butthole. Telling me I had to get like, I mean, she could have just been like real about it. I was expecting to get a latte, you know. Stupid. It’s not my fault. That chick didn’t listen and, uh, I was validated Later a little later. When I went to Whole Foods I was like, well, I’m going to get a latte at Whole Foods and I’m going to get some cookies. I’m going to get something from the Food Bar. And that sandwich that I got from that place was pretty good, but it, you know, the people were stupid, that was stupid. Holy shit. Uh but here’s what happened at Whole Foods.

All right so I go up to the counter at uh at Whole Foods and this this lady comes up. To the counter. With a notepad, she has a notepad and a marker and she looks at me and she says, can I help you? And I said, hey, I would like a large latte. With 2, extra shots of espresso, and she writes this down. She writes LG latte 2 Espressos onto the notepad. Uh, and she’s like, do you want that hot or cold? And I have like, uh,

Hot or cold, you know, um, I guess. Uh, she’s well, a hot comes with

A cold comes with 4 shots of espresso already in it. And a hot has just has 3. And I was like, oh well just give me 1 extra and then she looks at me again and she says, I’m going to need a size for that and I said, a large, a large latte please. And she looks down at the paper. And it says, LG latte, where she wrote large latte, the first thing. I said she wrote it down and she didn’t, she wrote it down, she heard me and she wrote it down and she didn’t remember that. I had said large latte. And that was what. Happened at,

The Canadian bacon place. But instead of being a complete asshole about it, the lady at Whole Foods was just laughing, you know, whoops, it’s hahaha. You know, we just laughed about it, it wasn’t a big deal.

And I don’t know, I didn’t think I wasn’t thinking, because I guess I give people credit for being, like, for listening when they’re taking your order. But the lady, you know, at the Canadian bacon I should have just been like, hey, did you get that latte? I could have but I didn’t think about it because that was her responsibility because I clearly said it

But at the same time, you know, I was also half asleep still and they didn’t have to be jerks. That was the fucking thing. You know, that woman, she was the manager or something, or she might have been the owner. She was a complete piece of shit to me over that.

Yeah, and, uh, but the, uh, the lady at Whole Foods, you know, fixed it, like, it made me realize that it’s not me, it’s them. You know. God, uh,

And I’m so nice and polite. To everybody all the time and I don’t I don’t know. Some people just like feel like they can take their crap out on me because I am so nice. Most of the time but it gets old. And sometimes it’s like, you know, If I was to reflect that back on to you, you would, you would not be able to handle it, you shouldn’t be giving it to people, you know.

God.

And I did, I called her a bitch but it was really just to myself. I didn’t like you know, just I didn’t make a scene or anything about it, I just left, but I, I should have I should have been like, you don’t have to be a Complete butthole shithead about it. Crazy bitch, the girl didn’t listen. Yeah.

But That’s the only thing that made it a big deal was that she was awful and it almost ruined my morning. Until the lady from Whole Foods was so nice to about it. Anyways, yeah. But I mean, that’s, you know, people just don’t listen. They don’t remember. I, I don’t understand, I don’t know what it is about me but like, but she did, she heard me cuz she wrote down large latte. I don’t know, it just made me feel.

Validated. I was like, yeah. It’s not me at all! It’s just the Canadian Baking people were just basically shit heads. Maybe they were having a really busy stupid morning but that wasn’t my fault and I tipped them. I tipped, I put 2 dollars in the tip jar, you know, like eat shit.

God, Valentine’s Day is. Used to be for 18 years. I looked forward to this day every year I mean, yeah. Like it was used to be just a really special great day and

I took so much crap from my ex-wife, and I remember the first Valentine’s Day After the divorce She texted me, a bunch of mean shit on my phone telling me I owed her $300. And I was like, okay, I don’t but uh,

And it made me feel bad. And she did it on purpose to be mean.

But that was our anniversary. I guess that was the thing for 18 years and You know, was just

That’s why it sucks extra for me, you know?

I’m trying not to think about it. But I slept, I got home about midnight last night and probably fell asleep about 12:30 and I slept for fucking like 8 hours straight. And had this really crazy dream that I worked in a gold mine. I had temporarily like I was temporarily working in a gold mine. I just went to go get some gold. At this, uh, I think it’s called log ring con Yeah, um it’s the highest elevation city. In the world like the most populated highest city in the world. It’s in Peru. And it’s a really dangerous like mining community and it’s super polluted. And fucked up and everything.

And I dreamt that I went there to mine some gold. I found some gold and got some money for it and I Found Love And I worked for a boss that got turned into a turtle. And it was really crazy.

Yeah, I don’t know, I don’t know. Like part of me. I just kind of want to go back to sleep.

I’m on the night shift, sleeping schedule.

But,

Sometimes I just feel so stupid.

Yesterday, my daughter called me, I was on my way to get the kids and I guess I was in Albertville. So I was about 40 minutes away and my daughter calls me and says she saw a wreck. Uh, up off around Noccalula and guess whose car.

Guess who car was in the wreck? And I was like, you know, I knew exactly what she was about to say. And I, uh, I was just like no way like who, who was it, who is it? And my daughter said it was Brittany. And she saw her car like up there and it had gotten into a wreck, but she couldn’t tell like what had happened. Exactly cuz they drove past it. But uh,

12:40 PM And my ex-wife and everything. Like they they both saw it and my son saw it and they were like, yep, that’s crazy. And uh,

When I got on Facebook this morning that was the first thing that popped up. Uh, when I cuz I had a lot of unanswered messages.

Yesterday, a bunch of people messaged me when I was with the kids. And I didn’t really get I didn’t get back around to. Didn’t get around to messaging them. So uh I opened it up and you know, blam Brittany’s. Right there, her status is active.

And she’s always right there at the top of the suggested people.

And, That’s how it was the whole time I worked at Honda. Yeah, like I mean she was always like it was just she was always up there on the people I may know or the suggested Instagram things and we’re connected on messenger but she just unblocked me like last week or something, right? Week before last or something, I don’t know. Uh, That kind of bummed me out though. I can’t ever message her. That’s 1 reason why I wanted to go somewhere good for breakfast to eat my feelings. Because, I hate. Valentine’s Day a lot.

You know.

It’s just bad for me and it sucks.

And I’m still, like, I still get

I don’t know, I guess I wish I had somebody. Like I do.

And I’m starting, I think I’m just going to go up stairs. I’m going to wrap this up. Head upstairs.

And edit this and I need to clean up my room.

Set up my music stuff and try. To put some more crap to some of my songs.

But uh, Yeah, I don’t know. I had a, it was an interesting morning.

But it is, it’s crazy that she like that she pops up everywhere. You know, again. Like I was trying that was the thing like yesterday. I had, uh, I just like I hadn’t thought about her at all.

I had quit thinking about her and my daughter said, she knew that she was like I knew you’d probably quit thinking about her and I was really hesitant to call you and tell you that I saw her car in a wreck. But uh, isn’t that crazy though? Yeah.

And then I wasn’t thinking about her again, you know, I was like well I’ll just I woke up and I had a bunch of unanswered messages and then blermp! she was right there. I don’t know. It’s, I guess it’s stupid though. It sounds really stupid to talk about it, but it just sometimes it seems so remarkable. I don’t know, I guess I am. I’m going to, I’m going to wrap this up and go upstairs and

Figure it all out, haha I guess. Thank you, please.