SUNDAY AFTERNOON AGAIN

3:52 PM

Okay, yeah, let’s uh, let’s make a new post. I went too far talking about um, I feel like I did talking about some local musicians. I’m not going to elaborate haha. I don’t know. It’s not that big of a deal. It’s just by the off. Chance that. Maybe 1 of them read it, it would just would cause a lot of drama that I don’t want to fucking Deal with. Yeah, it’s like yeah. Her like I read what you said about us. You know, in your blog it’s like well it wasn’t anything that wasn’t true and it’s not anything I wouldn’t say to your face but I just I’m not I’m going to deal with that right now.

It’s funny though that this Blog has actually had a huge. Like, it’s People have read this blog like from my personal life and I mean it’s right up on my Facebook page. And, Um, it’s I say it’s caused some problems but it’s also you know, it’s been made for some interesting like

Uh,

Stuff that has happened. I mean, that’s where the whole thing about Brittany came from because she started, stalking my blog and read that I liked her. Yeah, that’s what’s so crazy about it is I did she’s the biggest crush I ever had.

And now she’s like you know she’s uh reverted to mythological status. Hahahahaha Ha Ha Ha

I mean, it’s just it’s crazy and I don’t know what I would do if I was ever like face to face with her like in a realistic way ever. Again, it’s like, wow, there’s my twin flame who just Wow, you know. Because I do think. You know, that I still think she’s Absolutely beautiful. You know.

Oh man. It’s a lot like that. Uh, What happened with at that, with that Kids in the Hall sketch, the sausages sketch? Yeah, I’ve talked about this before I’m going to I’m going to post a link to that.

But she did. She started stalking me online and she still does. Like that’s the funny thing the other day when I made everything, I took everything down for a day or so and then put it back up because I just freaked out uh, and like immediately she pecked on both my blogs.

You know, kind of crazy. I don’t know why she hasn’t today. I think she might have had early this morning, but I don’t. She hasn’t though. Usually I Wonder what she’s doing. I’m not going to look her up. I’ve got actually, On my alternate account. And 1 of my fake accounts, I’m sure she’s aware of both of them. I don’t know though. I have her blocked. So Yeah.

Oh, I could just tell the whole story though, right? Yeah, I could.

I don’t feel like it though. That, that would be probably my longest post ever. Yeah, I don’t know. I could imagine that going into like, 6 or 7 thousand words.

But she she did, that’s how you know. I noticed I would notice some off hits like this was like 3 years ago. On my blog, but I never could figure where they were coming from. You know, I figured my uh 1 of my ex-girlfriends. She still probably stalked me. Uh, back then I don’t think she does anymore. And

I didn’t rule out the possibility that my old supervisor who also Read the other blog. Yeah, you know that she stalked the shit out of me too. You know, I don’t think she’s not on Facebook anymore. Yeah. Then there’s my ex fiance, you know, she sometimes would read some of my shit. I could just tell by the articles she read like because I would tag her name in it. And she would read the articles that had her name tagged in it. And, of course, my ex-wife read, every single 1 of my posts. Like she policed my blog for a couple of years there. Yeah.

A couple about 3. Yeah up until this blog. She stopped, I think at some point either early this year or late last year. Uh stalking my shit constantly like my blog. Yeah, I don’t. I don’t know.

No, I think I made all those posts. Private. Yeah. Um, I think a lot of it was just concerned you know she was especially after all the shit happened with you know I had the nervous breakdown and everything she thought I’d completely lost my mind. You know, she’s not like,

What’s the word? Um,

Uh,

It’s just so crazy though. Yeah, I don’t know. Um, what was my point in that? I spaced out for a second.

Oh yeah, okay.

3:58 PM
Yeah, I do though. I talk about this shit way too much. Especially like the last couple of weeks. Yeah, I don’t know.

