BRITTANY AGAIN

5:33 PM
Well shit, yep.

Hanging out in the parking lot of work. Brittany blocked me again but it made me feel really horrible.

I mean what was I supposed to do message her? You know like what did she expect me to do?

Why can’t she just message me? Like, what’s the like, what the hell is wrong with her? I don’t know, but it made me feel so bad. I feel so awful right now that I deactivated my Facebook page and made my Instagram private again. It sucks. It’s like why does it still affect me like this? You know.

But I’m going to take an extended break from social media. It’s gotten so fucking stupid anyways.

Especially Facebook. So it’s like, well, I got my blog. She still pecks on sometimes, I don’t know. I don’t know what she expects me to do, but like, I can’t risk her being as mean to me as she was the last time I messaged her. Fuck like almost 2 and a half years ago.

I don’t know, I don’t know what to do.

If I could message her from another account, I don’t know. I thought about that actually. But I don’t know, I don’t think I am going to do that. I don’t know what to do. I just feel like crap and I have to get this out in a post. I’m probably gonna walk into the plant here. Um soon. I don’t know. It’s the 19th though, isn’t it? Yeah. Gosh, every month.

I don’t feel like explaining that, you know, I don’t think it’s even I saw her though. Last year, it was July, the 19th when I saw her, like, driving through Guntersville. I don’t know, it’s just, she wouldn’t even look at me, you know, like what does she want from me? Why did she unblock me? Anyways, like why did she even block me in the first place? Like it’s just this shit has gotten so old, so fucking old. Oh my gosh it’s been

It’s been like, I’ve been It’s been like 3 years, you know? Like she started getting really fucking crazy about everything 3 years ago. And it’s just

That it still affects me like this just is so fucked up. You know, uh,

I don’t know. It’s just like, why does it still affect me? I like I had Not. I had stopped thinking about her until she unblocked me. I was like, holy shit, no way. And uh she popped up this morning. On my messenger? So I know it had to be sometime today. But uh, yeah. Like, I mean, what did she What did she want? Like, what does she want? You know, like what the fuck and why can’t? You know, why couldn’t she just be like, hey at me, it’s so fucking stupid. But what’s more stupid than anything else? Is how much this still affects me? Like, I feel like fucking crap. It is So bad.

And, you know, This of course this ain’t the worst I’ve ever felt about her. You know, at least I’m not crying my eyeballs out. Saying why why, why? Hahaha

It’s so stupid. But I went to Walmart. I finally made myself go to Walmart. And I got SpaghettiOs and honey, buns. And Peanut butter crackers and some more energy stuff.

I just feel so fucking stupid. I don’t know why, though. You know.

I guess that’s twin flames, right? Yeah.

But I am, I’m taking a break from Facebook for a long time.

A long, long, long time. Yeah, I don’t know, like maybe a week or 2. Haha

Jesus.

What else can I say? Yeah, I don’t know.

Thank you, please.