TUESDAY

2:04 PM
Well. I’m just laying here in the bed. Trying to eat this Ramen. It’s pretty gross.

It’s Tuesday. Oh my gosh. I am waiting on.

A washing machine repair person to get here and fix the washing machine. And then I can go to work, but I want to go back to sleep.

Back on night shift. Yep.

I’m trying to think.

I sure do miss my kids.

I miss my kids more than I wish. I had a girlfriend and I want to post that as a Facebook status. But I’m just I’m not feeling it right now.

I’m so burned out on social media. Thanks to Brittany mostly.

I wonder what happened to her? Where she isn’t on the books until the middle of next month. I have no idea.

And while I don’t explicitly or implicitly, wish anything you know, horrible on her.

She did ruin my fucking life on purpose, and probably laughed her ass off the whole time. She was doing it. So, I mean, I don’t know I don’t really know how to feel about her right now.

All she would ever have to do is message me though.

Is that going to happen? Probably not.

I don’t know, the older I’ve gotten and the longer. I’ve been single, the more I Don’t care. I guess the less I care, right? Yeah, it’s It’s like, I’ll see a chick and it’ll be like, dang, she’s beautiful. And then all the stuff. Hits me. It’s like God, what’s she going to do? You know? Like what’s she going to put me through?

I mean, what kind of bullshit am I going to have to put up with? And it’s never worth it. It has my ex-wife was the only 1 who was worth it.

And that’s only because of the kids.

You know, the rest of them it’s just

Not been worth it and Stephanie’s been messaging me again. And, you know, I mean sometimes I really miss her and it’s good to talk to her but it’s like, this isn’t going to go anywhere. And if we end up, you know, like seeing each other again or something, it’s just going to. It’s going to make me sad.

Drive me crazy and make me sad.

Again.

I think that was like a lot of the undertones of 2021 like the whole year I was just like wow stuff. I mean

Stephanie, you know, and then 2022 was the same up until about June. Or July. I can’t remember. When I had enough of her shit and fucking Cussed her out when she called me. Yeah, being a fucking bitch. I was like, I would have married You? Yeah eat fucking shit.

It’s specially and she talks about uh especially uh when she talks about like you know she always gets cheated on she gets with the guy and she thinks you know he’s just all this and then he cheats on her and it’s like well You know, you’re the only woman I’ve been with in The Last 5 Years, so Fuck you.

Yep.

I guess really, I haven’t genuinely found anyone interesting enough yet. And I know it takes a lot.

It does.

I really want to go back to sleep.

But, I’m so burned out on this whole like, Human Experience and planet Earth. And as much fun as I have this weekend with the kids, I’m broke again and I’m like I’m eating Ramen, not that it’s awful. But it is actually this is pretty awful. I can’t remember when I bought this Ramen.

But I don’t know. I got really tired of eating Ramen.

Also exhausted. I said, I am so exhausted. It’s stupid.

Thank you, please.