Saturday morning!

2:08 AM

Anyways, I think I just woke up like, 30 minutes ago. And um,

I had this crazy dream that my old friend, Brandon married like

Um, my ex fiance. Haha He met her at a concert and it was really weird. And, I don’t know what, you know, it’s funny. The crap that goes on in dreams though, but I woke up feeling like betrayed. Haha Yeah, it was it was crazy. It was a crazy feeling I’m like

Our dreams, you know?

Sleeping and waking reality. And

I just thought I was thinking of, if that’s something totally something he would do. Yeah, that was a couple years ago, I noticed he doesn’t ever post on Facebook anymore. But a couple of years ago, I noticed he had a added Tiffany that Tiffany chick. On Facebook and was talking to her like in a big post I can’t remember what about because I was stalking her 1 day and I was like dang Brandon really? Yeah, you know I was like well I just go add Your ex-wife, you know, like I’m gonna It was just weird.

But I mean I didn’t though like his His ex-wife was really bad. Yeah.

According to him. But, you know, that happens. Oh, she got caught. Uh, she worked at Walmart and she got, she got caught. Yeah, um, With a 17 year old and she was like in her late 30s or something. How old I’m trying to think it was like 2020. So, it was like, yeah, she was about 36 or 37

That was, um, yeah, it was pretty bad. They had just renewed their, um, their their wedding vows at Disney World. Yeah. Oh, I think that’s the on the pirate ship or something.

I’m not going to go off on a rant about that though. He was, uh, The closest thing I had to a brother growing up like as far as friends go and then, uh, I don’t know until I met Eric and me and Eric had a lot more not just in common. But I just the way we looked at a lot of stuff we were more. We clicked on a Nerd level. I was always more of a nerd than Brandon was Brandon was more of a um,

Clown or something? I don’t know. He had just this real low. Brow crazy sense of humor that he threw all over everything like diarrhea. Hahaha. Yeah.

Um, you know me and Eric both like  Star Trek and Dungeons and Dragons and all that shit. I don’t know.

But yeah, I got, I fell asleep like right after I posted that, last thing so I slept for about 3 hours or something.

Give or take. And the new roommate, she has dogs and they bark, but maybe they’ll get used to like people other people being here. I think it’ll be okay. I worry about it bothering the

Roommate who used to take me back and forth to work. I worry about that, stressing her out more than anything.

Yeah.

But I don’t think it’s a big deal. I don’t know anything about her. I can’t even remember what

The boss lady roommates said, her name was.

I don’t know. Maybe I’ll catch her the like no. Yeah I said don’t put that word. Haha I said. You know like hey, I forgot what your name was. I don’t know anything about her. Except she’s really cute. Hahaha

But I don’t know. I don’t know if I want to go back to sleep or just stay up and like nap or something later on.

I’m going to, um,

Set up.

My stuff but I don’t know. It’s like I’m having to like, get back on normal people time. So, I don’t know what.

I don’t know what to do, what?

I mean as far as making noise goes, it feels weird to make a bunch of noise. That’s why I’m talking like really quietly.

Crap. I don’t know. I mean like cleaning up my room because I got a ton of energy. Yeah, I’m wide awake now, you know, cuz this is my normal.

Hours of operation.

You know, for a month and then it has to switch. And the first week is always hard. It’s always like the, you know, the hardest and then after that you’re used to it and by the time you’re just like hey this is normal. It’s time to rotate again. It was a lot different at Honda because it was over 2 weeks. You never got used to anything. You had to get used to the fact that you would are never going to get used to it. Yeah, Oh here it’s a little different.

But uh, that guitar Peter gave me

Plays so well, it is. It’s like the best playing fucking acoustic guitar I’ve ever had. But it sounds like Well depending on what you’re playing but for what I play, it sounds like um a guitar like an electric guitar. That’s, you know how it sounds when you’re playing it when it’s not Amplified. It’s just all kind of jangly sounding and shit. It sounds like that. But loud, you know, It’s got that triangle. That little triangle sound hole. I don’t know who engineered that, but uh, it’s just, it’s a fucking, though, you know. It’s It’s like,

It’s like a 7 or 8 hundred dollar guitar. Depending on, you know, like when it was new, it was a lot more than that. It’s probably. Well, you know, it’s probably about 20 years old, I think I was reading Gretcsh uh manufactured them in the early 2000s. And this whole Century thus far to me is just like 1, big long decade. You know, that’s what’s so crazy to me about the 20th century. Is every decade had its like it was just clearly like Defined, you know?

Uh, the 80s had all the colors, and the flare, and the 70s were all brown, and the 90s were like cool. You know. The, the 60s were like,

Really crazy. But Still had. Weren’t like as bright and fun as the 80s, you know, I don’t know. It’s technology got better and

It’s really crazy to see how all that happened after the post. In a World War II, economic boom. With all the people coming back and having tons of babies. And if you study like war and Global. You know, like it just what a fucking thing to come back from. World War II was horrible. And all everybody came back from that like my granddaddy is both of my dad’s dad. And my mom’s dad, came back all screwed up.

From the stuff they had to do and things they saw.

Like my grandpa, my mom’s dad. He was uh, he was a dentist. He was in was in a POW account, he was captured at the Battle of the Bulge and he was as tall as I am. Uh, 6 foot 2 and he he got down to 90 pounds. If you could imagine. Yeah, and he came back just

Really messed up from that. And then my granddaddy my dad’s dad. Oh, he was just this.

Alcoholic. But apparently he was bad before. Before the War, I don’t know. Yeah, he murdered his sister and got away with it.

That’s uh, yeah.

I just don’t think I could murder anybody just for like any old reason, you know, like how people do like if it was self-defense or somebody was like trying to kill, you know, me or my kids or something or somebody else. And, you know, if it was something like that, but just just cold blood fucking murder? I don’t know how I couldn’t do it. I don’t know how people do it but they do I guess.

But yeah, that was a crazy dream. I did I woke up I was just like dang. I had.

Uh had these really crappy feelings? They went away, but like gosh, you know, dreams are so crazy. My ex-wife used to like dream stuff. And uh, She would wake up and hit me and be like you asshole. I was like, what? Just like, you know, you did. You were an asshole in this dream, I had, I just want to wake up and hit you. Because you’re an asshole, you know. It was like This remember that It was funny. Yeah, It was that was before everything got really bad.

She was a mean in a funny way for a long time, you know, just, I don’t know.

But it’s about 4 hours until it starts to get daylight. I don’t I looked at the fence. Kind of just poked around. Um but I don’t remember exactly what all needs to be done with it.

Thought about going up to the RaceTrac gas station and getting coffee.

Oh shit, I don’t know what else to say. I just thought I’d wake up and make a post

Will I go back to sleep? Or will I stay up? I don’t know. Thank you. Please.