SATURDAY

3:20 PM
How about this? How about I start over? You know, I still feel like talking

I’ve had this fucking cough. For like 2 months, almost

And it’s it’s annoying. It’s better, though. I guess that’s what. Uh, That’s,

I guess that gives me hope it’s going away. Haha. It was really bad like last week. I thought I was going to end up having to go to the doctor but I didn’t but my voice is still all fucking stupid.

Oh yeah, I wish I knew how loud I was outside of this room.

A lot of times I’ll go out to my car and make blog posts.

But I’m not doing that right now.

Sometimes I think.

Sometimes my life feels like a joke. Somebody’s playing on me or something. And I’m just like, I’m too distracted and tired, and Stupid to fucking like, Do anything else about it? But just exist in it. It’s like dang. It used to not be like that though.

And then time, just Zips the fuck by, it’s like,

This month’s already over. It’ll be over.

Next Saturday in a week. Yeah. In a week, this month is over. And Which is good because February is never. The best month. I remember even like just noticing that when I was a teenager. It’s like February, it sucks. For me, anyways.

I remember I think the, the first time I noticed, February really sucking was probably 1999. I had a band. We were the house band at this Cafe, which was kind of interesting that was an interesting gig.

And so everybody loved us too, but we started having some internal conflicts and uh everything went to shit.

And I just it was just a lot of dumb crazy drama and it happened. Everything fell apart in February, the cafe shutdown. Um, we quit like before that happened, though, we got into it with the owner he was um, He fucked us out of some money, but like, what was so stupid is it was that he, his intentions were to fuck us out of some money. It’s not that we Cared whether we got paid or not. We didn’t care. We didn’t care. We could have, we would have done it for free. We actually did it for free for like a while and he was like, I’m going to start paying you guys. And, He was a weird little asshole. His name was Joe. And we called him Cafe, Joe. And I don’t remember his last name.

But he was a smarmy, I guess is the word, but he didn’t seem that way at first. And, you know, we were all like 18. You know, I think the singer was 19 and, uh, the drummer, which was his brother. He was Still in high school. So, you know, we were just a bunch of dumb kids. And I don’t know why, you know, he like, he he basically like gave us our gas money. You know.

I don’t think we ever got more than fifty dollars. You know, the whole band back in 1999. What? Fifty dollars? God this is so dumb though. What was what was fifty dollars worth? What would fifty dollars be worth?

My brains 50 dollars.

Wow. So like almost a hundred bucks. Isn’t. Is that crazy? No, I think it’s normal actually. I remember my parents. When I was a kid, you know, I was like a candy bar was 50 cents and they’re like, I remember when it was a nickel and I’m like Wow, how archaic?

You know you bunch of fucking old asses like, wow. And I just imagined this crazy time that was only like 20, 25 years earlier. You know, my parents had me when they were almost 30.

Where they would talk about stuff, it just seemed so long ago, you know, like some You know, dream. World that existed in the past, and

You know now I look back on that it’s like oh shit. Yeah gosh inflation is a crazy.

Stupid thing. What was fifty dollars worth? 100 years ago.

Wow, almost a thousand dollars.

The same Goods cost over 18 times more in in 2026 than they did in 1926.

Why is inflation?

Why is inflation good?

Is it somebody Googled that?

I don’t know about that. I’m just reading this stuff. I guess I didn’t say it. I didn’t care to say it out loud. I was just reading It didn’t, I don’t know why is inflation stupid?

I don’t even.

Erosion of purchasing power, even if you get a raise Inflation, often outpaces wage growth. Which is kind of where we’re at right now. That’s where I’m at right now. Yeah. Haha

I’m making more money an hour, but besides from when I was doing generators, you know, when I was in business with my dad. That’s the most money I ever made, but like,

Uh, At a factory job or just like a regular job you know, um I’m making more money than I’ve ever made like a whole bunch more. An hour but it’s like I’m still broke as Fuck you know, like I’m so broke right now.

