MONDAY

4:30 PM

Okay, yeah, all right. Let’s uh, let’s try this 1 more time, right? Yeah, I just I kept going off about roommate stuff way too far, but I guess a long story short is uh, I hope everything. Is okay, with the new roommate lady because I don’t Like her dog growling and barking at me, it stresses me out. And I just don’t like the conflict, any potential conflict that would arise from that. And I really do need to save up money as much as I can and move out. And I don’t care if I’m having to pay 8 or 9 hundred dollars a month. Like, You know, anything’s better than having to be stressed out over stupid crap. And you know, the chick who took me back and forth to work.

Sometimes she can be really, really

Stupid. You know what else to say about that? Yeah, like

But here I am on the cusp of going too far off.

Uh,

On crap, it’s just You know, it’s just not my scene, those aren’t my people, the boss lady roommate. She’s really awesome. She is like totally way more than average. You know, of of, like a person, she’s really great like, overall

It’s hard for me to take a lot of the stuff. Seriously. But it’s also like I have to deal with it. That Stresses me out. So I have to take it, seriously. I have to take things that I don’t want to take, seriously. I have to take them seriously because it stresses me out. I don’t know. Like the roommate, dude, and I and I am, I’m like blabbering about it again. But it’s like, you know, why in the hell Like I don’t know Yeah. Anyways, so I’m headed home now and it’s uh,

It’s, you know, it’s the Monday back on days and I’m tired and out of it and everybody else was too

I left my damn window down.

I’m just glad it didn’t rain and Nobody messes with my stuff. Now oh gosh the chick from work that’s what. Uh yeah the the 1 I tried to talk to a few weeks ago a couple weeks ago or something. Uh she came barreling down at break like uh the first break.

Like she looked straight at me and I was talking to somebody else. I was like, wasn’t even paying attention, and then I looked and I saw her and uh, I was supposed to talk to her. You know, she was 1 of those things and uh, what she does though, she reminds me of Brittany the way she acts about that and I felt bad about it. And then I had to go train on this stuff like in a different part of the line that I wasn’t usually at. So I could see her doing. In her process, it was further down. And finally, she started staring at me and I stared at her and I waved and she just darted away. Yeah. Like I don’t know. I was like, dang it like why can’t you just wave back? I’m sorry, you know. Like God, I’m sorry, I’m not a normal person and I like her so much too. Yeah, she’s just oh my gosh, I do.

And I hate that it’s taking me this long to get to where, you know, I’m getting better like to get to the point that I’m at, I still like not to where I’m like, you know. I don’t I still don’t think I’m ready for any of that but it’s like, um,

I’m better though. Yeah, I’m I’m like not all the way better but I’m better than I was. Yeah, that’s what I’m trying to say. But you know, when I waved at her and then she darted away and I did not see her again the rest of the day. I don’t know if she went home or what was going on with that but dang it, you know how I mean? I like her. I really do. And uh, it’s just I don’t want it to turn into some weird thing like it did with Brittany. I don’t think it could. I don’t think she’s I don’t think she’s as crazy as Brittany. Yeah, I don’t know how anybody can be that crazy, but I don’t want to hurt her feelings. I want her like, I want her to know that I like her too and I would like, I would totally date her. You know.

Oh, she is

So pretty. Oh, she is so pretty. Oh my God. Yeah.

Anyways, I don’t know, I don’t know what else to say that’s like, that was my day. Like that was what was in my brains most of the day was her. Hahaha.

Did I mention in another post yesterday or something? Cuz I made a bunch that uh 1 of my ex-girlfriends that lives up here. She’s single now. Yeah, and I was just like, dang. I don’t know that it would be a good idea to talk to her but if I saw her out or anything, I would say, hey, You know, I don’t know. It’s just like I broke up with her though. But I had a really good reasons. Because she was hung up on this guy and, uh, it really sucked.

It did and I could say like I wasn’t really hung up on my ex fiance but I was still crying over her when we met And uh the dude that she was all hung up on that Sometimes, I felt like she was just using me

To make him jealous and to get her mind off of it. Yeah.

