TUESDAY MORNING

12:47 AM
Oh I woke up about an hour ago.

Um,

Yesterday after work, I went to a Mexican restaurant.

And got.

Food. And then I went and got lottery tickets. From Tennessee.

I made my Instagram public

For like, um, I don’t know. I started feeling weird. So I made it private again. Not for long. Yeah. Like it wasn’t public for very long. It’s just this whole crap with Brittany. I don’t know. Shit. Just gets into my brains and it

Makes me feel like it would start feeling Like Doom. Yeah, like I got this feeling of Doom. And then I make it private and it goes away almost instantly. It’s been like this for 3 years.

Like she’ll do something or something and it’ll fucking that’s why all my stuff’s deactivated or private right now. It’s weird, but I’ve done the same things to her. Not on purpose. Yeah, it’s just I don’t know. I don’t know if I’ll ever.

Well, I’m I don’t know anything, it’s just I don’t know if I’ll probably never see her again, but that’s That’s what I thought until I saw her drive by my storage unit. You know, where I wouldn’t. Like,

That’s what I’m talking about though. Like what even is this shit?

Like a sitcom, you know that’s gone on for about 3 Seasons to

All too long.

No.

I just said, yeah.

The way I just,

I’m talking really stupid, I guess.

But I did, I got a margarita and uh, I don’t really have a hangover or anything but I can tell I drank.

I drank something. I don’t know. I think it’s fine.

The new roommates. I don’t know where she’s not here. And now you can tell a big difference when she’s not here.

Yeah, it’s like yeah it’s like

It’s not bad. Hahaha

I don’t know. It’s not that bad anyways. It’s just like

It’s a quiet.

I’m the only like, I’m

I don’t know. She seems like 1 of those like Carefree.

Like my friend Natalie? Yeah. She just does whatever, you know.

Everything’s,

Temporal, I guess anyways but For people like, Her. Yeah, I think she’s 1 of those people that uh,

You know, they don’t really form a lot of deep, lasting connections. She probably burns a lot of bridges. They just kind of Live in the moment, and Fly by the seat of their pants. I think she’s a 5 life path. I deduced that. Yeah from From Facebook. I don’t know, it’s funny, like, I don’t care that much. It’s just

I poke around people’s crap, to get an idea of who they are. If I have to, you know, deal with them on a regular basis.

What’s the global population right now?

Oh my God, my friend Emily.

Is uh,

It is such a small world though. Yeah, my friend. Emily delivered a pizza.

And forgot to bring the people their drink.

She’s a a delivery driver for Domino’s. That’s like 1 of them for, you know, 5 or 6 jobs, she claims to have And uh, She’s like,

She forgot their drink, you know, like how do you forget and I don’t, I don’t know. I used to do pizza. Anyway, it’s um she said she would bring them.

Bring it right back to them and they they said they would tip her when she got back. She went to a gas station and bought them a drink and brought it back and they just took it and shut the door in her face.

And didn’t tip her and she’s going off about that. How people are testing her and it’s like you forgot their drink, you probably fucking pissed them off.

You know like, you know, sorry but that was your fault. I gave her a hundred dollars for Christmas. Yeah, I did.

She’s always got some kind of crazy stuff going on and she’s always asking for money. She got married last year sometime, I think it was September, maybe October.

And it lasted about 2 weeks and then all of a sudden they weren’t. But they were together for a couple of years and they got married and then then it was over. It was like, wow. Yeah, I don’t, I don’t know what happened. I don’t know if it was I have no idea.

But I know that. She’s always like, oh, I need money all the time and

Oh, about how she doesn’t ever have any money for like bills and all this. And she’s got to come up with all this stuff, but she got a new tattoo for Valentine’s Day,

And I sent her that money and she didn’t even say, thank you or anything. It was like, okay? But then later, like, I don’t know On one of her posts She owes Cash app, a bunch of money.

And I just I don’t know what was going on with her. I don’t know if she’s on drugs or what the fuck is happening with that.

But I felt bad for her because She’s a really good friend of mine. I’ve known her for probably

7 or 8 years. So

I said every damn time I fucking move my arm. I hit this.

Fucking remote control for my Overhead light, and it turns the fan on. There’s uh,

6 different buttons. You can hit that will turn the fan on So, let’s see. Just

I guess the odds are. Against me with that, I don’t know. Hahaha

But yeah.

What was I even? Oh yeah the global population. I just opened my Facebook for my alternate account.

Some of my friends from my main account are also on the alternate account.