What else can I talk about? Yeah. It’s like a you know it’s 1 of those things where it’s like such a big undertaking I might as well just not even do it. That’s why I don’t tell the whole story about Brittany like from start to Wherever it’s at right now. And it might not ever, I might not ever see her again. You know, it might be like I have no idea. But I need to get out more. Yeah, that’s what I was thinking. When I was looking through, I was talking about the local musicians. I was looking at their page and I was like, well they haven’t done anything in a few months. So but it made me

Think, you know, I’ve got to really get out and start doing my music and stuff again. But I can’t for like, 4 weeks. Because I’m on night shift but I can practice I can get all like my crap. My voice. Thank goodness. It’s starting to get better, you know, I don’t know if I want to, uh,

I don’t know if I want to try to record feeling the meat,

Vocals or not.

Today, I don’t know. I’ve got to do my chores. I think I’m going to attempt that here pretty soon. It’s 4:00. Now, On the dot. And I think my roommate the uh she said her

Zoom call or something was like, 1 to 4. So I’m going to, uh, I guess by the time I get like, wrap this up and edit it and post it all. Uh, I can do my chores and I don’t I don’t know if that I’m that loud or anything.

But dang, you know? Uh, I’m

I’m really I’ll be really glad to take my car to the mechanic in the morning. Just to see because I love that car so much. I do, that’s my car. I don’t ever want another car. And I don’t know, I’ve been feeling really anxious like the last

4 or 5 hours. I took about a 2-hour nap. I think

And uh, I think it’s because I’ve had all this fucking caffeine. Yeah, I think that’s where a lot of my anxiety was coming from. And I got, uh, Those. THC drinks. Which I haven’t. I only drank like half of it, you know, I’m not

But that might be a little bit. I’m really sensitive. I have a really sensitive nervous system. Like, it doesn’t take much to like, you know, get me all whacked out. But I do also develop a tolerance to things after it was you know Point like an insane tolerance. Uh I used to drink. Like, you know, I was like, oh, I had a really bad drinking problem in 2023. Uh, and a hell I guess about half a 2024. But, um, like I don’t drink regularly anymore, but I had a pretty, you know, I talked about that like I had a tolerance, you know, 2 years ago and whatever. But in like 20 15 and 2016, I had an insane fucking tolerance. To uh alcohol. I would drink because I drank so much and I drank back then, I had money. And I would, uh, buy about every night. I would get a half a gallon of a fucking tequila. It was like 60 bucks, right? And I would drink it. And I got on a really bad fucking like kick with that shit. It got so bad, it lasted for about a year. That um, until I got a DUI. Yeah. But it, it was so bad that it fucked my liver up. I went for a wellness screening for our health insurance, and they were like your liver, dude because it was giving off these enzymes that were, like, way out of whack, which indicated, you know, my liver was Said, it was inflamed like really really really bad The nurse said that 3 times and I had to be on medication for it. And I still drank like I got it down, you know I I tapered off and then I got it all like it was so crazy.

But uh,

Yeah, everything started getting really that’s when my marriage started getting really bad. Yeah. Anyways, I don’t want to think about that. I don’t want to think about weird. Crazy shit right now. Let’s see. Maybe that’s I gave myself things out. Are you talking about that crap? I don’t know.

Well, I have About half a gallon of milk left and I’ve got I did eat. Another big chunk of this cake, I’ve got about a third of it left. I still have those ribs, some of these ribs left,

Man, I am not hungry at all, though.

I feel so lazy.

Maybe I need to drink. More coffee stuff and then do my chores. Yeah.

But I don’t know if I’m going to do that song. Uh because it sounds so much like pieces of Bob, I was thinking about tracking, I could track some more songs here after a while, after I do my chores, Um,

I don’t know what I’ll do. I can’t do the ballad of Josh Prout. At this house because it’s really awful. Yeah, it’s but it’s 1 of the funniest songs I ever came up with. About a coworker or if if not the funniest, yeah, songs.

Song. Yep.

Hold on. Let’s see.

Oh let’s see there’s uh some of these are like crossover, Spanish, album songs, and co-worker songs like Hombrito

Oh, there’s 2 Roberts.

And uh,

The butt taster song. Yeah. That that’s about the same guy that best job is about.

Oh,

Stephanie number 2. That’s that’s a really dumb song though.

It’s too serious.

There’s a song I have about dumplings. I made up about dumplings. Yeah. The guy who was uh he was Brittany’s friend for a little bit. I noticed they’re not friends anymore on Facebook or the last time I checked.

