5:50 AM
Okay. Oh my God. I’m driving to work.
Yep.
Oh, I’m running. Well late for me.
Yeah, I’m actually
Going to get there. Like when all the regular people get there,
So anyways the Twin Flame chick blocked me again. Probably because I posted a bunch of pictures of the chickens, not all of the chickens. That I drew oh gosh. Like
When did I start even drawing those like
Blue green chickens.
April or May. Of 2023 up until probably that November. Yeah.
All over creation. Like,
Just all over the place. I bet I drew
Fucking a couple hundred of them. Yeah, haha It was like uh usually I tag you know like gas station restrooms and stuff. Anyways Like with, you know, weird shit but like, uh, that was like my thing.
Was like the thing I did for, you know, and it was it was the whole twin flame thing.
I thought it was kind of cute.
Haha. Yeah. But uh,
I don’t know. It was like,
It drove me so crazy. And I posted, oh and I made some art of it too. Like, I made a few paintings, actually, I gave them away, I didn’t sell them and uh, 1 of my friends who worked at the dollar store, not the dollar store I worked at though at a different Dollar Store. Uh, I was like, hey, you want some art?
And I gave her this thing and told her the whole story too. And it was funny.
Kind of,
Um, I don’t know. It’s like I said in my last post. It exhausts me to explain this shit. Like if I start talking about it too much, it just zaps, All the fucking it just it does.
Traffic getting bad. This morning. I think this is when I used to, this is about the time I used to leave when my roommate. Took me to work. Yeah. But it got earlier and earlier and earlier,
Uh,
How long did she take me to work like 2 months. Yeah, that was
Oh man, I’m just glad I got a car now. Yeah. Oh my goodness. But um,
I don’t know, it’s like she can block me. She blocked me and unblocked me and I guess she blocked me again. And the only thing I can figure maybe that she blocked me for the first time was I posted a A picture of my desk that had like a lot of the stuff on it she left around the apartment complex that I never could figure any of her stuff out and the bear I was supposed to give to her for Valentine’s Day except she had this guy hanging around her. That she was just using to make me jealous. And I don’t understand why she thought any of that was like a good idea.
All the stuff she did. Like what she thought that was Doing to me. Yeah. Like
I just liked her you know, she’s the biggest crush I ever had but like it ended up getting so over complicated. That it just
Scared the living hell out of me. I had a nervous breakdown because of it and lost a really good job and didn’t get to see my kids for a year on a regular basis for about a year.
Because my ex-wife was like, what the hell is going on in your brain? And finally, you know, they all realized when she tried to follow my daughter last year on Tik Tok. That like, no, I wasn’t making this up in my head.
And the world’s a lot smaller too, You know, than I think she realizes a lot of people. I know a lot of people who know her or knows who she is.
And it’s like, yeah. After I started like you know, like telling people I mean this chick cuz everybody was like Hey you know asking me if I was still working at the second car factory and I’m like well as a matter of fact, You know, and I can’t help but I am like predisposed. To crazy shit. Anyways. You know, I’m extremely sensitive. But I’m not psychotic
And uh, It’s crazy though. Nobody else could have driven me that crazy except her. My ex-wife drove me that pretty much that crazy and my ex fiance.
Yeah, she kind of did but not that bad.
But uh,
God damn it, you know, like Yeah, motorcycle. Just like going. Had to be going 100 miles an hour anyway.
I hope they live. Haha. Yeah.
Gosh, it scared me though. It doesn’t take much to scare me either. Okay. But uh, it just sucks. Because 2 and a half 3 years ago or something, you know, and I did I ran away.
But I couldn’t help it. I didn’t do anything shitty on purpose.
Yeah, she just interpreted it that way. I don’t know.
Well, I dream about her, like I’ve been having a lot of dreams about her lately.
You know how dreams are?
There’s another damn motorcycle.
Um, Yeah, gosh, like I usually leave an hour earlier than, than this
But I also get to work, you know, 2 hours early, usually.
I hate to say that her blocking me like made me feel like crap. It’s like really, you’ll do anything except message me. You know. And I can’t message her because of how mean she was the last time I did it. But like what the hell does she want from me? You know, Like if she really wanted something like, if she wanted anything. I mean like, for real,
With me.
We would already like it would have already happened. She just likes messing with my head and probably likes the fact that there’s this guy out there. Who talks about her in a Blog. That made up a bunch of crazy shit like the mythology behind all this right? The lore or whatever. Is uh pretty fun like the whole thing. I just went all off in my head with about it and it’s accompanied with songs and you know, art and stuff.
