6:33 PM
Oh my God, this phone.
Yep.
I don’t know if I figured, I’d make another post.
Yeah, my life though, it does it feels like a sitcom or a show or something that has gone on for like You know, 2 or 3 Seasons? Too long. Yeah. That’s how my life feels like for the last Fucking 4 or 5 years. It’s like, really? Yep.
I mean like the Whole Twin flame thing? Hahaha
I don’t know, the whole world feels like that though. Like the whole, like World stage, I guess like all the
All the bullshit that’s in the news. It’s like really that? You know, that is That’s what’s happening, that’s what is?
Being reported about like it’s I guess it’s not just I guess that’s part of my life. That’s like the background you know, setting. It’s like here I live.
On Earth and Alabama.
In Huntsville, Alabama and it’s like, you know,
I took my kids back and I’m always sad. I’m always really bummed out for a few days. After my kids, go back, its It’s been like 8 years almost and I still haven’t gotten used to
To not being a part of their daily lives. And I just, I still haven’t. I am not?
Really sure how to describe what I’m feeling about all that. It’s like,
I get tired of like this is all I have to talk about what’s going on with the news right now with some headlines. What what are some headlines in the world. Let’s see.
The news. I do though, I miss my kids so much the second, they got out of the car and I mash hugged them. Both my daughter’s getting really hard to mash hug She’s like the toughest person. Oh my God.
What?
What interests me why am I having to do this over again? Well, let’s see.
Let’s, let’s do International politics and US politics. Entertainment. Why not why not everything, huh? Money and finance.
I don’t care about sports. All the my son and I watched the uh, Para Olympics curling. Um I it was wheelchair curling, that’s what they called it and uh we watched Canada and China and I don’t remember, I don’t think we watched the conclusion, that’s when we
Got up and went.
Out.
Yeah, we went to um, we had to go.
What did we do? I don’t remember it was yesterday afternoon, it’s only got back.
Who Ai and Robotics? Ai is fucking stupid. I don’t know why things like that ever catch on. It’s like Auto-Tune. You know, or like Fuck. Where do I start? Like, what is wrong with people?
Lifestyle health and wellness food and drink.
Pets.
Travel International.
Weather art and history music hip hop rock or pop. Wow, 3 options.
Also, oh, I can’t select. More than 20 interests. We’ll have to
I guess I don’t care about.
The weather.
I have a weather app for that. Let’s do. Uh, let’s just do rock music, I don’t know.
It’s going to send me crap. Okay, evening briefing. I ran response to Trump but new Michigan synagogue attacker.
Rihanna shooting suspects. What the hell?
Somebody tried to shoot up her house. That’s pretty fucked up, I guess. Why?
I understand.
You know, I guess. I don’t know. You shouldn’t shoot people’s houses up. I don’t know though. Um,
What’s going on with Iran?
I don’t know.
I don’t even know how that all that got started. I just remember hearing about it. It’s like I haven’t been following politics. Probably when
It’s been several years. Yeah.
I just don’t.
Well. I need a backstory on that.
Oh my God. Yeah. Wow, gas has gone up. I know that. I guess because of the war, you know? Well, I’m going to have to read about that. I don’t know why we attacked Iran.
Fucking Google that I guess.
Okay.
Key reasoning for it. The key for attacks.
Okay.
A regime change support.
Okay, well,
This guy went magnet fishing and found a pistol in a box.
You know, I don’t even know what I’m talking about. Yeah, I just
I wish my voice wasn’t all fucked up. I’d be practicing my set right now in the garage.
It’s better though. It’s getting better. It’s better than it was 2 weeks ago.
I don’t know, I guess I am going to I don’t know. I’m just, it’s like
It’s just so ridiculous.
To me, it’s
Makes me wonder like what the fuck kind of planet am I on?
Yeah, and that’s not the only thing. You know, like popular music what people listen to Doesn’t make sense to me. Stuff made sense to me, like, 30 years ago, but then it’s just gotten such a, it’s just like, regurgitated, fucking
Shit from the oh my God. Like where do I start? But then there are there is some good stuff out there though. It’s just not, you know, Pop music, it’s not in the mainstream some of the stuff, my daughter listens to is really good. It’s Of course, she she has some, you know, corny ass tastes in music too. Like not all of it, but some of the But um, overall, I don’t know, I guess.
It’s like mainstream, you know?
American culture to me is just like I’m like what? I don’t even know what to say about it anymore.
I don’t have a TV. I don’t really keep up with the news or anything and because it’s so ridiculous. It’s more ridiculous to me than it’s ever been. I don’t know. It’s just
Like, I don’t know where I am anymore.
But, you know, only when I think about that kind of crap. I mean, I know where I’m at. Like
I’m in my room, haha I don’t know. I’m trying to
I’m really tired too but I’ve got energy. It’s like I’m wound up because I drank a bunch of caffeine on my way, taking the kids home because I was about to pass out. And so like my body is really tired and my brain is tired too but it’s like making it’s like squeezing. All this shit out like, you know, like juice. Like a juice juice from an orange or something. Yeah, I’m just like the juice press. Yeah, it’s like that’s my brains are in that
Ha Ha Ha Ha
But uh it does though it’s like what the fuck. It it does. It feels like.
