SATURDAY MORNING

3:26 AM
Hello. Oh my gosh.

Um, I just left the house.

And you know, I live in the suburbs so there’s like there’s people all like 24/7 walking around up here. Walking their dogs or running or jogging or something and uh It was really funny.

Of the headlight on my car. Um, I’ve got to fix it where it’s like it stays it doesn’t stay like connected. I broke the plug when I changed the headlight out last time.

And it’s, uh,

I don’t know if it just went out. I think it just went out actually again but I’ve got like fix it with something. Yeah.

So, it stays you know, plugged in Um,

But I just fixed that, I shut the hood and I like, I move weird. I guess that’s kind of the thing I talked about how weird I am. Like, I move weird if I’m going, like, I don’t just turn a corner. I like, I like turn around and like it, it’s weird how I move. Um, but to me, it’s the only way that makes sense. Like, the way I move. I, can’t explain it. I like, I like turn around into a corner like a. I’ll, I’ll turn myself around like I don’t want to say twirl but sometimes, that’s what I do it. It’s uh this guy walking. His dog saw me do that into my car. I just like came and just kind of spun around into my car. Yeah, and I was like, oh god haha he probably thinks I’m so weird. The people that live in the house you know my house The house I live in. Um, you know, I don’t know. Apparently, uh, my the boss lady roommate has Like that’s like a thing, like her house. Is famous for people living in it. I didn’t realize that till last night, the new roommate. Chick, uh, she made supper, I talked to her actually for like a while like texting about music and shit. You know, I don’t know. Like she’s really sweet, she’s the cutest. Person I’ve met like through, uh,

You know the house living in the house. Yeah she is. Oh my God but she made like a pork chop. Uh,

Macaroni and cheese or something and brussel sprouts. And I want to say something else potatoes. Yeah. And everything was good. She burnt the fucking shit out of the Brussels sprouts, haha but they were still edible. Uh, I don’t know if she meant to do that. Uh, you know, I guess like, if that was just the way she cooked them, it’s like, burnt brussels sprouts with, uh, you know, Fried potatoes and macaroni and cheese with a pork cutlet or something. I don’t know. But it was good. Yeah.

She texted me. I was almost asleep and she texted me like come and eat. I made supper I’m like well, what? A  Sweet thing to do and the other roommate that took me back and forth to work. And I did, I had to make that last post password protected. I just, I don’t know, I guess, ultimately I feel sorry for her. Yeah, and I don’t hate her.

But oh my God, I put up with some crazy shit from her and I still do sometimes, it’s just like, you know, who the hell do you think you are? Like I’m insanely nice to her, but you can tell cuz she’s in an old lesbian that she really likes the new roommate chick and it’s kind of retarded. Yeah. But like I don’t know. Well, that’s right. Because I made a password protected. Anybody that reads this is but she started hitting on me like she took me back and forth to work for 3 months and they’re towards the like the last month. Doing it. She started hitting on me. Haha Yeah. And I just thought, wow.

Because she talked, she talked about how much she hated men and stuff and I’m the Most like dude ever, you know. Haha I’m a normal. For the most. Part. Like I’m just, I’m a normal like

Heterosexual white male, you know, for real?

Yeah, and, a lot of her stuff is just completely reactionary to that. But then she started hitting on me and I was like, wow, that’s uh, weird but funny but like, no, thanks actually. Haha but it also made me feel bad for her. It’s kind of like the post I made. Uh, I was going back through my posts. I don’t know why. I get freaked out because, uh, women do crazy things to me and I was just thinking like, You know, uh, That chick who set a trap for me last year. I talked about that. Was that on?

I don’t remember what post that was last week, but I’ve got to go to work. I’m going to work. Uh, something happened yesterday in another department I can’t like I’m not going to talk about like the specifics of it, you know. Um, Because I’m a professional hahaha, but we got to go home early and I was like, wow, everybody was so fucking happy.

Everybody is so tired but uh, I don’t know. Like the roommate, the new roommate chick, she’s like anytime you want to jam that would be awesome and we’re talking about music and all this stuff and I just, I like her. Yeah. I don’t know what she gets. Into my brains sometimes. I don’t, you know, I don’t know. But She sure is.

Oh, really sweet. Yeah, I don’t know what else to say about her like it’s a I mean I guess I you know I do I love the crap out of her. She’s Seems really great.

For the most part, I don’t know.

But I went to B’s yesterday.

Yeah, and it never does. I’ll say buckys. And, you know, I have to really enunciate it.

