MONDAY MORNING

5:58 AM

Okay, gosh. Yeah.

I guess it’s Monday morning, I did.

85% of my chores. I think all I have to do is sweep the stairs and the upstairs part. It’s a little part.

And now I don’t have to worry about it and I did laundry.

But I have not cleaned up my room yet.

That can wait, I need to get at least get like some of the garbage out of here. Yeah, I feel horrible about it.

This is the nicest place. I’ve lived since the divorce. Well, the apartment my mom’s apartment was that was pretty decent.

I was, watching Tik Tok. Videos. Uh, after I deactivated Facebook, it didn’t really hit me until

Tonight. Last night, you know, my the only off day I’ve had. Um, I’m just thinking I don’t know how to say anything for some reason my brains

Well, anyways, uh

How much I liked watching, Facebook reels, like You know, video game playthroughs and

You know, all this stuff that I like watching Red Dead. Redemption 2. Reels. And uh,

Yeah, I need to clean my room though and set my music stuff up. And uh,

Do that.

Let’s change the light.

Wow.

There’s like white light and blue light, and yellow, light that comes from the ceiling fan. And, The blue light’s a little softer. I fell asleep with it on. 1 night but I like the yellow light to see. And the white light. Well, that’s really bright. It’s good to see also, but it’s so bright.

I like taking the blue light.

And dim it.

Yeah, that’s pretty rad.

Gosh, I really really wish I had a girlfriend.

I don’t know why, like

I just don’t, I don’t know. Yeah.

I was thinking cuz the gym girl was in my brains earlier, but she’s not now.

I’m really just happy being off, Facebook. For a while but I was flipping through Tik Tok videos earlier. Uh because my son sends me stuff and I was just like, okay! And then I will go scrolling from there.

A lot of, uh, David Lynch stuff pops up and Twin Peak stuff. Um, I was a huge, huge, huge fan. I still am I guess of the original 1? That, you know, came out on the 90s. I remember my mom watching it. Uh, and I never saw Twin Peaks the return and that’s what it was. Yeah, the return I never saw the return. Uh gosh, it came out while I was still married. But I binge watched it on Paramount Plus.

Let’s see how long ago was that?

Shit like September or October. Yeah, and uh I think it was September.

Yeah.

And,

I did not like the return. I did not like Twin Peaks the return, it was, uh,

It seemed like it just dragged on and dragged on a scene would go on for too long.

And would just be redundant and they would repeat things and it just it just wasn’t as engaging or captivating. It was worth like watching it to get through it and it was really crazy to see how the characters aged the actors that played, you know, they how much it was just. Wow, it was crazy and the actress Cheryl and Finn. Just don’t even register that. Yeah. Oh okay, there we go. But the Wrong. The chick who played Audrey Horne. Yeah. Haha Um,

How much she’s aged? Yeah, like she doesn’t she looks she like an old grandma hell that was 10 years ago you know and it’s weird because I thought she was the prettiest lady in that whole show

Well, in all the waitress chick. Yeah, the waitress uh gosh.

I can’t even remember her name.

Shelly. Yeah.

Gosh.

I thought she was like yeah, she was really really pretty too. But, um, I don’t know. I liked the Audrey Horne character a lot.

But it was crazy and I follow her the actress. Cheryl infin. Haha You know, whatever. Um, On Facebook and she posts some really crazy things. Like she’s absolutely nuts. Yeah, it’s it’s kind of weird.

But,

I was uh yeah, I was scrolling through that stuff. And, I really, really like the town. I like the Pacific Northwest a whole lot. It’s probably my favorite part of the country and I would live there if somehow I could like take the kids or something. I couldn’t live there and leave my kids behind in Alabama. I would be really sad all the time.

But I had entertained it a little bit after, the divorce. After my exfiancée Dumped me. There was a generator technician opening for this company. I can’t remember the name of the company. Up. Uh I think it was up around Washington. Around Spokane. Yeah, and, I had talked to the people. I talked to the people about it for like a couple days just trying to figure out What I wanted to do. Yeah. But uh, I decided not to But that was after I met Bill. And

That was after I met Bob.