Like, I think that was a lot of the reason why we were together but, uh, that and that sucks, too, it really that really like messed with me. Because I could tell she really liked me too, though. Cuz 1 time, we got in a big fight and I just left, I was like, I’m not some fucking dip shit. Yeah, and she, uh, gosh, she messaged me like right after I left. It was like, you know, apologizing and telling me how much it hurt to see me go and stuff. I was like really no way like I’m not, you know, I’m not that dude. Why don’t you fucking go marry him. And well he didn’t really like her that much, really? He didn’t really like her. Yeah, and I don’t know, I don’t know what all was going on with that, but I thought she was the prettiest, cutest, most special lady I ever met. But I finally broke it off because of all that. And because uh I got to hang out with 1 of her friends who really wasn’t her friend and that freaked me out too. It was like what the hell kind of people are these

You know, but then it’s like I’ve met quite a few people like that the year and I guess it’s been gosh a year and 3 months now Or something. Yeah, that I’ve lived up here. That’s mostly the kind of people. I’ve met are just these like flaky ass. Fucking uh, You know.

I don’t really know what to call them. Yeah. But they’re like Gosh. Anyways, the girl who was supposedly her friend. Like all she did was talk shit about her and how stupid she was. And of course, she knew all these people that I knew and they were all psychos, but they’re not. They’re like those are actually some of the most awesome people like this guy was in a band with he lives in La now. Yeah. And

He owns like a Production Studio and he does like all kind of shit for people in Hollywood and for like musicians I think he did uh I can’t remember some of the shit he did, though, but it was really

Cool, like horror movie stuff. And music videos uh, it’s nothing like huge, like mainstream, but he like he does

Really cool stuff. Yeah. And he makes a living doing it. You know, But he’s like 1 of the most talented fucking Brilliant people. I’ve ever met. And she was talking shit about him and I’m like, you don’t know him. And uh, this other guy that was his friend that we got to be friends too, and he is, he was a little, he was a little off the handle, haha but, uh, I don’t know. It’s like she acted, like she just knew them inside and out, you know, and I’m like, I don’t think you really know these people, you know, it was funny.

But I worked with a guy. He quit, uh, where I work now, Gosh back in like October, but he knew her and he was like we were talking about how awful she was. 1 day. It was funny. It was like I can’t believe, you know her but he’s from here and she’s from here. But uh, all that freaked me out. And I started to tell the the chick I was dating. I started to tell her about it. I was like, you know, that’s not your friend but I thought I was like I’m not getting involved. I’m just going to dump her, you know, it’s not going to go my way anytime soon. I was spending all my money driving up here. And you know, she did she hurt me a lot like because because she would like she was still talking to that guy. And she wouldn’t like,

Stop. But then she would rub it in my face sometimes. And it was like, it was mean. I don’t know, I don’t know what the hell she was trying to do. Yeah, but I see that guy out Sometimes I saw him in Guntersville 1, day of all places and I’m pretty sure I saw him yesterday when I went to the, Walmart in Athens and I thought well he’s in Athens he’s a really like well-known local musician, dude.

Yeah, and I figured he probably went there, so nobody would see him, you know, and recognize him. I mean that’s why I was there hahaha. I’m not even like yeah because I run into people, I know all the time.

All the time.

But, you know, my dad’s like that too. Yeah, he always runs into people. He knows.

That’s just how it is. When you know a lot of people And it is such a small world. I can’t believe it sometimes.

Um, Because a lot of the people I’ve met up here, Know, a lot of the people that I know, um, it’s just funny. Yeah.

And they know a lot of the people that I know that aren’t from here, like, people from Anniston, or Birmingham,

Or fucking Chattanooga, even? Yeah, it’s really crazy.

But uh, Gosh. I don’t know though. I want to buy some food or I want to just eat hot dogs but I think I’m going to I’m going to have to decompress before I do the rest of my chores.

Yeah.

I don’t know, I just

I feel kind of frazzled right now and I don’t want to have to deal with any like crazy stuff like even though dog barking at me and growling though that actually does stress me out really bad. Yeah. And I don’t like it.

Anyways. Yeah. Glad, uh, glad I’m on my way home.

Hahaha. Yeah, I’m going to have to edit the hell out of this.

Before I post it. Yep.

4:44 PM
Hello.

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