Which I can get 25 dollars tomorrow and I get paid Wednesday, but Holy. Shit you know?

10 years ago, if I was making what I make right now? I don’t even know what the fuck I’m making right now. I think I’m making like 27 Close to that because there’s a premium for night shift. It’s like a 1.50 or something. I don’t fucking know. I don’t even know how much money I make an hour. Isn’t that funny? But I’m working today so it’s all overtime.

Blah, that’s how I feel. I’m just, I’m exhausted, like I’m just drained emotionally. It’s been the stupidest fucking week.

I bought hot dogs this morning.

From Walmart. I got me some hot dogs and

8. 3 of them. Yeah, I ate 3 of them.

I smell incense.

Oh no. I said, I don’t know, I don’t like stuff like that. Like I, I’ve never my friend Eric was always and he’s always, he likes incense and candles and shit and I just

Don’t.

People at work, they wear cologne and Whatever the fuck and that stuff. Bothers me more than like if somebody just stunk,

There’s this 1 chick on my line and she sits close to me in the break room and she has got like a fucking

She wears so much like perfume and lotion and just the loudest smelling shit. It’s like, You know. But what’s weird is you can tell under that, that is because she doesn’t

Like bathe or something. I don’t know. She stinks really bad and she covers it up with all that but it’s like You know, just it’s like she doesn’t bathe. Regularly or something. It’s weird. It doesn’t make sense. And she’s kind of an oddball person. Anyways, I don’t know.

Um, she’s really sweet but you can tell she’s off. I don’t know, that’s kind of the thing about factory jobs. There’s some off ass fucking people. You know, because it’s entry level, you don’t have to be, you just have to show up every day and do the work and it’s not rocket science. It’s actually the easiest Aside from like the physical, you know, demands of my job. It’s the easiest fucking job in the world. You just have to show up every day and get somewhat along with everybody.

But gosh, she does. She’ll make the whole damn break room smell like Perfume, and lotion. But because I’m close to her. I can also smell her, like, stinking ass like, and all that stuff. Covering it up. So it’s this. Oh, it’s just It’s like oh my gosh it’s sometimes it’s so hard to to deal with.

God. Uh, um.

I don’t know what else.

I don’t know what else I want to talk about, I don’t really know anything. I’m just

I’m just feeling like talking.

I hope everybody shows up tonight but they probably won’t 1 of the team lead guys was like, yeah.

He was anticipating, like,

Almost half the people calling in or 30%. That’s what he said. Yeah, 30%. I was trying to think it’s like, oh yeah, he said 30%. He was really pessimistic last night. I was like, dang, dude. It’s

It probably won’t be that bad. It can’t be any worse than Halloween. Haha Everybody called in Halloween, the dang. Uh,

Like the head boss guy, he was on the line working because so many people called out on Halloween. Yeah, it was it was actually kind of funny but we made it. I think we even hit our build number. Yeah,

But apparently, they’re not going to give us overtime tonight because we’re already on overtime. So, you know, it should be pretty easy.

And uh,

I don’t know, I think tomorrow, I’m going to clean up my room. I got to do laundry. I haven’t done. I don’t think I’ve like I will feel like I just did laundry or something but I haven’t done laundry in.

Probably 2 or 3 weeks. And I don’t have a lot of clothes. So it’s, um,

You know, 2 or 3 weeks is is a long time to not do laundry for me?

Shit, let’s turn the light on and let’s try to wake up and get up and get around.

Yeah, let’s cuz there’s more than 1 of us.

In my brain.

Shit.

Oh that. I’m going to clean my room up tomorrow. God, I had a light so bright The light is so bright. Oh my goodness.

I hope I get to leave before 5:00. Yeah, I’m just I mean like my motivation.

It’s probably going to take a while to edit this.

That’s what it is. That’s what I’m I’m like. I don’t know if I want to edit all this.

Well, you know, I guess. I’m just going to stop now and get up and get ready. Thank you, please.