TUESDAY AGAIN

5:19 PM
Oh my goodness. Yeah, it’s like I woke up.

At 4:30.

When my alarm went off, yeah, I was like, shit. I got to go to work.

Oh, I’ve got this crud. I’ve had been fighting this fucking shit for.

Going on 2 months now and I need to go to the doctor. Yeah, I need to go to the doctor tomorrow about it

Maybe they’ll give me some antibiotics or something. Or a shot.

Seems like I have some sinus medication in here or something I probably should take.

Oh, my throat is sore.

And, All that crap. Yeah, it’s been like this. For fucking a long time, my voice will get better and then I’ll get, you know,

I strained it. And then it’s like,

Stupid. Yeah. Oh my gosh. On the way out. I saw the uh, roommate guy, I guess, because the other 1, who used to take me back and forth to work. She doesn’t have a car anymore. And I know it’s like ironic.

I guess. But, uh, He was sitting out there in his car reading something. And I looked at him and I waved, you know, I was just being nice and he was like, like was staring into his Book or magazine, or whatever the fuck that was like. Trying not to look at me and I was like well you little shit. We’re still friends on Facebook though. I just looked it up on messenger. Haha I was like I wonder if he unfriended me or anything cuz I’ve been deactivated. And uh, he hasn’t so I don’t know but I don’t know what it is about him. Yeah, he’s just a little shit and it’s just sometimes, there’s just no way to win with, guys like that.

I did I tried to be a person at him. I don’t know if I like make him feel like a little turd because he is, yeah, and I don’t know what else to say about that. That was just the last person I was expecting to see as I was leaving, he was probably giving her a ride though to somewhere or just dropped her off or something.

I don’t know.

But those aren’t my people. At all. Yeah, at all.

Oh my goodness.

It just reminds me of like, how I need to save up and move out. The other 2 roommates though like and I talked about how they’re fine

Uh you know, except for some crazy shit here and there but they are, they’re okay for the most part. But they’re not my people, you know?

Like when I move out, I’m probably going to block everybody that I’ve met, haha like

I’ll never, you know, I’ll never look back. Yeah, I don’t know where I’m going to go after this. Probably somewhere kind of close to where I’m living now. I like the 5 Points area.

But,

I don’t know Like the boss lady roommate. I call her. Yeah. She’s okay like she’s the best 1. And you know, the other lady. That took me back and forth to work. If if she didn’t have the way she acted though, if it wasn’t for that, I would say she was fine too. But, Oh,

Oh gosh, yeah. I don’t know where to start talking about that but she helped me get this car as in like she hooked me up with the chick that uh I bought this car from but that’s not my not my people not my scene.

Yeah that like there are people like me. All over the world. We’re just scattered around.

Uh, this chick that I was talking to she came back. Like she like she deleted her Facebook but I guess she reactivated her something you have like a certain time period. I remember I deleted a couple of Facebook accounts before and it’s like You know, but they still like you can still get back on it. I remember there was an Instagram account that I had deleted. Um,

That I kinda messed with Brittany about I like, oh my gosh, because I drew chickens all over the place and I took pictures of them and that was the Instagram account, was all the chickens I had drawn.

And so I went, I know like, right? Yeah, like who’s the stalker? Haha But that was like 1 like 1 of the like handful of things I did because she was messing with me so much and it sucks. And it still sucks. I don’t know.

But she was so awful. It’s so stupid that I’m That it even matters to me anymore, but it does. That’s twin flames. It doesn’t make sense, but I liked every single 1 of her pictures on Instagram. Like, I don’t know. 700 and something. Haha Yeah, from that account that I did that, and I left it up for about a day and then I deleted it. Yeah. And then uh,

I don’t know, I went back like a year later and got on it. Yeah, I was able like, it was just like, I guess you, you can delete them. And then you know you can still come back from being deleted after a year. So I mean I guess it just saves all that shit. Everything though, it’s so funny. Online, everything. All this stuff. Is somewhere. Yeah. Like nothing you’ve posted online. I know, probably at least in the last 10 years. Probably the whole time. It’s been up. At all.

It’s all there though. Yeah, in some form on something somewhere, in The Ether, you know, but that’s also thoughts. And Uh, reality and all that it all, it’s not separate.