Yeah, I just I don’t know. I don’t know. What’s, what’s the deal is with her?

But I hope everything gets better. I feel bad for her. I wish I could help her more than I have, but

That’s something.

Yeah, I don’t I have no idea how to do. Yeah.

I’ve had a lot of help that’s 1 reason why.

I’m, I’m

Always happy to help people out if I can.

But I Ordered this vocal trainer thing. And it should be here this week.

I’m excited to use it. I hope that gets my voice back in shape

Because then, I can get out and, uh,

Start playing again.

I totally got off track where I was going to the point. I was going to make earlier, The global population.

Is.

8.2 billion people.

There’s 348 million people in the United States.

How many people live in, Alabama?

Oh, like 5 million. Or so.

Over 5 million. Give or take. Well, I mean it is

Out of and the largest city.

With 249,000 102 people.

Yeah. Haha

You know, I really do.

Like living here, I guess the metro population is 514,465.

Yeah, I just don’t like being uh 2 hours away from my kids, that’s my only complaint Living here

Is that I live 2 hours away from my kids?

Oh hey, today is St. Patrick’s Day. Yep. Today is and it’s the 5 year anniversary of being single. It’s not for, like, I’ve been single for long enough. I can start looking for somebody again.

It’s not going to be hard to like find a person, but The right person. Yeah, that’s Not something. I’ve Ever found. I don’t know, it’s kind of funny.

Uh, the ones I have got mixed up with, you know, I’ve gotten traumatized, to the point where I’ve been single for 5 years.

And I run away from everything, but I’ve gotten better.

I just can’t, like the chicks from work. I’ve already pissed off from running away?

Uh, I’m not going to talk to any girl who’s going to be mean to me because of that. It’s weird how they treat me too. It’s like I am I’m just this big stupid piece of meat

And uh, You know.

I don’t understand.

It’s really selfish of how much? Yeah, it’s like.

Oh my God, this fucking piece of shit App but it’s just really selfish of them to fucking like the way they treat me. Like all that shit that Brittany did. And the way my ex-wife acted know. I, I never saw, like, selfishness like that before. It was like what the fucking hell?

And like my ex fiance getting into my phone and turning my alarms off. You know, it’s like thanks for ruining my fucking life. You crazy bitch. And, you know, they just did it. Just got to do it. So, I mean, that’s pretty selfish.

You know? And then she tried to tell me I owed her money. It’s like, okay, I don’t though. And that’s been all this year, will be 8 years.

Know what I mean? They do like at work. They get all crazy. Like I will like be looking. I’ll look at somebody that isn’t them. And they get all this, this crazy ass fucking look on their face and they come up and start trying to talk to me, like the chicks that I work with on my line. They’re all like, hey, And it’s like, hey, you know, I don’t I don’t know what y’all expect me to do.

But I mean, I don’t have to be Single or alone or anything

You know, I can date people. It’s just I don’t have anything in common with people from work.

You know, my contemporaries don’t work in car. Factories It’s kind of a weird, uh,

It’s kind of weird that I’m even doing it, but that’s where I get.

I say I make up uh, my best songs but I feel

I’m really burned out right now at my job.

I think everybody is? On my team like I have a team at work. I think there’s a 5 of us. And 3 of them went home yesterday at lunch, they were just like fuck this shit. Yeah, it was crazy.

But uh, I think I’m going to rearrange my room.

I think I’m going to do that. I mean, I’m probably going to live here for another. Fucking.

I have no idea.

At least another 6 months, probably. I don’t know.

I have no idea.

I get another bonus in 2 months.

I’m trying not to talk loud and it’s picking up. Everything is stupid. But yeah, I don’t know.

I don’t know. I was like,

But I do. I wish I could have my Instagram public again, I don’t know. It’s I started feeling really weird after I did.

Yeah, some of the stupidest things I’ve ever seen pop up on these, uh, the threads.

There’s like this.

I don’t even know. Well, I don’t know if I know how to describe it and I’m not going to I just have to screenshot it.

Yeah.

It’s just some person. Fucking a bunch of cockroaches, with A some kind of rake looking thing.

Yeah.

There you are. I don’t know.

It’s cold. It’s 30.

It’s 30° outside.

I don’t know, I don’t know what else to say. You know, I hope I find somebody soon though. Like somebody.

I have some stuff in common with,

1:16 AM
You know, somebody I can relate to, that would be great.

But uh, I’m going to edit this and post it and probably go back to sleep for a few hours.

Thank you, please.