MONDAY MORNING

3:26 AM

Okay. Oh my goodness. Yeah. I have been practicing my songs. Out in the Garage. Did my chores? Yeah I did.

My voice is kind of crappy, but it’s not as bad I think as uh,

I don’t think it’s as bad as it was last week. Yeah, It was, uh, I did the Brittany song and it sounded fine. So, I’ve got 7 songs here, I’m going to practice So I can go play an open mic night when I’m back on day shift and Maybe everything will be fine. I’ve got uh, Brittany

King of the Road.

Abolene. Yea dinosaurs. Concrete block house.

Feeling the meat.

And the crazy woman. Haha. Yeah. And I’m just going to work on those until I’m ready to get out. I’m so out of practice. It’s kind of stupid but I’m also really tired and Yeah, I don’t know.

Let me get that out. The mop.

Okay. Yeah, back to back to the blog post. Hahaha. I don’t know. I’m just uh,

The boss lady roommate, she like, was just complaining about the lack of chores being done and I just think, you know, it’s like yeah, on 1 hand, it’s

If she worked like I did. And uh she was really like kind of ugly about it last week actually and I don’t care like I just don’t care that much. It’s like when uh, the 1 that took me back and forth to work. When she laid into me about unloading the dishwasher

Which is not a big deal.

But it was to her, she made it a big stupid deal and it’s like, you know, I just got back from like a 10-hour day, with the kids, in Birmingham, in a car with no air conditioner. You know like about had a damn heat stroke. Haha. Yeah and uh you know I come in and she just starts in on me about it. I’m like,

This woman who doesn’t have to do anything all day long that she doesn’t want to do. And has probably

Objectively. I guess you could say has 1 of the easiest lives of anybody I’ve ever met. Oh my God. Yeah, of course, she would probably argue with that? Vehemently. Yes. Thank you. Uh, you know I’m sure she would but it’s like you’re just a entitled. See here, I am like going to get go off on a rant about it.

But I have already talked about her, a whole bunch in this blog. That’s 1 reason why I took it off my Facebook. Because I couldn’t stop talking shit about like mostly the chick that just moved out who left all this fucked up gross food in the Fridge and her and it’s like

I’m so nice, you know, to these people and I work my ass off and, you know, I do stuff with my kids, I got home at like, 6:00, Saturday morning.

Uh, I didn’t know, I didn’t think I was going to make it. They’ve been running the shit out of us at work and next week is just going to be 90 minutes overtime, you know, all week and uh, I had to take my kids fishing, you know, I took my kids fishing Saturday, so I didn’t get a lot of sleep and I got up and got around and then I was gone. I didn’t get back until yesterday about 1:30. Almost 2 oclock. And, you know, then I passed out for about 4 hours, but I got woken up, you know, intermittently By people doing stuff. And, And it’s just like, you know, I haven’t really gotten the chance to do the chores. I did them. I swept and mopped, the hallway and I didn’t do the upstairs but I’m going to do that before I leave for work. And I did the living room but she changed the chores. Anyways. I hadn’t had a chance. I haven’t thought about it. I’ve been so goddamned exhausted, and that’s kind of my point. It’s like, you know, I don’t want to hear it. I’ve done so much extra stuff for her that. For nothing practically nothing like the last few things I did. Like changing out all the fans, my house, remodeling boss. I think he used to get like $45 a fan for changing out a fan and that’s if he liked you and then you know the fence repair. I did that was about a $200 fucking thing. Anybody else would have charged probably more Yeah, would have charged for that and I did that for free, I changed the toilet and the sink out for free. I fixed the fucking sink drain and that was not as easy as I thought it was going to be, but I did that for free all that for free. She got a $1500 paint job? $1500. Yeah, I spent my entire Thanksgiving break and it looked immaculate. It was like the best paint job ever and she got it for $250 originally I was like, you know, I have 33 hours in this And I think in a totaled up to about 500 bucks and she was like, oh my God, that’s just too much money. That wasn’t in my budget that is way over my budget. And I’m like, oh yeah. Well, it wasn’t in my budget to spend my entire Thanksgiving break doing this shit for nothing, you know, but I was being nice and I just had her take off $250, you know, from the rent, but it was lost on her because she’s, it’s like, she doesn’t care, you know? And I can’t keep my kids here. Like that’s just I mean I you know, I just don’t I don’t really fit in with anybody anyways. And I’m just like, well I get my bonus next month so I’m probably going to uh, Find another place to live. I only was planning to live here about a year. Anyways. But it’s, you know, it’s time for me to go. Yeah, it is. Like, I just don’t.