Oh my goodness.

What, uh, I wonder if he still works at Honda.

Today is Andrew Harrow. It’s his birthday.

Oh, I’m going to do that. I got to wish him a happy birthday.

Yeah, I’m friends with uh, Andrew Horowitz the keyboard player. Uh, for tally Hall. Yeah, I’m friends with him on, uh, Facebook. And my daughter is a huge tally Hall fan.

So she has like bragging rights that her dad is Facebook friends with, you know, The green tie guy from tally Hall.

Yeah, they have a huge cult following

I think they had some problems with their guitar player though. So, I don’t know if they’ll ever tour again, but uh, I actually really like a lot of their music. It’s really good stuff.

But the guitar player, uh, I don’t know. I think he did this 1 album that was really, really good too like, some of this stuff was just, it’s like, wow, you know, that my daughter found this stuff.

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Yay, thanks. Thanks for subscribing. And reading my blog. I have I’ve been like trying to like engage with other bloggers. I’ve been reading their stuff and commenting and liking their posts.

Uh, because I don’t, you know, I hardly ever

A lot because I’m just, I’m always busy, you know, and I stopped and make my own posts but it’s It is though like This isn’t the craziest blog on WordPress. Yeah, it’s not it’s really not that crazy. It’s just speech to text. It looks crazy. That’s what was so funny. Like I was talking about, you know, my supervisor, when she found it, she didn’t know what to think because she’s she wasn’t that

I don’t know how to say this without sounding mean.

She wasn’t that deep. Yeah, she didn’t understand like Abstract, you know like artistic stuff not that. This is. That’s what’s so funny. This is so stupid. But it it is though like it’s like uh, Yeah, this is You know, just another creative outlet for me, you know, this is I live for Creative expression and she doesn’t she didn’t understand like, She didn’t get the kind of the humor of it either like, that was what I mean that’s like

This is just the dumbest shit and she took it like so seriously. But I also talked about how mean she was. I did I talked about her in my blog. But I said a lot of good things too. I would be like, you know, Bryana was really fucking mean to me today. You know, but then sometimes I would talk about how much I loved her, you know. So it’s like She was just, she was on drugs and I think she wanted To uh, have something to freak out about. Yeah. More than she actually could freak out about it for real. That’s what to me was like, wow, you fucking skank. You know, that’s what skanks do.

But she she did though like she was like you had to Google my stuff. It wasn’t on my Facebook back then and that’s what made it. So like, Like, you know, who’s the who’s, what, like who’s Who’s the fucking weirdo? I’m just talking about my life, you know, like I had to deal with these people all day long. I talked about, she wasn’t the only person I talked about. I talked about all my co-workers. And for a long time, uh, I didn’t talk about, like, co-workers or the places I worked, or I didn’t name the places I worked. I don’t name the place, I’m working now and I don’t name any of the co-workers where I’m at now, but you know, if it’s been long enough like I don’t care, you know,

But yeah, I guess going back to the whole sometimes people do find this and read it but it’s funny who doesn’t, you know? And that’s kind of how I can tell too who’s like You know who’s really interested in my life. You know, but that doesn’t really always, that’s not always a good indicator because a lot of my, my friends really good. Friends are like, they can’t read this, it’s too hard. It’s like

My friend, Justin, you know, he’s like I have tried to read your blog and so has my daughter. But Justin, uh, this I sent him. I email, we email back and forth.

And this is how I, you know, instead of typing I just send him a bunch of speech to text crap. Haha

But that also reminds me, uh, he gave me some

Tips. For studio monitors. Yeah, I’m going to have to look into that.

Oh shit. I’ve got these ribs.

Sometimes it hits me though. I’m like God, you know, I’m 45 years old now.

And I don’t look like it. And I don’t act like it, but how is that even? You know, like, Being a human is like this culture and Society or whatever like they’re kind of It’s actually a pretty big thing like American society slash culture, you know, it’s

There’s like little, uh, the way it looks at a person’s life and the expectations or whatever

You know, subsets of all of it.

4:15 PM
I’ve had way too much caffeine. Yep. And this is the third time stamp. So let’s let’s wrap this up and get started on my chores, huh?

Thank you, please.