Yeah, like I could make a Cartoon about this. And I ought to,
I don’t know. Cartoons. Take a lot of time.
But uh,
I just, I don’t know the whole thing. Just it drove me absolutely crazy. And then it just Hurt.
Right now. You know, it just hurts me now.
And I don’t know. If she thinks, it’s I don’t know what she thinks.
I know when I saw her like the other day. I guess it’s been 3 weeks ago now driving
Uh, did I even get off on the wait a minute?
I didn’t have to get in this Lane so soon.
Yeah, it’s not yet. I’m not there. I’m not far enough. I’m not paying attention.
Oh, To the exits. I’m paying attention to, like, My immediate surroundings though. I’m just talking But uh, God I did, I got Really drunk last night. Probably why I posted that and I was watching Twin Peaks in French.
Uh,
And I made all my stuff like, Friends only again on Facebook. I don’t know how long I’m going to keep it that way.
Crap. Gosh. Yeah. I have a, a little bit of a hangover I’ve had worse hangovers though.
Am I even going to have time to edit all this? Dang, like I don’t ever get to work this late.
And it’s not late though, it’s like normal time. Yeah, this is when most people get to work, I like to avoid the crowds and stuff.
This week I am dragging around. Yeah, I’ve just been dragging around this week. Ah, big truck.
Haha.
Gosh, the construction, they’re doing on this fucking Interstate that like it’s been ongoing. But I guess, you know, it does take a lot to like do an interstate cuz it’s so heavily trafficked.
But I don’t know. I mean I don’t hate the Twin Flame chick. You know, or anything like that. I get mad at her. You know, because she yanked me around so damn much because I mean I know she thought it was funny. But there were like really good legitimate reasons. Like for me, uh, that I why I ran away from her and I didn’t talk to her like She wanted me to until, right there at the end. And it is it’s a big crazy story but gosh you know I love her. I do. I hope she has the most fantastic, wonderful fucking life whether I’m in it or not. But like Jesus Christ.
I have held out for her too, like
You know, I’ve been afraid if I got with anybody, I would dump them for her in a second, and I don’t want to break anybody else’s heart. You know, I did that once.
Yeah. Like I broke 1 chick’s heart. My first girlfriend after the divorce. And I’m not doing that again but I can’t just have like casual romantic encounters. You know. So, I mean, And I haven’t met anybody yet. Who is anywhere close to as interesting as the Twin Flame. Chick is So, I mean shit.
I don’t know. But now, she’s not popping up on my fucking like, In my messenger with her active status anymore. Yeah.
That was kind of driving me a little nuts, you know, it’s like I just want to message her but I can’t.
And I won’t, you know,
But yeah, I mean shit.
I’ll never like, I’ll never understand this because oh shit.
I forgot how this damn exit is, yeah. Like when there’s traffic This thing gets backed up all the way to the interstate. It’s a big long exit ramp too. Oh my gosh, when I have to edit this a lot. I’m going to have to edit this a lot and I do. I hide from all the chicks at work. They all like me. I think they’ve been finding my Facebook page. Also, that’s what happened at, uh, the warehouse job I added like a couple people and everybody has mutual friends you know. So they start popping up on the people. I may know and that’s happening here. Yeah so it’s like dang you know? And uh
And I’m still hung up on the twin flame chick.
Who. Blocks me and unblocks me and pecks on my blog, but doesn’t read any articles and
Practically ruined my life. It was really cruel.
And then didn’t stop, you know. It was it was really bad. I don’t know if she just Likes The fact that she can do this shit to me like she, you know, She is the only person who could have though. Seriously, only 2 other women have affected me this much. And I married 1 of them and almost married. The other You know.
And the fact that she still doesn’t leave me alone, the fact that she even Blocked me. Means she was looking at my stuff all the time. And I haven’t looked at her stuff in about a week.
I just
It hurts, you know. I guess I’m just venting. Yeah, I don’t know driving to work. I think this will be a 120 day. Uh, Post Streak Yeah, baby. My brains fucking hurt.
It just, it really did just pick up the Wi-Fi for a second when I drove past the racetrack. Anyways, um,
What did I just say?
My brains.
Yeah. Maybe like you know here pretty soon like probably another week or 2. I’m going to open my Facebook back up. Put my blog, a link to my blog back up on my Facebook page.
6:07 AM
And, And who knows?
Yeah.
But, you know, if you read this Brittany,
I mean.
Like I just, I don’t know what you want at this point. I don’t know what you want from me.
Thank you, please.
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