You know, with my levels of stress and stuff and like

I just I haven’t, it’s been a rough couple of months and I just don’t care, you know. Somebody else will move in. And I mean there’s so much else I could say it’s like you know I gave my room up that was a really awesome room and she didn’t even offer it back to me. The other roommate got it. I don’t know what went on, you know, behind the scenes with that but it’s like it’s not a big deal because I’m not going to live here forever and she probably is

You know, so it’s like

Whatever.

I just, I guess I just don’t want to hear it, you know, I was planning on doing my chores.

Tonight anyways. And you know, tomorrow well, To I did. Um, technically tonight last night you know, on night shift the days and the nights overlap like my regular day, like this it’s 3:34 a.m. right now. It’s like my 3:34 p.m. to a normal schedule. So, this is my afternoon right now. Right? It’s yeah. So Um, but yeah, I had planned on doing them anyways. I just, you know, I’ve got to sleep.

Sometime. I didn’t get a lot of rest this weekend, the kids and I we got that hotel room and I think I slept for about 3 hours and got up and, I was just up and we checked out and everything at like 10:00 and I had to take my daughter to her boyfriend’s house from Rome, Georgia and Um, take my son home and you know then a 2 hours drive up here. That’s I got. Yeah, I got home about almost 2. I think it was like 1:45

But um,

Yeah, I just, I don’t know. I’m just really like, I’m tired and

I don’t care. But I don’t, I don’t really like being You know, gotten on to about stuff that and I mean I’ve just done so much extra crap for nothing. That’s my point. I’m repeating myself now you know. I, I don’t know, but it is it’s, it’s time for me to Start looking for somewhere else to live and I don’t really you know, the whole roommate thing. I did that 25 years ago. It’s okay if you have to have roommates but I’m making enough money an hour. I really if I can if it’s 8 or 9 hundred dollars a month, that’s fine. Actually, you know, even a thousand dollars a month and what I would, you know, be paying extra in rent. I would save on hotel rooms and eating out. Like, holy shit. Yeah. Oh my God. So you know it’s I can’t keep my kids here like we can’t the kids can’t stay here or that’s like back. I think last year like last August or something, you know, we tried that a few weekends and it’s just, there’s just too much going on here for me to comfortably keep the kids. Over. I stress out and people come in and out of here, I don’t know them and that’s a not that well, you know, the roommate, dude. He creeped. My daughter out Pretty bad. He doesn’t live here anymore but he still comes by sometimes. That’s part of it too. So, I mean, you know, it’s just a bunch of crap. It’s if I was like, in my early 20s, or if I was, uh, had never been married or didn’t have kids. If it was just me and I didn’t have anything else to worry about, this would probably be just fine. You know, it would but I’m I’m not I’m not like the other people who live here. So, Yeah. It’s uh

You know, I get what in about a month.

Give or take, I get my bonus and that’s uh, that’s going to be. Probably what I use for a down payment. And however, many months rent in advance. I have to Compensate for my shitty credit. Whatever. I’m just going to have to find something probably in Athens. Yeah. I like Athens, it’s closer to work. I don’t want to find somewhere closer to work. I want to find somewhere closer to work. I said, I don’t know why. You would pick that up.

The opposite of what I say, sometimes this app does that. I’ll talk about something in past tense. I will have talked about something. I, I talked about something in past tense and it’ll put like the I apostrophe LL. And like I’m going to talk about something, I it’s just stupid how this app is and I don’t know why it bothers me so much because all I’ve got to do is edit it. You know in the editor and just edit out all the extra crap, it picks up but it fucks with my brain to see it.

Type out the wrong thing, print out the wrong thing I guess, in real time. It’s like Jesus Christ. No, that’s not what I said but I can totally change it in the editor. I guess. It’s it to me. It’s like more authentic. When it picks it up. Correctly and I argue with it. And it, you know, if it picks it up incorrectly, it just It’s like it’s the process. I’m having to go through to get this. You know, out, it’s just part of it, this app. I included in the blog making process like in Yeah, whatever.

But anyways I think I’m going to wrap this up and uh because that was in my brains I was just starting to bitch about it and I don’t have an internal monologue like a lot of people Some people don’t have anything like that at all but I just I externalize everything, even if I just Mumble it to myself. You know, it’s kind of funny. But anyways. Uh, thank you please!