Uh, to for it to to otherwise it’ll just say bees.

Buckies.

Oh, now it’s doing it because I called it out. I don’t know what, uh, Is that Jordan?

Uh, if that’s Jordan, that’s going to be weird. I work with this guy named Jordan, he drives a car like that.

Hey, that is Jordan. Hahahaha Ha! Oh my God.

That’s Jordan.

Yeah, I just waved. He just waved he’s just hanging out going whatever. Haha

That’s funny. He drives, a Toyota Corolla. That looks a lot like my car. I I drive a Camry. It’s a, it’s like a 90s model. Yeah.

It’s just kind of funny here.

But I am, I’m going to Bucky’s.

To get a brisket taco.

Yeah. Now it’s going to pick the word Bucky’s up.

Damn, Jordan’s pretty cool, though. He plays music too. And he, uh, I don’t know. I don’t know. He gets to work really early. He’s really like, introverted and keeps to himself a lot. You can tell

Uh,

It’s funny I don’t know seeing him drive down the interstate at fucking 3:30 a.m. it’s like nobody’s out here. I guess he’s just you know probably about the same kind of crap that I’m doing.

But yeah, I don’t know. I just love the crap out of the new roommate. Just I really do and next weekend. Uh, I’m getting I’m getting the kids

So, that’ll be funny.

The energy for tonight but I do, I don’t know what all, yeah, I’m going to have the energy for tonight.

But uh, I don’t know. I need to work on like my my voice has gotten better as long as I don’t strain it.

Too bad. I’m probably going to fuck with that. Either tonight or like this time tomorrow morning. Yeah, I like getting up.

And uh,

Doing crap.

I’m I’m actually really proud of myself that I have made it to the end of the, uh, What am I saying? Like the next the second week. After I get paid, I get paid. And then I’m like money money money, and I blow it all with the kids and then I’m broke as shit until I get, uh, Paid again but I still have a little bit of money like I have enough money to get. I got to get twenty dollars worth of gas. And then I’ve got to get uh, I’m going to get food.

I don’t know. Uh, Jesus Christ my brains

I don’t know. Oh my gosh.

But they stopped, uh, putting out the cinnamon.

Buns at Bucky’s. They had so much icing on them. See yeah. Now it’s picking up bucking. Yep, buckies. Yeah now it’s doing it. Cuz I was like I don’t know if like AI or you know somebody like something some kind of intelligence is behind this app. Haha

I’m probably the only person who uses this. Speech to text app to make blog posts and argue with and argue with it. Yeah, I argue with it sometimes.

A lot of the time. Yeah, I don’t know.

Jordan turned off on the exit. It was Oh, I don’t know. That’s just funny to see a co-worker driving down the interstate at the same time that I’m like driving out of the interstate.

Yeah.

Oh, this fucking road.

Yeah, this interstate they they’ve been doing construction on it for fucking ever.

I’m going to try not to spend, you know, twenty 5 dollars, like I did yesterday at buckeyes. Yep. I don’t know.

I mean, it’s Saturday. Yeah, it is.

And there’s Well, there’s usually not a lot of traffic. Right now. Anyways,

I think I’m just going to get a zip tie or something and zip tie them off, uh,

Zip tie, my headlight plug thing.

Yeah. Gosh, I’m already almost to my exit, but the gyms going to be closed. That’s the only thing I don’t like about where I work is. The gym is not even comparable to the 1 at Honda the 1 at Honda was like, that was like, the nicest Gym ever. And they had it was open 24/7, you can go there anytime you want to and work out and I did I was starting to get like my fucking form back and I mean, I well, I had I did. Yeah. I was getting ripped like a son of a bitch. Hahaha And then Brittany happened, you know?

I don’t know. Gosh.

I don’t know what else to talk about. Yeah, I’m just like, blah, I’m driving.

Wish I could put another band together. That’s what I was talking to that to The roommate chick about, God, she’s so fucking cute. Oh my God. Oh my fucking God. Anyways, Haha. I know, uh, um, but uh, I was like

I would love to put another band together and I told her well I mentioned that I had a bass player but he flaked out on me but she said she has a bass player. So, I mean, I don’t know what Yeah, I don’t know. But,

What I thought about doing is getting her to sing, a duet with me, uh, for uh, when we were frogs and making a video of that and reactivating my Facebook and posting that video. And uh,

Yeah. Like you know that would get Brittany’s goat really bad actually. Yeah. Maybe she would deactivate her Facebook but she did actually, um, when I had my other account, I posted her song with me on Banjo. It was just the music though and she deactivated her fucking Facebook. Like, it was Crazy. It’s crazy we’ve had that effect on each other and we’re not together.