That was after I met Bob. Haha Oh my Goodness? Bev. Yeah, that was after I met Beverly Welch. Beverly Sue Welch. What is wrong with this app?

But yeah, the Pacific Northwest is really awesome I love the trees. These those giant weird clumpy trees.

And uh, the climate The whole atmosphere of it but I really like the Town of Twin Peaks, you know, and the characters and stuff. It was uh,

And it reminds me of, you know, the late 80s, early 90s which was a Kind of a cool in between time it was right before the internet happened. And but things were still.

I don’t know, everything was so different back then. Like now, it’s like

Everything’s so connected. And right now. Oh,

And better in a lot of ways. So yeah, A lot of stuff nowadays. There’s so much better. Than things were back then. But back then was still pretty cool. We still had pay phones and

I took some aedin earlier and I took some of the sad room.

I took some exaggerating.

I took some exaggerating earlier.

Etc.

I took some exodyne.

I don’t know what this app’s trying to do to me to my brains. Oh my God, I took some exid earlier.

Etc, in the headache medicine. Oh my God, Etc. I know it’s picked that word up before I used to take it. Used to,

Whatever, Etc.

Yeah, maybe it didn’t.

Excedrin( i typed that in¡!)

Whoa. It’s daylight outside. The fuck, it’s It’s after 6. A.m. I don’t know what the hell’s wrong with me right now. Was noticing this light outside through the curtains. I was like, maybe there’s something bright outside.

Well, it’s fucking daylight. Yeah, Jesus hahaha.

Haha, I’m trying not to talk too loud.

I don’t know, I just wanted to make a post.

I want to go to sleep.

But I’m not tired, but I’m starting to crash from taking the next surgery.

Taking the xidan.

Because it has caffeine in it. You know, I took 2 of them and I found that like, I crash really hard. From taking that from taking,

Exception. I don’t know why that is such a hard word for it. Picks up, it, picks it up, something different every time. I say it cedron.

Yeah, it does.

Oh my God, right up.

I said, oh my God. Stop putting words that I’m not saying. This thing’s so fucked up. Maybe it’s the phone.

6:16 AM
Hell, I don’t know. Yeah.

I would like to take my kids up to the Pacific Northwest. I want a big road trip. I was looking up at the, uh, the falls.

Snow quality Falls. Yeah.

Um, it’s a

It’s a 37-hour drive. Yeah.

So, it’s a little further than

The drive it took to get back here for my ex fiance’s house.

This app’s getting on my nerves real bad.

Yeah, I think it does it on purpose.

Why don’t I just get off? My ass. And uh,

Clean up my room.

You know. Like, set up my music stuff. Wow. Why why am I not doing that? So

Why is this app getting on my nerves so bad? Because it keeps.

So stupid, but it’s like, It’s like I said, in my last post, I expected it to be perfect.

And it’s not perfect. How can it be that there’s so much variance in the Dynamics. With human speech, even in just 1 person because I’ll say things, so differently. And the way it comes out isn’t always The way it is in my head. And,

I don’t know. I just want to like,

Space out for a while.

I want to make a movie too.

I want to do more. Like than just work at a factory. I feel like that’s You know, before I realized that it’s like, you know, what am I trying to say?

I’ve been there almost a year. I haven’t like I haven’t done hardly anything. But since I’ve been living up here in Huntsville, I just work and then I do stuff with the kids. But I go way too overboard. I think I need to like,

Try to get my stuff. I mean, I’ve got to go do something with them Friday night, but I’ve got to, uh,

Save money.

Yeah.

Well, it’s can I say? I don’t know. Well, it’s can I say, I just, I don’t know. I don’t feel like This is my best post ever though. What else can I say? Oh lord

Just I’m tired now. Yeah, I felt like making a post when I first started talking and now I don’t. So I guess I’m going to wrap it up. Yeah.

I said, yay. Thank you.

Please.