Yeah, a TV show that’s going on for, you know, a few seasons too long. It’s just how different my life is too. Like, I never
It’s never would have thought 20 years ago, you know that I would be estranged from my dad’s family. That’s weird and it wasn’t really anything I did. It was just my dad and um, you know my mom’s dead. But like time just oh my gosh, it’s like
It goes by so fast, my kids. My daughter, she’s about to be 15. I vividly remember being 15. But that was 30 years ago
It’s just crazy, you know?
I’ve been working where I am now for, like, over a year.
And to me, that’s just so nuts.
It’s 2026.
And I guess most of the time I’m just wrapped up in my own crap, but when I stop and look around, that’s when it’s, it’s just, it’s like, wow, what the fuck does? Like what do I mean? Really like where the hell am I at?
But I have made up a lot of songs. I have made up a lot of songs like the last
8 years Oh my very best songs I’ve ever came up with or gotten have been After I got divorced, I don’t know, like my best songs ever. I don’t ever hardly I think I have maybe 2 or 3 songs. That I still play that I made up before the divorce while you know, like Devil Woman and There’s like a couple others. I can’t think of off the top of my head, but
Like my best songs were all written in the last 8 years.
Next week’s going to be a pretty crazy week at work because we’re working Saturday. And,
I haven’t really rested any of this weekend.
I don’t know, I guess, uh,
I’m just getting kind of burned out. I’m burned out. Same old shit over and over and over. I can’t complain though. I’m just like, dang.
I hope something really awesome and great happens soon. That, you know, I feel like I’m overdue for something really like Like positive, you know like life changing.
Some positive something, you know, great.
I wonder if I’ll ever get married again. I wonder if I’ll ever even like, gosh, cuz What Tuesday is the 17th? That’s the 5 year anniversary of me being single. Yep. Oh man. It’s been uh, overall. It’s been just fine. But Sometimes it’s like, dang, you know? I finally I feel like I’m finally like, starting to
More. I’m
Like I might actually be ready. To love again or something or at least like find somebody or talk to somebody I find interesting you know.
But then there’s like getting out and doing that. Like, when I’m out with the kids, you know, we do stuff like I see all kinds of people but I’m not going to talk to a ladies. When I’m out with the kids, I just don’t I’m not in that mode, and I don’t care. And you know, if I got to see my kids on a regular basis like every day or something, I wouldn’t care at all about that. I guess I Get Lonely Too that That’s a horrible. Uh, Reason to to, you know,
I mean I learned that the hard way. Yeah, it’s even though sometimes it’s like, dang I wish I had a girlfriend or something. It’s like
Well, out of loneliness, no you don’t.
Have to you need to find somebody. You can actually connect with and have stuff in common with. I have such eclectic. Selective tastes and everything.
I wonder like how much longer I’m going to? Like, how much longer I have like to be here? You know, I was reading, uh,
Damn it. Oh, this is fucking name.
Yeah, Luciano Pavarotti. Yeah, the 10 or singer, I was reading about him 10 or he’s a tener. 10, or He’s a tenor singer. Thank you. Jesus Christ. Um, He died, he lived to be. 71. And my mom, of course, she was uh, 73.
- Yeah, I mean I Ain’t Got, You know, I’ve already lived over half my Life right, how old am I going to get to be, you know, 70, something 80 something 50? Something that’s kind of what like
Uh,
I feel like a lot of times I just, I’ve already lived my life, you know, like I’ve done a lot of stuff and
It’s had its moments, you know, but here in the last year or 2. It’s just like well you know,
I miss doing house, remodeling, that was always an adventure.
6:55 PM
Kind of burned out. I’m just burned out, you know, I’m just kind of in a rut but it’s not like, I’m not depressed. You know, or anything like that? I’m just like well dang, you know? I’m irritated or annoyed or whatever, especially right now, with my singing voice. Uh,
I don’t know. I feel like I might ought to take some time off from work but I did that a lot like already. In like, January and February. I took
I don’t know, like 5. 5 or 6 vacation days, I don’t remember. I had to take 1 the day that they canceled production. But um,
Yeah, I think I think doing the same thing over and over and over and over, like it has turned out a lot of Creative stuff, but I do, I’m starting to get really burned out but I can’t give up, you know, I have to hang in there because I’m eligible for an offline job as soon as 1 comes open, I can bid on So, I mean,
I guess I was just feeling kind of blah, and I’m tired.
I start.
Well it’s not all you know it’s not all me. It’s it’s an exchange it’s like well
I think I need to just
Maybe I need. I think I’m going to work out. Yeah that’s going to that’ll help and then I’m going to uh just go from there. I might fall asleep. I need to do.
My chores though.
But I might do those tomorrow after work.
You know? Thank you, please.
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