3:45 AM
Yeah it really is like ultimately that’s the it’s just another tragic waste of a love story.

Just like my ex fiance. You know, but even worse than all of those, anything else Relationship I’ve ever done put together like my ex-wife, you know, like that was the most tragic. Saddest.

Waste. Of a love story ever. Except we got the kids out of it, you know?

And I still cry over her like thinking about her. Sometimes it just I don’t, I don’t know, probably, I mean, I don’t know. It’s it’s just, it’s just my life. I guess The Narrative of my life.

Hello. Yeah, I just feel like sometimes it’s kind of lame. I drove by like all the stuff, uh, like the racetrack and

Target and everything. Because I used to work at Target and it picks up the Wi-Fi. Yeah, it does. It’s like annoying. So it it cuts out, whatever I’m saying. When I drive past it,

But I don’t know. It’d be cool to like do music with people again. I’m not sure what that chick knows or you know, who she knows or what. I know she plays up at Bridge Street. Um, at Bridge Street. Yeah, sometimes. Um,

I don’t know, you know, she’s

It would be cool to like to like make up songs and like sing them with a lady like get out. I don’t know. I was just thinking about stuff. Yeah.

I don’t know what else to say. Hey, oh my God. Yeah.

I don’t really want to reactivate Facebook anytime soon though, that’s like I was thinking, it’s like, it’s been nice. Yesterday uh 1 of the chicks cuz they do like up where I work. Um, like I’ve gotten a lot of really disappointed looks and it happened to Target too. When I made my stuff, like, private again, because Brittany was fucking with me. And it’s like, It doesn’t have anything to do with them, I love them but they all stalk my fucking stuff. It’s like gosh, y’all. Uh, but 1 of the, uh, chicks up here. Where I work. She just I mean she was like looking at me yesterday, we had this big meeting and they were telling us you know, that we’re going to get to go home and all this stuff. And she was just looking at me like Like with this the most hurt. Look, I was like what the fuck? You know why can’t y’all just send me a follow request?

And that’s what I never understood about Brittany. Anytime I would make my Instagram private. I only made it public for her ever, like I never had it public until, you know, I just made it public for her. And I would get tired of making it public and every time I’d make it private like she would just glare at me like, from the other line. She

Oh my God. Uh, she would. And then I would, uh, always get, I would get like, 2 or 3 follow requests. Every time I would make it private again from like single moms. You know or something it was funny I was like dang, you know? And I was, you know, here I am just, you know a lot of the time I’m just so alone. I’m just yeah, like sometimes I’m just the most alone person in the universe.

Like right now? Yep.

And,

You know, people. People stalk my shit online and get

Visibly. Like You know, disappointed and even upset.

When I, you know, take it away. It’s like sorry y’all have no idea what I deal with. Like I’m just a big stupid piece of meat. But I am I guess fun to look at I’m fun to watch at work and all my like Social Media stuff is really fun. But right now, it is like it, and it’s all because of Brittany.

Oh, you son of a bitch? This stupid son of a motherfucker, the way, that people drive around here, like coming out of fucking

When they get off work. It’s so fucking retarded.

Shit. I’m going to have to get gas. Yeah.

I mean, this guy like he, he almost fucking hit me, he pulls out the fucking turd.

With his damn. Uh, license plate hanging off. Anyways.

Uh, Yeah, he like pulls out and like there’s like a yield like a turning lane thing coming out of the uh the main parking area where I work and he turns out and he like almost hits me and he gets on the shoulder of the road. Yeah, and like, then Cuts over behind me and it’s like, dude. I know you’re probably happy to be off work, but fuck you. Yeah, people are so weird and

There was this guy yesterday. I was walking out of the plant and uh, he like,

Um, Like got up beside of me like I was I was walking really fast cuz you know, I just I walk fast. Is normal to me and he gets up beside of me and starts walking fast too, and then he stops And he’s like this big fat fucking asshole. And it’s like, yeah, I don’t know what you want from me but I get it, haha you’re a big dude and you can walk fast too if you want if you want yeah like I was just walking. Dude, I don’t care about you and but that happens to me a lot. People get so weird with me. I don’t want to talk about this crap, like I just don’t want to talk anymore. Haha I’m going to uh, wrap this up. Yeah, I’m almost to Bucky’s.

Thank you, please.