I don’t know how long the uh, the whole synchronistic number thing has been happening. Not that it’s, I mean it’s just like you know, if people have been seeing 222 and that’s Brittany’s initials too, by the way. Yeah. And like all that happened like that I started at Honda in 2022. I’m not making this up. Uh, my blog, my other blog. I’ll post a screenshot of this. Oh God in 2022. It got 2,022 hits. Yeah. It did.

It. But yeah Britney’s. Initials are uh her name’s Brittany. Brianna Brown. It’s BBB. And her initials are

You know, 222 that’s the second letter of the alphabet for anybody who doesn’t know that stuff.

My middle name is a b, and my last name is t. Which is also a 2. My first name is a C. Mine’s 322, I don’t know.

But um,

If we got married, and she took my lastname, her initials would be like, 2222. Yeah.

Isn’t that silly?

But I don’t know like how many documented accounts. Of course, I guess you would need the digital clocks. Wow, the lights just came on the street lights just popped on. I mean traveling up the interstate. Yeah.

But I don’t know. I just I can’t stand that guy and you know what? The dude, the roommate, the old roommate guy. I was just thinking about that. It’s like He’s just a fucking shit bag. Girl, you know, like, all right, I just exist. I’ve been so awesome to him, you know, he’s never done anything. Awesome for me except give me my heater back. Hahaha You know, like I could have just took it. I don’t know why that still bothers me. I guess cuz I saw him and I’m just like, you know, a little shit. Is it?

Yeah.

But like, I don’t know, I don’t know what his deal is.

Yeah, I guess it bothers me because it’s him. And it’s like, it’s not me, I don’t know why, but I just don’t like the conflict. It’s stupid. But it’s just because he’s a fucking ignorant asshole. Ought to post pictures of him. Yeah, but I’d have to get back on Facebook and I’m not going to do that.

I am super hungry. And my ex-wife. I did. I asked her for 10 more dollars. I pay her back though. Yeah, I’m not, I don’t bum off of her. But uh she did she was like, okay, fine. And I was like Yay.

Um, sometimes I just I can’t believe it like like 4 or 5 years ago she would have never let me borrow money. I know. It’s like it’s weird. Her reading my blog though. Like she did. Gosh for a few years there. Every single day. She got like she stalked the living hell out of my blog. And anything I post on Instagram, like, A story or anything. She’s always the first person to look at it. It’s kind of funny.

It’s really funny. Yeah.

It kind of makes me,

It makes me feel like. Sometimes it makes me. Sometimes, I don’t know why her and I ever had to split up but I do too well, yeah, I know what, why? But it just

I wouldn’t want to like, I don’t know, I don’t know why I’m talking about that, it’s except that, you know, she was it took her reading my blog. And uh,

I don’t know what she got up in her head about me. Yeah, but then after she began reading my blog, she started being nicer to me. And then, um, last year when my mom died, Yeah, I mean that like changed because my mom did a bunch of crazy stuff and called her and told her a bunch of crazy stuff, you know, that was crazy and I’m like, wow, you know,

Really disturbing stuff.

Like my mom said that me and my sister were trying to kill her for the insurance money. You know? I don’t, I wasn’t, you know, I certainly wasn’t, I don’t know, I don’t think my sister was either for real, you know, but she called, uh, my ex-wife up and my house remodeling boss. And told them all this stuff, my house. Remodeling boss actually texted me and was like, hey, you need to call me, like, it’s something weird just happened. And I called him and he told me about my mom and I was like, well, you know, I’m not actually, I haven’t talked to my mom since I dropped her off, at my sister. That made me really sad too but

Ever since all that.

My ex wife’s been super, super, nice to me. Yeah, it’s It’s like, thank you. But gosh, like who did you ever think I was?

Well, I don’t know what else to say. I just wanted to make a post this afternoon. I guess I’m trying to put some distance between like all my posts and the 2 posts where I named Brittany haha Yeah, I don’t know.

But I’m going to stop at the racetrack because I do have

A ten dollars.

And I’m going to try to get. Either 2 pieces of pizza or 2, hot dogs.

He Hall. I said Yeehaw, yay.

Thank you, please.